Chapter 191 - Unbearable Fear
"I love you." Davi finally said as her eyes were burning with intense emotions; honesty, sincerity, loyalty and most of all, love. She only uttered three words, however, those three magic words were all she needed to say.
She poured all her heart with those three words as the ultimate part of her confession. Her heart was beating wildly as ever as she held her breath, waiting for the reaction of the man in front of her.
Davi could sense that her husband was shocked and she can"t help but feel even more nervous when the man just froze in his squatting position while his gaze was locked unto her. His eyes were glimmering, ever so beautiful like an out of this world gem.
Thankfully, after a long while, Sei finally moved. He slowly stood up and looked directly at her eyes.
However, that very moment, Davi saw another strange emotion flicker in his eyes. It was as if his surprised expression a moment ago turned suddenly into anxiety. And she could not understand why, but she felt as though, her heart was abruptly being twisted because of the seemingly intense forlorn look in his eyes.
At that point in time, Davi wanted to speak and ask him what"s wrong. She wanted to know why he"s suddenly looking at her that way just after she told him she loves him. But then, in an instant she turned tongue tied, and she couldn"t speak a single word. At the same time, nervousness enveloped her the moment she began to think that it must be because he"s about to reject her.
Davi subconsciously bit her lip and her grip with the rose in her hand tightened when all of the sudden, the man in front of her finally talked.
"I…" He started, causing Davi to hold her breath, because his eyes were still emitting a strange feeling that Davi considers as a not so good sign.
"If I tell you I"m not a good person… would you still say that you love me?" He continued with such heartbreakingly sad gazes, making Davi"s eyes to slightly widened. It was because that instant, she realized that the sadness in his eyes were not because he wanted to reject her. As she looked at him, she just thought that he seemed to be just being anxiously troubled if her feelings would change once she realized who he is. A thought that finally made Davi took a deep breath before a sincere smile carved in her face.
"For me, irregardless on what anyone says, you"re a good person and I will still love you." She then answered sincerely as ever, as she looked back at him with her usual unbreakable determined gazes. Causing Sei to just fell silent for a while, before he continued talking again.
"I"m… I"m a dangerous person, that"s why I"m not showing my face and ident.i.ty to you." He said and his eyes remained as sad as it was. The view that just kept squeezing Davi"s heart. Causing her to raise her hand, tiptoed and reached out before she just gently caressed his hair as she replied with rea.s.suring voice.
"For me, you"re not dangerous at all. But even if you are, I will still love you." She answered with serious voice as then she smiled.
That moment, capturing her every word, looking at her rea.s.suring smile, and feeling her comforting gentle touches, despite all the revelations that he had bared to her, Sei couldn"t help but feel an inexplicable sensation of warmth he had never felt before. He just felt as though, she really was an angel that descended from the heavens to save him. He never expected that would be her reactions and answers at all. And he never meant to tell her all those to discourage or test her, he just decided to open up his heart to her, despite his extreme fear that she will be frightened of him. He just wanted to start to open his heart and reveal his past self slowly, despite the unbearable fear of losing her.