I Don't Love You

This mask I use to fool people, I want to take it off... but if I do that.. will it hurt my parents? Will... it hurt Jungkook?

" I don"t know.. Please don"t ask me any more questions.. " Jungkook shakes his head in blankness. I just stand there, staring at him...

When he touches me I don"t even realize that he has Mysophobia... I"m just addicted to his soft hands touching me, I know this is a little weird but... when he touches me, it feels like all of my worries disappear and I feel safe.

But every time he holds me, I can see the fear in his eyes like he is going to go in shock and faint. I don"t want him to go through that pain...

" Jungkook, I-" I was cut off by the sound of my phone ringing in my pocket. I pause and look at Jungkook because I knew that phone call is from Mingyu, "Don"t answer it." he suddenly said with a cold tone and no facial expression.

I"ve always read Jungkook"s body language when he doesn"t say anything but... these days, it"s getting hard for me because he is acting weird. I look down at my phone to see an unknown phone number.

"I-it"s not Mingyu... " I state, looking at Jungkook to make sure everything was fine. "Still, don"t answer it. From the beginning of today, you"ll be working as my secretary." Jungkook said, handing me some files - guessing it"s the schedule for today and I was right.

"Why suddenly?" I ask as I begin looking through the schedule. "Why do you always ask so many questions? " He asks as he walks up to me. My heart suddenly was acting up again and then I was bouncing with hiccups again.

"It"s always good to know the reason to everything so you"ll know what to expect and will be able to work through the conditions" I force a smile as I back out a little bit.

" I like the way you think Yoon Byeol but sometimes you can be a pain in the a.s.s. " He says as he begins to walk, leaving me angry and annoyed. I glare at the back of his hand and whisper cuss until he suddenly turns around to see me ready to punch him.

I blush and quickly put my hands down as I clear my throat. I feel Jungkook softly smiling as he turns around. I was just too embarra.s.sed... What is happening to me? I"m acting freaking stupid!

" What is the schedules for today? " Jungkook asks as the both of us walk along the windowed long hallway with my heels echoing with every single step I took.

" You have a meeting at the Hotel in 20 minutes, you have some international guess from China, j.a.pan, and the United States," I said, proudly smiling at myself until I suddenly almost twist my ankle but Jungkook catches me.

" Are you okay? " Jungkook asks with a worried tone as he held me by the arms, " I"m fine" I quickly push him away and face the front, blinking a couple of times because my heart couldn"t stop but beat with every movement he made.

I hear Jungkook sighing as he begins to walk again. I drag my leg and try to catch up to him but he was fast.

I bite my bottom lip, trying to quicken my paste until I feel him slowly wrapping his arms around my waist, supporting me. Now we were in the same paste.

Luckily he doesn"t know this but my heart was about to explode from my chest. I tried every method to try to calm myself down but... nothing work.

For him to be able to touch me like this... maybe I have magic hands? magic skin? Magic Touch? I don"t know! But it"s gotta be one of them!

In the car~

The silent breaks with a phone call, "h.e.l.lo?" I answer the call with a female voice at the other end, " Ms. Cha, the plans have suddenly changed! It"s not in the hotel it"s in the airport. Their flight delayed." she said, panicking.

I end the call and look over at Jungkook who was just driving. I got lost as I look at his masculine face and his dark brown eyes, making my heart skip a beat again.

" Uh... The meeting will be at the airport... Their flight was late" I said, shaking my head to come back to reality. " T-The airport?" Jungkook asks, with the fear in his eyes...

That"s when I realize, he hates airports, hospitals... and crowded places with many people, " Are you okay?" I ask, to make sure what I"m seeing was right. " I"m fine" he gulps, proving my statement to be right. He was afraid.

After a few more minutes, we finally arrive at the airport. He takes his hands off the steering wheel and looks over at me, " Gloves" he mumbles. I quickly take out his gloves and hand it over to him. He puts it on and sighs as he steps out of his car.

In the airport~

As soon as we walk in, Jungkook"s body begins to tense in fear. I quickly walk in front to clear away his path as I see him gasping for air. "Excuse me... I"m sorry" I bow as I continue to clear the way.

Jungkook suddenly stops which makes me scared to death, "Jungkook, are you okay?" I ask to see him slowly looking at me. He was getting dizzy as he presses his hand on his forehand, "Jungkook! Are you okay? " I ask, touching him.. but this time the magic touch didn"t work... He couldn"t focus on me.

He slowly walks closer to me as he drops on me, "Jungkook!! Jungkook! Please wake up!" I yell, with tears in my eyes. With my other hand, I begin to call the ambulance but it was hard because my hand couldn"t stop shaking.

Home~

"Doctor... He"ll be fine right?" I ask as I slowly caress his hands, " Please don"t touch him... That"s probably why he fainted. For 25 years, he"s never touched anyone... he fears it. Just let him rest." the doctor said, leaving me dumbfounded.

I sigh and discided to quickly go to my apartment which was like a few rooms away and grab everything I need to spend the night here or.. should I go to my house? I know... I rich so many different places I stay, depending on my mood.

My apartment~

I stand under the warm water as my bathroom became foggy. I love this feeling, I sigh and close my eyes. I was finally done after a few minutes, I step out to realize that I didn"t bring my phone.

With the towel wrap around my body, I begin to wipe my wet hair as I walk out to the living room to hear the code on my door beeping. Someone was pressing the b.u.t.tons and the moment that person got the pin right, the door opens.

I froze, who could it be? Everyone would be at work at this hour and the pin to my apartment... I don"t remember telling anyone. Jimin enters the room with a small smile and flowers in his hands as he closes the door.

" Oh... what a nice surprise" Jimin laughs, I gulp as I step back, trembling in fear. " J-Jimin... What are you doing here?" I gulp, he puts the flower on my table and walks slowly towards me " Just came here to see my future wife" Jimin smirks.

" You know that arrangement was canceled a long time ago... C-can you please leave?"

" Why? Let"s have fun" he licks his lips as his hands grab my arms, pulling my waist near his body. I bite his hand to let go of me and run to the door when he grabs me by the hair and pulls me back.

" Come here b*tch!" he curses and pushes me on the floor, the towel that was wrapped around my body came off. He slaps me, knocking me out and my body eventually gives up as everything went pitch black.

I wake up under the covers, naked with parts of my body bruised and I was exhausted. My body recalls the pain as tears fill my eyes, I sit up to see blood on my white bedsheet. I wrap myself in the cover completely and begin to walk with my blood trembling down my right leg.

I made my way to Jungkook"s door. I felt disgusting, dirty and I couldn"t stop crying. All I wanted was the comfort and the warmth of Jungkook. I unlock Jungkook"s door to fall straight down. Jungkook was already awake.

As our eyes met, I burst out crying in pain as the door slowly close behind me. Jungkook runs towards with a worried facial expression, he was going to hug me but he was afraid... he looks at me and all I could do was cry because I knew he wasn"t able to hug me even though his hug was what I needed most.

He tries again, reaching out his hands but as soon as it was like a few inches away, it trembles in fear. "I-I"m sorry," he said with tears in his eyes.