Heart Cultivation

The entire half beast tribe was divided into two teams, and they were given different responsibilities according to their strength, the strongest members would defend and the weaker would spy the activities.

The female sambar was added in the second team so currently she was sleeping soundly.

Half beasts have their own means to check the pa.s.sing time, Jen woke up after sleeping for few hours, and looked around it was same as she left it before sleep, dark tent and dark outside.

She sat on the bare ground with crossed legs, the memories again covered her serenity, the last conversation she had with Zhi Chang resounded in her mind, Jen placed her palm at her left side, she could not feel him, it was simply a torture for her heart to not feel his presence.

But it was true, he was nowhere near to let her heart sense his presence.

Jen took a breath to collect her thoughts, if this went on, she might lose her serenity, she stood up and came out of the tent to swallow some fresh breaths.

She wished her great grandfather to console her, perhaps his words could embalm her wounded heart, in her entire life, she rarely felt scared of something but slowly it was affecting her, she was feeling fear if she happened to see the possible hunter, she might not be able to fight back, tears formed and rolled from her cheeks.

Hopefully, there was no one around the tent to witness this.

Jen was trying her best to overcome this fear but whenever she was alone, the memories came to bother and those memories haunted her courage severely, it was no more a matter of pus.h.i.+ng and stubborn att.i.tude toward the problems which she was keeping in the previous years.

She was exhausted to show stubbornness against enemies.

She came back in the tent and saw two lit dots, surely sambar woke up and was looking for her, "Human, do you need anything?" female sambar noticed some complex expressions and asked out of concern.

"Nothing, I just wanted my wounds to heal up soon," her first priority was to leave this place and cultivate, perhaps her concentration on the learning might bring some peace to her heart, and it was necessary else her heart might explode with the increasing grief to which she has lost control over too.

"Then you will leave, right?" the sambar asked with tinge of sadness, though Jen could not see the facial expression but the voice was enough to let her feel the harboring sadness, it was shocking for her.

"Currently my condition is not stable, I don"t know what would happen if I stay long here, I am afraid the human tribe might take this excuse as an opportunity to attack, I don"t want this to happen," what could be the strongest excuse, of course her presence in the half beast tribe could bring disaster.

"Whether you stay or not, the human tribe don"t need an excuse if they wanted to attack," the female sambar cleared her doubt.

"Then why the wolves and foxes were anxious to see me in the tribe," Jen cannot forget their sharp gazes.

"Recently, the spy from the half beast tribe sent a news that human tribe wanted to wipe out the whole half beast tribe in the coming six month night, and few days later you came in the tribe so it was natural for them to suspect you as a sign of threat," the six months night began the same day when Jen came in this tribe so it increased the sense of insecurity.

"Wait, I am human and you are relating me most important matters of your tribe, don"t you feel the same as others?" probably it was not much time that could let the sambar understand the complete personality of this human and she trusted blindly.

"I am female sambar and I could sniff the blood of anyone, it let me differentiate friends between foes, and this quality is only related to me, do you know why among all the other half beasts, I was the one to walk toward you and brought in my tent? Did not you ask it to yourself?" the female sambar spoke casually.

Indeed, Jen did not notice it, she took it as a favor by the female sambar.

Jen brought out the illumination stone, she was speechless after listening to the words of the sambar, the lit tent let her see the expressions of the sambar, there was no difference and the expressions as casual as a friend talking to other friend and they knew each other for centuries and there was a bond of deep trust, it was something new for Jen.

She never faced this situation where she was trusted just like this, usually she showed her strength and then there were people who trust not her but her strength, not all but most of them behaved the same way but what was now, anyone could her condition how wounded and broken she was.

Her apparent situation was enough to let others understand that she was hopeless in her own condition much less to bring benefit for others.

It was completely something unheard, or unseen for her, she felt her mouth was agape at this moment and there was nothing to ask further.

"You are small to understand this, I can tell you are not what you look apparently, but at the same time you are trustable, at least this is what I can bet about your character," the female sambar spoke confidently this time.

Finally Jen collected her senses and nodded, "I am thinking to meet my grandfather once, and perhaps it would help my heart to gather some peace and renewal of my enthusiasm," this was the last resort which she wanted to move on before she could lose all her hope and strength to withstand the turmoil.

"I must say it is good decision, if you feel you are broken just share your heart and let the anxiety flew away before it could harm your disposition," the female sambar spoke.

Jen supported against the wall of tent, despite having spot on conversation, her heart was as same as before, her heart was not ready to believe anything, the years she spent in the lower sphere and the time she was forcefully brought in this sphere, the words of her great grandfather, the people she met during her journey, her wandering years everything was like a mist, it never influenced her, the words of female sambar seemed unreal.

Why? Because all the people she met were different and they never talked about her, they only circ.u.mscribed themselves to their own selves.

As soon as they found their achievement, they immediately left her and it was not her disposition to stop them.

The female sambar noticed her complex emotions, "Did you ever have a friend?"

Jen fell in the deep thoughts, searching through her memories, she could not point someone as her friend, though she liked to share her learning with her fellow learner but the friends.h.i.+p was never tested whoever she considered friend.

The Celestial Sphere let her face many people but no one appeared as her friend, does that means she was all alone even when she was surrounded by people?

It was pitiful but truth.

Jen lowered her eyes, it increased the turmoil of her heart.

"What is there to feel sad? You are small, it is fine if you have not met any good friend yet, the possibility to find a good friend is rare,"

The female sambar brought this topic on purpose, she could notice the small girl was near to break down completely and she should meet something positive and lively, it could be a fresh thought, that would let her feel better and all this conversation meant for wellbeing but it seemed the girl was not ready to see the other side of the words.

"Come, we"ll check how the things are going outside," the female sambar brought Jen out of the tent, they walked through darkness while Jen placed her hand on the back of half beast sambar in order to not lost the way, in her present condition, she was cautious to use her cultivation or attribute of Dark Sight to see through.

She was like a warrior who after getting severely injured in the battle completely lost hope of his recovery, and the condition worsened when the heart keep telling that it won"t get better no matter what.

Similarly, even if she told herself that she should not lose her hope, her empty heart reminded her of the sight where she was rendered helpless to save Zhi Chang.

This darkness resembled her inner condition at present.

They reached where the stone chamber was half built, "Do you want to meet leader?" the female sambar could feel the human have something to say.