The new Riverside apartment to which Hanneh Breineh was removed by her socially ambitious children was for the habitually active mother an empty desert of enforced idleness. Deprived of her kitchen, Hanneh Breineh felt robbed of the last reason for her existence. Cooking and marketing and puttering busily with pots and pans gave her an excuse for living and struggling and bearing up with her children. The lonely idleness of Riverside Drive stunned all her senses and arrested all her thoughts. It gave her that choked sense of being cut off from air, from life, from everything warm and human. The cold indifference, the each-for-himself look in the eyes of the people about her were like stinging slaps in the face. Even the children had nothing real or human in them. They were starched and stiff miniatures of their elders.
But the most unendurable part of the stifling life on Riverside Drive was being forced to eat in the public dining-room. No matter how hard she tried to learn polite table manners, she always found people staring at her, and her daughter rebuking her for eating with the wrong fork or guzzling the soup or staining the cloth.
In a fit of rebellion Hanneh Breineh resolved never to go down to the public dining-room again, but to make use of the gas-stove in the kitchenette to cook her own meals. That very day she rode down to Delancey Street and purchased a new market-basket. For some time she walked among the haggling pushcart venders, relaxing and swimming in the warm waves of her old familiar past.
A fish-peddler held up a large carp in his black, hairy hand and waved it dramatically:
"Women! Women! Fourteen cents a pound!"
He ceased his raucous shouting as he saw Hanneh Breineh in her rich attire approach his cart.
"How much?" she asked, pointing to the fattest carp.
"Fifteen cents, lady," said the peddler, smirking as he raised his price.
"Swindler! Didn"t I hear you call fourteen cents?" shrieked Hanneh Breineh, exultingly, the spirit of the penny chase surging in her blood. Diplomatically, Hanneh Breineh turned as if to go, and the fisherman seized her basket in frantic fear.
"I should live; I"m losing money on the fish, lady," whined the peddler. "I"ll let it down to thirteen cents for you only."
"Two pounds for a quarter, and not a penny more," said Hanneh Breineh, thrilling again with the rare sport of bargaining, which had been her chief joy in the good old days of poverty.
"Nu, I want to make the first sale for good luck." The peddler threw the fish on the scale.
As he wrapped up the fish, Hanneh Breineh saw the driven look of worry in his haggard eyes, and when he counted out the change from her dollar, she waved it aside. "Keep it for your luck," she said, and hurried off to strike a new bargain at a pushcart of onions.
Hanneh Breineh returned triumphantly with her purchases. The basket under her arm gave forth the old, homelike odors of herring and garlic, while the scaly tail of a four-pound carp protruded from its newspaper wrapping. A gilded placard on the door of the apartment-house proclaimed that all merchandise must be delivered through the trade entrance in the rear; but Hanneh Breineh with her basket strode proudly through the marble-paneled hall and rang nonchalantly for the elevator.
The uniformed hall-man, erect, expressionless, frigid with dignity, stepped forward:
"Just a minute, madam. I"ll call a boy to take up your basket for you."
Hanneh Breineh, glaring at him, jerked the basket savagely from his hands. "Mind your own business!" she retorted. "I"ll take it up myself. Do you think you"re a Russian policeman to boss me in my own house?"
Angry lines appeared on the countenance of the representative of social decorum.
"It is against the rules, madam," he said, stiffly.
"You should sink into the earth with all your rules and bra.s.s b.u.t.tons. Ain"t this America? Ain"t this a free country? Can"t I take up in my own house what I buy with my own money?" cried Hanneh Breineh, reveling in the opportunity to shower forth the volley of invectives that had been suppressed in her for the weeks of deadly dignity of Riverside Drive.
In the midst of this uproar f.a.n.n.y came in with Mrs. Van Suyden. Hanneh Breineh rushed over to her, crying:
"This bossy policeman won"t let me take up my basket in the elevator."
The daughter, unnerved with shame and confusion, took the basket in her white-gloved hand and ordered the hall-boy to take it around to the regular delivery entrance.
Hanneh Breineh was so hurt by her daughter"s apparent defense of the hall-man"s rules that she utterly ignored Mrs. Van Suyden"s greeting and walked up the seven flights of stairs out of sheer spite.
"You see the tragedy of my life?" broke out f.a.n.n.y, turning to Mrs. Van Suyden.
"You poor child! You go right up to your dear, old lady mother, and I"ll come some other time."
Instantly f.a.n.n.y regretted her words. Mrs. Van Suyden"s pity only roused her wrath the more against her mother.
Breathless from climbing the stairs, Hanneh Breineh entered the apartment just as f.a.n.n.y tore the faultless millinery creation from her head and threw it on the floor in a rage.
"Mother, you are the ruination of my life! You have driven away Mrs. Van Suyden, as you have driven away all my best friends. What do you think we got this apartment for but to get rid of your fish smells and your brawls with the servants? And here you come with a basket on your arm as if you just landed from steerage! And this afternoon, of all times, when Benny is bringing his leading man to tea. When will you ever stop disgracing us?"
"When I"m dead," said Hanneh Breineh, grimly. "When the earth will cover me up, then you"ll be free to go your American way. I"m not going to make myself over for a lady on Riverside Drive. I hate you and all your swell friends. I"ll not let myself be choked up here by you or by that hall-boss policeman that is higher in your eyes than your own mother."
"So that"s your thanks for all we"ve done for you?" cried the daughter.
"All you"ve done for me!" shouted Hanneh Breineh. "What have you done for me? You hold me like a dog on a chain! It stands in the Talmud; some children give their mothers dry bread and water and go to heaven for it, and some give their mother roast duck and go to Gehenna because it"s not given with love."
"You want me to love you yet?" raged the daughter. "You knocked every bit of love out of me when I was yet a kid. All the memories of childhood I have is your everlasting cursing and yelling that we were gluttons."
The bell rang sharply, and Hanneh Breineh flung open the door.
"Your groceries, ma"am," said the boy.
Hanneh Breineh seized the basket from him, and with a vicious fling sent it rolling across the room, strewing its contents over the Persian rugs and inlaid floor. Then seizing her hat and coat, she stormed out of the apartment and down the stairs.
Mr. and Mrs. Pelz sat crouched and shivering over their meager supper when the door opened, and Hanneh Breineh in fur coat and plumed hat charged into the room.
"I come to cry out to you my bitter heart," she sobbed. "Woe is me! It is so black for my eyes!"
"What is the matter with you, Hanneh Breineh?" cried Mrs. Pelz in bewildered alarm.
"I am turned out of my own house by the bra.s.s-b.u.t.toned policeman that bosses the elevator. Oi-i-i-i! Weh-h-h-h! What have I from my life? The whole world rings with my son"s play. Even the President came to see it, and I, his mother, have not seen it yet. My heart is dying in me like in a prison," she went on wailing. "I am starved out for a piece of real eating. In that swell restaurant is nothing but napkins and forks and lettuce-leaves. There are a dozen plates to every bite of food. And it looks so fancy on the plate, but it"s nothing but straw in the mouth. I"m starving, but I can"t swallow down their American eating."
"Hanneh Breineh," said Mrs. Pelz, "you are sinning before G.o.d. Look on your fur coat; it alone would feed a whole family for a year. I never had yet a piece of fur tr.i.m.m.i.n.g on a coat, and you are in fur from the neck to the feet. I never had yet a piece of feather on a hat, and your hat is all feathers."
"What are you envying me?" protested Hanneh Breineh. "What have I from all my fine furs and feathers when my children are strangers to me? All the fur coats in the world can"t warm up the loneliness inside my heart. All the grandest feathers can"t hide the bitter shame in my face that my children shame themselves from me."
Hanneh Breineh suddenly loomed over them like some ancient, heroic figure of the Bible condemning unrighteousness.
"Why should my children shame themselves from me? From where did they get the stuff to work themselves up in the world? Did they get it from the air? How did they get all their smartness to rise over the people around them? Why don"t the children of born American mothers write my Benny"s plays? It is I, who never had a chance to be a person, who gave him the fire in his head. If I would have had a chance to go to school and learn the language, what couldn"t I have been? It is I and my mother and my mother"s mother and my father and father"s father who had such a black life in Poland; it is our choked thoughts and feelings that are flaming up in my children and making them great in America. And yet they shame themselves from me!"
For a moment Mr. and Mrs. Pelz were hypnotized by the sweep of her words. Then Hanneh Breineh sank into a chair in utter exhaustion. She began to weep bitterly, her body shaking with sobs.
"Woe is me! For what did I suffer and hope on my children? A bitter old age--my end. I"m so lonely!"
All the dramatic fire seemed to have left her. The spell was broken. They saw the Hanneh Breineh of old, ever discontented, ever complaining even in the midst of riches and plenty.
"Hanneh Breineh," said Mrs. Pelz, "the only trouble with you is that you got it too good. People will tear the eyes out of your head because you"re complaining yet. If I only had your fur coat! If I only had your diamonds! I have nothing. You have everything. You are living on the fat of the land. You go right back home and thank G.o.d that you don"t have my bitter lot."
"You got to let me stay here with you," insisted Hanneh Breineh. "I"ll not go back to my children except when they bury me. When they will see my dead face, they will understand how they killed me."