Sara was beginning to think it was a bad idea following Muchen into his study. She stood by the door as soon as the got in and refused to go further inside. "What is it you wanted to say?" He asked as he rested his body on his office desk. He knew she was not going to sit. So he didn"t bother using the chair either.
"Why aren"t you leaving for work yet?" She asked politely.
Muchen ran his eyes over the study. Was he supposed to tell her that he had been working all night after the party and didn"t want more pressure about going to work? "I"ll leave in a while. So tell me what you wanted to say privately. I do not believe that was the question you wanted to ask me" He said pointedly with his gaze not moving from her.
"I .. I was... I..." Sara thought of anything to lie about. She had never been a good liar and now she was beginning to regret that.
"You what?" He asked. When he saw she wasn"t saying anything, he scratched his head and spoke. "Don"t tell me you brought me here to give them privacy?"
Sara tried to deny it but she laughed instead. She couldn"t believe she was able to laugh now. And it gave her off. Muchen was always so good at reading her.
"Mr Li. You need to understand. He came to see her but you were making them uncomfortable." She treid to make him understand by all means.
Muchen moved closer to her and took her hand as he led her to where he had been sitting to make sure she sat on the table beside him.
"Are you sure you didn"t do this to give us privacy instead?" He asked cunningly.
Sara suddenly choked and tried to get up but he held her back down. "You don"t have to overreact. I was joking." He said gently. After a pause, he continued "I don"t just trust Jin Cearo. You can say I have trust issues" He opened up.
Sara looked up at him. "It"s hard to believe that when you easily employed me and gave me the pa.s.sword to your apartment"
He smiled at her and pinched her chin gently. "That"s because you are different. I trust you Sara."
Sara"s breath ceased for a while and she met his eyes. For some reason, Muchen felt something was wrong as he searched her eyes. They both looked at each other quietly for a bit before she stood up abruptly and turned to face the door with her back facing Muchen. He didn"t do anything but just watched her. "Why?" She asked in a hoa.r.s.e voice.
She turned to look at him and he could see her eyes were filled with unshed tears. "I asked why you trust me. Why you like me?"
He took a deep breath and stood properly, adjusting to full height. "I really don"t have any answer to that question" He said.
"You... you recognized me right? You did recognise me from that party. Did you employ me on purpose? Did you feel that since Mo Jinyong could play with me then you could also do same or you did it out of pity since my boyfriend left me for my friend? I don"t understand why someone like you would like someone like me" She said with an increased tone. Trying desperately not to let her tears fall.
"For goodness sake Sara, Why would you think that way?" He asked in bewilderment.
"I have every reason to think that way. I really want to know if you employed me on purpose. Thinking back to everything that has been happening, I think it was all weird." She said in anything but a gentle tone.
"Sara, I don"t like the way you are sounding. Can you please calm down?" He tried to hold her hand but she moved from his reach. "Fine... I did. It was for Heya as much as it was for me. I just wanted to get to know you. Believe me Sara. I have no ulterior motive."
Sara scoffed in disbelief. "So you"re saying throwing your money at me is getting to know me?"
"Jesus! When did I ever throw money at you?" He was desperately trying to control his emotions.
"The case with the Liu"s should be a good example if you"re the one responsible—which I believe you are. Your so-called salary advance payment, this job also. Did you think I"ll suddenly fall flat at your feet because of these?" She asked with tears flowing down her cheeks."I don"t want any of those. I don"t want to have anything to do with you people. Can"t you understand?" She covered her face with both hands. Trying to hide her tears from Muchen. "I... I don"t like you all treating me like that..it...it makes me depressed" She didn"t know when she found herself in Muchen"s embraced as he hugged her tightly.
"I was wrong Sara... I was wrong. But please don"t cry. I won"t do anything without your permission again." He tried to hold back his own tears as he spoke even in a more hoa.r.s.e voice "I promise"
Sara"s sobs became even louder as she spoke between them "You.... shouldn"t... like me... Mr Li."
"I"m sorry Li Muchen. I can"t walk in eggsh.e.l.l everyday because I feel you"ll leave me the moment you get to know the type of person I really am. You have to not like me so I can also be able to control my self" She thought to herself.