"No, not often," said Elizabeth guiltily. "I row more."
"So early?"
"No, not generally. Though there is no time more pleasant."
"You are looking well," he said gravely. "Better than I ever saw you look."
"It"s very odd," thought Elizabeth, -- "it must be the flush of my walk -- I didn"t look so this morning in the gla.s.s -- nor last night. --" But she looked up and said boldly, laughing,
"I thought you came here to see the prospect, Mr. Landholm."
"I have been looking at it," he said quietly. "I need not say anything about that -- it never changes."
"Do you mean that I do?" said Elizabeth.
"Everybody ought to change for the better, always," he said with a little smile, -- "so I hope you are capable of that."
Elizabeth thought in her heart, though she was no better, yet that she had truly changed for the better, since former times; she half wanted to tell him so, the friend who had had most to do with changing her. But a consciousness of many things and an honest fear of speaking good of herself, kept her lips shut; though her heart beat with the wish and the doubt.
Winthrop"s next words in a few minutes decided it.
"What is the fact, Miss Elizabeth?"
Elizabeth hesitated, -- and hesitated. He looked at her.
"I hope I am changed, a little, Mr. Landholm; but there is a great deal more to change!"
Her face was very ingenuous and somewhat sorrowful, as she turned it towards him; but his looked so much brighter than she had ever seen it, that the meeting of the two tides was just more than her spirits could bear. The power of commanding herself, which for the last few minutes had been growing less and less, gave way. Her look shrank from his. Winthrop had come nearer to her, and had clasped the hand that was nearest him and held it in his own. It was a further expression of the pleasure she had seen in his smile. Elizabeth was glad that her own face was hidden by her sunbonnet. She would not have either its pain or its pleasure to be seen. Both were sharp enough just then. But strong necessity made her keep outwardly quiet.
"What does the change date from?"
"As to time, do you mean?" said Elizabeth struggling.
"As to time, and motive."
"The time is but lately," she said with a tremulous voice, -- "though I have thought about it, more or less, for a good while."
"Thought what?"
"Felt that you were right and I was wrong, Mr. Landholm."
"What made you think you were wrong?"
"I felt that I was -- I knew it."
"What makes you think you are changed now?"
"I hardly dare speak of it -- it is so little."
"You may, I hope, -- to me."
"It is hardly _I_ that am changed, so much as my motives and views."
"And they -- how?" he said after waiting a moment.
"It seems to me," she said slowly, "lately, that I am willing to go by a new rule of life from that I used to follow."
"What is the new rule?"
"Well -- Not my own will, Mr. Landholm."
He stood silent a little while. Her hand was still held in his. Elizabeth would have thought he had forgotten it, but that it was held in a free clasp which did not seem to imply forgetfulness. It was enough to forbid it on her part.
"How does the new rule work?" was his next question.
"It works hard, Mr. Landholm!" said Elizabeth, turning her face suddenly upon him for an instant. His look was bright, but she felt that her own eyes were swimming.
"Do you know that I am very glad to hear all this?" he said after another little pause.
"Yes," said Elizabeth under breath, -- "I supposed you would be. -- I knew you would."
"I hope you like being catechized," he said in a lighter tone.
"Yes -- I do -- by anybody that has a right to do it."
"I have taken the right."
"Certainly! -- You have the best in the world."
"I am glad you think so, though I don"t exactly see how you make it out."
"Why! -- it"s not necessary to explain how I make it out," said Elizabeth.
"No, -- especially as I am going to ask you to give it to me for the future."
"What?" -- said she looking at him.
He became grave.
"Miss Haye, I have a great boon to ask of you."
"Well?" -- said Elizabeth eagerly. "I am very glad you have!"
"Why?"
"Why? -- why, because it"s pleasant."
"You don"t know what it is, yet."