"Look," she cried. She held up her hand. The bleeding had stopped and there was a thin film over the cut. I dug at it and nodded; it was the first show of Mekstrom Flesh without a doubt.
"That"s it, kid."
"I know," she said happily. "Golly, I could kiss you."
Then before I could think of all the various ways in which the word "Golly" sounded out of character for her, she launched herself into my arms and was busily erasing every attempt at logical thought with one of the warmest, no-holds-barred smoocheroo that I"d enjoyed for what seemed like years. Since I"d held Catherine in my arms in her apartment just before we"d eloped, I"d spent my time in the company of Nurse Farrow who held no emotional appeal to me, and the rest of my female company had been Mekstroms whose handholding might twist off a wrist if they got a thrill out of it. About the time I began to respond with enthusiasm and vigor, she extricated herself from my clutch and slid back to the foot of the bed out of reach.
A little breathlessly she said, "Harry will thank you for this." _This_ meant the infection in her finger.
Then she was gone and I was thinking, _Harry should drop dead_!
Then I grinned at myself like the Cheshire Cat because I realized that I was so valuable a property that they couldn"t afford to let me die. No matter what, I"d be kept alive. And after having things go so sour for so long a time, things were about to take a fast turn and go my way.
I discounted the baby-bite affair. Even if the baby were another carrier, it would take a long time before the kid was old enough to be trusted in his aim.
I discounted it even more because I hadn"t been roaring around the countryside biting innocent citizens. Mere contact was enough; if the bite did anything, it may have hastened the process.
So here I was, a nice valuable property, with a will of my own. I could either throw in with Phelps and bite only Phelps" Chosen Aristocrats, or I could go back to the Highways and bite everybody in sight.
I laughed at my image in the mirror. I am a democratic sort of soul, but when it comes to biting, there"s some I"d rather bite than others.
I bared my teeth at my image, but it was more of a leering smile of the tooth-paste ad than a fierce snarl.
My image looked pensive. It was thinking, _Steve, old carnivore, ere you go biting anybody, you"ve first got to bite your way out of the Medical Center._
XIX
One hour later they pulled my fangs without benefit of anaesthesia.
Thornd.y.k.e came in to inspect the progress of my infection and allowed as how I"d be about ready for the full treatment in a few days. "We like to delay the full treatment as long as possible," he told me, "because it immobilizes the patient too long as it is." He pressed a call bell, waited, and soon the door opened to admit a nurses" helper pushing a trundle cart loaded with medical junk. I still don"t know what was on the cart because I was too flabbergasted to notice it.
I was paying all my attention to Catherine, cheerful in her Gray Lady uniform, being utterly helpful, bright, gay, and relaxed. I was tongue tied, geflummoxed, beaten down, and--well, just speechless.
Catherine was quite professional about her help. She loaded the skin-blast hypo and slapped it into Thornd.y.k.e"s open hand. Her eyes looked into mine and they smiled rea.s.suringly. Her hand was firm as she took my arm; she locked her strength on my hand and held it immobile while Thornd.y.k.e shot me in the second joint. There was a personal touch to her only briefly when she breathed, "Steve, I"m so glad!" and then went on about her work. The irony of it escaped me; but later I did recall the oddity of congratulating someone who"s just contracted a disease.
Then that wave of agony hit me, and the only thing I can remember through it was Catherine folding a towel so that the hem would be on the inside when she wiped the beads of sweat from my face. She cradled my head between her hands and crooned lightly to me until the depths of the pain was past. Then she got efficient again and waved Thornd.y.k.e aside to see to the little straps on the manipulator herself. She adjusted them delicately. Then she poured me a gla.s.s of ice water and put it where I could reach it with my other hand. She left after one long searching look into my eyes, and I knew that she would be back later to talk to me alone. This seemed all right with Dr. Thornd.y.k.e, the wily telepath who would be able to dig a reconstruction of our private talk with a little urging on his part.
After Catherine was gone, Thornd.y.k.e smiled down at me with cynical self-confidence. "There"s your lever, Steve," he said.
The dope helped to kill all but the worst waves of searing pain; between them I managed to grind out, "How did you sell her that bill of goods, Thornd.y.k.e?"
His reply was scornful. "Maybe she likes your hide all in one piece," he grunted.
He left me with my mind a-whirl with thoughts and pain. The little manipulator was working my second finger joint up and down rhythmically, and with each move came pain. It also exercised the old joint, which had grown so rigid that my muscles hadn"t been able to move it for several hours. That added agony, too.
The dope helped, but it also dimmed my ability to concentrate.
Up to a certain point everything was quite logical and easy to understand. Catherine was here because they had contacted her through some channel and said, "Throw in with us and we"ll see that your lover does not die miserably." So much was reasonable, but after that point the whole thing began to take on a mad puzzle-like quality. Given normal circ.u.mstances, Catherine would have come to me as swiftly as I"d have gone to her if I"d known how. Not only that, but I"d probably have sworn eternal fealty to them for their service even though I could not stand their way of thinking.
But Catherine was smart enough to realize that I, as the only known carrier of Mekstrom"s Disease, was more valuable live than dead.
Why, then, had Catherine come here to place herself in their hands?
Alone, she might have gone off half-c.o.c.ked in an emotional tizzy. But the Highways had good advisers who should have pointed out that Steve Cornell was one man alive who could walk with impunity among friend or foe. Why, they hadn"t even tried to collect me until it became evident that I was in line for the Old Treatment. Then they had to take me in, because the Medical Center wanted any information they could get above and beyond the fact that I was a carrier. If someone from Homestead had been in that courtroom, I"d now be among friends.
Then the ugly thought hit me and my mind couldn"t face it for some time.
_Reorientation._
Catherine"s cheerful willingness to help them must be reorientation and nothing else.
Now, although I"ve mentioned reorientation before, what I actually know about it is meager. It makes Dr. Jekylls out of former Mr. Hydes and the transformation is complete. It can be done swiftly; the rapidity depends upon the strength of the mind of the operator compared to the mind of the subject. It is slightly harder to reorient a defiant mind than a willing one. It sticks unless someone else begins to tinker again. It is easier to make a good man out of a bad one than the reverse, although the latter is eminently possible. This is too difficult a problem to discuss to the satisfaction of everybody, but it seems to go along with the old theory that "Good" does benefit the tribe of mankind in the long run, while "Bad" things cause trouble. I"ll say no more than to point out that no culture based upon theft, murder, piracy, and pillage, has ever survived.
The thought of Catherine"s mind being tampered with made me seethe with anger. I forgot my pain and began to probe around wildly, and as I probed I began to know the real feeling of helpless futility.
For here I was, practically immobilized and certainly dependent upon them for help. This was no time to attempt a rescue of my sweetheart--who would only be taken away kicking and screaming all the way from here to the first place where I could find a haven and have her re-reoriented. The latter would not be hard; among the other things I knew about reorientation was that it could be negated by some strong emotional ties and a personal background that included worthy objection to the new personality.
For my perceptive digging I came up with nothing but those things that any hospital held. Patients, nurses, interns, orderlies; a couple of doctors, a scholar presiding over a sheaf of files. And finally Catherine puttering over an autoclave. She was setting out a string of instruments under the tutelage of a superintendent of nurses who was explaining how the job should be done.
I took a deep, thankful breath. Her mind was occupied enough to keep her from reading the dark thoughts that were going through mine. I did not even want a loved one to know how utterly helpless and angry I felt.
And then, because I was preoccupied with Catherine and my own thoughts, the door opened without my having taken a dig at the opener beforehand.
The arrival was all I needed to crack wide open in a howling fit of hysteria. It was so pat. I couldn"t help but let myself go: "Well! This looks like Old Home Week!"
Miss Gloria Farrow, Registered Nurse, did not respond to my awkward joviality. Her face, if anything, was darker than my thoughts. I doubted that she had her telepathy working; people who get that wound up find it hard to even see and hear straight, let alone think right. And telepathy or perception goes out of kilter first because the psi is a very delicate factor.
She eyed me coldly. "You utter imbecile," she snarled. "You--"
"Whoa, baby!" I roared. "Slow down. I"m a bit less than bright, but what have I done now?"
I"d have slapped her across the face as an anodyne if she hadn"t been Mekstrom.
Farrow cooled visibly, then her face sort of came apart and she sort of flopped forward onto the bed and buried her face in my shoulder. I couldn"t help but make comparisons; she was like a hunk of marble, warm and vibrant. Like having a statue crying on my shoulder. She sagged against me like a loose bag of cement and her hands clutched at my shoulder blades like a pair of C-clamps. A big juicy tear dropped from her cheek to land on my chest, and I was actually surprised to find that a teardrop from a Mekstrom did not land like a drop of mercury. It just splashed like any other drop of water, spread out, and made my chest wet.
Eventually I held her up from me, tried to shake her gently, and said, "Now what"s the shooting all about, Farrow?"
She shook her head as if to clear her thinking gear.
"Steve," she said in a quietly serious tone, "I"ve been such an utter fool."
"You"re not unique, Farrow," I told her. "People have been doing damfool stunts since--"
"I know," she broke in. Then with an effort at light-heartedness, she added, "There must be a different version of that Garden of Eden story.
Eve is always blamed as having tempted Adam. Somewhere, Old Adam must have been slightly to blame--?"
I didn"t know what she was driving toward, but I stroked her hair and waited. She was probably right. It still takes two of a kind to make one pair.