III
For more than twenty hours, Hilda was profoundly miserable. Towards the evening of the same day, she had made herself quite sure that Edwin Clayhanger would call that night. Her hope persisted until half-past nine: it then began to fade, and, at ten o"clock, was extinct. His name had been mentioned by n.o.body. She went to bed. Having now a room of her own, which overlooked the Clayhanger garden and house, she gazed forth, and, in the dark, beheld, with the most anxious sensations, the building in which Edwin existed and was concealed. "He is there," she said. "He is active about something at this very instant--perhaps he is reading.
He is close by. If I shouted, he might hear...." And yet she was utterly cut off from him. Again, in the late dawn, she saw the same building, pale and clear, but just as secretive and enigmatic as in the night. "He is asleep yet," she thought. "Why did he not call? Is he hurt? Is he proud?"
She despaired, because she could devise no means of resuming communication with him.
Immediately after dinner on the next day, she went with Janet to Janet"s room, to examine a new winter cloak which had been delivered. And, while Janet was trying it on, and posing coquettishly and yet without affectation in front of the gla.s.s, and while Hilda was reflecting jealously, "Why am I not like her? I know infinitely more than she knows. I am a woman, and she is a girl, and yet she seems far more a woman than I--" Alicia, contrary to all rules, took the room by storm.
Alicia"s excuse and salvation lay in a telegram, which she held in her hand.
"For you, Hilda!" cried the child, excited. "I"m just off to school."
Hilda reached to take the offered telegram, but her hand wavered around it instead of seizing it. Her eye fastened on a circular portion of the wall-paper pattern, and she felt that the whole room was revolving about her. Then she saw Janet"s face transformed by an expression of alarm.
"Are you ill, Hilda?" Janet demanded. "Sit down."
"You"re frightfully pale," said Alicia eagerly.
Hilda sat down.
"No, no," she said. "It was the pattern of the wall-paper that made me feel dizzy." And, for the moment, she did honestly believe that the pattern of the wall-paper had, in some inexplicable manner, upset her.
"I"m all right now."
The dizziness pa.s.sed as suddenly as it had supervened. Janet held some ineffectual salts to her nose.
"I"m perfectly well," insisted Hilda.
"How funny!" Alicia grinned.
Calmly Hilda opened the telegram, which read: "Please come at once.-- GAILEY."
She gave the telegram to Janet in silence.
"What can be the matter?" Janet asked, with unreserved, loving solicitude. The cloud which had hung between the two enthusiastic friends was dissipated in a flash.
"I haven"t an idea," said Hilda, touched. "Unless it"s those shares!"
She had briefly told Janet about the Hotel Continental Limited.
"Shall you go?"
Hilda nodded. Never again would she ignore an urgent telegram, though she did not believe that this telegram had any real importance. She attributed it to Sarah"s increasing incompetence and hysterical foolishness.
"I wonder whether I can get on to Brighton to-night if I take the six train?" Hilda asked, and to herself: "Can it have anything to do with George?"
Alicia, endowed with authority, went in search of a Bradshaw. But the quest was fruitless. In the Five Towns the local time-table, showing the connections with London, suffices for the citizen, and the breast-pocket of no citizen is complete without it.
"Clayhangers are bound to have a Bradshaw," cried Alicia, breathless with running about the house.
"Of course they are," Janet agreed.
"I"ll walk down there now," said Hilda, with extraordinary prompt.i.tude.
"It won"t take five minutes."
"I"d go," said Alicia, "only I should be late for school."
"Shall I send some one down?" Janet suggested. "You might be taken dizzy again."
"No, thanks," Hilda replied deliberately. "I"ll go--myself. There"s nothing wrong with me at all."
"You"ll have to be sharp over it," said Alicia pertly. "Don"t forget it"s Thursday. They shut up at two, and it"s not far off two now."
"I"m going this very minute," said Hilda.
"And I"m going this very second!" Alicia retorted.
They all three left Janet"s bedroom; the new cloak cast over a chair- back, was degraded into a tedious ba.n.a.lity--and ignored.
In less than a minute Hilda, hatted and jacketed and partially gloved, was crossing the garden. She felt most miraculously happy and hopeful, and she was full of irrational grat.i.tude to Alicia, as though Alicia were a benefactor! The change in her mood seemed magic in its swiftness.
If Janet, with calm, cryptic face, had not been watching her from the doorway, she might have danced on the gravel.
CHAPTER V THURSDAY AFTERNOON
I
She was walking with Edwin Clayhanger up Duck Bank on the way to Bursley railway station. A simple errand and promenade,--and yet she felt herself to be steeped in the romance of an adventure! The adventure had surprisingly followed upon the discovery that Alicia had been quite wrong. "Clayhangers are bound to have a Bradshaw," the confident Alicia had said. But Clayhangers happened not to have a Bradshaw. Edwin was alone in the stationery shop, save for the a.s.sistant. He said that his father was indisposed. And whereas the news that Clayhangers had no Bradshaw left Hilda perfectly indifferent, the news that old Darius Clayhanger was indisposed and absent produced in her a definite feeling of gladness. Edwin had decided that the most likely place to search for a Bradshaw was the station, and he had offered to escort her to the station. Nothing could have been more natural, and at the same time more miraculous.
The sun was palely shining upon dry, clean pavements and upon roads juicy with black mud. And in the sunshine Hilda was very happy. It was nothing to her that she was in quest of a Bradshaw because she had just received an ominous telegram urgently summoning her to Brighton. She was obliviously happy. Every phenomenon that attracted her notice contributed to her felicity. Thus she took an eager joy in the sun. And a marked improvement in Edwin"s cold really delighted her. She was dominated by the intimate conviction: "He loves me!" Which conviction excited her dormant pride, and made her straighten her shoulders. She benevolently condescended towards Janet. After all Janet, with every circ.u.mstance in her favour, had not known how to conquer Edwin Clayhanger. After all she, Hilda, possessed some mysterious characteristic more potent than the elegance and the goodness of Janet Orgreave. She scorned her former self-deprecations, and reproached her own lack of faith: "I am I!" That was the summary of her mood. As for her att.i.tude to Edwin Clayhanger, she could not explain it. Why did she like him and like being with him? He was not brilliant, nor masterful, nor handsome, nor well dressed, nor in any manner imposing. On the contrary, he was awkward and apologetic, and not a bit spectacular. Only the wistful gaze of his eyes, and his honest smile, and the appeal of his gestures...! A puzzling affair, an affair perfectly incomprehensible and enchanting.
They walked side by side in silence.
When they had turned into Moorthorne Road, half-way up whose slope lies the station, she asked a question about a large wooden building from whose interior came wild sounds of shouting and cheering, and learnt that the potters on strike were holding a meeting in the town theatre.
At the open outer doors was a crowd of starving, shivering, dirty, ragged children, who romped and cursed, or stood unnaturally meditative in the rich mud, like fakirs fulfilling a vow. Hilda"s throat was constricted by the sight. Pain and joy ran together in her, burning exquisitely; and she had a glimpse, obscure, of the mystical beauty of the children"s suffering.
"I"d no idea there was a theatre in Bursley," she remarked idly, driven into a ba.n.a.lity by the press of her sensations.
"They used to call it the Blood Tub," he replied. "Melodrama and murder and gore--you know."
She exclaimed in horror. "Why are people like that in the Five Towns?"
"It"s our form of poetry, I suppose," said he.
She started, sensitively. It seemed to her that she had never understood the secret inner spirit of the Five Towns, and that by a single phrase he had made her understand it.... "Our form of poetry"! Who but he could have said a thing at once so illuminating and so simple?
Apparently perplexed by the obvious effect on her of his remark, he said: