Chapter 204 - I Don"t Deserve Her Love
"Unfortunately, there"s no cure for it. The only thing you can do is… go all the way with her." Zaki said but to his surprise, Sei just looked at him without any change in his expression. He just looked as though Zaki"s supposedly heart stoping advice didn"t even reach him.
Thus, a.n.a.lyzing his lack of reaction, Zaki could only facepalmed as he tried to confirm if he even heard what he just said.
"Did you hear what I said?" He asked with his voice a little bit louder. However, the next words that came out of Sei"s mouth almost made his dear spirit left him.
"What are you trying to say?" Sei asked firmly and a little bit too seriously, looking unsure about the exact meaning of his words. A question that effortlessly made Zaki to just heaved a deep sigh.
"I am trying to tell you to just go and make a baby, you get it?!" Zaki burst out of frustration but then Sei"s reaction towards his words was completely off again. All of the sudden, he looked as though what Zaki said just made him went gloomy instead of being excited.
"I can"t do that." He said as his eyes dimmed. Causing Zaki"s shoulders to just fall with disappointment.
"Sigh… I don"t know what to say. I personally think that you don"t have to hold back this much. I understand what you wanted to happen but you both are sleeping in the same bed, you both already confessed your love for each other and she"s your wife." Zaki replied and Sei"s gaze just fell towards the darkness outside again.
"Yes, she"s my wife. But I can"t deny the fact that until now she"s still just my contracted wife. I can"t do any wrong move anymore. I won"t do something improper to her just because of my uncontrolled mounting desire. I want to fully surrender my complete self to her first." He explained and Zaki fell completely and unbelievably dumbfounded. It was because, this is the first time that Sei have spoken this long without stopping.
G.o.d! That"s exact fifty words in one go!! Whoah, did he just set his very own Guinness world record?!
Additionally, Zaki almost couldn"t believe that Sei actually said those super cheesy words with such unbreakable determination. It was just like he was invoking a sacred and pure promises.
That moment, while Zaki was still trying to calm himself down for him to be able to give the right words of wisdom, Sei suddenly spoke again.
"She saved me not just once but twice. She gave me her heart even though she"s not allowed to see me. She always cries for me even though I couldn"t even tell her my name... she accepted me unconditionally despite my darkest side. Honestly, the more I look at her, the more I feel like I don"t deserve her love. That"s why I wanted to become worthy of her love. Our strange and abnormal encounter, the heartless rules and contract between us... I want to fix it all. From now on, I wanted to give her the best of my everything." He continued before he simply turned and stepped out the door. Causing the still stunned Zaki to remain speechless for a long while before he finally snapped.
"That"s more than a hundred words right? Amazing… you want to fully submit your complete self to her first, huh… what a man. Hmm… Well, a king submitting himself to his queen sounds not that bad after all." He then said as he touched his chin.
That moment, Zaki finally smiled with relief. It was because this was the first time Sei finally voiced out what"s in his heart. He knew for a fact that their marriage was a mere cold contract with heartless rules from the beginning. . He can not also ignore the fact that Davi might still be thinking constantly about her mission of bearing his child. Their relations.h.i.+p, even though they were now so in love with each other that there is no more turning back. That there are still doors that is needed to be opened for them to be together with no reservations. Sei needed to show her his complete self or else their relations.h.i.+p will never be complete.
Zaki somehow realized that Sei was thinking much more seriously about their relations.h.i.+p a hundred times more than he expected. And even though he wants a nephew to come as soon as possible, he can"t deny that Sei"s decision was the best for now. Zaki realized that if Sei touches her right now and consumates their relations.h.i.+p, she might think that he"s doing it only for the sake of the mission stipulated in the contract.
After thinking about it for a while, Zaki started walking back to his bed when he suddenly stopped. His eyes widened, and he instantly turned back to the door as he opened his mouth.
"Wait, does this mean, he wanted to dissolve their contract now? That"s why he wanted to go and find a ring here, right now?!" Zaki exclaimed!