A policeman fending away a few sensation seekers told us that Superintendent Yale had been detained, and couldn"t meet us there: please would we go to the police station. We went, and found him in his office.
He shook hands. He offered sympathy.
He asked if we knew why Serena had gone to Quantum with a second bomb, and we told him. Asked if we knew why she should have killed Moira and tried to kill Malcolm. We told him my theories. He listened broodingly.
"There will be an inquest," he said. "Mr Ian can formally identify the remains. You won"t need to see them... her... again, though.
The coroner"s verdict will be death by misadventure, I"ve no doubt. You may be needed to give an account of what happened. You"ll be informed of all that in due course." He paused. "Yesterday, we went to Miss Pembroke"s flat and conducted a search. We found a few items of interest. I am going to show you some objects and I"d be glad if you"d say whether you can identify them or not."
He reached into a carton very like the one Serena had been carrying, which stood on his desk. He brought out a pile of twenty or thirty exercise books with spiral bindings and blue covers and after that a tin large enough to contain a pound of sweets, with a picture on top.
"The Old Curiosity Shop," Malcolm said sadly.
"No possibility of doubt," Yale nodded. "The t.i.tle"s printed across the bottom of the picture."
"Are there any detonators in it?" I asked.
"No, just cotton wool. Mr Smith wonders if she used more than one detonator for each bomb, just to make sure. He says amateurs are mad enough to try anything."
I picked up one of the notebooks and opened it.
"Have you seen those before, sirs?" Yale asked.
"No," I said, and Malcolm shook his head.
In Serena"s looping handwriting, I read: "Daddy and I had such fun in the garden this morning. He was teaching the dogs to fetch sticks and I was throwing the sticks. We picked a lot of beautiful daffodils and when we went indoors I put them all in vases in all the rooms. I cooked some lamb chops for lunch and made mint sauce and peas and roast potatoes and gravy and for pudding we had ice-cream and peaches. Daddy is going to buy me some white boots with zips and silver ta.s.sels. He calls me his princess, isn"t that lovely? In the afternoon, we went down to the stream and picked some watercress for tea. Daddy took his socks off and rolled up his trousers and the boys no no the boys weren"t there I won"t have them in my stories it was Daddy who picked the watercress and we washed it and ate it with brown bread. This evening I will sit on his lap and he will stroke my hair and call me his little princess, his little darling, and it will be lovely." the boys weren"t there I won"t have them in my stories it was Daddy who picked the watercress and we washed it and ate it with brown bread. This evening I will sit on his lap and he will stroke my hair and call me his little princess, his little darling, and it will be lovely."
I flicked through the pages. The whole book was full. Speechlessly I handed it to Malcolm, open where I"d read.
"All the notebooks are like that," Yale said. "We"ve had them all read right through. She"s been writing them for years, I would say."
"But you don"t mean... they"re recent?" I said.
"Some of them are, certainly. I"ve seen several sets of books like these in my career. Compulsive writing, I believe it"s called. These of your sister"s are wholesome and innocent by comparison. You can"t imagine the p.o.r.nography and brutality I"ve read. They make you despair."
Malcolm, plainly moved, flicking over pages, said, "She says I bought her a pretty red dress... a white sweater with blue flowers on it... a bright yellow leotard - I hardly know what a leotard is. Poor girl. Poor girl."
"She bought them herself," I said. "Three or four times a week."
Yale tilted the stack of notebooks up, brought out the bottom one and handed it to me. "This is the latest. It changes at the end. You may find it interesting."
I turned to the last entries in the book and with sorrow read: "Daddy is going away from me and I don"t want him any more. I think perhaps I will kill him. It isn"t so difficult. I"ve done it before."
There was a s.p.a.ce on the page after that, and then, lower down: "Ian is back with Daddy."
Another s.p.a.ce, and then, "IAN IS AT QUANTUM WITH DADDY. I CANT BEAR IT."
After yet another s.p.a.ce, she had written my name again in larger-still capitals "IAN" and surrounded it with a circle of little lines radiating outwards: an explosion with my name in the centre.
That was the end. The rest of the notebook was empty.
Malcolm read the page over my arm and sighed deeply. "Can I have them?" he said to Yale. "You don"t need them, do you? There won"t be a trial."
Yale hesitated but said he saw no reason to retain them. He pushed the pile of books towards Malcolm and put the sweet tin on top.
"And the lighthouse and clock," I said. "Could we have those?"
He produced the Lego box from a cupboard, wrote a list of what we were taking on an official-looking receipt and got Malcolm to sign it.
"All very upsetting, Mr Pembroke," he said, again shaking hands, "but we can mark our case closed."
We took the sad trophies back to the Ritz, and that afternoon Malcolm wrote and posted cheques that would solve every financial problem in the Pembrokes" repertoire.
"What about the witches?" he said, if Helen and that dreadful Edwin and Berenice and Ursula and Debs are all having their own share, what about those other three?"
"Up to you," I said. "They"re your wives."
"Ex-wives." He shrugged and wrote cheques for them also. "Easy come, easy go," he said. "b.l.o.o.d.y Alicia doesn"t deserve it."
"Engines work better with a little oil," I said.
"Greasing their palms, you mean." He still didn"t believe in it. Still felt he was corrupting them by giving them wealth. Still thinking that he could stay sane and reasonably sensible when he had millions, but n.o.body else could.
He wrote a final cheque and gave it to me. I felt awkward taking it, which he found interesting.
"You should have had double," he said.
I shook my head, reeling at noughts. "You"ve post-dated it," I said.
"Of course I have. I"ve post-dated all of them. I don"t have that much in readies lying around in the bank. Have to sell a few shares. The family can have the promise now and the cash in a month."
He licked the envelopes. Not a cruel man, I thought.
On Tuesday, because I wished it, we went to see Robin.
"He won"t remember Serena," Malcolm said.
"No, I don"t expect so."
We went in the car I"d hired the day before for going to Quantum, and on the way stopped again to buy toys and chocolate and a packet of balloons.
I had taken with us the Lego lighthouse and the Mickey Mouse clock, thinking they might interest Robin, over which Malcolm shook his head.
"He won"t be able to make them work, you know."
"He might remember them. You never know. They used to be his and Peter"s, after all. Serena gave them the clock and made them the lighthouse."
Robin"s room was very cold because of the open french windows. Malcolm tentatively went across and closed them, and Robin at once flung them open. Malcolm patted Robin"s shoulder and moved away from the area, and Robin looked at him searchingly, in puzzlement, and at me the same way, as he sometimes did: trying, it seemed, to remember, and never quite getting there.
We gave him the new toys which he looked at and put down again, and after a while I opened the Lego box and brought out the old ones.
He looked at them for only a moment and then went on a long wander round and round the room, several times. Then he came to me, pointed at the packet of balloons and made a puffing noise.
"Good Lord," Malcolm said.
I opened the packet and blew up several balloons, tying knots in the necks, as I always did. Robin went on making puffing noises until I"d blown up every balloon in the packet. His face looked agitated. He puffed harder to make me go faster.
When they were all scattered round the room, red, yellow, blue, green and white, bobbing about in stray air currents, shiny and festive, he went round bursting them with furious vigour, sticking his forefinger straight into some, pinching others, squashing the last one against the wall with the palm of his hand, letting out the anger he couldn"t express.
Most times, after this ritual, he was released and at peace, and would retreat into a corner and sit staring into s.p.a.ce or huddled up, rocking.
This time, however, he went over to the table, picked up the lighthouse, pulled it roughly apart into four or five pieces and threw them forcefully out of the wide-open window. Then he picked up the clock and with violence yanked the wires off, including the Mickey Mouse hands.
Malcolm was aghast. Docile Robin"s rage shouted out of his mute body. His strength was a revelation.
He took the clock in his hand and walked round the room smashing it against the wall at each step. Step, smash, step, smash, step, smash smash.
"Stop him," Malcolm said in distress.
"No... he"s talking," I said.
"He"s not talking."
"He"s telling us..."
Robin reached the window and threw the mangled clock far and high into the garden. Then he started shouting, roaring without words, his voice rough from disuse and hoa.r.s.e with the change taking place from boy into man. The sound seemed to excite him until his body was reverberating, pouring out sound, the dam of silence swept away. "Aaah... aaah... aaah..." and then real words, "No... No... No... Serena... No... Serena... No... Serena... No..." He shouted to the skies, to the fates, to the wicked unfairness of the fog in his brain. Shouted in fury and frenzy. "Serena... No... Serena... No..." and on and on until it became mindless, without meaning, just words.
I stepped close beside him in the end and yelled in his ear, "Serena"s dead."
He stopped shouting immediately. "Serena"s dead," I repeated. "Like the clock. Smashed. Finished. Dead."
He turned and looked at me vaguely, his mouth open, no sound coming out, the sudden silence as unnerving as the shouting had been.
"Serena-is-dead," I said, making each word separate, giving it weight.
"He doesn"t understand," Malcolm said: and Robin went away and sat in a corner with his arms round his knees and his head down, and began rocking.
"The nurses think he understands quite a lot," I said. "Whether he understands that Serena is dead, I don"t know. But at least we"ve tried to tell him." Robin went on rocking as if we weren"t there.
"What does it matter?" Malcolm said helplessly.
"It matters because if he does understand, it may give him rest. I brought the lighthouse and the clock because I wondered if Robin remembered anything at all. I thought it worth trying... didn"t expect quite these results... but I think he smashed the clock Serena gave him because it reminded him of her, because she gave it to him and Peter shortly before the car crash. Somewhere in that woolly head, things sometimes connect."
Malcolm nodded, puzzled and instinctively alarmed.
"One could almost think it was that afternoon," I said, "seeing the twins happy at Quantum where she hungered to be, seeing you there with them, loving them; perhaps it was that afternoon which finally tipped her over into the insanity of trying to make her fantasy come true. It didn"t come true... you met Moira... but I"m certain she tried."
Malcolm was staring, saying "No! Don"t say it! Don"t!"
I said it anyway, I think Robin saw the hit-and-run driver who forced their car off the road. In whatever mangled dreamlike way, heknows who it was. No Serena, no Serena, no... You heard him. I"ve thought ever since New York that it could possibly have happened that way. Serena"s obsession was full-blown a long time ago, long before she got rid of Moira. I think she killed Peter... and Coochie."
Epilogue.
We all went back to Quantum a year later for the Grand Reopening Ceremony, the house bedecked with garlands and champagne corks popping.
After much soul-searching, Malcolm had decided to rebuild. Without Quantum as its centre, the family would have fallen apart, and he didn"t want that to happen. When he told everyone of his intention, there was great communal relief, and he saw without question that it was the right thing to do.
The rancour level lessened dramatically after the arrival of the cheques and the production of his will for inspection, and I was suddenly not everyone"s villain, though still and forever Alicia"s. Malcolm, having deleted Serena by codicil, sent his will to the Central Probate Office for registration and let everyone know it.
Malcolm still felt that he had pampered and corrupted his children, but he had to admit they were happier because of it. Dramatically happier in some cases, like Donald and Helen whose problems had all been financial. Helen redeemed her baubles and stopped painting china, and Donald paid off the finance company and the bank and ran the golf club with a light heart.
A few weeks after Serena"s death, Helen asked me over to Marblehill House. "A drink before dinner," she said. I went on a freezing evening in December and she surprised me by kissing me in greeting. Donald was standing with his back to a roaring fire, looking contentedly pompous.
"We wanted to thank you," Helen said. "And I suppose... to apologise."
"There"s no need."
"Oh, yes. We all know there is. Not everyone will say so, but they know."
"How"s Malcolm?" Donald asked.
"He"s fine."
Donald nodded. Even the fact that Malcolm and I were still together seemed no longer to worry him, and later, when we"d sat round the fire drinking for a while, he asked me to stay on for dinner. I stayed, and although we were never going to be in and out of each other"s houses every five minutes, at least on that evening we reached a peaceful plateau as brothers.
Some time later, I went to see Lucy. She and Edwin had made no changes to their cottage and had no plans to move, much to Edwin"s disgust.
"We should live somewhere more suitable suitable," he said to her crossly. "I never thought we would stay here when you inherited."
Lucy looked at him with affection. "If you want to leave, Edwin, you can, now that you have money of your own."
He was disconcerted; open mouthed. "I don"t want to leave," he said, and it was clearly the truth.
Lucy said to me,"1*11 find a good use for my money: keep the capital, give away most of the income. We have no anxieties now, and that"s a relief, I agree, but I haven"t changed altogether. I don"t believe in luxurious living. It"s bad for the soul. I"m staying here." She ate a handful of raisins determinedly, the old man looking out of her eyes.
Thomas was no longer her guest. Thomas, against all advice, had gone back to Berenice.
I called at Arden Haciendas one dark cold afternoon and Thomas opened the front door himself, looking blank when he saw me.
"Berenice is out," he said, letting me in.
"I came to see you. How are you doing?"