When Pao-ch"ai perceived how cool and pleasant the weather was getting, and how the nights were beginning again to gradually draw out, she came and found her mother, and consulted with her, until they got some needlework ready. Of a day, she would cross over to the quarters of dowager lady Chia and Madame w.a.n.g, and twice pay her salutations, but, she could not help as well amusing them and sitting with them to keep them company. When free, she would come and see her cousins in the garden, and have, at odd times, a chat with them, so having, during daylight no leisure to speak of, she was wont, of a night, to ply her needle by lamplight, and only retire to sleep after the third watch had come and gone.
As for Tai-yu, she had, as a matter of course, a relapse of her complaint regularly every year, soon after the spring equinox and autumn solstice. But she had, during the last autumn, also found her grandmother Chia in such buoyant spirits, that she had walked a little too much on two distinct occasions, and naturally fatigued herself more than was good for her. Recently, too, she had begun to cough and to feel heavier than she had done at ordinary times, so she never by any chance put her foot out of doors, but remained at home and looked after her health. When at times, dullness crept over her, she longed for her cousins to come and chat with her and dispel her despondent feelings.
But whenever Pao-ch"ai or any of her cousins paid her a visit, she barely uttered half a dozen, words, before she felt quite averse to any society. Yet one and all made every allowance for her illness. And as she had ever been in poor health and not strong enough to resist any annoyance, they did not find the least fault with her, despite even any lack of propriety she showed in playing the hostess with them, or any remissness on her part in observing the prescribed rules of etiquette.
Pao-ch"ai came, on this occasion to call on her. The conversation started on the symptoms of her ailment. "The various doctors, who visit this place," Pao-ch"ai consequently remarked, "may, it"s true, be all very able pract.i.tioners; but you take their medicines and don"t reap the least benefit! Wouldn"t it be as well therefore to ask some other person of note to come and see you? And could he succeed in getting you all right, wouldn"t it be nice? Here you year by year ail away throughout the whole length of spring and summer; but you"re neither so old nor so young, so what will be the end of it? Besides, it can"t go on for ever."
"It"s no use," Tai-yu rejoined. "I know well enough that there"s no cure for this complaint of mine! Not to speak of when I"m unwell, why even when I"m not, my state is such that one can see very well that there"s no hope!"
Pao-ch"ai shook her head. "Quite so!" she ventured. "An old writer says: "Those who eat, live." But what you"ve all along eaten hasn"t been enough to strengthen your energies and physique. This isn"t a good thing!"
Tai-yu heaved a sigh. "Whether I"m to live or die is all destiny!" she said. "Riches and honours are in the hands of heaven; and human strength cannot suffice to forcibly get even them! But my complaint this year seems to be far worse than in past years, instead of any better."
While deploring her lot, she coughed two or three times. "It struck me,"
Pao-ch"ai said, "that in that prescription of yours I saw yesterday there was far too much ginseng and cinnamon. They are splendid tonics, of course, but too many heating things are not good. I think that the first urgent thing to do is to ease the liver and give tone to the stomach. When once the fire in the liver is reduced, it will not be able to overcome the stomach; and, when once the digestive organs are free of ailment, drink and food will be able to give nutriment to the human frame. As soon as you get out of bed, every morning, take one ounce of birds" nests, of superior quality, and five mace of sugar candy and prepare congee with them in a silver kettle. When once you get into the way of taking this decoction, you"ll find it far more efficacious than medicines; for it possesses the highest virtue for invigorating the v.a.g.i.n.a and bracing up the physique."
"You"ve certainly always treated people with extreme consideration,"
sighed Tai-yu, "but such a supremely suspicious person am I that I imagined that you inwardly concealed some evil design! Yet ever since the day on which you represented to me how unwholesome it was to read obscene books, and you gave me all that good advice, I"ve felt most grateful to you! I"ve hitherto, in fact, been mistaken in my opinion; and the truth of the matter is that I remained under this misconception up to the very present. But you must carefully consider that when my mother died, I hadn"t even any sisters or brothers; and that up to this my fifteenth year there has never been a single person to admonish me as you did the other day. Little wonder is it if that girl Yun speaks well of you! Whenever, in former days, I heard her heap praise upon you, I felt uneasy in my mind, but, after my experiences of yesterday, I see how right she was. When you, for instance, began to tell me all those things, I didn"t forgive you at the time, but, without worrying yourself in the least about it you went on, contrariwise, to tender me the advice you did. This makes it evident that I have laboured under a mistaken idea! Had I not made this discovery the other day, I wouldn"t be speaking like this to your very face to-day. You told me a few minutes back to take bird"s nest congee; but birds" nests are, I admit, easily procured; yet all on account of my sickly const.i.tution and of the relapses I have every year of this complaint of mine, which amounts to nothing, doctors have had to be sent for, medicines, with ginseng and cinnamon, have had to be concocted, and I"ve given already such trouble as to turn heaven and earth topsy-turvey; so were I now to start again a new fad, by having some birds" nests congee or other prepared, our worthy senior, Madame w.a.n.g, and lady Feng, will, all three of them, have no objection to raise; but that posse of matrons and maids below will unavoidably despise me for my excessive fussiness! Just notice how every one in here ogles wildly like tigers their prey; and stealthily says one thing and another, simply because they see how fond our worthy ancestor is of both Pao-yu and lady Feng, and how much more won"t they do these things with me? What"s more, I"m not a pucker mistress. I"ve really come here as a mere refugee, for I had no one to sustain me and no one to depend upon. They already bear me considerable dislike; so much so, that I"m still quite at a loss whether I should stay or go; and why should I make them heap execrations upon me?"
"Well, in that case," Pao-ch"ai observed, "I"m too in the same plight as yourself!"
"How can you compare yourself with me?" Tai-yu exclaimed. "You have a mother; and a brother as well! You"ve also got some business and land in here, and, at home, you can call houses" and fields your own. It"s only therefore the ties of relationship, which make you stay here at all.
Neither are you in anything whether large or small, in their debt for one single cash or even half a one; and when you want to go, you"re at liberty to go. But I, have nothing whatever that I can call my own. Yet, in what I eat, wear, and use, I am, in every trifle, entirely on the same footing as the young ladies in their household, so how ever can that mean lot not despise me out and out?"
"The only extra expense they"ll have to go to by and bye," Pao-ch"ai laughed, "will be to get one more trousseau, that"s all. And for the present, it"s too soon yet to worry yourself about that!"
At this insinuation, Tai-yu unconsciously blushed scarlet. "One treats you," she smiled, "as a decent sort of person, and confides in you the woes of one"s heart, and, instead of sympathising with me, you make me the means of raising a laugh!"
"Albeit I raise a laugh at your expense," Pao-ch"ai rejoined, a smile curling her lips, "what I say is none the less true! But compose your mind! I"ll try every day that I"m here to cheer you up; so come to me with every grievance or trouble, for I shall, needless to say, dispel those that are within my power. Notwithstanding that I have a brother, you yourself know well enough what he"s like! All I have is a mother, so I"m just a trifle better off than you! We can therefore well look upon ourselves as being in the same boat, and sympathise with each other. You have, besides, plenty of wits about you, so why need you give way to groans, as did Ssu Ma-niu? What you said just now is quite right; but, you should worry and fret about as little and not as much as you can. On my return home, to-morrow, I"ll tell my mother; and, as I think there must be still some birds" nests in our house, we"ll send you several ounces of them. You can then tell the servant-maids to prepare some for you at whatever time you want every day; and you"ll thus be suiting your own convenience and be giving no trouble or annoyance to any one."
"The things are, of themselves, of little account," eagerly responded Tai-yu laughingly. "What"s difficult to find is one with as much feeling as yourself."
"What"s there in this worth speaking about?" Pao-ch"ai said. "What grieves me is that I fail to be as nice as I should be with those I come across. But, I presume, you feel quite done up now, so I"ll be off!"
"Come in the evening again," Tai-yu pressed her, "and have a chat with me."
While a.s.suring her that she would come, Pao-ch"ai walked out, so let us leave her alone for the present.
Tai-yu, meanwhile, drank a few sips of thin congee, and then once more lay herself down on her bed. But before the sun set, the weather unexpectedly changed, and a fine drizzling rain set in. So gently come the autumn showers that dull and fine are subject to uncertain alternations. The shades of twilight gradually fell on this occasion.
The heavens too got so overcast as to look deep black. Besides the effect of this change on her mind, the patter of the rain on the bamboo tops intensified her despondency, and, concluding that Pao-ch"ai would be deterred from coming, she took up, in the lamp light, the first book within her reach, which turned out to be the "Treasury of Miscellaneous Lyrics." Finding among these "the Pinings of a maiden in autumn," "the Anguish of Separation," and other similar poems, Tai-yu felt unawares much affected; and, unable to restrain herself from giving vent to her feelings in writing, she, there and then, improvised the following stanza, in the same strain as the one on separation; complying with the rules observed in the "Spring River-Flower" and "Moonlight Night." These verses, she then ent.i.tled "the Poem on the Autumn evening, when wind and rain raged outside the window." Their burden was:
In autumn, flowers decay; herbage, when autumn comes, doth yellow turn.
On long autumnal nights, the autumn lanterns with bright radiance burn.
As from my window autumn scenes I scan, autumn endless doth seem.
This mood how can I bear, when wind and rain despondency enhance?
How sudden break forth wind and rain, and help to make the autumntide!
Fright snaps my autumn dreams, those dreams which under my lattice I dreamt.
A sad autumnal gloom enclasps my heart, and drives all sleep away!
In person I approach the autumn screen to snuff the weeping wick.
The tearful candles with a flickering flame consume on their short stands.
They stir up grief, dazzle my eyes, and a sense of parting arouse.
In what family"s courts do not the blasts of autumn winds intrude?
And where in autumn does not rain patter against the window-frames?
The silken quilt cannot ward off the nipping force of autumn winds.
The drip of the half drained water-clock impels the autumn rains.
A lull for few nights reigned, but the wind has again risen in strength.
By the lantern I weep, as if I sat with some one who must go.
The small courtyard, full of bleak mist, is now become quite desolate.
With quick drip drops the rain on the distant bamboos and vacant sills.
What time, I wonder, will the wind and rain their howl and patter cease?
The tears already I have shed have soaked through the window gauze.
After scanning her verses, she flung the pen aside, and was just on the point of retiring to rest, when a waiting-maid announced that "master Secundus, Mr. Pao-yu, had come." Barely was the announcement out of her lips, than Pao-yu appeared on the scene with a large bamboo hat on his head, and a wrapper thrown over his shoulders. Of a sudden, a smile betrayed itself on Tai-yu"s lips. "Where does this fisherman come from?"
she exclaimed.
"Are you better to-day?" Pao-yu inquired with alacrity. "Have you had any medicines? How much rice have you had to eat to-day?"
While plying her with questions, he took off the hat and divested himself of the wrapper; and, promptly raising the lamp with one hand, he screened it with the other and threw its rays upon Tai-yu"s face. Then straining his eyes, he scrutinised her for a while. "You look better to-day," he smiled.
As soon as he threw off his wrapper, Tai-yu noticed that he was clad in a short red silk jacket, the worse for wear; that he was girded with a green sash, and that, about his knees, his nether garments were visible, made of green thin silk, brocaded with flowers. Below these, he wore embroidered gauze socks, worked all over with twisted gold thread, and a pair of shoes ornamented with b.u.t.terflies and cl.u.s.ters of fallen flowers.
"Above, you fight shy of the rain," Tai-yu remarked, "but aren"t these shoes and socks below afraid of rain? Yet they"re quite clean!"
"This suit is complete!" Pao-yu smiled. "I"ve got a pair of crab-wood clogs, I put on to come over; but I took them off under the eaves of the verandah."
Tai-yu"s attention was then attracted by the extreme fineness and lightness of the texture of his wrapper and hat, which were unlike those sold in the market places. "With what gra.s.s are they plaited?" she consequently asked. "It would be strange if you didn"t, with this sort of things on, look like a very hedgehog!"
"These three articles are a gift from the Prince of Pei Ching," Pao-yu answered. "Ordinarily, when it rains, he too wears this kind of outfit at home. But if it has taken your fancy, I"ll have a suit made for you.
There"s nothing peculiar about the other things, but this hat is funny!
The crown at the top is movable; so if you want to wear a hat, during snowy weather in wintertime, you pull off the bamboo pegs, and remove the crown, and there you only have the circular brim. This is worn, when it snows, by men and women alike. I"ll give you one therefore to wear in the wintry snowy months."
"I don"t want it!" laughed Tai-yu. "Were I to wear this sort of thing, I"d look like one of those fisherwomen, one sees depicted in pictures or represented on the stage!"
Upon reaching this point, she remembered that there was some connection between her present remarks and the comparison she had some time back made with regard to Pao-yu, and, before she had time to indulge in regrets, a sense of shame so intense overpowered her that the colour rushed to her face, and, leaning her head on the table, she coughed and coughed till she could not stop. Pao-yu, however, did not detect her embarra.s.sment; but catching sight of some verses lying on the table, he eagerly s.n.a.t.c.hed them up and conned them from beginning to end.
"Splendid!" he could not help crying. But the moment Tai-yu heard his exclamation, she speedily jumped to her feet, and clutched the verses and burnt them over the lamp.
"I"ve already committed them sufficiently to memory!" Pao-yu laughed.
"I want to have a little rest," Tai-yu said, "so please get away; come back again to-morrow."
At these words, Pao-yu drew back his hand, and producing from his breast a gold watch about the size of a walnut, he looked at the time. The hand pointed between eight and nine p.m.; so hastily putting it away, "You should certainly retire to rest!" he replied. "My visit has upset you.
I"ve quite tired you out this long while." With these apologies, he threw the wrapper over him, put on the rain-hat and quitted the room.
But turning round, he retraced his steps inside. "Is there anything you fancy to eat?" he asked. "If there be, tell me, and I"ll let our venerable ancestor know of it to-morrow as soon as it"s day. Won"t I explain things clearer than any of the old matrons could?"
"Let me," rejoined Tai-yu smiling, "think in the night. I"ll let you know early to-morrow. But harken, it"s raining harder than it did; so be off at once! Have you got any attendants, or no?"
"Yes!" interposed the two matrons. "There are servants to wait on him.
They"re outside holding his umbrella and lighting the lanterns."