Constantinople and the Varangers would be the place and the men. Ay, there to escape out of that charmed ring into a new life!
No. He did not deserve such luck; and he would not get it.
She would talk it all out. She must, for she was a woman.
She would blame, argue, say dreadful words,--dreadful, because true and deserved. Then she would grow angry, as women do when they are most in the right, and say too much,--dreadful words, which would be untrue and undeserved. Then he should resist, recriminate. He would not stand it. He could not stand it. No. He could never face her again.
And yet if he had seen a man insult her,--if he had seen her at that moment in peril of the slightest danger, the slightest bruise, he would have rushed forward like a madman, and died, saving her from that bruise.
And he knew that: and with the strange self-contradiction of human nature, he soothed his own conscience by the thought that he loved her still; and that, therefore--somehow or other, he cared not to make out how--he had done her no wrong. Then he bl.u.s.tered again, for the benefit of his men. He would teach these monks of Crowland a lesson. He would burn the minster over their heads.
"That would be pity, seeing they are the only Englishmen left in England,"
said Siward the White, his nephew, very simply.
"What is that to thee? Thou hast helped to burn Peterborough at my bidding; and thou shalt help to burn Crowland."
"I am a free gentleman of England; and what I choose, I do. I and my brother are going to Constantinople to join the Varanger guard, and shall not burn Crowland, or let any man burn it."
"Shall not let?"
"No," said the young man, so quietly, that Hereward was cowed.
"I--I only meant--if they did not do right by me."
"Do right thyself," said Siward.
Hereward swore awfully, and laid his hand on his sword-hilt. But he did not draw it; for he thought he saw overhead a cloud which was very like the figure of St. Guthlac in Crowland window, and an awe fell upon him from above.
So they came to Crowland; and Hereward landed and beat upon the gates, and spoke high words. But the monks did not open the gates for a while. At last the gates creaked, and opened; and in the gateway stood Abbot Ulfketyl in his robes of state, and behind him Prior, and all the officers, and all the monks of the house.
"Comes Hereward in peace or in war?"
"In war!" said Hereward.
Then that true and trusty old man, who sealed his patriotism, if not with his blood,--for the very Normans had not the heart to take that,--still with long and bitter sorrows, lifted up his head, and said, like a valiant Dane, as his name bespoke him: "Against the traitor and the adulterer--"
"I am neither," roared Hereward.
"Thou wouldst be, if thou couldst. Whoso looketh upon a woman to--"
"Preach me no sermons, man! Let me in to seek my wife."
"Over my body," said Ulfketyl, and laid himself down across the threshold.
Hereward recoiled. If he had dared to step over that sacred body, there was not a blood-stained ruffian in his crew who dared to follow him.
"Rise, rise! for G.o.d"s sake, Lord Abbot," said he. "Whatever I am, I need not that you should disgrace me thus. Only let me see her,--reason with her."
"She has vowed herself to G.o.d, and is none of thine hence forth."
"It is against the canons. A wrong and a robbery."
Ulfketyl rose, grand as ever.
"Hereward Leofricsson, our joy and our glory once. Hearken to the old man who will soon go whither thine Uncle Brand is gone, and be free of Frenchmen, and of all this wicked world. When the walls of Crowland dare not shelter the wronged woman, fleeing from man"s treason to G.o.d"s faithfulness, then let the roofs of Crowland burn till the flame reaches heaven, for a sign that the children of G.o.d are as false as the children of this world, and break their faith like any belted knight."
Hereward was silenced. His men shrunk back from him. He felt as if G.o.d, and the Mother of G.o.d, and St. Guthlac, and all the host of heaven, were shrinking back from him likewise. He turned to supplications, compromises,--what else was left?
"At least you will let me have speech of her, or of my mother?"
"They must answer that, not I."
Hereward sent in, entreating to see one, or both.
"Tell him," said Lady G.o.diva, "who calls himself my son, that my sons were men of honor, and that he must have been changed at nurse."
"Tell him," said Torfrida, "that I have lived my life, and am dead. Dead.
If he would see me, he will only see my corpse."
"You would not slay yourself?"
"What is there that I dare not do? You do not know Torfrida. He does."
And Hereward did; and went back again like a man stunned.
After a while there came by boat to Crowland all Torfrida"s wealth: clothes, jewels: not a shred had Hereward kept. The magic armor came with them.
Torfrida gave all to the abbey, there and then. Only the armor she wrapped up in the white bear"s skin, and sent it back to Hereward, with her blessing, and entreaty not to refuse that, her last bequest.
Hereward did not refuse, for very shame. But for very shame he never wore that armor more. For very shame he never slept again upon the white bear"s skin, on which he and his true love had lain so many a year.
And Torfrida turned herself utterly to serve the Lady G.o.diva, and to teach and train her child as she had never done before, while she had to love Hereward, and to work day and night, with her own fingers, for all his men. All pride, all fierceness, all care of self, had pa.s.sed away from her. In penitence, humility, obedience, and gentleness, she went on; never smiling; but never weeping. Her heart was broken; and she felt it good for herself to let it break.
And Leofric the priest, and mad Martin Lightfoot, watched like two dogs for her going out and coming in; and when she went among the poor corrodiers, and nursed the sick, and taught the children, and went to and fro upon her holy errands, blessing and blessed, the two wild men had a word from her mouth, or a kiss of her hand, and were happy all the day after. For they loved her with a love mightier than ever Hereward had heaped upon her; for she had given him all: but she had given those two wild men naught but the beatific vision of a n.o.ble woman.
CHAPTER x.x.xVII.
HOW HEREWARD LOST SWORD BRAIN-BITER.
"On account of which," says the chronicler, "many troubles came to Hereward: because Torfrida was most wise, and of great counsel in need.
For afterwards, as he himself confessed, things went not so well with him as they did in her time."
And the first thing that went ill was this. He was riding through the Bruneswald, and behind him Geri, Wenoch, and Matelgar, these three. And there met him in an open glade a knight, the biggest man he had ever seen, on the biggest horse, and five knights behind him. He was an Englishman, and not a Frenchman, by his dress; and Hereward spoke courteously enough to him. But who he was, and what his business was in the Bruneswald, Hereward thought that he had a right to ask.
"Tell me who thou art, who askest, before I tell thee who I am who am asked, riding here on common land," quoth the knight, surlily enough.