Wilt thou I undertake them as we pa.s.s, And send them to thee?"
Arthur laughed upon him.
"Old friend, too old to be so young, depart, Delay not thou for aught, but let them sit, Until they find a l.u.s.tier than themselves."
So these departed. Early, one fair dawn, The light-winged spirit of his youth returned On Arthur"s heart; he armed himself and went, So coming to the fountain-side beheld Balin and Balan sitting statuelike, Brethren, to right and left the spring, that down, From underneath a plume of lady-fern, Sang, and the sand danced at the bottom of it.
And on the right of Balin Balin"s horse Was fast beside an alder, on the left Of Balan Balan"s near a poplartree.
"Fair Sirs," said Arthur, "wherefore sit ye here?"
Balin and Balan answered "For the sake Of glory; we be mightier men than all In Arthur"s court; that also have we proved; For whatsoever knight against us came Or I or he have easily overthrown."
"I too," said Arthur, "am of Arthur"s hall, But rather proven in his Paynim wars Than famous jousts; but see, or proven or not, Whether me likewise ye can overthrow."
And Arthur lightly smote the brethren down, And lightly so returned, and no man knew.
Then Balin rose, and Balan, and beside The carolling water set themselves again, And spake no word until the shadow turned; When from the fringe of coppice round them burst A spangled pursuivant, and crying "Sirs, Rise, follow! ye be sent for by the King,"
They followed; whom when Arthur seeing asked "Tell me your names; why sat ye by the well?"
Balin the stillness of a minute broke Saying "An unmelodious name to thee, Balin, "the Savage"--that addition thine-- My brother and my better, this man here, Balan. I smote upon the naked skull A thrall of thine in open hall, my hand Was gauntleted, half slew him; for I heard He had spoken evil of me; thy just wrath Sent me a three-years" exile from thine eyes.
I have not lived my life delightsomely: For I that did that violence to thy thrall, Had often wrought some fury on myself, Saving for Balan: those three kingless years Have past--were wormwood-bitter to me. King, Methought that if we sat beside the well, And hurled to ground what knight soever spurred Against us, thou would"st take me gladlier back, And make, as ten-times worthier to be thine Than twenty Balins, Balan knight. I have said.
Not so--not all. A man of thine today Abashed us both, and brake my boast. Thy will?"
Said Arthur "Thou hast ever spoken truth; Thy too fierce manhood would not let thee lie.
Rise, my true knight. As children learn, be thou Wiser for falling! walk with me, and move To music with thine Order and the King.
Thy chair, a grief to all the brethren, stands Vacant, but thou retake it, mine again!"
Thereafter, when Sir Balin entered hall, The Lost one Found was greeted as in Heaven With joy that blazed itself in woodland wealth Of leaf, and gayest garlandage of flowers, Along the walls and down the board; they sat, And cup clashed cup; they drank and some one sang, Sweet-voiced, a song of welcome, whereupon Their common shout in chorus, mounting, made Those banners of twelve battles overhead Stir, as they stirred of old, when Arthur"s host Proclaimed him Victor, and the day was won.
Then Balan added to their Order lived A wealthier life than heretofore with these And Balin, till their emba.s.sage returned.
"Sir King" they brought report "we hardly found, So bushed about it is with gloom, the hall Of him to whom ye sent us, Pellam, once A Christless foe of thine as ever dashed Horse against horse; but seeing that thy realm Hath prospered in the name of Christ, the King Took, as in rival heat, to holy things; And finds himself descended from the Saint Arimathaean Joseph; him who first Brought the great faith to Britain over seas; He boasts his life as purer than thine own; Eats scarce enow to keep his pulse abeat; Hath pushed aside his faithful wife, nor lets Or dame or damsel enter at his gates Lest he should be polluted. This gray King Showed us a shrine wherein were wonders--yea-- Rich arks with priceless bones of martyrdom, Thorns of the crown and shivers of the cross, And therewithal (for thus he told us) brought By holy Joseph thither, that same spear Wherewith the Roman pierced the side of Christ.
He much amazed us; after, when we sought The tribute, answered "I have quite foregone All matters of this world: Garlon, mine heir, Of him demand it," which this Garlon gave With much ado, railing at thine and thee.
"But when we left, in those deep woods we found A knight of thine spear-stricken from behind, Dead, whom we buried; more than one of us Cried out on Garlon, but a woodman there Reported of some demon in the woods Was once a man, who driven by evil tongues From all his fellows, lived alone, and came To learn black magic, and to hate his kind With such a hate, that when he died, his soul Became a Fiend, which, as the man in life Was wounded by blind tongues he saw not whence, Strikes from behind. This woodman showed the cave From which he sallies, and wherein he dwelt.
We saw the hoof-print of a horse, no more."
Then Arthur, "Let who goes before me, see He do not fall behind me: foully slain And villainously! who will hunt for me This demon of the woods?" Said Balan, "I"!
So claimed the quest and rode away, but first, Embracing Balin, "Good my brother, hear!
Let not thy moods prevail, when I am gone Who used to lay them! hold them outer fiends, Who leap at thee to tear thee; shake them aside, Dreams ruling when wit sleeps! yea, but to dream That any of these would wrong thee, wrongs thyself.
Witness their flowery welcome. Bound are they To speak no evil. Truly save for fears, My fears for thee, so rich a fellowship Would make me wholly blest: thou one of them, Be one indeed: consider them, and all Their bearing in their common bond of love, No more of hatred than in Heaven itself, No more of jealousy than in Paradise."
So Balan warned, and went; Balin remained: Who--for but three brief moons had glanced away From being knighted till he smote the thrall, And faded from the presence into years Of exile--now would strictlier set himself To learn what Arthur meant by courtesy, Manhood, and knighthood; wherefore hovered round Lancelot, but when he marked his high sweet smile In pa.s.sing, and a transitory word Make knight or churl or child or damsel seem From being smiled at happier in themselves-- Sighed, as a boy lame-born beneath a height, That glooms his valley, sighs to see the peak Sun-flushed, or touch at night the northern star; For one from out his village lately climed And brought report of azure lands and fair, Far seen to left and right; and he himself Hath hardly scaled with help a hundred feet Up from the base: so Balin marvelling oft How far beyond him Lancelot seemed to move, Groaned, and at times would mutter, "These be gifts, Born with the blood, not learnable, divine, Beyond my reach. Well had I foughten--well-- In those fierce wars, struck hard--and had I crowned With my slain self the heaps of whom I slew-- So--better!--But this worship of the Queen, That honour too wherein she holds him--this, This was the sunshine that hath given the man A growth, a name that branches o"er the rest, And strength against all odds, and what the King So prizes--overprizes--gentleness.
Her likewise would I worship an I might.
I never can be close with her, as he That brought her hither. Shall I pray the King To let me bear some token of his Queen Whereon to gaze, remembering her--forget My heats and violences? live afresh?
What, if the Queen disdained to grant it! nay Being so stately-gentle, would she make My darkness blackness? and with how sweet grace She greeted my return! Bold will I be-- Some goodly cognizance of Guinevere, In lieu of this rough beast upon my shield, Langued gules, and toothed with grinning savagery."
And Arthur, when Sir Balin sought him, said "What wilt thou bear?" Balin was bold, and asked To bear her own crown-royal upon shield, Whereat she smiled and turned her to the King, Who answered "Thou shalt put the crown to use.
The crown is but the shadow of the King, And this a shadow"s shadow, let him have it, So this will help him of his violences!"
"No shadow" said Sir Balin "O my Queen, But light to me! no shadow, O my King, But golden earnest of a gentler life!"
So Balin bare the crown, and all the knights Approved him, and the Queen, and all the world Made music, and he felt his being move In music with his Order, and the King.
The nightingale, full-toned in middle May, Hath ever and anon a note so thin It seems another voice in other groves; Thus, after some quick burst of sudden wrath, The music in him seemed to change, and grow Faint and far-off.
And once he saw the thrall His pa.s.sion half had gauntleted to death, That causer of his banishment and shame, Smile at him, as he deemed, presumptuously: His arm half rose to strike again, but fell: The memory of that cognizance on shield Weighted it down, but in himself he moaned:
"Too high this mount of Camelot for me: These high-set courtesies are not for me.
Shall I not rather prove the worse for these?
Fierier and stormier from restraining, break Into some madness even before the Queen?"
Thus, as a hearth lit in a mountain home, And glancing on the window, when the gloom Of twilight deepens round it, seems a flame That rages in the woodland far below, So when his moods were darkened, court and King And all the kindly warmth of Arthur"s hall Shadowed an angry distance: yet he strove To learn the graces of their Table, fought Hard with himself, and seemed at length in peace.
Then chanced, one morning, that Sir Balin sat Close-bowered in that garden nigh the hall.
A walk of roses ran from door to door; A walk of lilies crost it to the bower: And down that range of roses the great Queen Came with slow steps, the morning on her face; And all in shadow from the counter door Sir Lancelot as to meet her, then at once, As if he saw not, glanced aside, and paced The long white walk of lilies toward the bower.
Followed the Queen; Sir Balin heard her "Prince, Art thou so little loyal to thy Queen, As pa.s.s without good morrow to thy Queen?"
To whom Sir Lancelot with his eyes on earth, "Fain would I still be loyal to the Queen."
"Yea so" she said "but so to pa.s.s me by-- So loyal scarce is loyal to thyself, Whom all men rate the king of courtesy.
Let be: ye stand, fair lord, as in a dream."
Then Lancelot with his hand among the flowers "Yea--for a dream. Last night methought I saw That maiden Saint who stands with lily in hand In yonder shrine. All round her prest the dark, And all the light upon her silver face Flowed from the spiritual lily that she held.
Lo! these her emblems drew mine eyes--away: For see, how perfect-pure! As light a flush As hardly tints the blossom of the quince Would mar their charm of stainless maidenhood."
"Sweeter to me" she said "this garden rose Deep-hued and many-folded! sweeter still The wild-wood hyacinth and the bloom of May.
Prince, we have ridden before among the flowers In those fair days--not all as cool as these, Though season-earlier. Art thou sad? or sick?
Our n.o.ble King will send thee his own leech-- Sick? or for any matter angered at me?"
Then Lancelot lifted his large eyes; they dwelt Deep-tranced on hers, and could not fall: her hue Changed at his gaze: so turning side by side They past, and Balin started from his bower.
"Queen? subject? but I see not what I see.
Damsel and lover? hear not what I hear.
My father hath begotten me in his wrath.
I suffer from the things before me, know, Learn nothing; am not worthy to be knight; A churl, a clown!" and in him gloom on gloom Deepened: he sharply caught his lance and shield, Nor stayed to crave permission of the King, But, mad for strange adventure, dashed away.
He took the selfsame track as Balan, saw The fountain where they sat together, sighed "Was I not better there with him?" and rode The skyless woods, but under open blue Came on the h.o.a.rhead woodman at a bough Wearily hewing. "Churl, thine axe!" he cried, Descended, and disjointed it at a blow: To whom the woodman uttered wonderingly "Lord, thou couldst lay the Devil of these woods If arm of flesh could lay him." Balin cried "Him, or the viler devil who plays his part, To lay that devil would lay the Devil in me."
"Nay" said the churl, "our devil is a truth, I saw the flash of him but yestereven.
And some do say that our Sir Garlon too Hath learned black magic, and to ride unseen.
Look to the cave." But Balin answered him "Old fabler, these be fancies of the churl, Look to thy woodcraft," and so leaving him, Now with slack rein and careless of himself, Now with dug spur and raving at himself, Now with droopt brow down the long glades he rode; So marked not on his right a cavern-chasm Yawn over darkness, where, nor far within, The whole day died, but, dying, gleamed on rocks Roof-pendent, sharp; and others from the floor, Tusklike, arising, made that mouth of night Whereout the Demon issued up from h.e.l.l.
He marked not this, but blind and deaf to all Save that chained rage, which ever yelpt within, Past eastward from the falling sun. At once He felt the hollow-beaten mosses thud And tremble, and then the shadow of a spear, Shot from behind him, ran along the ground.
Sideways he started from the path, and saw, With pointed lance as if to pierce, a shape, A light of armour by him flash, and pa.s.s And vanish in the woods; and followed this, But all so blind in rage that unawares He burst his lance against a forest bough, Dishorsed himself, and rose again, and fled Far, till the castle of a King, the hall Of Pellam, lichen-bearded, grayly draped With streaming gra.s.s, appeared, low-built but strong; The ruinous donjon as a knoll of moss, The battlement overtopt with ivytods, A home of bats, in every tower an owl.
Then spake the men of Pellam crying "Lord, Why wear ye this crown-royal upon shield?"
Said Balin "For the fairest and the best Of ladies living gave me this to bear."
So stalled his horse, and strode across the court, But found the greetings both of knight and King Faint in the low dark hall of banquet: leaves Laid their green faces flat against the panes, Sprays grated, and the cankered boughs without Whined in the wood; for all was hushed within, Till when at feast Sir Garlon likewise asked "Why wear ye that crown-royal?" Balin said "The Queen we worship, Lancelot, I, and all, As fairest, best and purest, granted me To bear it!" Such a sound (for Arthur"s knights Were hated strangers in the hall) as makes The white swan-mother, sitting, when she hears A strange knee rustle through her secret reeds, Made Garlon, hissing; then he sourly smiled.
"Fairest I grant her: I have seen; but best, Best, purest? thou from Arthur"s hall, and yet So simple! hast thou eyes, or if, are these So far besotted that they fail to see This fair wife-worship cloaks a secret shame?
Truly, ye men of Arthur be but babes."
A goblet on the board by Balin, bossed With holy Joseph"s legend, on his right Stood, all of ma.s.siest bronze: one side had sea And ship and sail and angels blowing on it: And one was rough with wattling, and the walls Of that low church he built at Glas...o...b..ry.
This Balin graspt, but while in act to hurl, Through memory of that token on the shield Relaxed his hold: "I will be gentle" he thought "And pa.s.sing gentle" caught his hand away, Then fiercely to Sir Garlon "Eyes have I That saw today the shadow of a spear, Shot from behind me, run along the ground; Eyes too that long have watched how Lancelot draws From homage to the best and purest, might, Name, manhood, and a grace, but scantly thine, Who, sitting in thine own hall, canst endure To mouth so huge a foulness--to thy guest, Me, me of Arthur"s Table. Felon talk!
Let be! no more!"
But not the less by night The scorn of Garlon, poisoning all his rest, Stung him in dreams. At length, and dim through leaves Blinkt the white morn, sprays grated, and old boughs Whined in the wood. He rose, descended, met The scorner in the castle court, and fain, For hate and loathing, would have past him by; But when Sir Garlon uttered mocking-wise; "What, wear ye still that same crown-scandalous?"
His countenance blackened, and his forehead veins Bloated, and branched; and tearing out of sheath The brand, Sir Balin with a fiery "Ha!
So thou be shadow, here I make thee ghost,"
Hard upon helm smote him, and the blade flew Splintering in six, and clinkt upon the stones.
Then Garlon, reeling slowly backward, fell, And Balin by the banneret of his helm Dragged him, and struck, but from the castle a cry Sounded across the court, and--men-at-arms, A score with pointed lances, making at him-- He dashed the pummel at the foremost face, Beneath a low door dipt, and made his feet Wings through a glimmering gallery, till he marked The portal of King Pellam"s chapel wide And inward to the wall; he stept behind; Thence in a moment heard them pa.s.s like wolves Howling; but while he stared about the shrine, In which he scarce could spy the Christ for Saints, Beheld before a golden altar lie The longest lance his eyes had ever seen, Point-painted red; and seizing thereupon Pushed through an open cas.e.m.e.nt down, leaned on it, Leapt in a semicircle, and lit on earth; Then hand at ear, and harkening from what side The blindfold rummage buried in the walls Might echo, ran the counter path, and found His charger, mounted on him and away.
An arrow whizzed to the right, one to the left, One overhead; and Pellam"s feeble cry "Stay, stay him! he defileth heavenly things With earthly uses"--made him quickly dive Beneath the boughs, and race through many a mile Of dense and open, till his goodly horse, Arising wearily at a fallen oak, Stumbled headlong, and cast him face to ground.
Half-wroth he had not ended, but all glad, Knightlike, to find his charger yet unlamed, Sir Balin drew the shield from off his neck, Stared at the priceless cognizance, and thought "I have shamed thee so that now thou shamest me, Thee will I bear no more," high on a branch Hung it, and turned aside into the woods, And there in gloom cast himself all along, Moaning "My violences, my violences!"