All the firms shared a receptionist, an older woman named Rita with a white streak in her blue-black hair and a blue streak in her voice. "Any messages?" I asked her when I returned from my meeting with Prescott.
"Nothing worthwhile, Mr. Carl. Surprise." Her voice was pure New Jersey, like an annoying siren. "Except that guy from the copier company called again. He started complaining to me, like I was the one who owed him the money. I told him to make a xerox of the invoice and send it in."
I took the pink slips from my place in the message rack and shuffled through them. "They don"t want you to call it a xerox," I said idly. "It"s a trade name."
"Yeah, I know. But I love when they start explaining it over the telephone. He"s sending you a warning letter and a xerox of their trademark policy. Vimhoff"s looking for you," she said.
"Is he here?"
"No, but he said he wants to talk with you Monday morning. How much rent do you owe?"
"I won"t be in Monday morning."
"That much?"
"A new case. Really."
She didn"t laugh, she gave off more of a snort.
I took my messages and followed the vinyl-papered hallway past Vimhoff"s office, as neat and orderly as a row of numbers, past the large design office filled with the whirr of Macintosh computers, past the architect"s office, door closed as always, until I reached the rear, where Ellie, our secretary, sat quietly at her desk, chewing gum, reading a magazine, guarding our three sad little offices. She was impossibly young, Ellie, very pretty in a Catholic school way, red hair, freckles, cute comic book nose, and always dressed inappropriately bright and sharp, as if each morning she was on her way to a christening. Guthrie had hired her right out of high school, had gotten her name from a nun, though when he left for his new firm he took with him Carolyn, our other secretary, the one who knew how to type. But Ellie had kept coming around even after her paychecks stopped, which was better than her knowing how to type.
"Where"s Derringer?" I asked. "I have news."
"On the way back from Social Security."
"How did it go?"
"It was the Cooperman case," said Ellie in a tone that meant nothing else needed to be said. "By the way, Mr. Vimhoff"s looking for you."
"I know. I finally settled Saltz."
"That dog?"
"Be polite."
"Does that mean I get paid this month?"
"Just as soon as the check clears. By the way, Ellie, do me a favor. I ran into Winston Osbourne the other day and it got me thinking. Find out who Osbourne"s daughter is, her name, I think she"s married, and her address. Call Mrs. Osbourne at the house. She"ll know. Pretend you"re an old friend."
"Sure."
"I"ve a hunch where we"re going to find ourselves a Duesenberg."
My office proper was a small dark place. I had once had plans for it. I was going to paint the walls an eggsh.e.l.l blue, lay down an oriental carpet, haul in a huge mahogany desk, hide the pale metal of the filing cabinets in a wood veneer. From the galleries on Walnut Street I was to pick a large landscape, Early American, epic and green, and hang it catercorner to the window. Plants, there would be tall leafy plants, and deep leather chairs for my clients to sit upon as I wove for them the sage legal advice for which I would become renowned. But the plans for my office, like the plans for my life, had dissolved before the relentless progression of my reality. My office now was a small dark place, cluttered with the detritus of a failing career - disorganized piles of meaningless paper, dusty stacks of long dead files. On the windowsill was the narrow brown spine of a wandering Jew who had settled down in death. There was desolation in my office that would not be eased by forty thousand dollars, only prolonged.
"Abington Cardiology."
"Dr. Saltz, please," I said into the phone.
"Who"s calling?" asked the receptionist.
"Victor Carl. He"ll know what it"s about."
"One minute, please."
There was a click, and then the soft sounds of Henry Mancini vibrating gently from a thousand strings, from a thousand and one, and then Saltz"s slurry gangster voice.
"Hey Vic, hold on a minute, will you? I"m on the other line."
"Sure."
And once more the sweep of violins. I hated being placed on hold. It was not the waste of time so much as the fact that my time was being wasted by someone else. The indignity of it. The not so subtle message that I was nowhere near as important as whoever was on the other line. I bet the President never got put on hold, nor football stars, nor billionaires, nor women with whippet bodies and deep blue eyes. Shady lawyers in failing firms with maxed credit lines got put on hold. And why did they pipe music through the hold line? You"re not important enough to deal with right now, but so your time won"t totally be wasted...I would have hung up then and there but I needed to talk to Saltz and I had nothing else pressing and, well, Saltz probably was talking to someone more important than me, a powerful and desperate patient in the middle of a heart attack receiving the vital information he needed to stay alive.
"Victor," he said finally. "Thanks for waiting. I was talking to my plumber. The money those guys charge, Jesus. What"s up?"
"Good news," I said. "We got a settlement offer."
"How much?"
"I met with a fellow named Prescott, the big hitter over at Talbott, Kittredge, who seems to have taken control of the case. We met for over an hour, yelling at each other, but I pushed him up to something great."
"How much?"
"I got him to give us a hundred and twenty thousand."
"And how much of that would I get?"
"There are eight of you with equal shares, so after our fee that would be ten thousand each."
There was a pause where I waited for the congratulations to spill out my side of the receiver.
"Is that all?" he said in his rough, loose voice. "What the f.u.c.k"s that, that"s nothing. I put a hundred and twenty-five grand into that piece-of-c.r.a.p building and all I"m going to get out of it is a measly ten thou? They defrauded the h.e.l.l out of me. I should be getting more than ten grand there, Victor. I should be getting their b.a.l.l.s on a plaque."
"Lou," I said quietly, "if they wanted to stonewall and take us to trial, we"d lose."
"A hundred and twenty-five grand I lost. Did you ever find that accountant who did the numbers in that bulls.h.i.t prospectus? What"s his name?"
"Stocker," I said. "Still missing. The FBI is looking for him, too."
"I bet he"s got stories to tell."
"Not in time to help us. He"s probably on the beach somewhere in Brazil, doing the samba with dark-skinned women and laughing at us."
"I hate to think I"m getting taken again here, Victor. Maybe we should just throw the dice and let those b.a.s.t.a.r.ds fade us, see what the jury comes up with. Did you talk to the other guys?"
"I wanted to talk to you first."
"Set up a meeting next week," he said. "We"ll talk about it together. Maybe it will look better to me then. I got to go, the electrician"s on the line and I don"t want to put him on hold."
"What is it, home improvement week?"
"We bought a house in Radnor. Two point five mil and the thing still needs to be gutted. Go figure. But you know what that"s like, what am I telling you for?"
"Right."
"I"ll talk to you at the meeting next week."
"Sure."
What I hated most about the rich was not their money. I envied them their money, I coveted their money, but I didn"t hate their money. What I hated was the way they pretended it was no big deal.
I went about returning my messages, unfamiliar names and numbers on little pink sheets. They involved bills, each and every one. There was a call from a computer specialist who had fixed the blink in our word processor, one from Little, Brown & Co. about payment for a book Guthrie had ordered before he left, one about a transcript in the Saltz case, which I had ordered but didn"t expect to need any longer. To each I said I would check our records and get back to them and then tossed the pink sheet into the overflowing wastebasket. Vimhoff was supposed to get our offices cleaned twice a week and I realized with a flash of lawyerly insight that the overflowing wastebaskets were my defense to being late with the rent. Constructive eviction. "Clean the d.a.m.n offices and we"ll pay our rent," I would say with a bite of indignation. That might work, at least until I tidied up the Saltz settlement. Ellie poked her head into my office and said she was leaving. I played with my time sheets a bit, fluffing up my hours, and waited to tell Derringer the news of our new case. I didn"t have to wait long.
"So how did it go with the sn.o.bs at Talbott?" she said when she strode into my office without knocking and sat on a wooden bridge chair across from my desk.
"They threw money at me," I said.
"No, really."
Elizabeth Derringer was short and slight, with glossy black hair cut like a helmet around her head. She wore round gla.s.ses that made her look very serious, even when she smiled, but if you could see past the gla.s.ses and the sharp features you could see the glint of a vicious humor. I had met her in law school, where she had been attending nights while she did social work for the city. Her final year she quit her job to get enough credits to graduate a semester early and that"s when I met her. She was smarter than me, she was smart as h.e.l.l, and tougher than burned beef, but she ended up with a night school degree and the firms that turned me down didn"t hire from the night schools. They must have figured that if a law student was smart enough to join their firms, she was smart enough to figure out how to find parents who could afford to pay her tuition. But they missed a prize.
"They"re giving us a hundred and twenty thousand to settle Saltz," I said.
"Golly, we"re rich. And for that dog yet."
"If it goes through. Saltz doesn"t think it"s enough."
"Tell him we have bills to pay," she said.
"I"m setting up a meeting next week to nail it down. What happened with Cooperman?"
"Don"t ask."
"There"s no way they were going to find him disabled because of a little ringing in his ear," I said.
"Please, Victor, have some respect for the ill. Tinnitus. And he can"t work if it"s driving him crazy."
"He"s in demolition."
"I"ll win the appeal," she said. "I"ve got those SSI bureaucrats right where I want them."
Beth was mugged once, in broad daylight, by a crackhead whose courage was stoked by a five dollar hit. He walked up to her, smiled, and then in one quick motion grabbed her purse strap and started to run. Beth held on. Even as the crackhead dragged her down the sidewalk she held on. She was raised in Manayunk, before it was discovered and gentrified. It"s a hilly place, Manayunk, uneven streets, tough kids. She broke her wrist in the fall and sc.r.a.ped her face on the sidewalk, but still she held on. Finally he was the one who let go and ran from this crazed little woman he had dragged half a block, ran straight into a beige Impala with Jesus headlights. The police sc.r.a.ped him off the street. At the preliminary hearing he glowered at her through his bandages, trying to intimidate her out of testifying. She smiled sweetly and buried him.
"I guess I"m not going to convince you to drop the case," I said.
"Nope."
"What say we talk about it over a beer and a burger at the Irish Pub."
"I can"t. I"m going out tonight."
"On a Friday night?" I asked. "You have a date?"
"It"s not a date, not really. It"s a blind date. A blind date is more an interview with a prospective date, an exchange of resumes, silly chatter designed to test social skills, nothing more."
"I was going to tell you about the new case I picked up today," I said, a little jealous that she had someplace, anyplace, to go that night.
She stood up. "Tell me tomorrow, I"m going to be late."
And then she was gone.
I readied to leave and turned out my office lights and then sat down again in my chair to watch the shifting city light play out across the garbage cans in the alley. I could feel it all about me. It was inescapable, falling cold and hard from stars in the sky, dripping from the leafless trees along the polluted city streets, surging down in waves, swirling like the sea about me. The air melted in thick, heavy drops and the spots on the walls danced maniacally and the order of all things was pointlessness and despair and finally death. Its scent lay fetid in the air, rotten, musked, overpoweringly seductive, like the juice of a strange woman. It played across the sallow face of Winston Osbourne in his calamity, it grew despite the X-rays pumped through my father"s lungs, it lay crouched and silent within my heart and infected everything I touched, my practice, my dreams, my relationships. I wanted to get out so bad, out of this life and its manifest pointlessness. I would do anything to get out, anything at all, anything. I was sick to death with the wanting.
When I was in junior high I was picked to perform a genetics experiment with different forms of fruit flies called drosophilae. In the back of the cla.s.sroom I mated the red-eyed variety with the white-eyed variety and then determined the characteristics of the offspring. Drosophilae were perfect for the experiment because their lives were so short and their reproductive cycle so swift that in a very few days I could follow their genetic adventures through a number of generations. For the length of my experiment they were like pets, and when I was supposed to etherize the final batch of offspring to get a precise count of the red-eyed and white-eyed descendants, a procedure that would inevitably kill a majority, I decided instead to release them. "Go, my friends," I said as I opened the small vials in which they had been bred. "Be free." And I watched as successive rows of my cla.s.smates waved distractedly at the air. I thought about my friends the drosophilae in those moments when I felt overwhelmed by the evocations of despair swirling around me and envied them their short, sentienceless lives. To fly, to suck at fruit, to mate and reproduce, all with absolutely no consciousness of their inevitable fate.
So what I did that night after Beth left me was what I did most every night. I stopped off at a storefront grill and ordered a cheese steak with ketchup and onions to go and took it home and ate it in front of the television with half a six-pack beside me. Whatever the night, there was always one show almost worth watching and I was able to stretch a whole night of mindlessness around that one show, running from Jeopardy! through prime time through the late news and the talk shows and finally the late late movie on UHF, until I"d fallen asleep on the couch, drugged by all I had seen. That Friday night was like every other night of what my life had become, and for the few blessed moments that I was caught like a science fiction hero in the power of that electron beam I lost whatever sentience I held and became as connected to the now of my life as the simple but n.o.ble drosophila.
5.
THOUGH I HAD NEVER met Jimmy Moore, I knew his name. I knew thousands of names, actors and criminals, sports heroes and politicians, authors, rock stars, the silly little guy who sells suits on South Street. It is the names who rule the world, the Tina Browns, the Jerry Browns, the Jim Browns. They are the aristocracy of America and whatever their rank, and there is a ranking, from the national to the local to the almost obscure, it is the names who attend the best parties, screw the prettiest people, drink the finest champagne, laugh loudest and longest. Jimmy Moore was a local name, a businessman turned politician, a city councilman with a populist, anti-drug agenda that bridged the lower and middle cla.s.ses. He was a name with aspirations and a loyal following. A name who would be mayor.
I spent the better part of Monday in the offices of Talbott, Kittredge and Chase listening to Jimmy Moore on the telephone. He wasn"t on the telephone with me, of course, as I was not a name and thus not worth talking to. Instead he was on the phone with Michael Ruffing, a restaurateur whose flashy enterprises in the city had made him a local name among the city"s well-cultured and whose phone at his nightclub, Bissonette"s, named after his partner Zack Bissonette, the currently comatose former second baseman, happened to have been tapped by the FBI. I sat alone at the foot of a long marble table in a huge conference room. Fine antique prints of Old Philadelphia lined the walls: Independence Hall, Carpenters Hall, Christ Church, the Second Bank of the United States. The carpet was thick and blue. A tray of soft drinks lay on a credenza behind me and I didn"t have to pay six bits to open one, they were just there, for me. I can"t help but admit that sitting in that room like an invited guest, sitting there like a colleague, gave me a thrill. I was in the very heart of success, someone else"s success maybe, but still the closest I had ever come to the real thing. And there was a dark joy in my heart the whole of my time there because I knew that if all went right this could be my success, too. So I couldn"t help smiling every now and then as I sat in that conference room with earphones on and a yellow pad before me, listening to a score of ca.s.settes holding Jimmy Moore"s taped conversations with Michael Ruffing.
Moore: Your plan for the riverfront is brilliant. Prescient. But I see problems in council.
Ruffing: Uh, like, what kinds of...
Moore: Jesus, Mikey, you got problems.
Ruffing: I don"t need no more problems.