He stopped at the door. "Who then?"
"At me."
He turned back to look at her. "You "You aren"t one of the weak things of the world." aren"t one of the weak things of the world."
She smiled viciously. "Not for long, anyway. Not once I"ve finished what I began with you."
Orem was sure she was hinting at his death.
"Sing to me, Little King. Sing to me a song from the House of G.o.d. Surely they taught you songs in the House of G.o.d."
He sang the first thing that came into his mind. It was Halfpriest Dobbick"s favorite pa.s.sage in the Second Song.
G.o.d surely sees your sins, my love, The blackness of your heart, my love.
He weighs them with your suffering.
Which is the lesser part, my love?
"Again," she said.
And when he had sung it twice, she made him sing it again, and again, and again, as she rocked back and forth, suckling their son. Despite his hatred for her, Orem had never seen a thing that pleased him so much: his baby drawing from his wife"s breast, as the grain drew life from the soil. He loved his son instinctively, the way Avonap loved his sons and his fields. He regretted every word he had said that might cause her to kill him sooner, and deprive him of an hour he might have had with Youth.
At last she did not murmur "Again" when he finished the song. "Forgive me," he whispered to her. But she was asleep, and did not hear him.
So he left her, and went to find Weasel, who had born Beauty"s pain at his command.
The Healing of Weasel Sootmouth "You can"t come in," said the servants standing guard at Weasel"s door.
Orem pushed past them. Weasel lay delirious on the bed, crying out and weeping, calling now on Beauty, now on Palicrovol, and now and then on Orem, too. He thought that meant she loved him as she loved Palicrovol, though in fact she was crying out to save him, not for him to save her.
He questioned the doctors gathered at her bed. "We can find no cause for the pain," they said.
"Treat her," Orem said, "as if she had just given birth to a twelve-month child. Treat her as if the birthing broke her loins apart and tore her flesh."
The doctors looked at him amazed. Only Belfeva, who stood nearby, understood that the Little King might know the problem better than any of them. She strode to the bed, tore the blanket back, and now they saw that Weasel lay in a pool of blood that still flowed from a ghastly rent in her private flesh. And more astounding: there lay the afterbirth that hadn"t come with the child named Youth. "Name of G.o.d," said a doctor, and they set to work.
Orem watched when he could bear it, sat by Weasel and held her hand when he could not. She knew nothing of his presence, only cried out with pain and delirium. At last the doctors finished all that they could do.
"She"s lost so much blood, what can we do?" said one.
"How could this have come to be?" asked another.
Orem only shook his head. He could not explain to them that it was his doing.
The doctors left, but Orem stayed, holding her hand. Once she called out, "Little King."
"I"m here, Enziquelvinisensee," he answered. Hearing her own name seemed to soothe her. She slept. He said all the prayers he could remember from the House of G.o.d. He knew they were meaningless here in Beauty"s house, but he said them anyway, because he was afraid of what he had done to her.
He must have dozed off, for he awoke suddenly to find that Craven and Urubugala waited with him beside the bed. Out of habit he extended his web to include them, freeing them to speak unheard by Beauty.
"How is she?" Craven wheezed.
"She bore the pain of the birth," Orem said.
Craven nodded.
"The Queen has been harvested," said Urubugala. "But what was the crop, little farmer?"
"A boy, named Youth."
"She"ll live," said Urubugala. "Does that comfort you? Beauty won"t let Weasel die."
"Her name isn"t Weasel," Orem said. "Did you know? The Queen told me. She"s really Enziquelvinisensee Evelvenin. The Flower Princess."
Craven and Urubugala looked at each other, and Urubugala laughed. "Did you think to surprise us, Little King? We"ve been with Weasel from the start."
Only then did Orem realize that they, too, were disguised characters from the same ancient tale. "Zymas," Orem said.
Craven smiled faintly. "I haven"t been myself lately," he apologized.
"And you," Orem said to Urubugala. "Sleeve."
The dwarf only answered with one of his rhymes. "Who is the magical leper who cleans us with his tongue? He puts our names in picture frames and paints them out with dung!"
"You are the King"s companions," Orem said. "In all the old stories-"
"The stories are very old," said Craven. "We are the Queen"s Companions now." He gestured at Weasel"s sleeping body. "Send for us if she awakes."
Weasel Wakes They brought a chair for him because he would not leave her. All night he waited. And in the morning he opened his eyes to find that Weasel was awake beside him, her ugly face hidden by darkness except for the skewed eyes watching him.
"You"re awake," he said.
"And you," she answered.
"I was afraid for you."
She searched his face. "You called me-I dreamed you called me by another name."
"Enziquelvinisensee Evelvenin."
"She told you?"
"After I commanded her-commanded her to give the pain away."
"Ah." The eyes closed, then opened again. "I forgive you, Little King. You didn"t know what you were doing." She startled him by smiling. "Just think of it-I"m still a virgin, and yet my body has conceived and given birth." She laughed a little, then groaned in lingering pain.
"I will think of you," Orem said, "as the mother of my child."
"Don"t," she said.
"It was your body that bore him."
"I would not have born a twelve-month child."
"He"s beautiful. Queen Beauty has promised me that I can have him as often as I like. I didn"t know how much I longed to have a son until I saw him. He already smiled at me."
"Don"t love him," Weasel said. "Don"t let him smile at you."
"It was your body that bore him. Queen Beauty said that you also felt it-when he was planted in her."
Weasel nodded, but turned away her face.
"I"m not ashamed," said Orem. "Weasel, I love you. Before she told me that this wasn"t your flesh I loved you. Let me pretend that I"ll live to see my son become a man. Let me pretend that you are my-"
"No," she said. "You have a wife."
"Have I?" he asked angrily.
"And I have a husband."
Orem fell silent then. Only after she pitied him and touched his hand did he speak again. "I was wrong," he said. "Forgive me."
"I always forgive you," she said. "Even before you ask. Little King, I will not deny my husband for you. Nor will I ever love your child. But I"ll stay with you and be your friend to the end of this mad course you"ve chosen. Is that enough?"
"What makes you think I chose my course?" But he agreed, and let her sleep again.
Those were the very words they said, and neither one suspected that Orem had misguessed his future. From then until you came to the city gates they never spoke of it again; though they were together every day, Weasel never guessed that Orem thought that Beauty planned his death. Weasel would have told him the truth if she had known that he did not know.
I have heard it said that you were told that the Flower Princess betrayed you with Orem Scanthips, the Little King. Of course you do not believe any such lie. But she did love him as if he were her own son. And remember this, Palicrovol: if you had been faithful to the Flower Princess, Orem Scanthips never could have been conceived. Remember that when you pa.s.s judgment on what we did when you were exiled from Hart"s Hope.
23.
The Freeing of the G.o.ds How Orem spoke to G.o.d, and learned the way to the Rising of the Dead.
Father Orem We of the Palace were all too used to the ways of wealth, to nurses, governors, and tutors for a child. In all of Queen"s Town was there anyone who knew what it meant to be a father? Fatherhood to us was an act of pa.s.sion, soon forgot; but not to Orem ap Avonap. Never guessing that the blond and happy farmer was no blood of his, Orem had taken a part of that simple man into himself and saved it for this time. At any time in the Palace he might run by, Youth on his shoulders or, as time went by, toddling along behind. Their laughter could be heard almost everywhere. And anyone who wanted to be sure of seeing them had only to go out into the gardens, and soon they would appear, to roll together in the gra.s.s or pluck blades or play hide-and-go-find.
Did Beauty ever watch them together? I think she did, for it was in that time that she inexplicably told me of the three lessons she learned as daughter of the King. I think she envied Youth the love of a loving father. I think it embittered her, and made it easier for her to hate the Little King and his son when she needed to.
Every few hours Orem would bring the child back to Beauty to be nursed. Beauty watched Youth all the time; Orem drew his power inside himself when he was with the boy, so that Beauty would never be hindered from watching to be sure her son ate no food except what he drew from her. Orem silently gave her the child, and Beauty as silently surrendered him when he was satisfied.
Whenever Orem gave the child to Beauty, he believed that he would never see the boy again; whenever he took the child back, he regarded it gratefully, as an act of mercy, that he would be allowed to live another little while. And because he felt death to be so imminent, he wasted none of the time he had with Youth. In those days, if you wished to be with Orem you had no choice but to keep company with him when he was with Youth.
For in the evenings, when Youth slept his twelve hours, Orem retired to his chamber and spent the night battling with Beauty. Now that her child was born, she had more strength for the war, and it was a constant fight to keep her away from Palicrovol. Sometimes he even thought: I am hastening my own death by frightening the Queen. She will kill me and renew herself all the sooner. I should stop fighting her, and she might let me live.
But he knew that Beauty would not spare him, and as he watched Palicrovol"s army grow, he began to hope that the King might come and save him. That"s what he told Youth once: the King might save him.
Youth himself was another miracle. Like his father and grandfather, Youth was black of hair and white of skin; like his mother, he was beautiful of face. Being a twelve-month child, his life was quick, his growth all sudden. He could sit within a week or so, and stand himself within a month; before it was summer outside Palace Park the child could walk, could run his short-legged run along the paths, hiding and finding, calling for Papa or for Weel. If he had a name for Beauty he never said it in their hearing; at times Orem wondered if she spoke to the child at all, or merely fed him in silence. His teeth came in, but still she nursed him; Orem taught him to know the letters that he scratched in the dirt and name them in two orders, and still Queen Beauty nursed the child.
Orem also had some quiet hours with Youth, but they were not silent. They would lie together in the gra.s.s of the park and tell each other stories. No one was allowed to come near, for as if with one will, they fell silent at the approach of an audience. Beauty could listen, if she liked, with her arcane abilities, though usually she slept during the day when she wasn"t suckling the child. But the only person permitted to attend them in the flesh was Weasel Sootmouth. Orem had told her of his game, hoping that she would pretend to be the true mother; she never said that she was playing, but her presence let him have his imaginary family if he liked. Youth, too, accepted her, as if he knew her heart.
They told each other stories. Orem told Youth all the stories of his growing up. How he lived with his father; how his mother never loved him; the tales of the House of G.o.d, and how he was saved from the fire; Glasin Grocer, Rainer Carpenter, Flea Buzz and the snakes; all the tales except those that would have told Beauty, listening, that Orem was the Sink, her enemy. Weasel listened to all his stories and remembered them.
And Youth, too, told stories. In his high, impossible infant"s voice, lisping on Ss, Ss, turning turning J J into into GZ, GZ, he spun his tales with a serious face, and sometimes so grieved himself that he cried, and sometimes so delighted himself that he cried. There was wisdom in his stories, and they have not all been forgotten. he spun his tales with a serious face, and sometimes so grieved himself that he cried, and sometimes so delighted himself that he cried. There was wisdom in his stories, and they have not all been forgotten.
Youth"s Story of the Suckling Calf Once there was a calf that was hungry. It wanted to suckle, but his mother told him, "Go away, you make me tired." So he went to his father, but the bull said, "Go away, I"ve got no teat." So the calf drank from the pool in the woods and grew horns on its head that got so heavy that it couldn"t hold its head up and it died.
Youth"s Story of the Dead Flower Once there was a flower that got brown. G.o.d took the brown flower and put it in his window and it wouldn"t get alive again. The old stag wore it on its antlers and it wouldn"t get alive again. The two sisters braided it into both their hair and it wouldn"t get alive again. But Papa kissed the flower and it got alive again and turned into me.
Youth"s Story of the Snowstorm Once there was a snowstorm but it always fell on the city. Far away under the snowstorm there were hundreds and hundreds of people who weren"t servants or soldiers or Papa or Weel or anybody at all. The snow always fell on them, and covered them up until they went away. The little boy told the snowstorm, come and fall on me. And the snowstorm did come and fall on him, and the little boy went away, just like the people who weren"t anybody.
Youth"s Story of the King The King is little but the King is good. The King never gives you anything to eat and people laugh at him when he isn"t there but the King knows all the paths in the woods and someday he will find the old stag that lives in the woods and he"ll let me ride on him.
Youth"s Story of the River This was a very big river and it goes from one end of the world to the other and back again. The grocers ride on it and the farmers ride on it and a million million flowers ride on it but G.o.d never rides on the river. The river goes by a little little house where a little man and an ugly lady live but they haven"t got a little boy. Then the papa planted a seed in the ground and he planted hundreds of seeds and all the seeds came up gold except one, and it was brown. "This seed is brown like the dirt," said Papa, but he liked it anyway and so he ate it and it grew inside him and made him so full that he never had to eat again.
Orem Cries for His Son"s Tale I do not know which of Youth"s tales it was, but as he lay on his back listening, Orem cried. He cried silently, but Weasel and Youth both saw the tears well up in his eyes. One tear hovered at the corner of his eye, as if it were timid to fall and yet knew it must.
Orem noticed that Youth had stopped his story. "Go on," he said.
But Youth did not go on-instead he reached out to his father"s eye and touched the tear. He gazed at it a moment on his hand, then put the hand into his mouth and tasted it, looking up at Orem with his marvelous quick eyes.
Orem looked worried for a moment; then he relaxed. "Beauty"s asleep," he said. "I wouldn"t want her to accuse me of feeding him." Weasel only laughed. By such small things do kingdoms rise and fall.
It was a golden summer in the Palace, the first good summer in three centuries. But then the snow began to fall again outside Palace Park. In the west King Palicrovol suddenly turned his army eastward, to Inwit. In the Palace Orem began to hope seriously that his life would be spared. But Urubugala rolled on the floor in the Moon Chamber and said, Twelve months blossom on the tree, Twelve months more and ripe you"ll be.
The Low Way Out of the Palace Orem was leaving the Queen"s room, having brought Youth back to her for his evening meal. Over the Palace the clouds moved quickly, roiling with the storm that would bury Inwit if it could. Outside Queen Beauty"s door, Belfeva met him, her voice and manner full of haste.
"Timias found someone in your room today," she said. "A boy. He says he knows you, but he was stealing all the same. Timias has him there."
So they hurried to Orem"s chambers. Timias was leaning against a wall, holding onto the hair of an adolescent boy, who sat furious on a stool. Two years and p.u.b.erty can change a child: Orem did not recognize him for a moment. Besides, the mutilation of his ears was all that could be seen at first-with the hair pulled up and away, the savage scars were ghastly. Only when he spoke did Orem know him.
"Orem, get this chewer"s hands out of my hair, name of G.o.d!"
"Flea!" Orem cried.
"You know him?" Timias asked.
"Yes, I know him, I owe him my life a couple of times."
"And don"t forget the three coppers you owe me," Flea said sourly.
"Flea! How are you?"