"I haven"t seen you for three years... and I broke your nose ..."
I took the key out of his hand and unlocked the door. I supposed I might have been suspicious of me if I"d been attacked twice in five days, considering I came into the high-probability category of son. I switched on the light and went forward into the room which was free from lurking murderers that time at least.
Malcolm followed, only tentatively rea.s.sured, closing the door slowly behind him. I drew the heavy striped curtains across the two windows and briefly surveyed the s.p.a.cious but old-fashioned accommodation: reproduction antique furniture, twin beds, pair of armchairs, door to bathroom.
No murderer in the bathroom.
"Ian ..." Malcolm said.
"Did you bring any scotch?" I asked. In the old days, he"d never travelled without it.
He waved a hand towards a chest of drawers where I found a half-full bottle nestling among a large number of socks. I fetched a gla.s.s from the bathroom and poured him enough to tranquillise an elephant.
"For G.o.d"s sake ..." he said.
"Sit down and drink it."
"You"re b.l.o.o.d.y arrogant."
He did sit down, though, and tried not to let the gla.s.s clatter against his teeth from the shaking of his hand.
With much less force, I said, "If I"d wanted you dead, I"d have let that car hit you tonight. I"d have jumped the other way... out of trouble."
He seemed to notice clearly for the first time that there had been any physical consequences to our escape.
"Your leg," he said, "must be all right?"
"Leg is. Trousers... can I borrow a pair of yours?"
He pointed to a cupboard where I found a second suit almost identical to the one he was wearing. I was three inches taller than he and a good deal thinner but, belted and slung round the hips, whole cloth was better than holey.
He silently watched me change and made no objection when I telephoned down to the reception desk and asked them to get his bill ready for his departure. He drank more of the scotch, but nowhere was he relaxed.
"Shall I pack for you?" I asked.
He nodded, and watched some more while I fetched his suitcase, opened it on one of the beds and began collecting his belongings. The things he"d brought spoke eloquently of his state of mind when he"d packed them: about ten pairs of socks but no other underwear, a dozen shirts, no pyjamas, two towelling bath-robes, no extra shoes. The clearly new electric razor in the bathroom still bore a stick-on price tag, but he had brought his antique gold-and-silver-backed brushes, all eight of them, including two clothes brushes. I put everything into the case, and closed it.
"Ian," he said.
"Mm?"
"People can pay a.s.sa.s.sins... You could have decided not to go through with it tonight... at the last moment..."
"It wasn"t tike that," I protested. Saving him had been utterly instinctive, without calculation or counting of risks: I"d been lucky to get off with a graze.
He said almost beseechingly, with difficulty, "It wasn"t you, was it, who had Moira... Or me, in the garage...? Say it wasn"t you."
I didn"t know really how to convince him. He"d known me better, lived with me longer than with any of his other children, and if his trust was this fragile then there wasn"t much future between us.
"I didn"t have Moira killed," I said, "If you believe it of me, you could believe it of yourself." I paused, "I don"t want you dead, I want you alive. I could never do you harm."
It struck me that he really needed to hear me say I loved him, so although he might scoff at the actual words, and despite the conditioned inhibitions of my upbringing, I said, feeling that desperate situations needed desperate remedies, "You"re a great father... and... er... I love you."
He blinked. Such a declaration pierced him, one could see. I"d probably overdone it, I thought, but his distrust had been a wound for me too.
I said much more lightly, "I swear on the Coochie Pembroke Memorial Challenge Trophy that I would never touch a hair on your head... nor Moira"s either, though I did indeed loathe her."
I lifted the suitcase off the bed.
"Do I go on with you or not?" I said, "If you don"t trust me, I"m going home."
He was looking at me searchingly, as if I were a stranger, which I suppose in some ways I was. He had never before, I guessed, had to think of me not as a son but as a man, as a person who had led a life separate from his, with a different outlook, different desires, different values. Sons grew from little boys into their own adult selves: fathers tended not to see the change clearly. Malcolm, I was certain, thought of me basically as still having the half-formed personality I"d had at fifteen.
"You"re different," he said.
"I am the same. Trust your instinct."
Some of the tension at last slackened in his muscles. His instinct had been trust, an instinct strong enough to carry him to thetelephone after three silent years. He finished the scotch and stood up, filling his lungs with a deep breath as if making resolves.
"Come with me, then," he said.
I nodded.
He went over to the chest of drawers and from the bottom drawer, which I hadn"t checked, produced a briefcase. I might have guessed it would be there somewhere: even in the direst panic, he wouldn"t have left behind the lists of his gold shares or his currency exchange calculator. He started with the briefcase to the door, leaving me to bring the suitcase, but on impulse I went over again to the telephone and asked for a taxi to be ready for us.
"But your car"s here," Malcolm said.
"Mm. I think I"ll leave it here, for now."
"But why?"
"Because if I didn"t tell anyone you were going to Newmarket Sales, and nor did you, then it"s probable you were followed there, from... er... here. If you think about it... the car that tried to kill you was waiting in the sales car-park, but you didn"t have a car. You went there by taxi. Whoever drove at you must have seen you and me together, and known who I was, and guessed you might leave with me, so although I didn"t see anyone following us tonight from Newmarket, whoever-it-was probably knew we would come here, to this hotel, so... well... so they might be hanging about in the courtyard where we parked, where it"s nice and dark outside the back door, waiting to see if we come out again."
"My G.o.d!"
"It"s possible," I said."So we"ll leave through the front with the doorman in attendance, don"t you think?"
"If you say so," he said weakly.
"From now on," I said, "we take every exaggerated precaution we can think of."
"Well, where are we going in this taxi?"
"How about somewhere where we can rent a car?"
The taxi-driver, however, once we"d set off without incident from the hotel, bill paid, luggage loaded, doorman tipped, informed us doubtfully that nine o"clock on a Tuesday night wasn"t going to be easy. All the car-hire firms" offices would be closed.
"Chauffeur-driven car, then," Malcolm said."Fellows who do weddings, that sort of thing. Twenty quid in it for you if you fix it."
Galvanised by this offer, the taxi-driver drove us down some backstreets, stopped outside an unpromising little terraced house and banged on the door. It opened, shining out a melon-slice of light, and gathered the taxi-driver inside.
"We"re going to be mugged," Malcolm said.
The taxi-driver returned harmlessly, however, accompanied by a larger man b.u.t.toning the jacket of a chauffeur"s uniform and carrying a rea.s.suring peaked cap.
"The firm my brother-in-law works for does mostly weddings and funerals," the taxi-driver said."He wants to know where you want to go."
"London," I said.
London appeared to be no problem at all. The driver and his brother-in-law climbed into the front of the taxi which started off, went round a corner or two, and pulled up again outside a lock-up garage. We sat in the taxi as asked while the two drivers opened the garage, disclosing its contents. Which was how Malcolm and I proceeded to London in a very large highly-polished black Rolls-Royce, the moonlighting chauffeur separated from us discreetly by a gla.s.s part.i.tion.
"Why did you go to the sales at all?" I asked Malcolm. "I mean, why Newmarket? Why the sales?"
Malcolm frowned. "Because of Ebury"s, I suppose."
"The jewellers?"
"Yes... well... I knew they were going to have a showroom there. They told me so last week when I went to see them about Coochie"s jewellery. I mean, I know them pretty well, I bought most of her things from there. I was admiring a silver horse they had, and they said they were exhibiting this week at Newmarket Sales. So then yesterday when I was wondering what would fetch you... where you would meet me... I remembered the sales were so close to Cambridge, and I decided on it not long before I rang you"
I pondered a bit. "How would you set about finding where someone was, if you wanted to, so to speak?"
To my surprise he had a ready answer. "Get the fellow I had for tailing Moira."
"Tailing..."
"My lawyer said to do it. It might save me something, he said, if Moira was having a bit on the side, see what I mean?"
."I do indeed," I agreed dryly. "But I suppose she wasn"t?"
"No such luck." He glanced at me. "What do you have in mind?"
"Well... I just wondered if he could check where everyone in the family was last Friday and tonight."
"Everyone!" Malcolm exclaimed. "It would take weeks."
"It would put your mind at rest."
He shook his head gloomily. "You forget about a.s.sa.s.sins."
"a.s.sa.s.sins aren"t so frightfully easy to find, not for ordinary people. How would you set about it, for instance, if you wanted someone killed? Put an ad in The Times The Times?"
He didn"t seem to see such a problem as I did, but he agreed that"the fellow who tailed Moira" should be offered the job of checking the family.
We discussed where we should stay that night: in which hotel, in fact, as neither of us felt like returning home. Home, currently, to me, was a rather dull suburban flat in Epsom, not far from the stable I"d been working for. Home for Malcolm was still the house where I"d been raised, from which Moira had apparently driven him, but to which he had returned immediately after her death. "Home" for all the family was that big house in Berkshire which had seen all five wives come and go: Malcolm himself had been brought up there, and I could scarcely imagine what he must have felt at the prospect of losing it.
"What happened between you and Moira?" I said.
"None of your G.o.ddam business."
We travelled ten miles in silence. Then he shifted, sighed, and said, "She wanted Coochie"s jewellery and I wouldn"t give it to her. She kept on and on about it, rabbit, rabbit. Annoyed me, do you see? And then ... well . . ." he shrugged, "she caught me out."
"With another woman?" I said without surprise.
He nodded, unashamed. He"d never been monogamous and couldn"t understand why it should be expected. The terrible rows in my childhood had all been centred on his affairs: while he"d been married to Vivien and then to Joyce, he had maintained Alicia all the time as his mistress. Alicia bore him two children while he was married to Vivien and Joyce, and also one subsequently, when he"d made a fairly honest woman of her, at her insistence.
I liked to think he had been faithful finally to Coochie, but on the whole it was improbable, and I was never going to ask.
Malcolm favoured our staying at the Dorchester, but I persuaded him he was too well known there, and we settled finally on the Savoy.
"A suite," Malcolm said at the reception desk. "Two bedrooms, two bathrooms and a sitting-room, and send up some Bollinger right away."
I didn"t feel like drinking champagne, but Malcolm did. He also ordered scrambled eggs and smoked salmon for us both from room-service, with a bottle of Hine Antique brandy and a box of Havana cigars for comforts.
Idly I totted up the expenses of his day: one solid silver trophy, one two-million-guinea thoroughbred, insurance for same, Cambridge hotel bill, tip for the taxi-driver, chauffeured Rolls-Royce, jumbo suite at the Savoy with tr.i.m.m.i.n.gs. I wondered how much he was really worth, and whether he intended to spend the lot.
We ate the food and drank the brandy still not totally in accord with each other. The three years" division had been, it seemed, a chasm not as easy to cross as I"d thought. I felt that although I"d meant it when I said I loved him, it was probably the long memories of him that I really loved, not his physical presence here and now, and I could see that if I was going to stay close to him, as I"d promised, I would be learning him again and from a different viewpoint; that each of us, in fact, would newly get to know the other.
"Any day now," Malcolm said, carefully dislodging ash from his cigar, "we"re going to Australia."
I absorbed the news and said, "Are we?"
He nodded. "We"ll need visas. Where"s your pa.s.sport?"
"In my flat. Where"s yours?"
"In the house."
"Then I"ll get them both tomorrow," I said, "and you stay here." I paused. "Are we going to Australia for any special reason?"
"To look at gold mines," he said. "And kangaroos."
After a short silence, I said, "We don"t just have to escape. We do have to find out who"s trying to kill you, in order to stop them succeeding."
"Escape is more attractive," he said. "How about a week in Singapore on the way?"
"Anything you say. Only... I"m supposed to ride in a race at Sandown on Friday."
"I"ve never understood why you like it. All those cold wet days. All those falls."
"You get your rush from gold," I said.
"Danger?" His eyebrows rose. "Quiet, well-behaved, cautious Ian? Life is a bore without risk, is that it?"
"It"s not so extraordinary," I said.
I"d ridden always as an amateur, unpaid, because something finally held me back from the total dedication needed for turning professional. Race riding was my deepest pleasure, but not my entire life, and in consequence I"d never developed the compet.i.tive drive necessary for climbing the pro ladder. I was happy with the rides I got, with the camaraderie of the changing-room, with the wide skies and the horses themselves, and yes, one had to admit it, with the risk.
"Staying near me," Malcolm said, "as you"ve already found out, isn"t enormously safe."