Hunting For A Husband In A Vampire Apocalypse

"Woman, you are my true mate . I want you only . " He slaps her hand away . "Get away from me at this instant . "

Huang Qiuyan takes a deep breath . This king won"t speak . Fine! She will make him say it later . "You are a hundred percent sure that you want me, right? You won"t regret it in the future . "

Fu Sheng scowls at her . "Stop asking questions that I will never answer . "

"You never answer my questions clearly . Does it cost money to talk to me honestly?"

"It costs more than money to have a decent conversation with you," Fu Sheng mutters under his breath .  

"What did you say?" She moves her face closer to his . "You are something, aren"t you? You created that wall around yourself to hide something from me . Tell me now . What happened after the rejection? Why do you look like you are hurting?"

Advertis.e.m.e.ntHe won"t tell her .  He pushes her off his body . He has things to discuss with Sung NMi . "Huang Qiuyan, stop being curious about me . You want to go away from me . You will get your final wish . I am working on it . "

"Wait . " She grabs his hand when he takes a step toward the exit . "Fu Sheng, I want-- . "

"What is it now?" He asks her, exhausted .  

Seeing him like that reminds her of people from her past . She lets his hand go . "I am sorry . "

He is surprised to hear those words . "What are you sorry for?"

For being the way she is . She looks down on the floor . "I may have caused you pain . "

He watches her quietly . She"s being honest . After a long moment, he asks her, "How long are you going to sit there?"

"Go away . " She shoos him away . "I need to think . "

She presses her face on the cold floor . This is embarra.s.sing . Her courage is disappearing now . Her seduction skills didn"t work . How to tell him that she wants to try? He doesn"t want to be with her anymore . She wants to disintegrate into nothing .  

He finds her exasperating . He sits down on his knees and pulls her up . "Though vampires can"t get sick, there"s something called dignity that you must have . You must never ever put your face on the floor again . You are my mate . "

"You cruel king!" She looks at him indignantly .  

"You are back to your usual self . " Fu Sheng gives her a nod . "I am cruel . Find Jin and learn magic . "

"No . " She shakes her head . "You are my mate . You will answer my d.a.m.n questions and you will teach me from now on . Make time for me . Stay beside me and let me get to know you . "

What"s wrong with her? Is she sick or something? He presses his palm against her forehead .  

"Your temperature is okay . Then, did you drink something bad?"

"Argh!" She grabs her hair . Why is it so difficult? She has to say it . If she doesn"t say it today, she won"t be able to ever say it . She quavers, "I want you . "

" . . . " He"s speechless after hearing that .  

She takes a deep breath and meets his stupified gaze with her clear eyes . "I can"t stop thinking about you . It has been confusing, but I have realized that the bond doesn"t matter in the end . Whether it"s there or not, it won"t stop me from caring for someone . At first, I disliked you because of what I felt here . " 

Placing his hand over her chest, she tells him, "I never felt like this for anyone . I had a crush on my cla.s.smate when I was in high school . I liked him because he was handsome but I didn"t feel this way for him either . I have gone on numerous dates, but n.o.body could make it beat this way . That"s why I thought that it was the bond . It was fake . How is it possible to feel this much for someone I have just met?"

She has to say it all . "I was angry because I couldn"t understand . I was stubborn because of everything that happened to me before I died . Even when I lived with my family, I was unwanted . After going to 156 dates, I started believing that n.o.body in the world wanted me . I was insecure when you told me that you wanted me . I wondered why . What did you see in me? Why would someone like you want someone like me? I kept thinking that I wasn"t your equal . But, I never questioned myself why I thought that way .  I am sorry that I am slow . The fault lied in me . It took me a while to understand what these feelings meant and why I kept thinking of you . Honestly, I didn"t want to get hurt . I kept saying that I wanted to experience true love, but I was incapable of experiencing it because of my past experiences . Fu Sheng, I didn"t know what it felt like to be wanted by someone . "

"But, Fu Sheng, I didn"t fall for you because of your face or the intense feelings that nearly burns me .  When I saw your love toward Fu Mian, I realized that you could love people better than humans could . I started liking you when I saw that you still cared about me even after I rejected you . I fell for you the moment when you told me that the next day would be better . When I woke up, I wanted to see you the most . I was jealous when I saw you with someone else . I was relieved when you told me that you didn"t want her . I was happy when you said that you would want me only . "

She takes a breath . "Fu Sheng, I won"t ask you to be with me . I rejected you . So, I can"t blame you for hating me now . But, can you do me a favour? I want you to rely on the people around you . You take everything on yourself . Give a chance to them to show their love for you . It"s not healthy to keep it all in . . . " She pokes his chest . "There . "

She smiles at him .  "You stand tall on the top of the mountain and they all look up at you . You have people who love you . You aren"t like me who belongs to the bottom of the ladder . I guess that I know why . I was told by people that I belonged to that place, but my fault was that I started believing that I belonged to that place . I never tried to get up on that ladder . I believed in their meaning of happiness and never tried to find mine . I hated myself for it . If I couldn"t love myself, how could my family love me? Still, they did love me in their own ways . They didn"t know how to show it, but they cared about me . I was too blind to see it back then . Behind their cruel words, they hid their care . "

She blinks at him . He"s listening to her . He hasn"t spoken a word . His eyes are calm and she"s also affected by his calmness .  

"Perhaps, it"s because I died and became a vampire . I am starting to see them in a different way . I am feeling things in a different way . But, even if my human life was super short compared to your vampire life, I don"t see why you should suffer alone when you have people who want to share your burdens . If you give them a chance, maybe they will appreciate it more than you can imagine it . "

She lets go of his hand . "I am sorry if I spoke too much . I also want to be one of those people who can free your heart of all the pain . It"s a simple wish, but I want to be someone who can understand you . I think that I will not like living life without you . Without you, I won"t feel the peace that I feel when you embrace . I feel selfish when I ask this, but Fu Sheng, can you hug me once? I think that I will cry if you don"t . I have said so much, but you haven"t said a word . You will embarra.s.s me to death if you prolong your silence . "