"You can never have too many friends, Faye."
"Why don"t you rest, Momma. I"ll call you for dinner."
Sybil reached out and took her hand.
"I know your brother wants to put me in a home," she said.
To Faye, it seemed remarkable that her mother could have returned so rapidly to the present. "Don"t worry. n.o.body"s going to put you in a home as long as I"m here."
"You know the Yankees, when they invaded, put your great-great-grandmother Eliza out of her home."
"I know, Momma."
"For five years she and your great-great-granddaddy Isaac had to live over a dry-goods store on Broadway while the Yankee officers slept in her bed and spit tobacco juice on her rugs. She died of a broken heart in those rooms over the dry-goods store."
No matter how many times Faye had heard this story, she"d never been certain what a dry-goods store was, or its significance in the story. Would it have been worse if it had been, say, a hardware store?
Sybil didn"t mention her husband again until the following evening when Martha called her to dinner in the breakfast room.
"We can"t sit down till Hunt comes home," she said. She was perched in her favorite armchair in the sunroom, looking out across the lawn, beyond which the orange Mediterranean roof tiles of a gated community called Tuscan Acres rose over the privet hedge.
Faye sat down across from her and took her hand, which was almost translucent, and freckled with age spots in spite of the white gloves she wore so often. "Daddy"s not with us anymore, Momma. He pa.s.sed away three years ago."
It was as if this was the first time she"d heard the news; tears welled in her eyes and her face contorted with grief.
Faye squeezed her hand as hard as she dared. "Don"t you remember, Momma?"
She shook her head, the tears now rolling down her cheeks.
Faye had not been present when her mother learned of her husband"s death, and she was witnessing now what she"d missed then. Her grief seemed utterly fresh and unbounded. She appeared to be almost literally melting, slumping lower and lower as the tears poured down her face, a woman devastated by loss. It was almost unbearable to watch.
"What will I do without him?" she finally managed to say.
"You"ve been doing without him for a while now, Momma."
This scene repeated itself twice more over the course of that week, and each time Sybil was inconsolable. Faye finally decided just to say that Hunt was on a business trip. In fact, she herself had started tearing up whenever she broached the subject of her father"s death.
Dr. Harrington came by, as promised, dressed for tennis. If his legs were any indication, Faye imagined he was very fast on the court. He appeared to be in his mid-thirties, roughly her own age. He spent a good fifteen minutes with Sybil and then sat down with Faye in the library.
"Great room," he said, admiring the leather-bound volumes and the hunting prints. Faye had always found it oppressively masculine and studiously old-world.
"How does she seem to you?"
"She seems to be improving."
"She forgets things," Faye said.
"That"s understandable."
"For example, that her husband is dead."
"It could be vascular dementia from the stroke, which may reverse itself. I think we also have to consider the possibility of Alzheimer"s. I gave her a Mini-Cog-that"s a little test where you ask the patient to remember a list of common household objects and draw the face of a clock. She drew the clock, but she couldn"t remember the objects. There"s a chance she may improve, but it"s more likely we"re dealing with progressive dementia. I wish I could be more optimistic. On the other hand, I can say with certainty that she"s better off here at home, as long as she"s properly cared for. Forgive me for prying, but I gather you live in New York."
She was reminded that there were no secrets here, and for a fleeting moment she was tempted to revise her plan and book the first flight back to New York. "I"ll be here for as long as she needs me."
"That could be a long time," he said.
"I know."
"Well, I"m sure your mother is very happy to have you back," he said. "Although I imagine there may be some weeping and gnashing of teeth up in New York."
"I think they"re thoroughly sick of me. I stayed too long at the party."
"I doubt that very much."
"There"re a few boys up there in New York who wish I"d never left Nashville."
"Way I hear it, there"re a few boys down here who wish the same thing."
Now she knew he was flirting, but she wasn"t really in the mood. Just now she felt like she"d dated enough men for the next five or six lifetimes.
Over the course of the following week, Sybil inquired repeatedly as to the whereabouts of her husband, and the business trip story was wearing thin. Faye"s next idea was to tape Hunt"s obituary to her mother"s bathroom mirror, hoping that the shock of seeing it there every morning might be partly alleviated by seeing her husband"s accomplishments enumerated and praised. But the first morning, Martha came down from Sybil"s bedroom to report that she was sobbing uncontrollably in her bed.
"I don"t know what I"m going to do without him," she wailed when Faye went up to comfort her.
"Momma, you"ve been doing without him for three years."
"He was the only man I ever loved."
"There wasn"t another like him," Faye said.
"You know, it was your father who fixed things when the colored people demonstrated at the lunch counters. He was president of the chamber of commerce and he convinced everyone that the time had come to integrate. The only reason so many went along with it was the respect they bore for your father"s opinion. He said it was just good business."
The memory of her husband"s civic heroism seemed to revive her spirits, and with Faye"s help she dressed, then spent the afternoon tending her roses. That night they watched several episodes of Upstairs, Downstairs Upstairs, Downstairs on video. But the next morning, Faye found her crouched on the bathroom floor, weeping. During the night she"d forgotten again, and the sight of the obituary had come as a shock. She spent the rest of the day in bed. Two days later, Faye removed the newspaper clipping from the mirror, and when Sybil asked about Hunt, Faye or Martha would reply that he was away on business, an answer that now seemed to satisfy her. on video. But the next morning, Faye found her crouched on the bathroom floor, weeping. During the night she"d forgotten again, and the sight of the obituary had come as a shock. She spent the rest of the day in bed. Two days later, Faye removed the newspaper clipping from the mirror, and when Sybil asked about Hunt, Faye or Martha would reply that he was away on business, an answer that now seemed to satisfy her.
When Dr. Harrington came by a week after his first visit, Faye declined his invitation to dinner, suggesting instead that he join her for whatever Martha, an excellent cook, was rustling up. The dinner, chicken and egg bread with white gravy and collards, was a guilty pleasure, but the conversation seemed to flag whenever they veered off medical topics, and Dr. Harrington tended to chew with his mouth open, a memory that put her off the idea of kissing him at the door.
When Faye returned from the gym the next morning, she found Martha in a state of agitation. "Mr. Jimmy come by," she said. "He tried to get your momma to sign a power of attorney. She"s terrible upset. He try to sweet-talk her first, but she told him she wouldn"t sign and he told her she was a foolish old woman and worse." Faye was ahead of her on the stairs, racing for Sybil"s bedroom. "She say she don"t want to sell her house and she don"t want to go to no nursin" home. So Mr. Jimmy storm out, and your momma, she"s in a state."
Sybil was a tiny dark figure in a great sea of linens, sitting upright against the headboard, her hands clenched on her thighs.
"I won"t move to Broadway," she said. "I don"t care what he says. He can tie a stick of dynamite to me like he did with that stray dog, but I won"t sign that paper and I won"t move to Broadway."
The next morning, a Sat.u.r.day, Faye drove over to her brother"s house, a sprawling ranch in a gated community called Elysian Hills, and rang his buzzer.
He came to the door wearing a shooting vest over a flannel shirt, his pink scalp glistening through the furrows of his brushed-back hair. "Sis, I was just about to call you. Come on in."
"I don"t want to come in. I just want to say don"t you dare come round and bully Momma like that again. You can say what you want, but I"m not letting you lock her away. And I"m not letting you loot the house."
He was taken off guard by this last remark; his face, always ruddy, turned a deeper shade of red. "You"ve really turned into a prime New York b.i.t.c.h, haven"t you?"
"It"s taken years, but I"m slowly getting there. I didn"t say anything when you took Daddy"s guns and his watch collection."
"What the h.e.l.l good were they to you?"
"I could have sold them just as easily as you did."
"I"ve been taking care of Momma and that house for years while you were off gallivanting around New York with the beautiful people. h.e.l.l, I"ve even been paying your G.o.dd.a.m.n credit-card bills. Your Chanel and your "21" Club."
"Dad"s estate pays my bills. And G.o.d knows what else the estate"s been paying for. But if you persist in trying to lock Momma up, I"m going to send in a battalion of accountants and lawyers and it"s all going to come out in the open. New York New York accountants and lawyers." accountants and lawyers."
That night, Faye went through the family photo alb.u.ms and found herself revising her memories, as if her childhood were an undervalued a.s.set, like an anonymous painting suddenly revealed to be the work of a master. The c.u.mulative impact of so many smiling faces was impressive. The pleasure her parents so visibly displayed in each other"s company seemed to contradict her grim recollections. Looking through hundreds of travel snapshots reminded her of just how many trips they"d taken when she was younger. Jimmy, having gone off to college and marriage, was largely absent from the later pictures, while Faye looked remarkably happy, until she started to develop a pout around the age of thirteen, a sulky expression that said, I can"t believe I have to be here in Europe with my parents when I could be home with my friends I can"t believe I have to be here in Europe with my parents when I could be home with my friends. The picture that eventually made her cry was at first a mystery, a blurry shot of what appeared to be a mermaid in a Venice ca.n.a.l. The woman, a Botticellian blonde in a blue bikini top, seemed to be sitting or lying on a submerged stone step or platform. Below the waist, just visible within the murky water, was a blue-green fish tail. Faye had been in a mermaid period then, sometime around her eighth birthday, and this had been the highlight of her trip. Years later, she learned that her father had staged the tableau. She had long ago forgotten the incident, which along with so much else suggested she had been the happy, spoiled child of loving parents.
After finishing the better part of a bottle of Campari, she called Cal, a former boyfriend, to whom she hadn"t spoken in months.
"Was I so awful," she asked. "Was I just a total screaming b.i.t.c.h?"
"You were wonderful," he said. "The girl of my dreams."
"But you said yourself I broke your heart."
"You couldn"t have broken my heart if you hadn"t been so d.a.m.n lovable."
"How could I be so wrong about everything?"
"Not everything," he said.
The next day she had dinner with Dr. Harrington at the club, and made a conscious decision to mute the critical inner voice that had found him wanting the last time out. She soon found herself telling him about her father, stories that she had told before, but never in such a fond fashion, his former flaws transformed now into lovable eccentricities. "He hated being alone," she said, looking away as the doctor masticated his steak. "He used to insist that my mother and I watch television with him, shouting for us to come downstairs and sit with him. He always seemed to be shouting and cussing, but now it seems funny to me somehow."
When he was driving her home after dinner, an ambulance flashed past with its siren screaming, and when they turned in, three Belle Meade police cars were parked in the driveway.
Faye panicked at the sight of the pulsing blue lights and the metallic, staccato walkie-talkie voices."Oh my G.o.d."
"Let"s not jump to any conclusions," Dr. Harrington said.
Not jump to any conclusions? She would have liked to have had the leisure to stay and ask him if he was f.u.c.king crazy, but instead she bolted out of the car and ran up the driveway to accost the nearest cop. "Please tell me what"s going on. I"m Faye Teasdale." She would have liked to have had the leisure to stay and ask him if he was f.u.c.king crazy, but instead she bolted out of the car and ran up the driveway to accost the nearest cop. "Please tell me what"s going on. I"m Faye Teasdale."
"There"s been an accident, Miss Teasdale," he said, taking hold of her forearm.
"Oh good Christ! Is my mother all right?"
"Your mother"s fine. I mean she"s not hurt. It"s your brother. It seems your mother mistook him for an intruder."
"Where is she?" Without waiting for an answer, Faye rushed up the steps and through the open door, brushing past two more policemen in the hallway. Upstairs, she found her mother in bed, attended by Martha.
Sybil was sipping from a gla.s.s. She seemed remarkably calm under the circ.u.mstances, far more composed than her daughter.
"Momma, are you all right?"
"I"m fine, Bunny," she said, returning Faye"s embrace.
"You didn"t know," Faye said hopefully. "You thought it was a burglar."
"It was a burglar all right. He was walking off with the silver."
"She got Mr. Hunt"s little pearl-handled Colt from the bedside table," Martha said.
"Your father used to take me to the shooting range on Sundays after church. I heard a noise downstairs, and I knew you were out."
Faye suddenly realized that she hadn"t even inquired about her brother"s condition. "Is he going to-"
"He gonna be all right. Your momma done shot him in the b.u.t.t."
"Gave me a mighty big target," Sybil said.
"You couldn"t tell who it was in the dark. Could you, Momma?"
"You know those d.a.m.n Yankees turned Eliza Teasdale out of her own house."
Martha and Faye exchanged a look. "She confused," Martha said.
Sybil shook her head. "Jimmy says I"m losing my mind, but I"ll tell you one thing. I can still recognize my own son. And I can recognize a thief."
"Momma, what are you saying?"
She looked up at Faye and stroked her hand. Her gaze was clear and direct. For the first time in weeks, she seemed fully present.
"Did I just say something?" she said. "Don"t mind me. I"m a crazy old woman. My mind plays tricks on me. Just ask your brother. He"ll be glad to tell you."
2008.
Simple Gifts By the time they dropped her off at Irving Place, it was nearly midnight. The thruway ride from Buffalo had been harrowing. The van was barely roadworthy under the best of conditions; between the ice and the wind, it was practically a miracle they"d made it home, especially when you considered that Lenny admitted somewhere around Utica that he"d dropped half a tab of acid. Rory had taken the other half, which disqualified him as a driver, and Zac had lost his license after the DUI in Cleveland, which left Lori as the only eligible pilot. Once again she was den mother to a trio of stoned Scouts. Backup: Backup: Wasn"t that supposed to imply support, solidity, watching Wasn"t that supposed to imply support, solidity, watching her her back, if not ma.s.saging it on a nightly basis? When she"d hooked up with these guys, she hadn"t imagined that it meant carrying amps and covering licks they were too stoned to remember. back, if not ma.s.saging it on a nightly basis? When she"d hooked up with these guys, she hadn"t imagined that it meant carrying amps and covering licks they were too stoned to remember.
She didn"t think she"d ever been so tired in her whole life, between the drive and the partying last night, although the sight of the city had briefly revived her, the lights, the people, the improbable beauty of the snow on the streets.
"Hey, Merry Christmas, babe," Rory said as he slid across the seat to take her place at the wheel. He reached out the window and slapped a foil packet in her hands.
She watched the wheels spin as the van fishtailed up the street with its vanity plate: THE MAGI THE MAGI. They"d been the Magi before Lori signed on with them-Zac"s girlfriend had given him a copy of a way cool novel, The Magus The Magus, which "had this, like, magician guy doing all this, like, crazy s.h.i.t"-and since the band already had a local following, they"d just added to the name: Lori and the Magi.
Jeffrey was fooling with the lights on the Christmas tree when she came in. "Jesus, I thought you"d died on the thruway."
She detected the note of petulance in his voice.