And I could kill myself now for having boasted to him that on my side of the family the men had no fear of alcohol, since they knew how to drink in moderation. We were not weak and foolish where drugs were concerned.
AT LEAST EUGENE Jr. was beautiful, having inherited the features of his mother. When he was growing up in this valley, people could not resist saying to me, with him right there to hear it, that he was the most beautiful child they"d ever seen.
I have no idea where he is now. He stopped communicating with me or anybody in this valley years ago.
He hates me.
SO DOES MELANIE, although she wrote to me as recently as 2 years ago. She was living in Paris with another woman. They were both teaching English and math in an American high school over there.
MY KIDS WILL never forgive me for not putting my mother-in-law into a mental hospital instead of keeping her at home, where she was a great embarra.s.sment to them. They couldn"t bring friends home. If I had put Mildred into a nuthouse, though, I couldn"t have afforded to send Melanie and Eugene Jr. to such expensive schools. I got a free house at Tarkington, but my salary was small.
Also, I didn"t think Mildred"s craziness was as unbearable as they did. In the Army I had grown used to people who talked nonsense all day long. Vietnam was 1 big hallucination. After adjusting to that, I could adjust to anything.
What my children most dislike me for, though, is my reproducing in conjunction with their mother. They live in constant dread of suddenly going as batty as Mildred and Margaret. Unfortunately, there is a good chance of that.
IRONICALLY ENOUGH, I happen to have an illegitimate son about whom I learned only recently. Since he had a different mother, he need not expect to go insane someday. Some of his kids, if he ever has any, could inherit my own mother"s tendency to fatness, though.
But they could join Weight Watchers as Mother did.
HEREDITY IS OBVIOUSLY much on my mind these days, and should be. So I have been reading up on it some in a book that also deals with embryology. And I tell you: People who are wary of what they might find in a book if they opened 1 are right to be. I have just had my mind blown by an essay on the embryology of the human eye.
No combination of Time and Luck could have produced a camera that excellent, not even if the quant.i.ty of time had been 1,000,000,000,000 years! How is that for an unsolved mystery?
WHEN I WENT to work at Athena, I hoped to find at least 1 of the 3 convicts who had seen Mildred and Margaret and me having a picnic so long ago. As I"ve said, I took 1 of them to be a White, or possibly Hispanic. So he would have been transferred to a White or Hispanic prison before I ever got there. The other 2 were clearly black, but I never found either of them. I would have liked to hear what we looked like to them, how contented we seemed to be.
They were probably dead. AIDS could have got them, or murder or suicide, or maybe tuberculosis. Every year, 30 inmates at Athena died for every student who was awarded an a.s.sociate in the Arts and Sciences Degree by Tarkington.
PAROLE.
IF I HAD found a convict who had witnessed our picnic, we might have talked about the fish my mother-in-law hooked while he was watching. He saw her rod bend double, heard the reel scream like a little siren. But he never got to see the monster who had taken her bait and was headed south for Scipio. Before he could see it, he was back in darkness in another van.
IT WAS HEAVY test line I had put on the reel. This was deep-sea stuff made for tuna and shark, although, as far as we knew, there was nothing in Lake Mohiga but eels and perch and little catfish. That was all Mildred had ever caught before.
One time, I remember, she caught a perch too little to keep. So I turned it loose, even though the barb of the hook had come out through one eye. A few minutes later she hooked that same perch again. We could tell by the mangled eye. Think about that. Miraculous eyes, and no brains whatsoever.
I PUT SUCH heavy test line on Mildred"s reel so that nothing could ever get away from her. In Honduras 1 time I did the same thing for a 3-star General, whose aide I was.
Mildred"s fish couldn"t snap the line, and Mildred wouldn"t let go of the rod. She didn"t weigh anything, and the fish weighed a lot for a fish. Mildred went down on her knees in the water, laughing and crying.
I"ll never forget what she was saying: "It"s G.o.d! It"s G.o.d!"
I WADED OUT to help her. She wouldn"t let go of the rod, so I grasped the line and began to haul it in, hand over hand.
How the water swirled and boiled out there!
When I got the fish into shallow water, it suddenly quit fighting. I guess it had used up every bit of its energy. That was that.
This fish, which I picked up by the gills and flung up on the bank, was an enormous pickerel. Margaret looked down at it in horror and said, "It"s a crocodile!"
I looked at the top of the bank to see what the convicts and guards thought of a fish that big. They were gone. There was nothing but the broken-down van up there. The little door to its steel box was wide open. Anybody was free to climb inside and close the door, in case he or she wondered what it felt like to be a prisoner.
TO THOSE FASCINATED by Forensic Medicine: The pickerel had not bitten on the worm on the hook. It had bitten on a perch which had bitten on the worm on the hook.
I thought that would be interesting to my mother-in-law during our trip back home in the new Mercedes. But she didn"t want to talk about the fish at all. It had scared the daylights out of her, and she wanted to forget it.
As the years went by, I would mention the fish from time to time without getting anything back from her but a stony silence. I concluded that she really had purged it from her memory.
But then, on the night of the prison break, when the 3 of us were living in an old house in the hamlet of Athena, down below the prison walls, there was this terrific explosion that woke us up.
If Jack Patton had been there with us, he might have said to me, "Gene! Gene! They"re playing our tune again."
The explosion was in fact the demolition of Athena"s main gate from the outside, not the inside. The purported head of the Jamaican drug cartel, Jeffrey Turner, had been brought down to Athena in a steel box 6 months before, after a televised trial lasting a year and a half. He was given 25 consecutive life sentences, said to be a new record. Now a well-rehea.r.s.ed force of his employees, variously estimated as being anything from a platoon to a company, had arrived outside the prison with explosives, a tank, and several half-tracks taken from the National Guard Armory about 10 kilometers south of Rochester, across the highway from the Meadowdale Cinema Complex. One of their number, it has since come out, moved to Rochester and joined the National Guard, swearing to defend the Const.i.tution and all that, with the sole purpose of stealing the keys to the Armory.
The j.a.panese guards were wholly unprepared and unmotivated to resist such a force, especially since the attackers were all dressed in American Army uniforms and waving American flags. So they hid or put their hands up or ran off into the virgin forest. This wasn"t their country, and guarding prisoners wasn"t a sacred mission or anything like that. It was just a business.
The telephone and power lines were cut, so they couldn"t even call for help or blow the siren.
The a.s.sault lasted half an hour. When it was over, Jeffrey Turner was gone, and he hasn"t been seen since. The attackers also disappeared. Their uniforms and military vehicles were subsequently found at an abandoned dairy farm owned by German land speculators a kilometer north of the end of the lake. There were tire tracks of many automobiles, which led police to conclude that it was by means of unremarkable civilian vehicles, seemingly unrelated, and no doubt leaving the farm at timed intervals, that the lawless force had made its 100-percent-successful getaway.
Meanwhile, back at the prison, anyone who didn"t want to stay inside the walls anymore was free to walk out of there, first taking, if he was so inclined and got there early, a rifle or a shotgun or a pistol or a tear-gas grenade from the wide-open prison armory.
THE POLICE SAID, too, that the attackers of the prison obviously had had first-cla.s.s military training somewhere, possibly at a private survival school somewhere in this country, or maybe in Bolivia or Colombia or Peru.
ANYWAY: MARGARET AND Mildred and I were awakened by the explosion, which demolished the main gate of the prison. There was no way we could have imagined what was really going on.
The 3 of us were sleeping in separate bedrooms. Margaret was on the first floor, Mildred and I were on the second floor. No sooner had I sat up, my ears ringing, than Mildred came into my room stark naked, her eyes open wide.
She spoke first. She used a slang word for hugeness I had never heard her speak before. It wasn"t slang of her generation or even mine. It was slang of my children"s generation. I guess she had heard it and liked it, and then held it in reserve for some really important occasion.
Here is what she said, as sporadic small-arms fire broke out at the prison: "Do you remember that humongous humongous fish I caught?" fish I caught?"
11.
AT ONE TIME I fully expected to spend the rest of my life in this valley, but not in jail. I envisioned my mandatory retirement from Tarkington College in 2010. I would be modestly well-off with Social Security and a pension from the College. My mother-in-law would surely be dead by then, I thought, so I would have only Margaret to care for. I would rent a little house in the town below. There were plenty of empty ones.
But that dream would have been blasted even if there hadn"t been a prison break, even if the Social Security system hadn"t gone bust and the College Treasurer hadn"t run off with the pension funds and so on. For, as I"ve said before, in 1991 Tarkington College fired me.
There I was in late middle age, cut loose in a thoroughly looted, bankrupt nation whose a.s.sets had been sold off to foreigners, a nation swamped by unchecked plagues and superst.i.tion and illiteracy and hypnotic TV, with virtually no health services for the poor. Where to go? What to do?
THE MAN WHO got me fired was Jason Wilder, the celebrated Conservative newspaper columnist, lecturer, and television talk-show host. He saved my life by doing that. If it weren"t for him, I would have been on the Scipio side of the lake instead of the Athena side during the prison break.
I would have been facing all those convicts as they crossed the ice to Scipio in the moonlight, instead of watching them in mute wonderment from the rear, like Robert E. Lee during Pickett"s Charge at the Battle of Gettysburg. They wouldn"t have known me, and I would still have seen only 3 Athena convicts in my time.
I would have tried to fight in some way, although, unlike the College President, I would have had no guns. I would have been killed and buried along with the College President and his wife Zuzu, and Alton Darwin and all the rest of them. I would have been buried next to the stable, in the shadow of Musket Mountain when the Sun went down.
THE FIRST TIME I saw Jason Wilder in person was at the Board meeting when they fired me. He was then only an outraged parent. He would later join the Board and become by far the most valuable of the convicts" hostages after the prison break. Their threat to kill him immobilized units of the 82nd Airborne Division, which had been brought in by school bus from the South Bronx. The paratroops sealed off the valley at the head of the lake and occupied the sh.o.r.eline across from Scipio and to the south of Scipio, and dug in on the western slope of Musket Mountain. But they dared not come any closer, for fear of causing the death of Jason Wilder.
There were other hostages, to be sure, including the rest of the Trustees, but he was the only famous one. I myself was not strictly a hostage, although I would probably have been killed if I had tried to leave. I was a sort of floating, noncombatant wise man, wandering wherever I pleased in Scipio under siege. As at Athena Prison, I tried to give the most honest answer I could to any question anyone might care to put to me. Otherwise I stayed silent. I volunteered no advice at Athena, and none in Scipio under siege. I simply described the truth of the inquirer"s situation in the context of the world outside as best I could. What he did next was up to him.
I call that being a teacher. I don"t call that being a mastermind of a treasonous enterprise. All I ever wanted to overthrow was ignorance and self-serving fantasies.
I WAS FIRED without warning on Graduation Day. I was playing the bells at high noon when a girl who had just completed her freshman year brought the news that the Board of Trustees, then meeting in Samoza Hall, the administration building, wanted to talk to me. She was Kimberley Wilder, Jason Wilder"s learning-disabled daughter. She was stupid. I thought it was odd but not menacing that the Trustees would have used her for a messenger. I couldn"t imagine what business she might have had that would bring her anywhere near their meeting. She had in fact been testifying before them about my supposed lack of patriotism, and had then asked for the honor of fetching me to my liquidation.
She was one of the few undercla.s.spersons still on the campus. The rest had gone home, and relatives of those about to get their a.s.sociate in the Arts and Sciences certificates had taken over their suites. No relative of Kimberley"s was about to graduate. She had stayed around for the Trustees" meeting. And her famous father had come by helicopter to back her up. The soccer field was being used as a heliport. It looked like a rookery for pterodactyls.
Others had arrived in conventional aircraft at Rochester, where they had been met by rented limousines provided by the college. One senior"s stepmother said, I remember, that she thought she had landed in Yokohama instead of Rochester because there were so many j.a.panese. The thing was that the changing of the guard at Athena had coincided with Graduation Day. New guards, mostly country boys from Hokkaido, who spoke no English and had never seen the United States, were flown directly to Rochester from Tokyo every 6 months, and taken to Athena by bus. And then those who had served 6 months at the gates, and on the walls and catwalks over the mess halls, and in the watchtowers, and so on, were flown straight home.
"HOW COME YOU haven"t gone home, Kimberley?" I said.
She said that she and her father wanted to hear the graduation address, which was to be delivered by her father"s close friend and fellow Rhodes Scholar, Dr. Martin Peale Blankenship, the University of Chicago economist who would later become a quadriplegic as a result of a skiing accident in Switzerland.
Dr. Blankenship had a niece in the graduating cla.s.s. That was what brought him to Scipio. His niece was Hortense Mellon. I have no idea what became of Hortense. She could play the harp. I remember that, and her upper teeth were false. The real teeth were knocked out by a mugger as she left a friend"s coming-out party at the Waldorf-Astoria, which has since burned down. There is nothing but a vacant lot there now, which was bought by the j.a.panese.
I heard that her father, like so many other Tarkington parents, lost an awful lot of money in the biggest swindle in the history of Wall Street, stock in a company called Microsecond Arbitrage.
I HAD SPOTTED Kimberley as a snoop, all right, but not as a walking recording studio. All through the academic year now ending, our paths had crossed with puzzling frequency. Again and again I would be talking to somebody, almost anywhere on the campus, and realize that Kimberley was lurking close by. I a.s.sumed that she was slightly cracked, and was eavesdropping on everyone, avid for gossip. She wasn"t even taking a course of mine for credit, although she did audit both Physics for Non-scientists and Music Appreciation for Nonmusicians. So what could I possibly be to her or she to me? We had never had a conversation about anything.
One time, I remember, I was shooting pool in the new recreation center, the Pahlavi Pavilion, and she was so close that I was having trouble working my cuestick, and I said to her, "Do you like my perfume?"
"What?" she said.
"I find you so close to me so often," I said, "I thought maybe you liked my perfume. I"m very flattered, if that"s the case, because that"s nothing but my natural body odor. I don"t use perfume."
I can quote myself exactly, since those words were on one of the tapes the Trustees would play back for me.
She shrugged as though she didn"t know what I was talking about. She didn"t leave the Pavilion in great embarra.s.sment. On the contrary! She gave me a little more room for my cuestick but was still practically on top of me.
I was playing 8-ball head to head with the novelist Paul Slazinger, that year"s Writer in Residence. He was dead broke and out of print, which is the only reason anybody ever became Writer in Residence at Tarkington. He was so old that he had actually been in World War II. He had won a Silver Star like me when I was only 3 years old!
He asked me who Kimberley was, and I said, and she got this on tape, too, "Pay no attention. She"s just another member of the Ruling Cla.s.s."
So the Board of Trustees would want to know what it was, exactly, that I had against the Ruling Cla.s.s.
I didn"t say so back then, but I am perfectly happy to say now that the trouble with the Ruling Cla.s.s was that too many of its members were nitwits like Kimberley.
ONE THEORY I had about her snooping was that she was t.i.tillated by my reputation as the campus John F. Kennedy as far as s.e.x outside of marriage was concerned.
If President Kennedy up in Heaven ever made a list of all the women he had made love to, I am sure it would be 2 or 3 times as long as the one I am making down here in jail. Then again, he had the glamour of his office, and the full cooperation of the Secret Service and the White House Staff. None of the names on my list would mean anything to the general public, whereas many on his would belong to movie stars. He made love to Marilyn Monroe. I sure never did. She evidently expected to marry him and become First Lady, which was a joke to everybody but her.
She eventually committed suicide. She finally found life too embarra.s.sing.
I STILL HARDLY knew Kimberley when she appeared in the bel tower on Graduation Day. But she was chatty, as though we were old, old pals. She was still recording me, although what she already had on tape was enough to do me in.
She asked me if I thought the speech Paul Slazinger, the Writer in Residence, gave in Chapel had been a good one. This was probably the most anti-American speech I had ever heard He gave it right before Christmas vacation, and was never agair seen in Scipio. He had just won a so-called Genius Grant from the MacArthur Foundation, $50,000 a year for 5 years. On the same night of his speech he bugged out for Key West, Florida He predicted, I remember, that human slavery would come back, that it had in fact never gone away. He said that so man) people wanted to come here because it was so easy to rob the poor people, who got absolutely no protection from the Gov ernment. He talked about bridges falling down and water mains breaking because of no maintenance. He talked about oil spills and radioactive waste and poisoned aquifers and looted banks and liquidated corporations. "And n.o.body ever gets punishec for anything," he said. "Being an American means never having to say you"re sorry."
On and on he went. No matter what he said, he was stil going to get $50,000 a year for 5 years.
I said to Kimberley that I thought Slazinger had said some things which were worth considering, but that, on the whole he had made the country sound a lot worse than it really was and that ours was still far and away the best one on the planet She could not have gotten much satisfaction from that reply