I Don't Love You

"You seem so out of it…. Are you sure it"s nothing?" Jungkook ask, patting my shoulder softly. "If it"s Mingyu, you can go to him… I won"t stop you" Jungkook smiles softly.

What does he mean? "I"m not going to force you to love me if you don"t", with that Jungkook gets up and walks to the bathroom. I was just left dumbfounded.

I guess he gave up because I"m so focused on Mingyu. I sigh as I got out of bed, his shirt was on the floor and I got an idea that came in my head.

I put it on and looked at myself in the mirror, it was so big as it was half way my thighs. "I"m CEO of J-One group, if you ever touch her like that again, you"re fired" I imitated his voice, "I"m so cool" I continue to make of him for who knows how long.

"Woa… How can this even be possible? I look completely naked in this shirt." I said to myself as I stare at my pet.i.te body, "Do you like my shirt that much?" Jungkook"s voice startled me as I look over to the man who was like 12 inches away from me.

He is handsome from the depth of his eyes to the gentle expressions of his voice. He is handsome from his generous opinions to the touch of his hand upon my own.

I loved the way his voice quickened when he sparkled with that word "Baby" or was so enjoying one of mine that he lost himself for a moment and quite forgot the mask he wore for others. He was so real to me. That"s what I like about him.

He had the towel wrap around his waist as those muscles that were hidden in his suits were finally revealed and I was the first to see them. I felt my cheeks burning in embarra.s.sment.

"Um... I"ll take a shower... B-bye now" I said, avoiding eye contacts. I feel him smiling as I rush to the bathroom. I sigh, closing the door behind me.

Breakfast~ 8:20 am

When I came out of the bathroom, everything was already set up. Everywhere I look, there was stacks of food. One section as a continental breakfast, the other was a traditional Korean breakfast, I didn"t know where to start first.

"Y-you didn"t have to cook… we could go somewhere special to eat" I added, trying to act calm when I was dying inside. "I don"t cook for anyone unless they are special" Jungkook smiles at me, making me breathless as I begin to choke on my food.

"Eat slowly, there"s no rush" Jungkook chuckles. The room was silent with only the sound of chopsticks and spoon can be heard, "I heard Mingyu is in Shanghai…" Jungkook breaks the silence, "I can drop you to his place" Jungkook continues.

I didn"t even get the chance to say anything before everything was already decided. Jungkook looks fine for some reason, I don"t know but our relationship is always an off and on type of thing.

Like Jungkook said, next minute we are like two love birds on a branch and then the next minute we are like two parallel lines. It"s confusing but if you were in my situation, you would feel the same.

"Jungkook, you don"t have to drop m- ", I was cut off by the sound of my phone vibrating on the table, "h.e.l.lo" I answered with Mingyu on the other side, he sounded drunk.

"Babe, I have some bad news, please come to me. We really need to talk. I love you and I want you right now" he says as every word that came out of his mouth, made me scared about Jungkook"s reaction but… he looked as if he didn"t care.

"I am eating breakfast right now… I"ll come over after I finish" with that I ended the call, Jungkook was awkwardly "okay" about this. I am so confused. What happened?

Mingyu"s Place 9:00 am

As soon as I enter the house, I was greeted by a kiss and a hug from the man who called me minutes ago. "What"s wrong?" I managed to let those words out in between the kisses without an answer from him.

Mingyu"s answer were shown through his body language; he was thirsty for me. I felt disgusted as I push him away, "What do you think you are doing?" I ask with a disgusted look.

Mingyu rolls his eyes and sighs dramatically, "Didn"t you see the news? Since you won"t marry me, my parents decided to marry me off to Soyou. That"s way I want to spend my last day with you… and you only." Mingyu smiles softly. This is not what I asked for in my life and yet slowly, the life I cherish becomes a nightmare.

"I want to pleasure you… I don"t want you to be traumatized anymore. I want to show you and make you feel that s.e.x is a beautiful thing… so please Yoon Byeol-ah" Mingyu begs with his hands holding mine.

"You"re drunk Mingyu… you don"t know what you are saying" I said getting out of his grip.

I read in some fancy magazine before that l.u.s.t and pa.s.sion were entirely different, but I never understood until this moment.

I"d ditched Mingyu for being too needy... though I loved him, and he"d loved me. It"s what my friends had told me to do, "That boy is always going to drag you down!".

I looked over at Mingyu breathing in that shallow rhythmic way he did before. He was fun, but I didn"t love him like I thought I did and that made everything he ever wanted from me was out of l.u.s.t.

My body became tense as Jimin came in my head, I started to shake in fear as my eyes became watery.

I could smell s.e.m.e.n and sweat with no source of either. The scent is strong, and my heart rate was accelerating as I attempt to control my breathing rate.

"J-Jungkook…." His name was the first thing I managed to get out. My vision was getting blurry as I hear loud banging echoing as everything slowly went pitch black.