"What" I mutter under my breath with my eyes wide open. What is this man talking about? Who does he think he is? My body for him to just use because that"s all he can touch? " You heard me. I"ll let you see Mingyu every night before we sleep and you"ll give me your body " Jungkook explains." Do you even know the reason why I need to see him every night? " I ask looking deep in his eyes like I was sending him the answer, " Because you love him " Jungkook adds quickly.
Those words... I didn"t want to say that it wasn"t right but something didn"t feel right either, as if I have mixed emotions. " I promise, that"s all I will ever ask from you " Jungkook sighs trying to hide something, not wanting me to read his factal expression.
" Yeah sure.. Just keep your words " I said, placing my hand on top of his. He forced a smile as he wraps his left hand around my waist, walking me out to the crowd as the cameras lighs flicker with every step I take.
I take a step down the red carpet confidently because I know Jungkook was supporting me. I force the biggest smile as I hear screams of my fans and Jungkook"s fans. A black limo"s door was open to reveal Park Jimin in a red suit with a well difine jawline.
My legs weaken as I see the man who raped me just a few inches away from me. I shake in fear but Jungkook supported me well as he held me up, holding my hands to help me calm down. " You okay? " Jungkook asks worried about my situatuion.
"I"m scared" I explain as I clench onto my dress to see Jungkook looking at me. " It"s alright " he conforts me with a smile as he holds me in his embrace, the crowd could not stay still as screams that sound the fire sirens rings through my ears.
I felt safe that day.... And, it was because of Jungkook.
" OMG!!!! They are finally getting married!!! I ship them so much " - loveourprincess
" They look so good together!! I can"t wait to see their future babies!!! - pincessisjungkooks
" Have fun in China! Please come back safely! "
I close my laptop in anger, Mingyu will see all this... I"m scared. This dark world is too cruel towards me... I never asked for all this to happen but if you have a rich father like me... everything you think is imposible is possible.
I press my hands hard on my forehead like I was having a headache as I sigh hard with an unfimiliar pain in my chest. I don"t want any of this!
I grab my jacket which was a few inches away from me and walk outside to my car. Jungkook knew what I was doing but he did not dare to say anything. He just watched me walk out and driving away to Mingyu"s house.
Mingyu"s House - 4:00 pm
Walking inside to what felt like home was the best feeling ever! In my dreams, the dream that I desire... this was our house and the man who is standing next to me, the man I love is my husband. He will welcome me home with a hug and gentle kisses on my lips.
But, when I open my eyes.. everything fade into nothingness and all I can see is the man I love looking straight at me with a soft smile that had so many meanings to it, one is - kiss me. I feel tears in my eye burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face, I feel the muscles of my chin tremble like a small child as I look away.
He holds me in his embrace as I sob into his chest unceasingly, hands clutching onto his shirt. He hold onto me in silence, rocking me slowly as my tears soaks his shirt. A tiny lapse let me pull away, blinking lashes, heavy with tears, my howls of misery worsening.
After a few mintues of silence, I stare into the blankness of the dark room with a big window, my eyes are swollen, my nose were pink red as I sniff again for the last time. I was just listening the heart beat of Kim Mingyu until I felt a drop of warm tears on the right side of my cheek , goosb.u.mps rushed down my spine as I shiffer in the cold.
My heart drop as I break the hug to see a single tear tracing down his cheek. "He must be in a lot of pain too" I thought as I brush my thumb against his cheek, wiping it away. I place my icy cold hand on his warm face to feel him leaning in, his lips brush mine. Not innocently, like a tease but hot fiery, pa.s.sionate and demaning. He pulls me in as he continues to kiss me in the most pa.s.sionate way I can ever think of.
Moans escape my mouth when I feel him sucking onto my neck. What is this feeling? It"s so new to me... I push him away, "Come to China with me... I am allowed to see you every night before I sleep.." I explain to Mingyu, "Of course... Are you okay? Yesterday.. you met Jimin. You must"ve been scared".
"Thank you for worrying about me but I"m doing fine." I smile softly.
Jungkook"s House - 6:30
I walk inside to see Jungkook who was a few meters away from the front door just looking down at his watch, "Where did you go? Why did it take you so long?" Jungkook asks in a cold tone. What is this? Why is he acting like a husband already?
"I need your body... Come here" Jungkook orders as he sits on the coach, I walk towards him slowly, flipping my hair to the side to hide the hickey that Mingyu gave me a few minutes ago. Jungkook lays down on the sofa, resting his head on my thighs.
"You went to see him didn"t you?" Jungkook sighs as he close his eyes with an unfimiliar tension in the room, "I just finish packing, we"ll leave first thing tomorrow" Jungkook continues to talk with me just sitting there, awkward about the position I"m in.
"You guys didn"t do anything right?" Jungkook asks without an answer from me which made him inpatient, "Why aren"t you answering me" Jungkook asks again. His face suddenly change as he flips my hair away from the hickey, "What is this?" Jungkook ask coldly.
He tries to get a closer look but I continue to hide it with my hair, "Baby.. that looks painful.. Let me see.." Jungkook"s soft voice caught me off guard, the way he said all those was so s.e.xy! He pushes my hands away, "It"s nothing..." I confirm as I slowly push his hands away, "Is this what you"ve been doing?"
Silence fills the dark room, it was like a place out of time, a place to rest without consequence. The darkness in that way was a sanctuary, a place to recharge and forget the things the world said had to be done.. I have nothing to say at this point. All I can listen to was the soft breathing of Jungkook who was a few inches away from me, "What did you expect me to do? I love him.... " I comment.
"But your body is mine... Why would you let someone do anything he wants to the body I made mine..? I can only do this to you. I can only be the one who kisses you and hugs you to sleep. You gave me your premission yesterday. I will let you see him but you are not allowed to touch him. You are mine.."
When he looks at me, it was as if every ounce of breath was taken from my lungs floating into the air like midnight smoke. I feel my cheeks burn but luckily he wasn"t able to see this.