"But now," he went on thoughtfully, "consider what would happen if we made a public announcement that we could cure Mekstrom"s Disease by making a physical superman out of the poor victim. Our main enemy would then stand up righteously and howl that we are concealing the secret; he would be believed. We would be tracked down and persecuted, eventually wiped out, while he sat behind his position and went on picking and choosing victims whose att.i.tude parallel his own."
"And who is the character?" I demanded. I knew. But I wanted him to say it aloud.
He shook his head. "I"ll not say it," he said. "Because I will not accuse him aloud, any more than he dares to tell you flatly that we are an underground organization that must be rooted out. He knows about our highways and our way stations and our cure, because he uses the same cure. He can hide behind his position so long as he makes no direct accusation. You know the law, Mr. Cornell."
Yes, I knew the law. So long as the accuser came into court with a completely clean mind, he was safe. But Scholar Phelps could hardly make the accusation, nor could he supply the tiniest smidgin of direct evidence to me. For in my accusation I"d implicate him as an accessory-accuser and then he would be called upon to supply not only evidence but a clear, clean, and open mind. In shorter words, the old stunt of pointing loudly to someone else as a dodge for covering up your own crime was a lost art in this present-day world of telepathic competence. The law, of course, insisted that no man could be convicted for what he was thinking, but only upon direct evidence of action. But a crooked-thinking witness found himself in deep trouble anyway, even though crooked thinking was in itself no crime.
"Now for one more time," said Mr. Macklin. "Consider a medical person who cannot qualify because he is a telepath and not a perceptive. His very soul was devoted to being a scholar of medicine like his father and his grandfather, but his telepath ability does not allow him to be the full scholar. A doctor he can be. But he can never achieve the final training, again the ultimate degree. Such a man overcompensates and becomes the frustrate; a ripe disciple for the superman theory."
"Dr. Thornd.y.k.e!" I blurted.
His face was as blank, as noncommittal as a bronze bust; I could neither detect affirmation nor negation in it. He was playing it flat; I"d never get any evidence from him, either.
"So now, Mr. Cornell, I have given you food for thought. I"ve made no direct statements; nothing that you could point to. I"ve defended myself as any man will do, but only by protestations of innocence. Therefore I suggest that you take your artillery and vacate the premises."
I remembered the Bonanza .375 that was hanging in my hand. Shamefacedly I slipped it back in my hip pocket. "But look, sir--"
"Please leave, Mr. Cornell. Any more I cannot say without laying us wide open for trouble. I am sorry for you, it is no joy being a p.a.w.n. But I hope that your p.a.w.n-ship will work for our side, and I hope that you will come through it safely. Now, please leave us quietly."
I shrugged. I left. And as I was leaving, Miss Macklin touched my arm and said in a soft voice: "I hope you find your Catherine, Steve. And I hope that someday you"ll be able to join her."
I nodded dumbly. It was not until I was all the way back to my car that I remembered that her last statement was something similar to wishing me a case of measles so that I"d be afterward immune from them.
XI
As the miles separated me from the Macklins, my mind kept whirling around in a tight circle. I had a lot of the bits, but none of them seemed to lock together very tight. And unhappily, too many of the bits that fit together were hunks that I did not like.
I knew the futility of being non-telepath. Had Mr. Macklin given me the truth or was I being sold another shoddy bill of goods? Or had he spun me a yarn just to get me out of his house without a riot? Of course, there had been a riot, and he"d been expecting it. If nothing else, it proved that I was a valuable bit of material, for some undisclosed reason.
I had to grin. I didn"t know the reason, but whatever reason they had, it must gripe the devil out of them to be unable to erase me.
Then the grin faded. No one had told me about Catherine. They"d neatly avoided the subject. Well, since I"d taken off on this still hunt to find Catherine, I"d continue looking, even though every corner I looked into turned out to be the hiding place for another bunch of mad spooks.
My mind took another tack: Admitting that neither side could rub me out without losing, why in heck didn"t they just collect me and put me in a cage? Dammit, if I had an organization as well oiled as either of them, I could collect the President right out of the New White House and put him in a cage along with the King of England, the Shah of Persia, and the Dali Lama to make a fourth for bridge.
This was one of those questions that cannot be answered by the application of logic, reasoning, or by applying either experience or knowledge. I did not know, nor understand. And the only way I would ever find out was to locate someone who was willing to tell.
Then it occurred to me that--aside from my one experience in housebreaking--that I"d been playing according to the rules. I"m pretty much a law-abiding citizen. Yet it did seem to me that I learned more during those times when the rules, if not broken, at least were bent rather sharply. So I decided to try my hand at busting a couple of rather high-level rules.
There was a way to track down Catherine.
So I ga.s.sed up the buggy, turned the nose East, and took off like a man with a purpose in mind. En route, I laid out my course. Along that course there turned out to be seven Way Stations, according to the Highway signs. Three of them were along U.S. 12 on the way from Yellowstone to Chicago. One of them was between Chicago and Hammond, Indiana. There was another to the south of Sandusky, Ohio, one was somewhere south of Erie, Pa., and the last was in the vicinity of Newark. There were a lot of the Highways themselves, leading into and out of my main route--as well as along it.
But I ignored them all, and n.o.body gave me a rough time.
Eventually I walked into my apartment. It was musty, dusty, and lonesome. Some of Catherine"s things were still on the table where I"d dropped them; they looked up at me mutely until I covered them with the walloping pile of mail that had arrived in my long absence. I got a bottle of beer and began to go through the mail, wastebasketing the advertis.e.m.e.nts, piling the magazines neatly, and filing some offers of jobs (Which reminded me that I was still an engineer and that my funds wouldn"t last indefinitely) and went on through the mail until I came to a letter--The Letter.
_Dear Mr. Cornell:_
_We"re glad to hear from you. We moved, not because Marian caught Mekstrom"s, but because the dead area shifted and left us sort of living in a fish-bowl, psi-wise._
_Everybody is hale and hearty here and we all wish you the best._
_Please do not think for a moment that you owe us anything. We"d rather be free of your so-called debt. We regret that Catherine was not with you, maybe the accident might not have happened. But we do all think that we stand as an a.s.sociation with a very unhappy period in your life, and that it will be better for you if you try to forget that we exist. This is a hard thing to say, Steve, but really, all we can do for you is to remind you of your troubles._
_Therefore with love from all of us, we"d like to make this a sincerely sympathetic and final--_
_Farewell, Philip Harrison._
I grunted unhappily. It was a nice-sounding letter, but it did not ring true, somehow. I sat there digging it for hidden meanings, but none came. I didn"t care. In fact, I didn"t really expect any more than this.
If they"d not written me at all, I"d still have done what I did. I sat down and wrote Phillip Harrison another letter:
_Dear Philip:_
_I received your letter today, as I returned from an extended trip through the west. I"m glad to hear that Marian is not suffering from Mekstrom"s Disease. I am told that it is fatal to the--uninitiated._
_However, I hope to see you soon._
_Regards, Steve Cornell._
_That_, I thought, _should do it!_
Then to help me and my esper, I located a tiny silk handkerchief of Catherine"s, one she"d left after one of her visits. I slipped it into the envelope and slapped a stamp and a notation on the envelope that this letter was to be forwarded to Phillip Harrison. I dropped it in the box about eleven that night, but I didn"t bother trying to follow it until the morning.
Ultimately it was picked up and taken to the local post office, and from there it went to the clearing station at Pennsylvania Station at 34th St., where I hung around the mail-baggage section until I attracted the attention of a policeman.
"Looking for something, Mr. Cornell?"
"Not particularly," I told the telepath cop. "Why?"
"You"ve been digging every mailbag that comes out of there."
"Am I?" I asked ingeniously.
"Can it Buster, or we"ll let you dig your way out of a jail."
"You can"t arrest a man for thinking."
"I"ll be happy to make it loitering," he said sharply.
"I"ve a train ticket."
"Use it, then."
"Sure. At train time I"ll use it."