But as the night went slowly by, he faced this desolation with extraordinary fort.i.tude. It was part of that curious detachment, that strange gift of impersonal observation. d.i.c.kie bore no grudges against life. His spirit had a fashion of standing away, tiptoe, on wings. It stood so now like a presence above the miserable, half-starved body that occupied the bench and suffered the sultriness of August and the pains of abstinence. d.i.c.kie"s wide eyes, that watched the city and found it horrible and beautiful and frightening, were entirely empty of bitterness and of self-pity. They had a sort of wistful patience.
There came at last a cool little wind and under its ministration d.i.c.kie let fall his head on his arms and slept. He was blessed by a dream: shallow water clapping over a cobbled bed, the sharp rustle of wind-edged aspen leaves, and two stars, tender and misty, that bent close and smiled. He woke up and stared at the city. He got up and walked about. He was faint now and felt chilled, although the asphalt was still soft underfoot and smelled of hot tar. As he moved listlessly along the pavement, a girl brushed against him, looked up, and murmured to him. She was small and slight. His heart seemed to leap away from the contact and then to leap almost irresistibly to meet it. He turned away and went back quickly toward the Square. It seemed to him that he was followed. He looked over his shoulder furtively. But the girl had disappeared and there was no one in sight but a man who walked unsteadily. d.i.c.kie suddenly knew why he had saved that dime. The energy of a definite purpose came to him. He remembered a swinging door back there around a corner, but when he reached the saloon, it was closed. d.i.c.kie had a humiliating struggle with tears. He went back to his bench and sat there, trembling and swearing softly to himself. He had not the strength to look farther. He was no longer the d.i.c.kie of Millings, a creature possessed of loneliness and vacancy and wandering fancies, he was no longer Sheila"s lover, he was a prey to strong desires. In truth, thought d.i.c.kie, seeking even now with his deprecatory smile for likenesses and words, the city was full of beasts, silent and stealthy and fanged. That spirit, aloof, maintained its sweet detachment. Beneath its observation d.i.c.kie fought with a grim, unreasoning panic that was very like the fear of a man pursued by wolves.
CHAPTER V
NEIGHBOR NEIGHBOR
Even in the shadow of after events, those first two months at Miss Blake"s ranch swam like a golden galleon through Sheila"s memory. Never had she felt such well-being of body, mind, and soul. Never had she known such dawns and days, such dusks, such sapphire nights. Sleep came like a highwayman to hold up an eager traveler, but came irresistibly. It caught her up out of life as it catches up a healthy child. Never before had she worked so heartily: out of doors in the vegetable garden; indoors in the sunny kitchen, its windows and door open to the tonic air; never before had she eaten so heartily. Nothing had tasted like the trout they caught in Hidden Creek, like the juicy, sweet vegetables they picked from their own laborious rows, like the berries they gathered in nervous antic.i.p.ation of that rival berryer, the brown bear. And Miss Blake"s casual treatment of her, half-bluff, half-mocking, her curt, good-humored commands, her cordial bullying, were a rest to nerves more raveled than Sheila knew from her experience in Millings. She grew rosy brown; her hair seemed to sparkle along its crisp ripples; her little throat filled itself out, round and firm; she walked with a spring and a swing; she sang and whistled, no Mrs. Hudson near to scowl at her. Dish-washing was not drudgery, cooking was a positive pleasure. Everything smelt so good.
She was always shutting her eyes to enjoy the smell of things, forgetting to listen in order to taste thoroughly, forgetting to look in the delight of listening to such musical silences, and forgetting even to breathe in the rapture of sight ... Miss Blake and she put up preserves, and Sheila had to invent jests to find some pretext for her laughter, so ridiculous was the look of that broad square back, its hair short above the man"s flannel collar, and the ap.r.o.n-strings tied pertly above the very wide, slightly worn corduroy breeches and the big boots. Sheila was always thinking of a certain famous Puss of fairy-tale memory, and biting her tongue to keep it from the epithet. After Hilliard gave her the black horse and she began to explore the mountain game trails, her life seemed as full of pleasantness as it could hold. And yet ... with just that gift of Hilliard"s, the overshadowing of her joy began. No, really before that, with his first visit.
That was in late September when the nights were frosty and Miss Blake had begun to cut and stack her wood for winter, and to use it for a crackling hearth-fire after supper. They were sitting before such a fire when Hilliard came.
Miss Blake sat man-fashion on the middle of her spine, her legs crossed, a magazine in her hands, and on her blunt nose a pair of large, black-rimmed spectacles. Her feet and hands and her cropped head, though big for a woman"s, looked absurdly small in comparison to the breadth of her hips and shoulders. She was reading the "Popular Science Monthly."
This and the "Geographic" and "Current Events" were regularly taken by her and most thoroughly digested. She read with keen intelligence; her comments were as shrewd as a knife-edge. The chair she sat in was made from elk-horns and looked like the throne of some Norse chieftain. Behind her on the wall hung the stuffed head of a huge walrus, his tusks gleaming, the gift of that exploring brother who seemed to be her only living relative. There were other tokens of his wanderings, a polar-bear skin, an ivory Eskimo spear. As a more homelike trophy Miss Blake had hung an elk head which she herself had laid low, a very creditable shot, though out of season. She had been short of meat. In the corner was a pianola topped by piles of record-boxes. At her feet lay Berg, the dog, snoring faintly and as cozy as a kitten.
The firelight made Miss Blake"s face and hair ruddier than usual; her eyes, when she raised them for a glance at Sheila, looked as though they were full of red sparks which might at any instant break into flame.
Sheila was wearing one of her flimsy little black frocks, recovered from the wrinkles of its journey, and she had decorated her square-cut neck with some yellow flowers. On these Miss Blake"s eyes rested every now and then with a sardonic gleam.
Outside Hidden Creek told its interminable chattering tale, centuries long, the little skinny horse cropped getting his difficult meal with his few remaining teeth. They could hear the dogs move with a faint rattle of chains. Sometimes there would be a distant rushing sound, a snow-slide thousands of feet above their heads on the mountain. Above these familiar sounds there came, at about eight o"clock that evening, the rattle of horse"s hoofs through the little stream and at the instant broke out the hideous clamor of the dogs, a noise that never failed to whiten Sheila"s cheeks.
Miss Blake sat up straight and s.n.a.t.c.hed off her spectacles. She looked at Sheila with a hard look.
"Have you been sending out invitations, Sheila?" she asked.
"No, of course not," Sheila had flushed. She could guess whose horse"s hoofs were trotting across the little clearing.
A man"s voice spoke to the dogs commandingly. Miss Blake"s eyebrows came down over her eyes. A man"s step struck the porch. A man"s knock rapped sharply at the door.
"Come in!" said Miss Blake. She spoke it like a sentry"s challenge.
The door opened and there stood Cosme Hilliard, hat in hand, his smiling Latin mouth showing the big white Saxon teeth.
Sheila had not before quite realized his good looks. Now, all his lithe, long gracefulness was painted for her against a square of purple night.
The clean white silk shirt fitted his broad shoulders, the wide rider"s belt clung to his supple waist, the leather chaps were shaped to his Greek hips and thighs. No civilized man"s costume could so have revealed and enhanced his beautiful strength. And above the long body his face glowed with its vivid coloring, the liquid golden eyes that moved easily under their lids, the polished black hair sleekly brushed, the red-brown cheeks, the bright lips, flexible and curved, of his Spanish mother.
"Who in G.o.d"s name are you?" demanded Miss Blake in her deepest voice.
"This is Mr. Hilliard," Sheila came forward. "He is the man that brought me over The Hill, Miss Blake--after I"d lost my horse, you know." There was some urgency in Sheila"s tone, a sort of prod to courtesy. Miss Blake settled back on her spine and recrossed her legs.
"Well, come in," she said, "and shut the door. No use frosting us all, is there?" She resumed her spectacles and her reading of the "Popular Science Monthly."
Hilliard, still smiling, bowed to her, took Sheila"s hand for an instant, then moved easily across the room and settled on his heels at one corner of the hearth. He had been riding, it would seem, in the thin silk shirt and had found the night air crisp. He rolled a cigarette with the hands that had first drawn Sheila"s notice as they held his gla.s.s on the bar; gentleman"s hands, clever, sensitive, carefully kept. From his occupation, he looked up at Miss Blake audaciously.
"You"d better make friends with me, ma"am," he said, "because we"re going to be neighbors."
"How"s that?"
"I"m taking up my homestead right down here below you on Hidden Creek a ways. About six miles below your ford."
Miss Blake"s face filled with dark blood. She said nothing, put up her magazine.
Sheila, however, exclaimed delightedly, "Taken up a homestead?"
"Yes, ma"am." He turned his floating, glowing look to her and there it stayed almost without deviation during the rest of his visit. "I"ve built me a log house--a dandy. I had a man up from Rusty to help me. I"ve bought me a cow. I"m getting my furnishings ready. That"s what I"ve been doing these two months."
"And never rode up to call on us?" Sheila reproached him.
"No, ma"am. I"ll tell you the reason for that. I wasn"t sure of myself."
She opened rather puzzled and astonished eyes at this, but for an instant his look went beyond her and remembered troubling things. "You see, Miss Arundel, I"m not used to settling down. That"s something that I"ve had no practice in. I"m impatient. I get tired quickly. d.a.m.n quickly. I change my mind. It"s the worst thing in me--a sort of devil-horse always thirsty for new things. It"s touch and go with him. He runs with me. You see, I"ve always given him his head." His look had come back to her face and dwelt there speaking for him a language headier than that of his tongue.
"I thought I"d tie the dern fool down to some good tough work and test him out. Well, ma"am, he hasn"t quit on me this time. I think he won"t.
I"ve got a ball and chain round about that cloven foot." He drew at his cigarette, half-veiling in smoke the ardor of his look. "I"d like to show you my house, Miss Arundel. It"s fine. I worked with a builder one season when I was a lad. I"ve got it peeled inside. The logs shine and I"ve got a fireplace twice the size of this in my living-room"--he made graceful gestures with the hand that held the cigarette. "Yes, ma"am, a living-room, and a kitchen, and," with a whimsical smile, "a butler"s pantry. And, oh, a great big bedroom that gets the morning sun." He paused an instant and flushed from chin to brow, an Anglo-Saxon flush it was, but the bold Latin eyes did not fall. "I"ve made some furnishings already. And I"ve sent out an order for kitchen stuff."
Here Miss Blake changed the crossing of her legs. Sheila was angry with herself because she was consumed with the contagion of his blush. She wished that he would not look as if he had seen the blush and was pleased by it. She wished that his clean young strength and beauty and the ardor of his eyes did not speak quite so eloquently.
"I bought a little black horse about so high"--he held his hand an absurd distance from the floor and laughed--"just the size for a little girl and--do you know who I"m going to give him to?"
Here Miss Blake got up, strode to the pianola, adjusted it, and sat down, broad and solid and unabashed by absence of feminine draperies, upon the stool. She played a comic song.
"I don"t like your _fam_ily--"
in some such dreadful way it expressed itself--
"They do _not_ look good to me.
I don"t think your _Unc_le John Ever _had_ a collar on ..."
She played it very loud.
Hilliard stood up and came close to Sheila.
"She"s mad as a March hare," he whispered, "and she doesn"t like me a little bit. Come out while I patch up Dusty, won"t you, please? It"s moonlight. I"ll be going." He repeated this very loud for Miss Blake"s benefit with no apparent effect upon her enjoyment of the song. She was rocking to its rhythm.
Hilliard was overwhelmed suddenly by the appearance of her. He put his hand to his mouth and bolted. Sheila, following, found him around the corner of the house rocking and gasping with mirth. He looked at her through tears.
"Puss-in-Boots," he gasped, and Sheila ran to the edge of the clearing to be safe in a mighty self-indulgence.
There they crouched like two children till their laughter spent itself.
Hilliard was serious first.
"You"re a bad, ungrateful girl," he said weakly, "to laugh at a sweet old lady like that."
"Oh, I am!" Sheila took it almost seriously. "She"s been wonderful to me."
"I bet she works you," he said jealously.
"Oh, no. Not a bit too hard. I love it."