Chapter 668: Loving Yet Not Understanding (4)
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Lu Yanchen’s face turned colder by a couple of degrees as though his eyes were laced with frost. “I believe you know in your heart that the distance between us was never caused by Rong Mo.”
“Then what do you want me to do? Do you think that I can take it as though nothing had happened?” s.h.i.+ Guang scoffed out, “And then accept everything calmly at a time when my sister is missing? You can do that because she’s not your sister, but I can’t!”
Indeed, Rong Mo was nothing more than the catalyst for the knot that was tied within their hearts.
She thought that by not blaming him, she would be able to take it as though everything was fine and get about with life. That was especially so after the landslide when they thought that they had placed the past behind them… that everything would be fine once her sister was found.
But, was that really the case?
She had no way of forgetting everything. Often, s.h.i.+ Guang would dream of her parents asking her where Feifei was. The reason why she believed so firmly that he would be able to find Feifei—and refused to accept anything otherwise—was because she felt she could only have the cheek to be with him after she was found.
Without Feifei being found, everything was nothing more than a façade, where the gulf in their hearts was as wide as the rivers even if they were embracing one another.
In his heart, he knew clearer than her about this, and that was the reason why it was getting harder and harder for him to accept the outcome of things. That was the reason why he felt so upset when she went to look for Rong Mo—her actions merely defined the contradictions that lined their hearts.
But, what else could she do?
Despite her impatience, s.h.i.+ Guang remarked to the best of her composure, “I’ll be staying in the dorm tomorrow. Coincidentally, I have one more compet.i.tion, and I wish to focus on my training in the provincial team entirely during the compet.i.tion period.”
Lu Yanchen’s face changed suddenly. “You mean to say that you wish to live in separation with me?”
s.h.i.+ Guang replied coldly, “It’s just training. Marrying you does not mean that I have to give up on my dreams.”
He asked icily as well, “Since when have I stopped you from swimming?”
Speechless, s.h.i.+ Guang was somewhat helpless. “Why do you insist on quarreling with me?”
“Me, quarreling with you?” He curled his lips mockingly. “I merely asked you about how things would be if your sister never returned, and instantly, you decided to move to the dorm. Am I the one picking a fight with you, or perhaps, in your heart, it has always been…”
He did not complete his sentence, merely looking at her in a straightforward manner.
He had always been avoiding the truth in his heart, telling himself that because everything happened due to him, he could merely ignore it. However, each time they were getting intimate emotionally, she would always mention something about how she would never truly be blissful if her sister hadn’t returned.
Perhaps, she was reminding herself instead of telling it to him.
But each time he heard it, his heart would feel wrenched.
It wasn’t that he hadn’t thought about feigning ignorance, but a human’s heart was greedy.
s.h.i.+ Guang was filled with hatred toward Su Ya and Yang Sitong. But toward him, her heart was filled with contradictions.
Yet, the only thing he had ever wanted was her love.
Unless he found her sister, there was no way to resolve the knots in their hearts.
Right…?
That was the question he wanted to ask her, but where was the answer?
He guessed that perhaps she herself did not know.
“I suddenly remembered that I still have things to settle. You should head back first,” Suddenly, Lu Yanchen’s tone turned tender as he looked at her deeply before turning around to leave.
Looking at his back view, s.h.i.+ Guang bit down on her lips harshly. As the door closed behind him, she blinked and tears gradually flowed…