Chapter 910: Waiting for A New Day, Or Death (17)
Hugging him tightly, Li Beinian burst into tears.
Mu Xichen was silent. He patted her shoulder gently and whispered, “It’s my fault. I’ve been pus.h.i.+ng you too hard.”
Being pregnant, Li Beinian was emotional to begin with.
And she might have been unaware that her temper had been particularly explosive recently.
Mu Xichen guessed that apart from her pregnancy, the other factor was that he was putting pressure on her.
Li Beinian had always wanted to do everything well.
There weren’t many things that she was interested in, but once she had her heart set on something, she made it a point to give her best.
This was her att.i.tude in many things in life, and it was no different for filming.
Mu Xichen had seen Li Beinian practice her acting in front of the mirror many times. In order to maintain her acting standards, she often watched television dramas or movies to study the acting techniques of other actors.
There were many records of her watching movies and television on the computer at home. In fact, in order to play the role of Jia Xiaoqing, she did a significant amount of research. She would even consult him on military-related matters.
Mu Xichen saw how much effort she had put into this movie.
Furthermore, her filming schedule had been gradually intensifying recently. Coupled with the fact that she was pregnant and had to work late into the nights, the pressure she was under was unimaginable.
Realizing this, Mu Xichen patted her back gently and whispered, “Let me send you back to the hotel first.”
“Ah Chen,” Li Beinian called out in a nasal voice. “Am I being too selfish?”
“No.” Mu Xichen hugged her and sighed softly. “It’s my fault. Don’t overthink things.”
“No, I’m being too selfish. I want to do well. I want to film. I want to be more outstanding. I want to be worthy of you. But apart from acting, there’s nothing else I’m good at, Ah Chen,” Li Beinian cried even harder, and eventually her voice was broken and m.u.f.fled. “I want to show my strength in this field. I want to s.h.i.+ne. I’m so afraid… not of giving birth, not of being unable to film this movie. Rather, I’m afraid that after birth, my body will lose shape and it becomes difficult for me to thrive in this industry. In the end, I’ll end up with no achievements and no merits. And I won’t be able to make you look good. Do you know how it feels…”
“I understand.” Mu Xichen patted her back gently and comforted her. “It won’t happen. You’ll be able to make a come back. As long as you’re willing, you can do anything.”
“No, you don’t understand!” Li Beinian pushed him away and gradually raised her voice. “You have no idea at all. I won’t be able to excel in anything, and I will be good at nothing. I won’t even be able to support myself and have to rely on a man, living like a parasite!”
“Why would you think that?” Mu Xichen frowned. “You…”
Li Beinian wiped her tears, but they continued to fall uncontrollably. “I want to do my job well. I want these two children more than anything. But I don’t want to be a parasite anymore…”
Mu Xichen’s heart ached as he wiped her tears. His frown deepened. “What nonsense are you talking about? You’re my wife. If you think you’re a parasite, what does that make me?”
“You’re a stinky man!” Li Beinian wiped her tears and cried even harder. She shouted, “No one will want a wife who’s good-for-nothing. You won’t want me!”