"To whom should we go? Who more will talk for us now?"
"Our life lays in their hands."
"They can choke us so much as they like!"
"n.o.body cares. n.o.body hears our cry!"
Out of this babel of voices there flashed across Hanneh Hayyeh"s deadened senses the chimera that to her was the one reality of her aspiring soul--"Oi-i-i-i! My beautiful kitchen!" she sighed as in a dream.
The butcher"s face grew red with wrath. His eyes gleamed like sharp, darting steel. "I wouldn"t give that robber the satisfaction to leave your grand painted house," he said, turning to Hanneh Hayyeh. "I"d smash down everything for spite. You got nothing to lose. Such a murderer! I would learn him a lesson! "An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.""
Hanneh Hayyeh, hair disheveled, clothes awry, the nails of her fingers dug in her scalp, stared with the glazed, impotent stare of a madwoman. With unseeing eyes she rose and blindly made her way to her house.
As she entered her kitchen she encountered her husband hurrying in.
"Oi weh! Oi weh!" he whined. "I was always telling you your bad end. Everybody is already pointing their fingers on me! and all because you, a meshugeneh yideneh, a starved beggerin, talked it into your head that you got to have for yourself a white-painted kitchen alike to Mrs. Preston. Now you"ll remember to listen to your husband. Now, when you"ll be laying in the street to shame and to laughter for the whole world."
"Out! Out from my sight! Out from my house!" shrieked Hanneh Hayyeh. In her rage she seized a flat-iron and Jake heard her hurl it at the slammed door as he fled downstairs.
It was the last night before the eviction. Hanneh Hayyeh gazed about her kitchen with tear-glazed eyes. "Some one who got nothing but only money will come in here and get the pleasure from all this beautifulness that cost me the blood from my heart. Is this already America? What for was my Aby fighting? Was it then only a dream--all these millions people from all lands and from all times, wishing and hoping and praying that America is? Did I wake myself from my dreaming to see myself back in the black times of Russia under the czar?"
Her eager, beauty-loving face became distorted with hate. "No--the landlord ain"t going to get the best from me! I"ll learn him a lesson. "An eye for an eye"--"
With savage fury, she seized the chopping-axe and began to scratch down the paint, breaking the plaster on the walls. She tore up the floor-boards. She unscrewed the gas-jets, turned on the gas full force so as to blacken the white-painted ceiling. The night through she raged with the frenzy of destruction.
Utterly spent she flung herself on the lounge, but she could not close her eyes. Her nerves quivered. Her body ached, and she felt her soul ache there--inside her--like a thing killed that could not die.
The first grayness of dawn filtered through the air-shaft window of the kitchen. The room was faintly lighted, and as the rays of dawn got stronger and reached farther, one by one the things she had mutilated in the night started, as it were, into consciousness. She looked at her dish-closet, once precious, that she had scratched and defaced; the uprooted geranium-box on the window-sill; the marred walls. It was unbearable all this waste and desolation that stared at her. "Can it be I who done all this?" she asked herself. "What devil got boiling in me?"
What had she gained by her rage for vengeance? She had thought to spite the landlord, but it was her own soul she had killed. These walls that stared at her in their ruin were not just walls. They were animate--they throbbed with the pulse of her own flesh. For every inch of the broken plaster there was a scar on her heart. She had destroyed that which had taken her so many years of prayer and longing to build up. But this demolished beauty like her own soul, though killed, still quivered and ached with the unstilled pain of life. "Oi weh!" she moaned, swaying to and fro. "So much lost beautifulness--"
Private Abraham Safransky, with the look in his eyes and the swing of his shoulders of all the boys who come back from overseas, edged his way through the wet Delancey Street crowds with the skill of one born to these streets and the a.s.surance of the United States Army. Fresh from the ship, with a twenty-four-hour leave stowed safely in his pocket, he hastened to see his people after nearly two years"
separation.
On Private Safransky"s left shoulder was the insignia of the Statue of Liberty. The three gold service stripes on his left arm and the two wound stripes of his right were supplemented by the Distinguished Service Medal on his left breast bestowed by the United States Government.
As he pictured his mother"s joy when he would surprise her in her spotless kitchen, the soldier broke into the double-quick.
All at once he stopped; on the sidewalk before their house was a heap of household things that seemed familiar and there on the curbstone a woman huddled, cowering, broken.--Good G.o.d--his mother! His own mother--and all their worldly belongings dumped there in the rain.
THE FREE VACATION HOUSE
How came it that I went to the free vacation house was like this:
One day the visiting teacher from the school comes to find out for why don"t I get the children ready for school in time; for why are they so often late.
I let out on her my whole bitter heart. I told her my head was on wheels from worrying. When I get up in the morning, I don"t know on what to turn first: should I nurse the baby, or make Sam"s breakfast, or attend on the older children. I only got two hands.
"My dear woman," she says, "you are about to have a nervous breakdown. You need to get away to the country for a rest and vacation."
"Gott im Himmel!" says I. "Don"t I know I need a rest? But how? On what money can I go to the country?"
"I know of a nice country place for mothers and children that will not cost you anything. It is free."
"Free! I never heard from it."
"Some kind people have made arrangements so no one need pay," she explains.
Later, in a few days, I just finished up with Masha and Mendel and Frieda and Sonya to send them to school, and I was getting Aby ready for kindergarten, when I hear a knock on the door, and a lady comes in. She had a white starched dress like a nurse and carried a black satchel in her hand.
"I am from the Social Betterment Society," she tells me. "You want to go to the country?"
Before I could say something, she goes over to the baby and pulls out the rubber nipple from her mouth, and to me, she says, "You must not get the child used to sucking this; it is very unsanitary."
"Gott im Himmel!" I beg the lady. "Please don"t begin with that child, or she"ll holler my head off. She must have the nipple. I"m too nervous to hear her scream like that."
When I put the nipple back again in the baby"s mouth, the lady takes herself a seat, and then takes out a big black book from her satchel. Then she begins to question me. What is my first name? How old I am? From where come I? How long I"m already in this country? Do I keep any boarders? What is my husband"s first name? How old he is? How long he is in this country? By what trade he works? How much wages he gets for a week? How much money do I spend out for rent? How old are the children, and everything about them.
"My goodness!" I cry out. "For why is it necessary all this to know? For why must I tell you all my business? What difference does it make already if I keep boarders, or I don"t keep boarders? If Masha had the whooping-cough or Sonya had the measles? Or whether I spend out for my rent ten dollars or twenty? Or whether I come from Schnipishock or Kovner Gubernie?"
"We must make a record of all the applicants, and investigate each case," she tells me. "There are so many who apply to the charities, we can help only those who are most worthy."
"Charities!" I scream out. "Ain"t the charities those who help the beggars out? I ain"t no beggar. I"m not asking for no charity. My husband, he works."
"Miss Holcomb, the visiting teacher, said that you wanted to go to the country, and I had to make out this report before investigating your case."
"Oh! Oh!" I choke and bit my lips. "Is the free country from which Miss Holcomb told me, is it from the charities? She was telling me some kind people made arrangements for any mother what needs to go there."
"If your application is approved, you will be notified," she says to me, and out she goes.
When she is gone I think to myself, I"d better knock out from my head this idea about the country. For so long I lived, I didn"t know nothing about the charities. For why should I come down among the beggars now?
Then I looked around me in the kitchen. On one side was the big wash-tub with clothes, waiting for me to wash. On the table was a pile of breakfast dishes yet. In the sink was the potatoes, waiting to be peeled. The baby was beginning to cry for the bottle. Aby was hollering and pulling me to take him to kindergarten. I felt if I didn"t get away from here for a little while, I would land in a crazy house, or from the window jump down. Which was worser, to land in a crazy house, jump from the window down, or go to the country from the charities?
In about two weeks later around comes the same lady with the satchel again in my house.
"You can go to the country to-morrow," she tells me. "And you must come to the charity building to-morrow at nine o"clock sharp. Here is a card with the address. Don"t lose it, because you must hand it to the lady in the office."
I look on the card, and there I see my name wrote; and by it, in big printed letters, that word "CHARITY."
"Must I go to the charity office?" I ask, feeling my heart to sink. "For why must I come there?"