Chapter 1345: So Sweet! Public Display of Affection is Everywhere! (5)
Saving the damsel in distress—this would have been a perfect scenario placed in any novel or television drama. However, it just was not applicable to both of them. Rather, it was the beginning of a nightmare.
“I am no longer an eighteen-year-old little girl. Young ladies are usually very pure and innocent. Just like s.h.i.+ Guang and Lu Yanchen before, regardless of how unhappy they were after an argument, they would always pact up and live happily ever after. But we are different. We are already mature adults and we can’t be as reckless as ever anymore. Every decision we make has to be thought out carefully and we must calculate whether this decision would be beneficial or harmful for us,” Su Qianxun said with indifference.
She looked at Lu Yanzhi and seemed to want to continue on, but he interrupted her.
“I understand where you are coming from. You are neither rejecting me nor do you dislike me, you just need time, am I right?”
Su Qianxun remained silent as she thought of how she should answer him. “…”
However, Lu Yanzhi did not give her much time to consider and said, “In that case, silence means consent. You are not wrong to have such a mindset, but I also have something to say to you. The content is similar, however, it is surprisingly different from your way of thinking.”
Su Qianxun: “…”
Lu Yanzhi kept a stern expression while he looked straight into her eyes, and he said, “Su Qianxun, listen to me carefully. First, during the first time I met you, I wasn’t an eighteen-year-old little boy. Second, I have put in serious consideration in every decision that I have made. Back then, I could’ve helped you escape and I could’ve made a decision for you, but I refused to. Then again, it had nothing to do with whether I loved you or not. It was solely because I am a soldier and I can die with you, but the mission must carry on. You might be angry after hearing this, but I have to make things clear with you because if I want to be with you, I must not hide anything from you.”
Su Qianxun clenched her fist. Lu Yanzhi was saying that he did not even need time to consider, but rather, he was avoiding the problem like a scaredy-cat.
Even if that was true, was she at fault?
She was scared, too.
Was it wrong for someone who has been hurt before to be more careful?
To fall down once may be considered as an accident, but to fall down twice on the same spot would look stupid.
“I know it is unfair to you and I was in the wrong. Back then, if I could’ve controlled my emotions better and spoke to you nicely, perhaps you wouldn’t have to go through so many hards.h.i.+ps. But everything happened too fast and I even lost two of my most important teammates during the mission. And yet, I had to hear you say such things to me… I just lost it!”
His words caused tears to well up in Su Qianxun’s eyes.
Back then, she did not know that his teammates… Had she known, she would not have agitated him. When she found out that his teammates died, someone had already sent her away. She hesitated on asking the person who had sent her away to pa.s.s on a few words to him, but she decided to remain silent in the end.
“I am sorry that you had to go through so much and I am also thankful that you gave birth to Xiao Bai. I just wanted to tell you that ‘I like you and I love you, are you willing to be with me?’ This was what I have been trying to tell you back then. It’s not that I have not thought about telling you for the past few years, but I just could not let you know and…”
He said his words very carefully and tried to get into her good books.
However, this only made Su Qianxun angrier. “I don’t want to hear your explanation too!”
Lu Yanzhi felt a little helpless in this situation. “What I mean is, no matter how angry I was, or no matter how hard I tried to forget you, I still cannot control my emotions! Otherwise, I would have married another woman now!”