On another day, I asked why Ferdinand didn"t mind being illegitimate when Gervase did, to the brink of breakdown.
"I don"t know," Malcolm said. "Gervase always thinks people are sneering and laughing, even now. Someone rubbed his nose in it when he was young, you know. Told him he was rubbish, a mistake, should have been aborted. Boys can be b.l.o.o.d.y cruel. Gervase got aggressive to compensate, I suppose. Nothing ever worried Ferdinand very much. He"s like me in more than looks."
"Only two wives so far," I said incautiously.
"Why don"t you get married?" he asked.
I was flippant. "Haven"t met the one and only. Don"t want five."
"Don"t you trust yourself?" he said.
Christ, I thought, that was sharp, that was penetrating. That was unfair. It was because of him that I didn"t trust myself: because in inconstancy, I felt I was very much his son.
His imprint, for better or worse, was on us all.
Eighteen On Wednesday, the Beverly Wilshire came alive as Ramsey had prophesied and Ramsey himself blew in with gusto and plans. We would go to parties. We would go round the horse barns. We would go to a Hollywood Gala Ball.
The Breeders" Cup organisers opened their reception room where everyone concerned with the races could have breakfast and c.o.c.ktails (together if they liked) and talk about horses, could arrange cars and rickets and talk about horses, could meet the people they"d met at Epsom and Longchamp and talk about horses. Well-mannered people in good suits and silk dresses, owners whose enthusiasm prompted and funded the sport. Big bucks, big business, big fun.
Malcolm adored it. So did I. Life in high gear. Early on Friday, we went out to the racecourse to see Blue Clancy in his barn and watch him breeze round the track in his last warm-up before the big one. His English trainer was with him, and his English lad. There was heady excitement, a lot of anxiety. The orderly bustle of stable life, the smells, the swear words, the earthy humour, the pride, the affection, the jealousies, the injustices, the dead disappointments, all the same the world over.
Blue Clancy looked fine, worked well, threw Malcolm and Ramsey into back-slapping ecstasies. "Wait until, tomorrow," the trainer said cautiously, watching them. "We"re taking on the best in the world, don"t forget. The hot money is for a California-bred horse."
"What"s hot money?" Malcolm demanded.
"The bets made by people in the know. People with inside information."
Who cared, Malcolm said. He couldn"t remember ever having more fun in his life: and I thought his euphoria was at least partly due to his three close approaches to losing it.
Along with a thousand others, we went to the ball, though in the stretch-limo, not a converted pumpkin, and in the vast sound stage which had lately held a split-open aeroplane for filming cabin dramas, Malcolm danced with several ladies he"d known well for two days. He spent his time laughing. He was infectious. Everyone around him lit up like nightlights, banishing gloom.
We slept, we ate breakfast, we went to the races. The smog that all week had covered the mountains everyone swore were there on the far side of the track, relented and evaporated and disclosed a sunlit rocky backdrop worthy of the occasion. Tables with tablecloths had appeared overnight throughout the Club stands, and overworked black-coated waiters sweated under huge trays of food, threading through ever-moving racegoers, never dropping the lot.
There were seven Breeders" Cup races; various distances, variously aged horses. The first five each offered a total purse (for first, second, third and so on) of one million dollars. Blue Clancy"s race, the one-and-a-half-mile Turf, had a purse of two million, and the climactic event, the Breeders" Cup Cla.s.sic, promised three. They weren"t racing for peanuts. The owner of the winner of Blue Clancy"s race would be personally richer by six hundred and twenty-nine thousand dollars, enough to keep him in Bollinger for weeks.
We cheered home the first five winners. We went down to the saddling stalls and saw Blue Clancy prepared. We went up to the stands and bit our nails.
Five of the seven races were run on the dirt track, two on gra.s.s, of which this was the second; and most of the European horses were running on gra.s.s, the green stuff of home. Blue Clancy was taking on the Epsom Derby winner, the Arc de Triomphe winner and the winner of the Italian Derby. On paper, he looked to have an outside chance of coming fourth. In Malcolm"s and Ramsey"s eyes, he was a shoo-in. (Malcolm had learned the local jargon.) Blue Clancy broke cleanly from the gate away on the far side of the course and his English jockey held him handily in sixth place all down the far side. Ramsey and Malcolm were looking through binoculars and muttering encouragements. Blue Clancy, not hearing them, swung into the long left-hand bottom bend in no better position and was still lying sixth when the field crossed the dirt track as they turned for home. Malcolm"s muttering grew louder. "Come on, you b.u.g.g.e.r. Come on."
There was no clear leader. Three horses raced together in front, followed by a pair together, then Blue Clancy alone. Too much to do, I thought: and the agile colt immediately proved me wrong. His jockey swung him wide of the others to allow him a clear run and gave him unmistakable signals that now was the time that mattered, now, this half-minute, if never again.
Blue Clancy accelerated. Malcolm was shouting, Ramsey was speechless. Blue Clancy in third place, all the crowds roaring. Blue Clancy still faster, second now. Malcolm silent, mouth open, eyes staring. The incredible was happening, awesome, breathtaking... and Blue Clancy had definitely, indubitably won.
Malcolm"s eyes were like sapphires lit from inside. He still couldn"t speak. Ramsey grabbed him by the arm and pulled him, and the two of them ran, almost dancing, weaving through slowcoaches, making their way down to greet their champion"s return. I followed close on their heels, marvelling. Some owners were always lucky, some owners always weren"t; it was an inexplicable fact of racing life. Malcolm"s luck was stupendous. It always had been, in everything except wives. I should have known, I supposed, that it would come with him onto the track. King Midas had touched him, and Blue Clancy was his latest gold.
I wondered ironically what the family would say. The fortune he"d flung away on horses had already come back: Blue Clancy was worth at least double what he"d been before the Arc.
Chrysos, I daydreamed, would win the Derby. The tadpole film (about sharks actually, Malcolm had told me) would win at Cannes. The Pol Roger would appreciate. Everyone would see the point of not murdering the golden goose (Wrong s.e.x, never mind. It was a lightheaded day.) We could return home to welcomes and safety.
Only it wasn"t like that. We would return home to an una.s.sessable danger, and it was essential to be aware of it, and to plan.
Sobered as always by what lay ahead, I nevertheless went to a post-race party in fine spirits, and after that to Los Angeles airport to fly through the night to Australia. The party, the people came with us. Melbourne took up the impetus, pressing forward to its own Cup, always held on the first Tuesday in November. Everything, they told us there, stopped for the race. Schoolchildren had a holiday and the Melbourne shops closed. The Hyatt Hotel, where we stayed (Watson and Watson), had a lobby criss-crossed by people known better in Newmarket, all with the ready grins of kids out of school.
Ramsey had surpa.s.sed himself in the matter of reservations. Even to reach our floor, we had to use a special key in the elevator, and there was a private lounge up there for c.o.c.ktails and breakfast (but separately). Malcolm appreciated it, took it all in his stride, ordered champagne, breathed Melbourne air and became an instant Australian.
Out at Flemington racecourse (no chateau), there was less sophistication than at Santa Anita, just as much enthusiasm, very good food, a much better parade ring. Malcolm found the day"s racing less compulsive than Paris or California through not owning a runner. He"d tried to remedy this on arrival, but no one would sell one of the top bunch, and he wanted nothing less. Instead, he set about gambling with method but only in tens and soon tired of it, win or lose. I left him and Ramsey in the Committee rooms and wandered down to the crowd as in Paris, and wondered how many in the throng struggled with intractable problems in their shirtsleeves, no shirts, carnival hats. When the party was over, Malcolm would grow restless and want to move on, and I wasn"t ready. Under the shade trees, surrounded by beer cans, listening to the vigorous down-under language, I searched for the solution that would cause us least grief.
There was no truly easy way out. No overlooking or dodging what had been done to Moira. But if someone could plead guilty and plead diminished responsibility owing to stress, there might be a quiet trial and a lifetime for us of visiting a sort of hospital instead of a rigorous prison. Either way, any way, there were tears in our future.
On top of that I had to be right, and I had to convince Malcolm beyond any doubt that I was. Had to convince all the family, and the police, without any mistake. Had to find a way of doing it that was peaceful and simple, for all our sakes.
I watched the Melbourne Cup from ground level, which meant in effect that I didn"t see much of it because of the other thousands doing the same. On the other hand, I was closer to the horses before and after, watching them walk, listening to comments, mostly unflattering, from knowledgeable elbowers striving for a view.
The Melbourne Cup runners were older and more rugged than stars back home. Some were eight or nine. All raced far more often, once a week not being unusual. The favourite for that day"s race had won on the course three days earlier.
They were racing for a purse of a million Australian dollars, of which sixty-five per cent went to the winner, besides a handsome gold cup. Thwarted this year, Malcolm, I imagined, would be back next year. He"d met in Paris and California several of the owners now standing in the parade ring and I could guess the envy he was feeling. No one was as pa.s.sionate as a new convert.
When the race was finally off, I couldn"t hear the commentary for the exhortations around me, but it didn"t much matter: the winner was owned by one of the international owners and afterwards I found Malcolm beside the winner"s enclosure looking broody and thinking expensive thoughts.
"Next year," he said.
"You"re addicted."
He didn"t deny it. He and Ramsey slapped each other on the back, shook hands and promised like blood brothers to meet regularly on every major racecourse in the world. Ramsey, the bulky manufacturer of millions of baseball caps, had somewhere along the line realised what "metal" really meant in Malcolm"s vocabulary and from cronies they had become comfortable friends, neither feeling at an advantage over the other.
They discussed staying on in Australia but Ramsey said the baseball caps needed guidance. Malcolm wavered about going to see some gold mines in Kalgoorlie but decided on a gold share broker in Melbourne instead. We spent Melbourne Cup night in a farewell dinner, and when Ramsey had departed in the morning and left us alone in the quiet breakfast room upstairs, Malcolm looked at me as if coming down to earth for the first time since we"d left England. With a touch of despondency, he asked for how long he was to be exiled for safety"s sake.
"But you"ve enjoyed it," I said.
"G.o.d, yes." The remembrance flashed in his eyes. "But it"s not real life. We have to go back. I know I"ve avoided talking about it, it"s all dreadful. 1 know you"ve been thinking about it all this time. I could see it in your face."
I"ve come to know them all so much better," I said, "my brothers and my sisters. I didn"t care for them all that much, you know, before Moira died. We"ve always met of course from time to time, but I"d forgotten to a great extent what we had been like as children." I paused for a bit, but he didn"t comment. "Since the bomb went off at Quantum," I said, "a great deal of the past has come back. And I"ve seen, you know, how the present has grown out of that past. How my sisters-in-law and my brother-in-law have been affected by it. How people easily believe lies, old and new. How destructive it is to yearn for the un.o.btainable, to be unsatisfied by anything else. How obsessions don"t go away, they get worse."
He was silent for a while, then said, "Bleak." Then he sighed and said, "How much do they need, then? How much should I give them? I don"t believe in it, but I see it"s necessary. Their obsessions have got worse as I"ve grown richer. If the money wasn"t there, they"d have sorted themselves out better. Is that what you"re saying?"
"Yes, partly." It hadn"t been, entirely, but as it had produced a reaction I"d wanted but hadn"t expected, I kept quiet.
"All right, then," he said. "I"ve had a b.l.o.o.d.y good holiday and I"m feeling generous, so draw up a list of who"s to get what."
"All equal," I said.
He began to protest, but sighed instead. "What about you, then?"
"I don"t know. We"ll decide about that later."
"I thought you wanted half a million to set up as a trainer."
"I"ve changed my mind. For now, anyway. There"s something else I want to do first."
"What"s that?"
I hesitated. I"d barely admitted it to myself, had certainly told no one else.
"Go on," he urged.
"Be a jockey. Turn professional."
"Good Lord," he said, astonished, "haven"t you left it too late?"
"Maybe. We"ll see. I"ll have three or four years, perhaps. Better than not trying."
"You amaze me." He reflected. "Come to think of it, you"ve constantly amazed me since you came to Newmarket Sales. It seems I hardly knew you before."
"That"s how I feel nbout you," I said, "and about all of the family."
We set off homewards later the same day, travelling west via Singapore. Malcolm"s gold share broker happened to be going there at the same time, so I changed places with him on the aeroplane and let the two of them say things like "percussion and rotary air blast drilling to get a first idea" and "diamond core drilling is necessary for estimating reserves accurately", which seemed to entertain them for hours.
I thought meantime about invitations. About invitations like meat over bear pits. The right invitation would bring the right visitor. The problem was how to make the invitation believable.
Part of the trouble was time. When we reached England, Malcolm would have been out of harm"s way for four weeks, and I for almost three. We"d been safe, and I"d had time to reflect: those on the plus side. On the minus, as far as the invitation was concerned, was the fact that it would be six weeks since Malcolm had survived in the garage, and ten since Moira had died. Would a cla.s.sic trap invitation work after so long an interval? Only one thing to do: try it and see.
Malcolm"s voice was saying,"... a section a.s.saying five point eight grams per tonne" and a bit later,"... Big Bell"s plant milling oxide and soft rock", and"... the future is good in Queensland, with those epithermal gold zones at Woolgar". The broker listened and nodded and looked impressed. My old man, I thought, really knows his stuff. He"d told me at one point on our journeyings that there were roughly twenty-five hundred active gold mines in Australia and that it would soon rival or even surpa.s.s Canada as a producer. I hadn"t known gold was big in Canada. I was ignorant, he said. Canada had so far come regularly second to South Africa in the non-communist world.
We"d taught each other quite a lot, I thought, in one way and another.
I would need someone to deliver the invitation. Couldn"t do it myself.
"Market capitalisation per ounce..." I heard the broker saying in s.n.a.t.c.hes, and"... in situ reserves based on geological interpretation..."
I knew who could deliver the invitation. The perfect person.
"As open-cut mining cost as little as two hundred Australian dollars an ounce ..."
Bully for open-cut mining, I thought, and drifted to sleep.
We left spring behind in Australia on Wednesday and came home to winter on Friday in England. Malcolm and I went back to the Ritz as Mr and Mr Watson and he promised with utmost sincerity that he wouldn"t telephone anyone, not even his London broker. I went shopping in the afternoon and then confounded him at the brandy and cigar stage late that evening by getting through to Joyce.
"But you said..." he hissed as he heard her voice jump as usual out of the receiver.
"Listen," I hissed back. "h.e.l.lo, Joyce."
"Darling! Where are you? What are you doing? Where"s your father?"
"In Australia," I said.
"What?" she yelled.
"Looking at gold mines," I said.
It made sense to her, as it would make sense to them all.
"He went to California, I saw it in the paper," she said. "Blue Clancy won a race."
"We went to Australia afterwards."
"We? Darling, where are you now?" Darling, where are you now?"
"It doesn"t matter where I am," I said. "To make it safe for us to come home, will you help to find out who killed Moira?"
"But darling, the police have been trying for weeks... and anyway, Ferdinand says it has to be Arthur Bellbrook."
"It"s not Arthur Bellbrook," I said.
"Why not?" She sounded argumentative, still wanting it to be Arthur, wanting it to be the intruder from outside. "He could have done it easily. Ferdinand says he could have done everything. It has to be him. He had a shot-gun, Ferdinand says."
I said, "Arthur didn"t use his shot-gun. More importantly, he wouldn"t have made a timing device exactly like we"d made as children, and he hadn"t a motive."
"He could have detested Moira."
"Absolutely," I said, "but why should he want to kill Malcolm, whom he liked? I saw his face when he found Malcolm was alive that morning after the bomb, and he was genuinely glad."
"Everyone wants it to be Arthur Bellbrook," she said obstinately. "He found her body."
"If the police thought he"d done it, they wouldn"t have been so suspicious of Malcolm."
"You"ve got an answer for everything," she complained.
I had myself for a while wished it to be Arthur. After all, there had been the affair of the prize vegetables (but he"d sounded philosophical about them, and would anyone kill for so little?) and he"d been in the army and might know about explosives. But he stood to lose rather than gain from Malcolm"s death, and it was beyond believing that he would trace Malcolm to Cambridge, follow him to Newmarket Sales and try to run him down. That was the work of obsession. Arthur placidly digging potatoes; Arthur enjoying the temporary fame; Arthur looking after the dogs. Arthur had been the personification of stolid, sensible balance.
Besides, whoever had tried to run Malcolm down at Newmarket had guessed Malcolm would leave the sales with me and would come to the car-park, and at that point Arthur would have had no reason to think so. He didn"t know me. Hadn"t met me until he came into the house with his shot-gun, thinking I was a burglar. I"d had to exclude Arthur, although with regret.
Joyce said, "Darling, how do you expect to succeed where the police have failed?"
"The police can"t do what we can do."
"What do you mean? What can we do?"
I told her. Malcolm"s mouth opened and there was a long silence from Joyce.
"Let me get this straight," she said eventually. "You want me to telephone to everyone in the family..."
Everyone? I said emphatically. "If a husband answers, tell him, then ask to speak to the wife, and tell her too. And vice versa." I said emphatically. "If a husband answers, tell him, then ask to speak to the wife, and tell her too. And vice versa."
"Yes," she said. "I"m to say you"re in Australia, both of you. Right?"
"Yes."