Now that you said I was facing up to my mind, that was it.
But I still had mixed feelings.
I believed that anyone who encountered in such a situation would feel uneasy about the feelings.
So after thinking about it carefully, I felt I should stay away from my dad, thinking calmly about how to solve this problem.
When I was about to go back to school on Sunday evening, he asked me, "Would you like to go home and move some of your things here?"
What he meant was that he hoped I would come here the next weekend.
Thinking for a while, I refused and said, "Grandma would feel lonely at home. So I"d better accompany with her."
He listened to me, saying nothing. Then he asked the driver to send me back to school.
These two days, I still felt confused, mainly worrying about the change of my feelings for my dad and wondering about his thoughts.
If it was just my feelings for my dad that changed, I could control it.
But what if my dad also had the same feelings with me?
I didn"t know how to explain it. I had to admit that I was indeed happy. However, compared to it, I felt panicked more. What a weird feeling it was! It was hard for me to accept it.
So, I decided not to go to my dad"s house recently. Keeping a distance from him was a good choice for us.
These days, I, my roommate and his girlfriend had lunch together.
One day they were talking about the circle of ACGN culture, when his girlfriend said mysteriously, "Hey, there is gossip about x.x.x. Do you wanna listen to it?"
x.x.x was my dad"s name in this circle. Of course, I strained my ears to listen what she was gonna say.
Then she whispered, "It is said that x.x.x is a man."
Then, she looked at my roommate with great sympathy.
While, my roommate flamboyantly performed a surprised expression, pretending that he didn"t know that until just now. Then he asked his girlfriend where she heard about it and whether it was true or something else.
His girlfriend said, "It is just gossip, without any evidence."
Then my roommate just said "Oh".
Founding that my roommate was so cool about the gossip, his girlfriend continued to tell him more gossips about x.x.x...
While, he still didn"t care much about it, which made him win the trust of his girlfriend, who believed that my roommate just liked x.x.x"s work, not x.x.x.
After dinner, the two of us made an excuse to get rid of his girlfriend.
As soon as she left, my roommate said hastily: "Go tell your dad about it. Don"t let anyone dig out the truth!"
I rolled my eyes and said: "Your "G.o.ddess" don"t know that we have known who he is yet, okay?"
He was silent. Then he decided to save his "G.o.ddess" by himself.
His idea was to figure out the source of the gossip, then disrupt the rumor with x.x.x"s fans.
Of course, I cared about my dad too, so I joined my roommate.
After half a night of hard work, we finally found the source.
The statement that "x.x.x is a man", which was discussed in the forum in the beginning, was later spread to the micro-blog and fan groups. When we joined them, the statement had got around.
The first post mentioning the rumor was from two new accounts. Maybe they registered these accounts in order to smear my dad.
According to our investigation, we found that after the first post about the rumor, some people echoed it one after another. With more and more people partic.i.p.ating in the discussion, a big shot immediately appeared and put forward his views, which propelled the rumor into a "truth". Then everyone in this circle believed that x.x.x was indeed a man. Now, they were asking x.x.x to explain it.
Well, I couldn"t help sympathizing with my dad.
He had no friend but a lot of enemies.
Obviously, these people wanted him to be out of the circle.
Thinking of it, I felt so sad that I didn"t know whether I should be angry or sorry.
For a moment, I almost wanted to tell my dad that I knew everything and I would support him all the time as before. Anyway, he would know that he still had a friend, that was his son.
However, it was clearly unwise to do so.
Therefore, I could only join "the Defense War for G.o.ddess" launched by my roommate, in order to protect my dad from the rumor.
I had never thought that the reason why I messed with other netizens on the Internet was for protecting my dad.