"No light: so late! and dark and chill the night!
O let us in, that we may find the light!
Too late, too late: ye cannot enter now.
"Have we not heard the bridegroom is so sweet?
O let us in, though late, to kiss his feet!
No, no, too late! ye cannot enter now."
So sang the novice, while full pa.s.sionately, Her head upon her hands, remembering Her thought when first she came, wept the sad Queen.
Then said the little novice prattling to her, "O pray you, n.o.ble lady, weep no more; But let my words, the words of one so small, Who knowing nothing knows but to obey, And if I do not there is penance given-- Comfort your sorrows; for they do not flow From evil done; right sure am I of that, Who see your tender grace and stateliness.
But weigh your sorrows with our lord the King"s, And weighing find them less; for gone is he To wage grim war against Sir Lancelot there, Round that strong castle where he holds the Queen; And Modred whom he left in charge of all, The traitor--Ah sweet lady, the King"s grief For his own self, and his own Queen, and realm, Must needs be thrice as great as any of ours.
For me, I thank the saints, I am not great.
For if there ever come a grief to me I cry my cry in silence, and have done.
None knows it, and my tears have brought me good: But even were the griefs of little ones As great as those of great ones, yet this grief Is added to the griefs the great must bear, That howsoever much they may desire Silence, they cannot weep behind a cloud: As even here they talk at Almesbury About the good King and his wicked Queen, And were I such a King with such a Queen, Well might I wish to veil her wickedness, But were I such a King, it could not be."
Then to her own sad heart muttered the Queen, "Will the child kill me with her innocent talk?"
But openly she answered, "Must not I, If this false traitor have displaced his lord, Grieve with the common grief of all the realm?"
"Yea," said the maid, "this is all woman"s grief, That she is woman, whose disloyal life Hath wrought confusion in the Table Round Which good King Arthur founded, years ago, With signs and miracles and wonders, there At Camelot, ere the coming of the Queen."
Then thought the Queen within herself again, "Will the child kill me with her foolish prate?"
But openly she spake and said to her, "O little maid, shut in by nunnery walls, What canst thou know of Kings and Tables Round, Or what of signs and wonders, but the signs And simple miracles of thy nunnery?"
To whom the little novice garrulously, "Yea, but I know: the land was full of signs And wonders ere the coming of the Queen.
So said my father, and himself was knight Of the great Table--at the founding of it; And rode thereto from Lyonnesse, and he said That as he rode, an hour or maybe twain After the sunset, down the coast, he heard Strange music, and he paused, and turning--there, All down the lonely coast of Lyonnesse, Each with a beacon-star upon his head, And with a wild sea-light about his feet, He saw them--headland after headland flame Far on into the rich heart of the west: And in the light the white mermaiden swam, And strong man-breasted things stood from the sea, And sent a deep sea-voice through all the land, To which the little elves of chasm and cleft Made answer, sounding like a distant horn.
So said my father--yea, and furthermore, Next morning, while he past the dim-lit woods, Himself beheld three spirits mad with joy Come dashing down on a tall wayside flower, That shook beneath them, as the thistle shakes When three gray linnets wrangle for the seed: And still at evenings on before his horse The flickering fairy-circle wheeled and broke Flying, and linked again, and wheeled and broke Flying, for all the land was full of life.
And when at last he came to Camelot, A wreath of airy dancers hand-in-hand Swung round the lighted lantern of the hall; And in the hall itself was such a feast As never man had dreamed; for every knight Had whatsoever meat he longed for served By hands unseen; and even as he said Down in the cellars merry bloated things Shouldered the spigot, straddling on the b.u.t.ts While the wine ran: so glad were spirits and men Before the coming of the sinful Queen."
Then spake the Queen and somewhat bitterly, "Were they so glad? ill prophets were they all, Spirits and men: could none of them foresee, Not even thy wise father with his signs And wonders, what has fallen upon the realm?"
To whom the novice garrulously again, "Yea, one, a bard; of whom my father said, Full many a n.o.ble war-song had he sung, Even in the presence of an enemy"s fleet, Between the steep cliff and the coming wave; And many a mystic lay of life and death Had chanted on the smoky mountain-tops, When round him bent the spirits of the hills With all their dewy hair blown back like flame: So said my father--and that night the bard Sang Arthur"s glorious wars, and sang the King As wellnigh more than man, and railed at those Who called him the false son of Gorlois: For there was no man knew from whence he came; But after tempest, when the long wave broke All down the thundering sh.o.r.es of Bude and Bos, There came a day as still as heaven, and then They found a naked child upon the sands Of dark Tintagil by the Cornish sea; And that was Arthur; and they fostered him Till he by miracle was approven King: And that his grave should be a mystery From all men, like his birth; and could he find A woman in her womanhood as great As he was in his manhood, then, he sang, The twain together well might change the world.
But even in the middle of his song He faltered, and his hand fell from the harp, And pale he turned, and reeled, and would have fallen, But that they stayed him up; nor would he tell His vision; but what doubt that he foresaw This evil work of Lancelot and the Queen?"
Then thought the Queen, "Lo! they have set her on, Our simple-seeming Abbess and her nuns, To play upon me," and bowed her head nor spake.
Whereat the novice crying, with clasped hands, Shame on her own garrulity garrulously, Said the good nuns would check her gadding tongue Full often, "and, sweet lady, if I seem To vex an ear too sad to listen to me, Unmannerly, with prattling and the tales Which my good father told me, check me too Nor let me shame my father"s memory, one Of n.o.blest manners, though himself would say Sir Lancelot had the n.o.blest; and he died, Killed in a tilt, come next, five summers back, And left me; but of others who remain, And of the two first-famed for courtesy-- And pray you check me if I ask amiss-- But pray you, which had n.o.blest, while you moved Among them, Lancelot or our lord the King?"
Then the pale Queen looked up and answered her, "Sir Lancelot, as became a n.o.ble knight, Was gracious to all ladies, and the same In open battle or the tilting-field Forbore his own advantage, and the King In open battle or the tilting-field Forbore his own advantage, and these two Were the most n.o.bly-mannered men of all; For manners are not idle, but the fruit Of loyal nature, and of n.o.ble mind."
"Yea," said the maid, "be manners such fair fruit?"
Then Lancelot"s needs must be a thousand-fold Less n.o.ble, being, as all rumour runs, The most disloyal friend in all the world."
To which a mournful answer made the Queen: "O closed about by narrowing nunnery-walls, What knowest thou of the world, and all its lights And shadows, all the wealth and all the woe?
If ever Lancelot, that most n.o.ble knight, Were for one hour less n.o.ble than himself, Pray for him that he scape the doom of fire, And weep for her that drew him to his doom."
"Yea," said the little novice, "I pray for both; But I should all as soon believe that his, Sir Lancelot"s, were as n.o.ble as the King"s, As I could think, sweet lady, yours would be Such as they are, were you the sinful Queen."
So she, like many another babbler, hurt Whom she would soothe, and harmed where she would heal; For here a sudden flush of wrathful heat Fired all the pale face of the Queen, who cried, "Such as thou art be never maiden more For ever! thou their tool, set on to plague And play upon, and harry me, petty spy And traitress." When that storm of anger brake From Guinevere, aghast the maiden rose, White as her veil, and stood before the Queen As tremulously as foam upon the beach Stands in a wind, ready to break and fly, And when the Queen had added "Get thee hence,"
Fled frighted. Then that other left alone Sighed, and began to gather heart again, Saying in herself, "The simple, fearful child Meant nothing, but my own too-fearful guilt, Simpler than any child, betrays itself.
But help me, heaven, for surely I repent.
For what is true repentance but in thought-- Not even in inmost thought to think again The sins that made the past so pleasant to us: And I have sworn never to see him more, To see him more."
And even in saying this, Her memory from old habit of the mind Went slipping back upon the golden days In which she saw him first, when Lancelot came, Reputed the best knight and goodliest man, Amba.s.sador, to lead her to his lord Arthur, and led her forth, and far ahead Of his and her retinue moving, they, Rapt in sweet talk or lively, all on love And sport and tilts and pleasure, (for the time Was maytime, and as yet no sin was dreamed,) Rode under groves that looked a paradise Of blossom, over sheets of hyacinth That seemed the heavens upbreaking through the earth, And on from hill to hill, and every day Beheld at noon in some delicious dale The silk pavilions of King Arthur raised For brief repast or afternoon repose By couriers gone before; and on again, Till yet once more ere set of sun they saw The Dragon of the great Pendragonship, That crowned the state pavilion of the King, Blaze by the rushing brook or silent well.
But when the Queen immersed in such a trance, And moving through the past unconsciously, Came to that point where first she saw the King Ride toward her from the city, sighed to find Her journey done, glanced at him, thought him cold, High, self-contained, and pa.s.sionless, not like him, "Not like my Lancelot"--while she brooded thus And grew half-guilty in her thoughts again, There rode an armed warrior to the doors.
A murmuring whisper through the nunnery ran, Then on a sudden a cry, "The King." She sat Stiff-stricken, listening; but when armed feet Through the long gallery from the outer doors Rang coming, p.r.o.ne from off her seat she fell, And grovelled with her face against the floor: There with her milkwhite arms and shadowy hair She made her face a darkness from the King: And in the darkness heard his armed feet Pause by her; then came silence, then a voice, Monotonous and hollow like a Ghost"s Denouncing judgment, but though changed, the King"s:
"Liest thou here so low, the child of one I honoured, happy, dead before thy shame?
Well is it that no child is born of thee.
The children born of thee are sword and fire, Red ruin, and the breaking up of laws, The craft of kindred and the G.o.dless hosts Of heathen swarming o"er the Northern Sea; Whom I, while yet Sir Lancelot, my right arm, The mightiest of my knights, abode with me, Have everywhere about this land of Christ In twelve great battles ruining overthrown.
And knowest thou now from whence I come--from him From waging bitter war with him: and he, That did not shun to smite me in worse way, Had yet that grace of courtesy in him left, He spared to lift his hand against the King Who made him knight: but many a knight was slain; And many more, and all his kith and kin Clave to him, and abode in his own land.
And many more when Modred raised revolt, Forgetful of their troth and fealty, clave To Modred, and a remnant stays with me.
And of this remnant will I leave a part, True men who love me still, for whom I live, To guard thee in the wild hour coming on, Lest but a hair of this low head be harmed.
Fear not: thou shalt be guarded till my death.
Howbeit I know, if ancient prophecies Have erred not, that I march to meet my doom.
Thou hast not made my life so sweet to me, That I the King should greatly care to live; For thou hast spoilt the purpose of my life.
Bear with me for the last time while I show, Even for thy sake, the sin which thou hast sinned.
For when the Roman left us, and their law Relaxed its hold upon us, and the ways Were filled with rapine, here and there a deed Of prowess done redressed a random wrong.
But I was first of all the kings who drew The knighthood-errant of this realm and all The realms together under me, their Head, In that fair Order of my Table Round, A glorious company, the flower of men, To serve as model for the mighty world, And be the fair beginning of a time.
I made them lay their hands in mine and swear To reverence the King, as if he were Their conscience, and their conscience as their King, To break the heathen and uphold the Christ, To ride abroad redressing human wrongs, To speak no slander, no, nor listen to it, To honour his own word as if his G.o.d"s, To lead sweet lives in purest chast.i.ty, To love one maiden only, cleave to her, And worship her by years of n.o.ble deeds, Until they won her; for indeed I knew Of no more subtle master under heaven Than is the maiden pa.s.sion for a maid, Not only to keep down the base in man, But teach high thought, and amiable words And courtliness, and the desire of fame, And love of truth, and all that makes a man.
And all this throve before I wedded thee, Believing, "lo mine helpmate, one to feel My purpose and rejoicing in my joy."
Then came thy shameful sin with Lancelot; Then came the sin of Tristram and Isolt; Then others, following these my mightiest knights, And drawing foul ensample from fair names, Sinned also, till the loathsome opposite Of all my heart had destined did obtain, And all through thee! so that this life of mine I guard as G.o.d"s high gift from scathe and wrong, Not greatly care to lose; but rather think How sad it were for Arthur, should he live, To sit once more within his lonely hall, And miss the wonted number of my knights, And miss to hear high talk of n.o.ble deeds As in the golden days before thy sin.
For which of us, who might be left, could speak Of the pure heart, nor seem to glance at thee?
And in thy bowers of Camelot or of Usk Thy shadow still would glide from room to room, And I should evermore be vext with thee In hanging robe or vacant ornament, Or ghostly footfall echoing on the stair.
For think not, though thou wouldst not love thy lord, Thy lord hast wholly lost his love for thee.
I am not made of so slight elements.
Yet must I leave thee, woman, to thy shame.
I hold that man the worst of public foes Who either for his own or children"s sake, To save his blood from scandal, lets the wife Whom he knows false, abide and rule the house: For being through his cowardice allowed Her station, taken everywhere for pure, She like a new disease, unknown to men, Creeps, no precaution used, among the crowd, Makes wicked lightnings of her eyes, and saps The fealty of our friends, and stirs the pulse With devil"s leaps, and poisons half the young.
Worst of the worst were that man he that reigns!
Better the King"s waste hearth and aching heart Than thou reseated in thy place of light, The mockery of my people, and their bane."
He paused, and in the pause she crept an inch Nearer, and laid her hands about his feet.
Far off a solitary trumpet blew.
Then waiting by the doors the warhorse neighed At a friend"s voice, and he spake again:
"Yet think not that I come to urge thy crimes, I did not come to curse thee, Guinevere, I, whose vast pity almost makes me die To see thee, laying there thy golden head, My pride in happier summers, at my feet.
The wrath which forced my thoughts on that fierce law, The doom of treason and the flaming death, (When first I learnt thee hidden here) is past.
The pang--which while I weighed thy heart with one Too wholly true to dream untruth in thee, Made my tears burn--is also past--in part.
And all is past, the sin is sinned, and I, Lo! I forgive thee, as Eternal G.o.d Forgives: do thou for thine own soul the rest.
But how to take last leave of all I loved?
O golden hair, with which I used to play Not knowing! O imperial-moulded form, And beauty such as never woman wore, Until it became a kingdom"s curse with thee-- I cannot touch thy lips, they are not mine, But Lancelot"s: nay, they never were the King"s.
I cannot take thy hand: that too is flesh, And in the flesh thou hast sinned; and mine own flesh, Here looking down on thine polluted, cries "I loathe thee:" yet not less, O Guinevere, For I was ever virgin save for thee, My love through flesh hath wrought into my life So far, that my doom is, I love thee still.
Let no man dream but that I love thee still.
Perchance, and so thou purify thy soul, And so thou lean on our fair father Christ, Hereafter in that world where all are pure We two may meet before high G.o.d, and thou Wilt spring to me, and claim me thine, and know I am thine husband--not a smaller soul, Nor Lancelot, nor another. Leave me that, I charge thee, my last hope. Now must I hence.
Through the thick night I hear the trumpet blow: They summon me their King to lead mine hosts Far down to that great battle in the west, Where I must strike against the man they call My sister"s son--no kin of mine, who leagues With Lords of the White Horse, heathen, and knights, Traitors--and strike him dead, and meet myself Death, or I know not what mysterious doom.
And thou remaining here wilt learn the event; But hither shall I never come again, Never lie by thy side; see thee no more-- Farewell!"
And while she grovelled at his feet, She felt the King"s breath wander o"er her neck, And in the darkness o"er her fallen head, Perceived the waving of his hands that blest.
Then, listening till those armed steps were gone, Rose the pale Queen, and in her anguish found The cas.e.m.e.nt: "peradventure," so she thought, "If I might see his face, and not be seen."