Qing Shan was sleeping just besides her, with dim lights. It has been around 30 minutes since they went to bed but despite the calm environment Zhi Ruo was unable to manage her turbulent heart. Love, a word which was related to her family, will she be able to a.s.sociate it with a person who was nothing to her. Will she be able to trust someone unconditionally, someone who is not her family or will she become another Li Yuren.
In her memories, her mother was always a gentle women, someone who always smiled even while taking her last breath. Will she be another person to repeat history, history of betrayal, history of death, history of unfulfilled love.
Zhi Ruo never dared to fall in love because she was destined to become a heartless person, she was fated to become a person who would be stained with blood.....blood of her own loved ones.....
Mocking her own fate Zhi Ruo stared at Qing shan, mother said move forward, but will it help me?
I wanted to stand alone, fight alone, but I was tied down.....They said you need someone to lean on, but will you really be the person who can become my strength or will you become my weakness like my mother.
Neverthless, I have to move forward, the sooner the better.
Even though, both Zhi Ruo and Qing Shan were sleeping on the same bed, but they had a decent amount of distance between them, while Zhi Ruo was facing Qing Shan, he was sleeping straight on his back, hands folded on his chest like a formal pose.
Moving closer to Qing Shan, Zhi Ruo removed the duvet and slowly started moving closer to his face. Trying to console herself, this would be it....she has to do it....
Just as she was inches away from Qing Shan"s face his eyes opened, those eyes, those brown eyes were staring deep into her eyes.
Curling his hand around Zhi Ruo"s shoulders he spoke in a nonchalant tone, "go ahead, I want to see how far can you betray your emotions"
There was her reflection in his eyes, he was nothing to her just a person who was her husband. But does it mean that she can play with him? Does it mean that she can call the shots? Does it mean that she can betray her own principles?
No, the answer was no
Moving away, Zhi Ruo lied down on the other side of bed and closed her eyes.
He was right, something has happened at her home, something that has triggered her impulsiveness.
Getting up from the bed, Qing Shan left.....
"Is he angry? Did I hurt him? Was I too much?" soo many questions began to revolve in her mind with no answeres....
At last she buried herself in the quilt and tightly closed her eyes while using her hands to close her ears. Her mind was a mess, an utter mess.....