"Yes, you got up in your sleep, and I followed you; and the doctor will soon be here, although little need we have of him."
"Oh, I"ve had a fearful dream. I thought I saw Warren or Alford. I surely heard Alford"s voice."
"Yes, dear, I"ve no doubt you had a bad dream; and it may be that Alford"s voice caused it, for he arrived late last night and has been talking with your father."
"That must be it," she sighed; "but my head is so confused. Oh, I am so glad he"s come! When can I see him?"
"Not till after the doctor comes and you are much stronger."
"I wish to thank him; I can"t wait to thank him."
"He doesn"t want thanks, deary; he wants you to get well. You owe it to him and your father to get well--as well as your great and lifelong sorrow permits. Now, deary, take a little more stimulant, and then don"t talk. I"ve explained everything, and shown you your duty; and I know that my brave Grace will do it."
"I"ll try," she said, with a pathetic weariness in her voice that brought a rush of tears to Graham"s eyes.
Returning to Major St. John, he a.s.sured him that Grace had revived, and that he believed she would be herself hereafter.
"Oh, this cursed war!" groaned the old man; "and how I have exulted in it and Warren"s career! I had a blind confidence that he would come out of it a veteran general while yet little more than a boy. My ambition has been punished, punished; and I may lose both the children of whom I was so proud. Oh, Graham, the whole world is turning as black as Grace"s mourning robes."
"I have felt that way myself. But, Major, as soldiers we must face this thing like men. The doctor has come; and I will bring him here before he goes, to give his report."
"Well, Graham, a father"s blessing on you for going back for Warren. If Grace had been left in suspense as to his fate she would have gone mad in very truth. G.o.d only knows how it will be now; but she has a better chance in meeting and overcoming the sharp agony of certainty."
Under the physician"s remedies Grace rallied more rapidly; and he said that if carried to her room she would soon sleep quietly.
"I wish to see Mr. Graham first," she said, decisively.
To Mrs. Mayburn"s questioning glance, he added, "Gratify her. I have quieting remedies at hand."
"He will prove more quieting than all remedies. He saved my husband"s life once, and tried to do so again; and I wish to tell him I never forget it night or day. He is brave, and strong, and tranquil; and I feel that to take his hand will allay the fever in my brain."
"Grace, I am here," he said, pushing open the door and bending his knee at her side while taking her hand. "Waste no strength in thanks. School your broken heart into patience; and remember how dear, beyond all words, your life is to others. Your father"s life depends on yours."
"I"ll try," she again said; "I think I feel better, differently. An oppression that seemed stifling, crushing me, is pa.s.sing away. Alford, was there no chance--no chance at all of saving him?"
"Alas! no; and yet it is all so much better than it might have been!
His grave is in a quiet, beautiful spot, which you can visit; and fresh flowers are placed upon it every day. Dear Grace, compare your lot with that of so many others whose loved ones are left on the field."
"As he would have been were it not for you, my true, true friend," and she carried his hand to her lips in pa.s.sionate grat.i.tude. Then tears gushed from her eyes, and she sobbed like a child.
"Thank the good G.o.d!" e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed Mrs. Mayburn. "These are the first tears she has shed. She will be better now. Come, deary, you have seen Alford. He is to stop with us a long time, and will tell you everything over and over. You must sleep now."
Graham kissed her hand and left the room, and the servants carried her to her apartment. Mrs. Mayburn and the physician soon joined him in the library, which was haunted by a memory that would shake his soul to his dying day.
The physician in a cheerful mood said, "I now predict a decided change for the better. It would almost seem that she had had some shock which has broken the evil spell; and this natural flow of tears is better than all the medicine in the world;" and then he and Mrs. Mayburn explained how Grace"s manner had been growing so strange and unnatural that they feared her mind was giving way.
"I fear you were right," Graham replied sadly; and he told them of the scene he had witnessed, and produced the vial of laudanum.
The physician was much shocked, but Mrs. Mayburn had already guessed the truth from her nephew"s words and manner when she first discovered him.
"Neither Grace nor her father must ever know of this," she said, with a shudder.
"Certainly not; but Dr. Markham should know. As her physician, he should know the whole truth."
"I think that phase of her trouble has pa.s.sed," said the doctor, thoughtfully; "but, as you say, I must be on my guard. Pardon me, you do not look well yourself. Indeed, you look faint;" for Graham had sunk into a chair.
"I fear I have been losing considerable blood," said Graham, carelessly; "and now that this strong excitement is pa.s.sing, it begins to tell. I owe my leave of absence to a wound."
"A wound!" cried his aunt, coming to his side. "Why did you not speak of it?"
"Indeed, there has been enough to speak of beyond this trifle. Take a look at my shoulder, doctor, and do what you think best."
"And here is enough to do," was his reply as soon as Graham"s shoulder was bared: "an ugly cut, and all broken loose by your exertions this evening. You must keep very quiet and have good care, or this reopened wound will make you serious trouble."
"Well, doctor, we have so much serious trouble on hand that a little more won"t matter much."
His aunt inspected the wound with grim satisfaction, and then said, sententiously: "I"m glad you have got it, Alford, for it will keep you home and divert Grace"s thoughts. In these times a wound that leaves the heart untouched may be useful; and nothing cures a woman"s trouble better than having to take up the troubles of others. I predict a deal of healing for Grace in your wound."
"All which goes to prove," added the busy physician, "that woman"s nature is different from man"s."
When he was gone, having first a.s.sured the major over and over again that all danger was past, Graham said, "Aunt, Grace"s hair is as white as yours."
"Yes; it turned white within a week after she learned the certainty of her husband"s death."
"Would that I could have died in Hilland"s place!"
"Yes," said the old lady, bitterly; "you were always too ready to die."
He drew her down to him as he lay on the lounge, and kissed her tenderly, as he said, "But I have kept my promise "to live and do my best.""
"You have kept your promise _to live_ after a fashion. My words have also proved true, "Good has come of it, and more good will come of it.""
CHAPTER x.x.xII
A WOUNDED SPIRIT
Grace"s chief symptom when she awoke on the following morning was an extreme la.s.situde. She was almost as weak as a violent fever would have left her, but her former unnatural and fitful manner was gone. Mrs.
Mayburn told Graham that she had had long moods of deep abstraction, during which her eyes would be fixed on vacancy, with a stare terrible to witness, and then would follow uncontrollable paroxysms of grief.
"This morning," said her anxious nurse, "she is more like a broken lily that has not strength to raise its head. But the weakness will pa.s.s; she"ll rally. Not many die of grief, especially when young."
"Save her life, aunty, and I can still do a man"s part in the world."
"Well, Alford, you must help me. She has been committed to your care; and it"s a sacred trust."
Graham was now installed in his old quarters, and placed under Aunt Sheba"s care. His energetic aunt, however, promised to look in upon him often, and kept her word. The doctor predicted a tedious time with his wound, and insisted on absolute quiet for a few days. He was mistaken, however. Time would not be tedious, with frequent tidings of Grace"s convalescence and her many proofs of deep solicitude about his wound.