Twilight deepened into dusk, and dusk into dark, and then the moon rose over the poplar trees outside the window where Susanna and Sue were sleeping. The Shaker Brethren and Sisters were resting serenely after their day of confession. It was the aged Tabitha"s last Sabbath on earth, but had she known, it would have made no difference; if ever a soul was ready for heaven, it was Tabitha"s.
There was an Irish family at the foot of the long hill that lay between the Settlement and the village of Albion; father, mother, and children had prayed to the Virgin before they went to bed; and the gray-haired minister in the low-roofed parsonage was writing his communion sermon on a text sacred to the orthodox Christian world. The same moon shone over all, and over millions of others worshiping strange idols and holding strange beliefs in strange far lands, yet none of them owned the whole of heaven; for as Elder Gray said, "It is a big place and belongs to G.o.d."
Susanna Hathaway went back to John thinking it her plain duty, and to me it seems beautiful that she found waiting for her at the journey"s end a new love that was better than the old; found a husband to whom she could say in that first sacred hour when they were alone together, "Never mind, John! Let"s forget, and begin all over again."
When Susanna and Sue alighted at the little railway station at Farnham, and started to walk through the narrow streets that led to the suburbs, the mother"s heart beat more and more tumultuously as she realized that the issues of four lives would be settled before nightfall.
Little did Sue reck of life issues, skipping like a young roe from one side of the road to the other. "There are the hills, not a bit changed, Mardie!" she cried; "and the sea is just where it was!... Here"s the house with the parrot, do you remember? Now the place where the dog barks and snarls is coming next... P"raps he"ll be dead.., or p"raps he"ll be nicer... Keep close to me till we get past the gate... He did n"t come out, so p"raps he is dead or gone a-visiting.... There"s that "specially lazy cow that"s always lying down in the Buxtons" field....
I don"t b"lieve she"s moved since we came away.... Do you s"pose she stands up to be milked, Mardie? There"s the old bridge over the brook, just the same, only the woodbine"s red.... There"s... There"s... Oh, Mardie, look, look!... I do b"lieve it"s our Jacky!"
Sue flew over the ground like a swallow, calling "Jack-y! Jack-y! It"s me and Mardie come home!"
Jack extricated himself from his sister"s strangling hug and settled his collar. "I"m awful glad to see you, Sukey," he said, "but I"m getting too big to be kissed. Besides, my pockets are full of angleworms and fishhooks."
"Are you too big to be kissed even by mother?" called Susanna, hurrying to her boy, who submitted to her embrace with better grace. "O Jack, Jack! say you"re glad to see mother! Say it, say it; I can"t wait, Jack!"
""Course I"m glad! Why would n"t I be? I tell you I"m tired of Aunt Louisa, though she"s easier than she was. Time and again I"ve packed my lunch basket and started to run away, but I always made it a picnic and went back again, thinking they"d make such a row over me."
"Aunt Louisa is always kind when you"re obedient," Susanna urged, "She ain"t so stiff as she was. Ellen is real worried about her and thinks she"s losing her strength, she"s so easy to get along with."
"How"s... father...?"
"Better"n he was."
"Has n"t he been well?"
"Not so very; always quiet and won"t eat, nor play, nor anything. I"m home with him since Sunday."
"What is the matter with your clothes?" asked Susanna, casting a maternal eye over him while she pulled him down here and up there, with anxious disapproving glances. "You look so patched, and wrinkled, and grubby."
"Aunt Louisa and father make me keep my best to put on for you, if you should come. I clean up and dress every afternoon at train time, only I forgot today and came fishing."
"It"s too cold to fish, sonny."
"It ain"t too cold to fish, but it"s too cold for "em to bite,"
corrected Jack.
"Why were you expecting us just now?" asked Susanna. "I did n"t write because... because, I thought... perhaps... it would be better to surprise you."
"Father"s expecting you every day, not just this one," said Jack.
Susanna sank down on a stone at the end of the bridge, and leaning her head against the railing, burst into tears. In that moment the worst of her fears rolled away from her heart like the stone from the mouth of a sepulcher. If her husband had looked for her return, he must have missed her, regretted her, needed her, just a little. His disposition was sweet, even if it were thoughtless, and he might not meet her with reproaches after all. There might not be the cold greeting she had often feared--"_Well, you"ve concluded to come back, have you_? _It was about time_!" If only John were a little penitent, a little anxious to meet her on some common ground, she felt her task would be an easier one.
"Have you got a pain, Mardie?" cried Sue, anxiously bending over her mother.
"No, dear," she answered, smiling through her tears and stretching a hand to both children to help her to her feet. "No, dear, I"ve lost one!"
"I cry when anything aches, not when it stops," remarked Jack, as the three started again on their walk. "Say, Sukey, you look bigger and fatter than you did when you went away, and you"ve got short curls "stead of long ones. Do you see how I"ve grown? Two inches!"
"I"m inches and inches bigger and taller," Sue boasted, standing on tiptoe and stretching herself proudly. "And I can knit, and pull maple candy, and say Yee, and sing "O Virgin Church, how great thy light.""
"Pooh," said Jack, "I can sing "A sailor"s life"s the life for me, Yo ho, yo ho!" Step along faster, mummy dear; it"s "most supper time. Aunt Louisa won"t scold if you"re with me. There"s the house, see? Father "ll be working in the garden covering up the asters, so they won"t freeze before you come."
"There is no garden, Jack. What do you mean?" "Wait till you see if there"s no garden! Hurrah! there"s father at the window, side of Aunt Louisa. Won"t he be pleased I met you halfway and brought you home!"
Oh! it was beautiful, the autumn twilight, the smoke of her own hearth-side rising through the brick chimneys! She thought she had left the way of peace behind her, but no, the way of peace was here, where her duty was, and her husband and children.
The sea was deep blue; the home hills rolled softly along the horizon; the little gate that Susanna had closed behind her in anger and misery stood wide open; shrubs, borders, young hedgerows, beds of late autumn flowers greeted her eyes and touched her heart. A foot sounded on the threshold; the home door opened and smiled a greeting; and then a voice choked with feeling, glad with welcome, called her name.
Light-footed Sue ran with a cry of joy into her father"s outstretched arms, and then leaping down darted to Ellen, chattering like a magpie.
Husband and wife looked at each other for one quivering moment, and then clasped each other close.
"Forgive! O Susanna, forgive!"
John"s eyes and lips and arms made mute appeals, and it was then Susanna said, "Never mind, John! Let"s forget, and begin all over again!"