"I say--you"ve done too much threshing!" he said with energy. "Don"t do any more--get an extra man."
"Can"t find one," she said, laughing at him, but rather languidly. "I"ll go and get the tea ready."
He went off to wash, and when he entered the sitting-room a little later, she too was fresh and neat again, in a new frock of some soft bluish-green stuff, which pleased his eye amazingly. Outside, the sunset was dying rapidly, and at a sign from her, he drew down the blinds over the two windows, and pulled the curtains close. He stood at the window looking at the hill-side for a moment with the blind in his hand. He was recalling the face he had seen, of which neither he nor any one else had yet said a word to Rachel; recalling also his talk with one of the Millsborough police the day before. "Nothing more heard of him, Captain.
Oh, we get queer people about these hills sometimes. It"s a very lonely bit of country. Why, a year ago, we were hunting a couple of German prisoners about these commons for days!"
"Any more ghosts?" he said lightly, glancing round at Rachel, as he drew the curtains across.
"Not that I know of. Come and have your tea."
He took a cup from her hand, and leaning against the chimney surveyed the room with a radiant face. Then he stooped over her and said:--
"I love this little room! Don"t you?"
She made a restless movement.
"I don"t know. Why do you love it?"
"As if you didn"t know!" Their eyes met, his intense and pa.s.sionate,--hers, less easy to read. "Darling, I have some other news for you. I think you"ll like it--though it"ll separate us for a little."
And drawing a letter from his pocket, he handed it to her. It was a letter from the American Headquarters, offering him immediate work in the American Intelligence Department at Coblentz.
"Some friends of mine there, seem to have been getting busy about me. You see I know German pretty well."
And he explained to her that as a boy he had spent a year in Germany before going to Yale. She scarcely listened, so absorbed was she in the official letter.
"When must you go?" she said at last, looking up.
"At the end of next week, I"m afraid."
"And how long will it be?"
"That I don"t know. But three or four months certainly. It will put off our wedding, dearest, a bit. But you"d like me to go, wouldn"t you? I should be at the hub of things."
The colour rushed into her cheeks.
"_Must you go_?"
Her manner amazed him. He had expected that one so ambitious and energetic in her own way of life would have greeted his news with eagerness. The proposal was really a great compliment to him--and a great chance.
"I don"t see how I could refuse it," he said with an altered countenance.
"Indeed--I don"t think I could."
She dropped her face into her hands, and stared into the fire. In some trouble of mind, he knelt down beside her, and put his arm round her.
"I"ll write every day. It won"t be long, darling."
She shook her head, and he felt a shudder run through her.
"It"s silly of me--I don"t know why--but--I"m just afraid--"
"Afraid of what?"
She smiled at him tremulously--but he saw the tears in her eyes.
"I told you--I can"t always help it. I"m a fool, I suppose--but--"
Then she threw her arms round his neck--murmuring in his ear: "You"ll have time to think--when you"re away from me--that it was a great pity--you ever asked me."
He kissed and scolded her, till she smiled again. Afterwards she made a strong effort to discuss the thing reasonably. Of course he must go--it would be a great opening--a great experience. And they would have all the more time to consider their own affairs. But all the evening afterwards he felt in some strange way that he had struck her a blow from which she was trying in vain to rally. Was it all the effect of her suffering at that brute"s hands--aided by the emotion and strain of the recent scenes between herself and him?
As for her, when she turned back from the gate where she had bid him good-bye, she saw Janet in the doorway waiting for her almost with a sense of exasperation. She had not yet said one word to Janet. That plunge was all to take!
XIV
Rachel woke the following morning in that dreary mood when all the colour and the glamour seem to have been washed out of life, and the hopes and dreams which keep up a perpetual chatter in every normal mind are suddenly dumb.
How was she going to face Ellesborough"s long absence? It had been recently a.s.sumed between them that he would be very soon released from his forestry post, that the infantry commission he had been promised would come to nothing, now the Armistice was signed, and that in a very few weeks they would be free to think only of themselves and their own future. This offer of Intelligence work at the American Headquarters had changed everything.
In ten days, if nothing happened, he would be gone, and she would be left behind to grapple alone with Roger--who might at any moment torment her again; with the presence of Dempsey, who was thinking of settling in the village, and for whom she would be called upon very soon to fulfil the hopes she had raised in him; and finally, with the struggle and misery in her own mind.
But something must happen. As she was dressing by candle-light in the winter dawn, her thoughts were rushing forward--leaping some unexplored obstacles lying in the foreground--to a possible marriage before Ellesborough went to France; just a quiet walk to a registry office, without any fuss or any witness but Janet. If she could reach that haven, she would be safe; and this dumb fever of anxiety, this terrified conviction that in the end Fate would somehow take him from her, would be soothed away.
But how to reach it? For there was now between them, till they also were revealed and confessed, a whole new series of events: not only the Tanner episode, but Delane"s reappearance, her interview with him, her rash attempt to silence Dempsey. By what she had done in her bewilderment and fear, in order to escape the penalty of frankness, she might only--as she was now beginning to perceive--have stumbled into fresh dangers. It was as though she stood on the friable edge of some great crater, some gulf of destruction, on which her feet were perpetually slipping and sinking, and only Ellesborough"s hold could ultimately save her.
And Janet"s--Janet"s first. Rachel"s thought clung to her, as the shipwrecked Southern sailor turns to his local saint to intercede for him with the greater spiritual lights. Janet"s counsel and help--she knew she must ask for them--that it was the next step. Yet she had been weakly putting it off day by day. And through this mist of doubt and dread, there kept striking all the time, as though quite independent of it, the natural thoughts of a woman in love.
During the farm breakfast, hurried through by candle-light, with rain beating on the windows, Rachel was thinking--"Why didn"t _he_ propose it?"--this scheme of marrying before he went. Wasn"t it a most natural thing to occur to him? She tormented herself all the morning with the problem of his silence.
Then--as though in rebuke of her folly--at midday came a messenger, a boy on a bicycle, with a letter. She took it up to her own room, and read it with fluttering breath--laughing, yet with tears in her eyes.
"My Darling--What an idiot I was last night! This morning I have woke up to a brilliant idea--why I didn"t propose it to you yesterday I can"t imagine! Let us marry before I go. Meet me in London, a week to-day, and let us go into the country, or to the sea, for a blessed forty-eight hours, afterwards. Then you will see me off--and I shall know, wherever I go, that you are my very, very own, and I am yours. I don"t want to hurry you. Take time to think, and write to me to-night, or wire me to-morrow morning. But the very idea that you may say "Yes" makes me the happiest of men. Take time to think--but--all the same--don"t keep me too long waiting!
"Your own,
"G.E."
All day she kept the letter hidden in the loose front of her dress. "I"ll wire to-morrow morning," she thought. But before that--something had got to happen. Every now and then she would pause in her own work to watch Janet--Janet b.u.t.ter-making, Janet feeding the calves, Janet cooking--for on that homely figure in white cap and ap.r.o.n everything seemed to depend.
The frost had come, and clear skies with it. The day pa.s.sed in various miscellaneous business, under shelter, in the big barn.
And at night, after supper, Rachel stood on the front steps looking into a wide starry heaven, moonless, cold, and still. Betty and Jenny had just gone up to bed. Janet was in the kitchen, putting the porridge for the morrow"s breakfast which she had just made into the hay-box, which would keep it steaming all night. But she would soon have done work. The moment seemed to have come.
Rachel walked into the kitchen and closed the door behind her. The supper had been cleared away and the table on which they had eaten it shone spotlessly clean and bare. The fire would soon be raked out for the night, and Janet would lay the breakfast before she left the kitchen.