"I have nothing to do. -- I am a loose pin in the Mosaic of society -- the pattern is all made up without me."
"What pin has got your place?" said Winthrop.
"What do you mean?"
"Simply, that as in the nature of things there cannot be too many pins, a pin that is out of place must be such by a derelict of duty."
"What is my place?"
"If my word would set you in it, I would tell you."
"Tell me, and perhaps it will."
"I should bid you return to your engineer"s work and serve G.o.d in it."
"Very poor chance for serving G.o.d or man, in that work," said Rufus. "Or myself."
"And no chance at all so long as you are doing nothing."
"I cannot bear to compare myself with you," -- Rufus went on moodily.
"Compare yourself with yourself, Will, -- the actual with the possible, -- and then go forward."
"What is possible in an engineer"s life!" said Rufus.
"Everything is possible, in any place where Providence has put you, for the future at least. And the firm purpose of serving G.o.d in it, will dignify for the present any life.
""A man that looks on gla.s.s ""On it may stay his eye; ""Or, if he pleaseth, through it pa.s.s, ""And then the heaven espy!""
Rufus met the grave slight smile on his brother"s face, and his eye watered.
"You are better than I am," he said with one of very different meaning.
"If that be true to-day, Will, don"t let it be true to- morrow."
They wrung each other"s hands, and the elder brother went soberly away.
CHAPTER II.
An"t be any way, it must be with valour; for Policy I hate: I had as lief be a Brownist as a politician.
TWELFTH NIGHT.
The family at No. 11 on the Parade, were seated at breakfast one morning towards the latter end of May; the old trio, only with Elizabeth and Rose in each other"s places.
"What is the reason Winthrop Landholm don"t come here any more?" said the latter lady.
"I don"t know," said Mr. Haye, when the silence had threatened the failure of any answer at all.
"What"s the reason, Lizzie?"
"I don"t know! -- how should I?"
"I am sure I can"t tell," said Rose, "but I didn"t know but you did. I wish you"d ask him to come again, Mr. Haye -- do you know how he is getting up in the world?"
"I know how cotton is falling," said Mr. Haye, swallowing his tea and the newspaper apparently both at the same time.
"Cotton! --" said Rose. "Now Mr. Haye, just put down that paper and listen to me; -- do you know how Winthrop Landholm is holding his head up?"
"No," said Mr. Haye, looking at the pretty little head which was holding itself up, over against him.
"Well, he is. You didn"t hear what Mr. Satterthwaite was saying about him last night, did you?"
"I didn"t hear Mr. Satterthwaite say anything."
"Well he says he"s had quite a great cause come on, now, just a few days ago --"
"Who has? Mr. Satterthwaite?"
"Why no, Mr. Haye! -- of course! -- I mean Mr. Landholm has -- a cause that he was to argue, you know -- that"s what I mean -- before Chancellor Justice -- and Mr. Satterthwaite says he did it splendidly! -- he said everybody stood and looked; -- and the Chancellor gave him everything he asked for -- made all his exceptions, he said, whatever that means --"
"_Allowed_ his exceptions," said Elizabeth.
"O you could listen when Mr. Satterthwaite was speaking of Winthrop Landholm!"
"Mr. Satterthwaite don"t often have so good a subject. I listened certainly, and was very much interested; -- the only time I ever remember Mr. Satterthwaite"s saying anything I cared to hear."
"Well, now, Mr. Haye, why isn"t it just as well to say "_made_ an exception," as "_allowed_ an exception"? I don"t think "allowed an exception" is good English."
"It is good law English, I suppose, Rose."
"Well, I don"t care -- at any rate, he said the Chancellor allowed every one of Mr. Landholm"s exceptions, -- suppose _you_ understand it; -- and wouldn"t allow a single thing to Mr.
Brick; and Mr. Brick was the lawyer on the other side; and Mr.
Satterthwaite said it was a great triumph for Mr. Landholm."
"Dustus O. Brick?" said Mr. Haye.
"Yes," said Elizabeth.
"I don"t know," said Rose; "he said Mr. Brick, -- or the noted Mr. Brick -- I suppose that"s the man."
"Dustus O. Brick!" said Mr. Haye -- "he"s one of the best men in the bar, and a very clever man too; a distinguished lawyer; there"s no one more thought of."
"That"s what Mr. Satterthwaite said, -- he said so, -- he said it was a great triumph for Mr. Landholm; -- and now Mr. Haye, _won"t_ you ask him to come here again as he used to?"