"So the staff shall live to see another day?" She didn"t know why she was instigating conversation, why she was so reluctant to let him go, to let him end the evening. She hadn"t completely closed the door on them making love tonight, but he obviously had. She should be relieved.
"So long as their performance remains up to par."
He turned away from her, and she couldn"t keep herself from admiring the view. The broad set of his shoulders, his lean waist and his muscular b.u.t.t were far too tempting a treat to pa.s.s up. She had to get her thrills somewhere. And before Marco it had been a long time since she"d gotten any. And those had been innocent thrills, mild in comparison to the kind of sensations that were pinging through her body now, electrifying the blood that was charging through her veins.
"I"ll probably just go to bed," she said.
Marco turned and watched her look forlornly at the long couch. She was probably weighing her need to keep up her hard-to-get act versus her need for a good night"s sleep-although she wouldn"t find a good night"s sleep on the couch or in his bed.
He went into the office without bothering to watch her make her final decision. His body ached with need and it unsettled him. Yes, it had been a long time since he"d been with a woman, much longer than he was accustomed to, but that did not excuse the intensity of the desire that had him hard, throbbing, and unable to concentrate.
Ironic that he had never come close to proposing marriage to a woman in his life, and the one he had married seemed to avoid physical contact with him at all costs. But she desired it as he did. She wanted him too. But something was stopping her from making the final step. It could all be part of her act-playing at reluctance in order to build his level of s.e.xual frustration to a fever pitch. Or she could be genuinely opposed to conducting a physical relationship. He couldn"t discount that possibility.
But, whatever her reasoning, he was still left with a raging hard-on and no satisfaction in sight.
He clenched his fists and turned his attention to his laptop, trying to turn his normally high-performing mind to the task at hand. It was a futile attempt. His body was talking much louder than his brain tonight.
And he wasn"t the type of man to practice self-denial.
Despite the fact that as far as her body was concerned it was the early hours of the morning, she knew she was far too keyed-up to get any sleep. She wandered through the villa, pausing to enjoy the native Hawaiian-style artwork before wandering into the bathroom.
She needed a bath to settle her mind and her body. But the bathroom that was at the "safe" end of the villa-the end that didn"t take her anywhere near Marco"s office or bedroom-only had a shower, and she was desperate for her nightly ritual.
She opened the gla.s.s door that led to the outdoor courtyard. Low stone walls and a vine covered lattice roof offered privacy, but also allowed her to see the jade-green bay, turned gray by the silver moonlight.
A ma.s.sive jet tub sat in the corner of the courtyard. A freestanding wooden rack with towels and a white silk bathrobe was situated by the tub. She sighed. Stress relief was at hand. It wouldn"t relieve any of her other physical issues, but it would help loosen her knotted shoulders.
She turned the gilded taps and experimented with the a.s.sorted essential oils that had been placed on the towel rack. Candles were placed on the four corners of the tub, and a lighter had been left nearby. She bent over and lit each candle. It was the perfect setting. Relaxing. Sensual. Romantic. It was a bath designed for two. But only one would be taking it. And it was better that way.
She slipped out of her clothes quickly, her eyes darting to the door, praying that Marco didn"t pick that moment to explore this portion of the villa, and stepped into the tub. Or maybe, a treacherous voice spoke up, it would be more interesting if he did. She banished the unapproved thought and sank beneath the water, letting the scent of mint and vanilla wash over her, relaxing her body and her mind.
It was so easy to imagine Marco sitting behind her, her head pillowed on his muscular chest, her body wedged between his masculine thighs, the rough hair abrading her soft skin...Her heart began to pound heavily, and her body began to feel a whole different kind of languor.
She stood from the tub abruptly and reached for one of the jade-green towels, drying her over-sensitive skin quickly before wrapping herself in a robe. She stepped out of the water and welcomed the slight bite of the night air. She needed something to cool her down.
She padded over to the far end of the courtyard and out the gate that led to the large wooden deck that was attached to the villa. She leaned against the railing and gazed down into the koi pond, watching the fat orange fish swim lazily through the water. Her heart was still pounding and her breath was coming out in short, uneven bursts.
She drew a shaky hand over her face. She had a feeling she was fighting a losing battle. Maybe the key was to stop fighting. She wanted Marco. She didn"t want to get married for real, and fall in love-at least not in the foreseeable future-but she honestly didn"t want to die a virgin either. Not that she"d ever worried about it much before.
If she slept with Marco she ran the risk of getting in too deep. She knew that women sometimes underestimated the effect s.e.x had on them. But if she went into it with her eyes open and viewed it as a learning experience, was able to be detached...maybe then it would work.
"I was looking for you." Marco"s husky whisper drew her from her reverie. She turned to face him and her throat dried. He was so impossibly handsome, so amazingly, sensationally masculine. He made everything feminine inside of her quiver with expectant longing.
"I took a bath," she said, hoping the silver moonlight disguised the blush she knew was staining her cheekbones. "It helps me relax."
He moved closer to her, his eyes black in the dim light, the planes of his face thrown into sharp relief. He reached a hand out and cupped her cheek, stroking it lightly with his thumb. She shivered, and she felt her nipples tighten and press against the thin, insubstantial fabric of the robe, her aching flesh calling for his attention, his touch.
He tipped her chin up and she met his eyes, shocked by the stark hunger she saw in them-a hunger that reflected her own. "If I kiss you I won"t stop," he said, his voice a rough whisper. "Not until you"re naked beneath me, crying out my name."
She licked her lips. He remained still, his uncompromising gaze locked on hers. He was putting her in control, making her take the final step. She couldn"t refuse him. Not again. She didn"t have the willpower or the desire to walk away from him.
"Marco." She hoped he didn"t notice the tremor in her voice. "Kiss me. Now."
And then his mouth was on hers, hot, hungry and consuming. He pulled her into his body, pressing his insistent arousal against her center. She moved her hips reflexively, and gasped at the sensations that radiated through her.
He parted her lips and thrust his tongue deep into the recesses of her mouth. She let her tongue glide against his, the friction nearly buckling her knees. She had never been kissed like this, so deeply and pa.s.sionately. The ember that had been smoldering low in her belly caught fire and burned through her, white heat streaking through her veins. Every nerve ending, every cell, was on high alert. Every feeling was magnified. Desire had become something wild and uncontrollable. Want had become need, desperate and as necessary as her next breath.
Marco moved his hand to her waist and the flimsy robe slipped from her body, leaving her totally exposed to the cool night air and to him. He drew back for a moment, taking in the sight of her body. She wanted to cover herself, but fought the urge. She"d never been naked in front of a man before, and she was overwhelmed by a surge of self-consciousness, but she didn"t want to look like the gauche virgin that she was. She wasn"t about to confess to that. Not now. Not with him. He would probably laugh at her, if he believed her at all. She closed her hands into fists and managed to keep them at her sides.
"You are such a beautiful woman." He stroked her aching nipple with one callus-roughened thumb and she gasped at the exquisite sensation that arrowed from her breast to her core.
A broken cry escaped her lips, and any thoughts of modesty flew from her mind. She moved to embrace him again, pressing her naked body against him, not caring that he was still fully clothed. He gripped her rear end and drew her tightly into him. The b.u.t.tons of his shirt teased her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, his belt buckle, and beneath that his clothcovered erection, pressed into her belly. This time her knees did give way. Only his firm grasp kept her from melting into a puddle at his feet.
He locked his lips over hers again and smoothed his hands up her body, skimming them lightly over her curves. She was beginning to feel lightheaded. Tension was coiling in her pelvis, so tight it was nearly unbearable. He cupped her b.r.e.a.s.t.s with his hands, rolling his thumbs over their taut peaks. The muscles at her feminine core pulsed and she gasped into his mouth.
He removed one of his hands and cursed. He drew away from her and she saw that he"d been reaching for his wallet.
"What?" she asked. Her body was so tense, so needy. She needed his hands again, his mouth.
"I don"t have a condom," he said simply.
She laughed weakly, not quite able to believe she was having this conversation with him. "The hotel has an excellent concierge."
He groaned. "It will take far too long. I need you now, cara mia."
A thrill of feminine power shot through her. His need was the same as hers. He felt just as desperate and aching and close to the edge.
"I"m on the pill," she blurted, silently thanking the doctor who had suggested she start taking birth control to regulate her cycle.
He looked at her for a moment, his expression implacable. "I"m healthy. I always use condoms. Even when the woman is on some other form of birth control."
"I"m healthy," she promised. On that point she was certain.
And then she was back in his arms, his kisses fierce and possessive. She began to undo the b.u.t.tons on his crisp white dress shirt with shaking fingers, her heart thundering in her ears. When the shirt fluttered to the floor all she could do was stare dumbly in admiration at the perfection that she had uncovered.
"I want to touch you," she said.
He chuckled. "Be my guest."
His breath came out in a hiss when her cool hands came into contact with his hot, sweat-slicked skin. She could feel his heart pounding heavily beneath her palm, the erratic rhythm mirroring her own. She let her hands roam over his lightly hair-roughened pectoral muscles and down his washboard flat abs, reveling in the hardness and heat that radiated from his gorgeous body. She trailed a finger down the line of hair that disappeared beneath the waistband of his pants.
He sucked in a breath and gripped her wrist, halting her exploration. "I think it"s time to find a bed," he ground out.
"I thought you were accustomed to making do with the floor." She didn"t recognize the husky, sultry voice that came out of her mouth.
"Minx." He lifted her off her feet and into his arms, taking long strides into the house.
"Caveman," she said, breathless.
He crossed the large villa quickly, his heavy footfalls echoing the pounding of her heart.
"You bring that out in me," he said, setting her on her feet in front of the canopied bed.
"I do?" she asked, her voice breaking as he pressed a kiss to the hollow of her throat.
"Yes. You make me feel dangerously uncivilized."
He kissed the valley between her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, and she couldn"t have responded to his comment if she"d wanted to. Then he moved his head and took one straining peak into his mouth. She closed her eyes, stars dancing across her vision. Molten desire pooled hot in her belly and dampened her core.
Marco took her hands and placed them on his belt. With shaking fingers she undid the buckle and let it hang loosely. She looked at the outline of his bulging erection, pushing aggressively against his black pants and quickly undid the closure before nerves could overtake her arousal. She lowered the zipper and the back of her hand made contact with his hardened shaft. His body jerked, and he groaned in obvious pleasure.
Emboldened by his response, she encircled his heavy length through the thin fabric and squeezed gently. He closed his eyes and tilted his head back. "You"re a dangerous woman."
She laughed shakily and started to work his pants down over his lean hips, taking his underwear with them. It suddenly seemed very important to see him, to get her first glimpse of a naked man, so she could a.s.sess exactly what she was dealing with.
The sight of his nude body took her breath away. He was beautiful. He was also very big-much bigger than she"d antic.i.p.ated a man could be-and she had to wage a small battle with her nerves. She inhaled and wrapped her fingers around him. His skin was even hotter there, like a flame. She moved her hand over his velvety skin, exploring him, learning what he liked and what made him moan with pleasure.
"Enough teasing." He picked her up again and she found herself lying flat on her back on the cool white comforter.
He drew a nipple into his mouth, sucking it, laving it with the flat of his tongue, before moving his attention to the other breast and repeating the act. Heat flared in her pelvis and all nervousness fled, pushed out by the intense longing that was pouring through her body in waves.
Marco pulled back and looked at her, his eyes glittering with pa.s.sion. He let a finger drift up her inner thigh, coming close to her pulsing wet center. She shivered, antic.i.p.ation of the unknown coupled with her intense arousal making the muscles in her legs quiver.
Testing her readiness, he slid the tip of one finger inside of her tight channel. She gasped, her hips bowing up off the bed. "Beautiful," he murmured.
He leaned down, spreading her thighs wide with his broad shoulders. Then he touched the sensitive bundle of nerves with his soft lips.
"Marco!" she pushed against him.
He chuckled and pulled her hands down, pinning them to the bed. He lowered his mouth again, sliding his tongue gently through her damp folds, sucking her moist c.l.i.toris. The tension in her pelvis tightened until she thought she would shatter into a million pieces if something didn"t give.
He repeated the motion, penetrating her with his tongue, and the tension snapped. Pleasure rolled over her like a tidal wave, and for a moment there was nothing. Nothing but feelings so acute, so all consuming, that they overtook her completely, leaving her spent and breathless in the aftermath.
When she came back to herself Marco was above her, positioning himself at her slick entrance. Her o.r.g.a.s.m had taken the edge off her need, but she was still unsatisfied. She ached for him, for his possession. She cupped his tight b.u.t.tocks with her hands and urged him forward.
He surged into her-and the pain blinded her for a moment, the tearing sting bringing tears to her eyes. She bit her lip to keep the scream that was building in her throat from escaping and lay rigid beneath him, trying to catch her breath.
"What the-?" He began to move away from her, but she gripped his hips, pulling him back to her.
"No. It"s getting better. Just be still for a moment." She wrapped her feet around his calves, anchoring him to her.
Gradually the stinging subsided and gave way to a feeling of fullness that was exquisite beyond words. Arousal flared to life inside her again, all discomfort forgotten.
Marco remained still, the cords of his neck standing out, showing the effort it took for him to maintain self-control.
"Now," she begged.
Then he began to move. The sensation was so shattering, so amazing. She was lost in the steady rhythm of his thrusting. The fractured sounds of their breathing. She felt the muscles in her pelvis spasming. The feeling tightened more still, radiating down to her internal muscles. She was reaching for something-something that seemed much too high for her to grasp.
Then she found it. It was so deep, so all-consuming that she couldn"t keep it all inside of her. She let out a hoa.r.s.e cry as the pleasure rushed up and crashed over her like a wave. She gripped his shoulders, using him as an anchor, as her release went on and on, until finally she was left spent and breathless, floating in the swirling surf.
Marco stiffened above her and pushed himself firmly against her, freezing for a moment while he gave himself up to his own o.r.g.a.s.m. He collapsed on top of her and held her close, his accelerated heartbeat reverberating through her, matching the beat of her own.
She brushed a lock of hair out of his eye and traced the features of his face lightly with her fingers. He had shown her a side of herself she hadn"t believed existed; he had made her more than she had been.
It was impossible in that moment to shut off the emotion that washed through her. Her heart was full and she felt tears begin to slide down her cheeks. She didn"t want to guess at why she felt whole with Marco joined to her...why she felt she might break when he withdrew.
In that moment she was very much afraid that she was the nave fool she"d promised herself she would never become.
Chapter Eight.
MARCO rolled onto his back, his breathing labored, his blood roaring in his ears. His whole body was still on fire from what had been simply the most amazing s.e.xual experience of his life. And the most reckless, stupid act he"d ever committed.
He"d had s.e.x with her without a condom, taking her word for it that she was on birth control. She"d been a virgin. A virgin.
He"d never so much as kissed an innocent, and now he"d taken one to bed and initiated her none too gently. He was torn between immense guilt at the realization that he"d taken her virginity, and a building rage at the thought that she might have contrived to trap him.
He turned and looked at the woman lying in bed with him. Tears were rolling down her pink cheeks, her bottom lip, swollen and red from his violent kisses, was trembling. His gut twisted, and guilt overrode the anger.
"Did I hurt you?" he asked, catching a tear with his thumb.
She shook her head and then grimaced. "Well, it didn"t hurt for too long."
"Why didn"t you tell me that you were a virgin?"
She grimaced at the word. "I didn"t think it would matter. I kind of hoped you wouldn"t notice, actually. And anyway, you wouldn"t have believed me."
"You don"t know that." He knew she was right. He would never have believed her. He would have thought it a ploy of some kind-just another tactic to get him to drop his guard and do something stupid and irresponsible. Of course even without her admission he"d managed to be stupid and irresponsible.
A few more tears slid down her cheeks.
"I did hurt you," he said.
"No." She swiped at the moisture on her face. "I don"t know why I"m crying. I really don"t. I"m not normally a crier."
"A woman"s first time is very emotional."
Her face pinked. "Are you very experienced in the matter?"
"I can only claim this single experience."