Now, is there n.o.body else? Speak up, friends. It"ll do you no harm, none whatever; it"ll do you that much good you"ll be surprised. Now, who"ll be the next to say a word for Jesus?" She was nodding encouragement at the negro cook as if she knew him for a wavering soul, and he, sunk in his gleaming white collar, was aware, in silent, smiling misery, that the expectations of the meeting were toward him. Laura had again hidden her eyes in her hand. The negro fingered his watch-chain foolishly, and the prettiest of the East Indian half-castes tried hard to disguise her perception that an African, in his best clothes, under conviction of sin, was the funniest thing in the world. The silence seemed to focus itself upon the cook, who fumbled at his coat collar and cleared his voice. It was a shock to all concerned when Stephen Arnold, picking up his hat, got upon his feet instead.
"I also," he said, "would offer my humble testimony to the grace of G.o.d--with all my heart."
It was as if he had repeated part of the creed in the performance of his office. Then he turned and bent gravely to Lindsay. "Shall we go now?"
he whispered, and the two made their way to the door, leaving a silence behind them which Lindsay imagined, on the part of Ensign Sand at least, to be somewhat resentful. As they pa.s.sed out, a voice recovered itself and cried, "Hallelujah!" It was Laura"s. And all the way to the club--Arnold was dining with him there--Lindsay listened to his friend"s a.n.a.lysis of religious appeal to the emotions, but chiefly heard that clear music above a sordid din, "Hallelujah!" "Hallelujah!"
CHAPTER IV.
When Alicia Livingstone, almost believing she liked it, drove to Number Three, Lal Behari"s Lane and left cards upon Miss Hilda Howe, she was only partially rewarded. Through the plaster gate-posts, badly in want of repair and bearing, sunk in one of them, a marble slab announcing "Residence with Board," she perceived the squalid attempt the place made at respectability, the servants in dirty livery salaaming curiously, the over-fed squirrel in a cage in the door, the pair of damaged wicker chairs in the porch suggesting the easiest intercourse after dinner, the general discoloration. She observed with irritation that it was a down-at-heels shrine for such a divinity, in spite of its six dusty crotons in crumbling plaster urns, but the irritation was rather at her own repulsion to the place than at any inconsistency it presented. What she demanded and expected of herself was that Number Three, Lal Behari"s Lane should be pleasing, interesting, acceptable on its merits as a cheap Calcutta boarding-house. She found herself so unable to perceive its merits that it was almost a relief to see nothing of Miss Howe either; Hilda had gone to rehearsal, to the "dance-house," the servant said, eyeing the unusual landau. Alicia rolled back into streets with Christian names distressed by an uncertainty as to whether her visit had been a disappointment or an escape. By the next day, however, she was well pulled together in favour of the former conclusion--she could nearly always persuade herself of such things in time--and wrote a frank, sweet little note in her picturesque hand--she never joined more than two syllables--to say how sorry she had been, and would Miss Howe come to lunch on Friday. "I should love to make it dinner," she said to herself, as she sealed the envelope, "but before one knows how she will behave in connection with the men--I suppose one must think of the other people."
It was Friday, and Hilda was lunching. The two had met among the faint-tinted draperies of Alicia"s drawing-room--there was something auroral even about the mantlepiece--a little like diplomatists using a common tongue native to neither of them. Perhaps Alicia drew the conventions round her with the greater fluency; Hilda had more to cover, but was less particular about it. The only thing she was bent upon making imperceptible was her sense of the comedy of Miss Livingstone"s effort to receive her as if she had been anybody else. Alicia was hardly aware of what she wanted to conceal, unless it was her impression that Miss Howe"s dress was cut a trifle too low in the neck, that she was almost too effective in that cream and yellow to be quite right. Alicia remembered afterwards, to smile at it, that her first ten minutes of intercourse with Hilda Howe were dominated by a lively desire to set Celine at her--with such a foundation to work upon, what could Celine not have done? She remembered her surprise, too, at the ordinary things Hilda said in that rich voice, even in the tempered drawing-room tones of which resided a hint of the seats nearest the exit under the gallery, and her wonder at the luxury of gesture that went with them, movements which seemed to imply blank verse and to be thrown away upon two women and a little furniture. A consciousness stood in the room between them, and their commonplaces about the picturesqueness of the bazaar rode on long absorbed regards, one reading, the other anxious to read; yet the encounter was so conventionally creditable to them both that they might have smiled past each other under any circ.u.mstances next day and acknowledged no demand for more than the smile.
The cutlets had come before Hilda"s impression was at the back of her head, her defences withdrawn, her eyes free and content, her elbow on the table. They had found a portrait-painter.
"He has such an eye," said Alicia, "for the possibilities of character."
"Such an eye that he develops them. I know one man he painted. I suppose when the man was born he had an embryo soul, but in the meantime he and everybody else had forgotten about it. All but Salter. Salter re-created it on the original lines, and brought it up, and gave it a lodging behind the man"s wrinkles. I saw the picture. It was fantastic--psychologically."
"Psychology has a lot to say to portrait-painting, I know," Alicia said.
"Do let him give you a little more. It"s only Moselle." She felt quite direct, and simple, too, in uttering her postulate. Her eyes had a friendly, unembarra.s.sed look; there was nothing behind them but the joy of talking intelligently about Salter.
Hilda did not even glance away. She looked at her hostess instead, with an expression of candour so admirable that one might easily have mistaken it to be insincere. It was part of her that she could swim in any current, and it was pleasant enough, for the moment, to swim in Alicia"s. Both the Moselle and the cutlets, moreover, were of excellent quality.
"It"s everything to everything, don"t you think? And especially, thank Heaven, to my trade." Her voice softened the brusqueness of this; the way she said it gave it a right to be said in any terms. That was the case with flagrancies of hers sometimes.
"To discover motives and morals and pa.s.sions and ambitions and to make a picture of them with your own body--your face and hands and voice--compare our plastic opportunity with the handling of a brush to do it, or a pen or a chisel!"
"I know what you mean," said Alicia. She had a little flush, and an excited hand among the wine-gla.s.ses. "No, I don"t want any; please don"t bother me!" to the man at her elbow with something in aspic. "It"s much more direct--your way."
"And, I think, so much more primitive, so much earlier sanctioned, abiding so originally among the instincts! Oh, yes! if we are lightly esteemed it is because we are bad exponents. The ideal has dignity enough. They charge us, in their unimaginable stupidity, with failing to appreciate our lines, especially when they are Shakespeare"s--with being unliterary. You might--good Heavens!--as well accuse a painter of not being a musician? Our business lies behind the words--they are our mere medium! Rosalind wasn"t literary--why should I be? But don"t indulge me in my shop, if it bores you," Hilda added lightly, aware as she was that Miss Livingstone was never further from being bored.
"Oh, please go on! If you only knew," her lifted eyebrows confessed the tedium of Calcutta small-talk. "But why do you say you are lightly esteemed? Surely the public is a touchstone--and you hold the public in the hollow of your hand!"
Hilda smiled. "Dear old public! It does its best for us, doesn"t it? One loves it, you know, as sailors love the sea, never believing in its treachery in the end. But I don"t know why I say we are lightly esteemed, or why I dogmatise about it at all. I"ve done nothing--I"ve no right. In ten years perhaps--no, five--I"ll write signed articles for the _New Review_ about modern dramatic tendencies. Meanwhile you"ll have to consider that the value of my opinions is prospective."
"But already you have succeeded--you have made a place."
"In Coolgardie, in Johannesburg. I think they remember me in Trichinopoly too, and--yes, it may be so--in Manila. But that wasn"t legitimate drama," and Hilda smiled again in a way that coloured her unspoken reminiscence, to Alicia"s eyes, in rose and gold. She waited an instant for these tints to materialise, but Miss Howe"s smile slid discreetly into her wine-gla.s.s instead.
"There"s immense picturesqueness in the Philippines," she went on, her look of thoughtful criticism contrasting in the queerest way with her hat. "Real ecclesiastical tyranny with pure traditions. One wonders what America will do with those friars, when she does take hold there."
"Do you think she is going to?" asked Alicia, vaguely. It was the merest politeness--she did not wait for a reply. With a courageous air which became her charmingly she went on, "Don"t you long to submit yourself to London? I should."
"Oh, I must. I know I must. It"s in the path of duty and conscience--it"s not to be put off forever. But one dreads the chained slavery of London"--she hesitated before the audacity of adding, "the sordid hundred nights," but Alicia divined it, and caught her breath as if she watched the other woman make a hazardous leap.
"You are magnificently sure," she said. Alicia herself felt curiously buoyed up and capable, conscious of vague intuitions of immediate achievement. The lunch-table still lay between the two, but it had become in a manner intangible; the selves of them had drawn together, and regarded each other with absorbent eyes. In Hilda"s there was an instant of consideration before she said:
"I might as well tell you--you won"t misunderstand--that I am sure. I expect things of myself. I hold a kind of mortgage on my success; when I foreclose it will come, bringing the long, steady, grasping chase of money and fame, eyes fixed, never a day to live in, only to accomplish, every moment straddled with calculation, an end to all the byeways where one finds the colour of the sun. The successful London actress, my dear--what excursion has she? A straight flight across the Atlantic in a record-breaker, so many nights in New York, so many in Chicago, so many in a Pullman car, and the net result in every newspaper--an existence of pure artificiality infested by reporters. It"s like living in the sh.e.l.l of your personality. It"s the house forever on your back; at the last you are buried in it, smirking in your coffin with a half-open eye on the floral offerings. There never was reward so qualified by its conditions."
"Surely there would be some moments of splendid compensation?"
"Oh, yes; and for those in the end we are all willing to perish! But then you know all, you have done all; there is nothing afterwards but the eternal strain to keep even with yourself. I don"t suppose I could begin to make you see the joys of a strolling player--they aren"t much understood in the proscenium--but there are so many, honestly, that London being at the top of the hill, I"m not panting up. My way of going has twice wound round the world already. But I"m talking like an ill.u.s.trated interview. You will grant the impertinence of all I"ve been saying when I tell you that I"ve never yet had an ill.u.s.trated interview."
"Aren"t they almost always vulgar?" Alicia asked. "Don"t they make you sit the wrong way on a chair, in tights?"
Hilda threw her head back and laughed almost, Alicia noted, like a man.
She certainly did not hide her mouth with her hands or her handkerchief, as woman often do in bursts of hilarity; she laughed freely, and as much as she wanted to, and it was as clear as possible that tights presented themselves quite preposterously to any discussion of her profession.
They were things to be taken for granted, like the curtain and the wings; they had no relation to clothing in the world.
Alicia laughed too. After all, they were absurd--her outsider"s prejudices. She said something like that, and Hilda seemed to soar again for her point of view about the ill.u.s.trated interviews. "They _are_ atrocities," she said. "On their merits they ought to be cast out of even the suburbs of art and literature. But they help to make the atmosphere that gives us power to work, and if they do that, of course"----the pursed seriousness of her lips gave Alicia the impression that, though the whole world took offence, the expediency of the ill.u.s.trated interview was beyond discussion.
The servant brought them coffee. "Shall we smoke here," said Miss Livingstone, "or in the drawing-room?"
"Oh, do you want to? Are you quite sure you like it? Please don"t on my account--you really mustn"t. Suppose it should make you ill?" If Hilda felt any tinge of amus.e.m.e.nt she kept it out of her face. Nothing was there but cheerful concern.
"It won"t make me ill." Alicia lifted her chin with delicate a.s.sertiveness. "I suppose you do smoke, don"t you?"
"Occasionally--with some people. Honestly, have you ever done it before?"
"Four times," said Alicia, and then turned rose-colour with the apprehension that it sounded amateurish to have counted them. "I thought it was one of your privileges to do it always, just as you--"
"Go to bed with our boots on and put ice down the back of some Serene Highness"s neck. I suppose it is, but now and then I prefer to dispense with it. In my bath, for instance, and almost always in omnibuses."
"How absurd you are! Then we"ll stay here."
Miss Howe softly manipulated her cigarette and watched Alicia sacrifice two matches.
"There"s Rosa Norton of our company," she went on. "Poor dear old Rosy.
She"s fifty-three--grey hair smooth back, you know, and a kind of look of anxious mamma. And it gets into her eyes and chokes her, poor dear; but blow her if she won"t be as Bohemian as anybody. I"ve seen her smoke in a bonnet with strings tied under her chin. I got up and went away."
"But I can"t possibly affect you in that way," said Alicia, putting her cigarette down to finish, as an afterthought, a marron glacee. "I"m not old and I"m not grotesque."
"No, but--oh, all right. After you with the matches, please."
"I _beg_ your pardon. How thoughtless of me! Dear me, mine has gone out.
Do you suppose anything is wrong with them? Perhaps they"re damp."
"Trifle dry, if anything," Hilda returned, with the cigarette between her lips, "but in excellent order, really." She took it between her first and second finger for a glance at the gold letters at the end, leaned back and sent slow, luxurious spirals through her nostrils. It was rather, Alicia reflected, like a horse on a cold day--she hoped Miss Howe wouldn"t do it again. But she presently saw that it was Miss Howe"s way of doing it.
"No, you"re not old and grotesque," Hilda said, contemplatively; "you"re young and beautiful." The freedom seemed bred, imperceptibly and enjoyably, from the delicate cloud in the air. Alicia flushed ever so little under it, but took it without wincing. She had less than the common palate for flattery of the obvious kind, but this was something quite different--a mere casual and unprejudiced statement of fact.
"Fairly," she said, not without surprise at her own calmness; and there was an instant of silence, during which the commonplace seemed to be dismissed between them.
"You made a vivid impression here last year," said Alicia. She felt delightfully terse and to the point.