Imajica

"No. I have to keep looking," Gentle said, and was about to move off when the policeman took hold of his arm.

"I think you"d be better away from the fence, sir," he said. "There"s some danger of explosions."

"But he could still be in there."

"If he is, sir, I think he"s gone. There"s not much chance of anybody else coming out alive. Let me take you to the police line. You can watch from there."

Gentle shook off the man"s hold.

"I"ll go," he said. "I don"t need an escort."

It took an hour for the fire to be finally brought under control, by which time it had little left to consume. During that hour all Gentle could do was wait behind the cordon and watch as the ambulances came and went, ferrying the last of the injured away and then taking the bodies. As the boy soprano had predicted, no further victims were brought out, dead or alive, though Gentle waited until all but a few late arrivals among the crowd had left, and the fire was almost completely doused. Only when the last of the firelighters emerged from the crematorium, and the hoses were turned off, did he give up hope. It was almost two in the morning. His limbs were burdened with exhaustion, but they were light beside the weight in his chest. To go heavyhearted was no poet"s conceit: it felt as though the pump had turned to lead and was bruising the plush meat of his innards.

As he wandered back to his car he heard the whistling again, the same tuneless sound floating on the dirty air. He stopped walking and turned to all compa.s.s points, looking for the source, but the whistler was already out of sight, and Gentle was too weary to give chase. Even if he had, he thought, even if he"d caught it by its lapels and threatened to break its burned bones, what purpose would that have served? a.s.suming it had been moved by his threat (and pain was probably meat and drink to a creature that whistled as it burned) he"d be no more able to comprehend its reply than interpret Chant"s letter: and for similar reasons. They were both escapees from the same unknown land, whose borders he"d grazed when he"d gone to New York; the same world that held the G.o.d Hapexamendios and had given birth to Pie"oh"pah. Sooner or later he"d find a way to gain access to that state, and when he did all the mysteries would come clear: the whistler, the letter, the lover. He might even solve the mystery that he met most mornings in the shaving mirror; the face he thought he"d known well enough until recently, but whose code he now realized he"d forgotten and would not now remember without the help of undiscovered G.o.ds.

Back in the house in Primrose Hill, G.o.dolphin sat up through the night and listened to the news bulletins reporting the tragedy. The number of dead rose every hour; two more victims had already perished in the hospital. Theories were being advanced everywhere as to the cause of the fire; pundits used the event to comment on the lax safety standards applied to sites where itinerants camped and demanded a full Parliamentary inquiry to prevent a repeat of such a conflagration.

The reports appalled him. Though he"d given Dowd leash enough to dispatch the mystif-and who knew what hidden agenda lay there?-the creature had abused the freedom he"d been granted. There would have to be punishment meted out for such abuse, though G.o.dolphin was in no mood to plot that now. He"d bide his time, choose his moment. It would come. Meanwhile, Dowd"s violence seemed to him further evidence of a disturbing pattern. Things he"d thought immutable were changing. Power was slipping from the possession of those who"d traditionally held it into the hands of underlings-fixers, familiars, and functionaries-who were ill equipped to use it. Tonight"s disaster was symptomatic of that. But the disease had barely begun to take hold. Once it spread through the Dominions there"d be no stopping it. There had already been uprisings in Vanaeph and L"Himby, there were mutterings of rebellion in Yzordderrex; now there was to be a purge here in the Fifth Dominion, organized by the Tabula Rasa, a perfect background to Dowd"s vendetta and its b.l.o.o.d.y consequences. Everywhere, signs of disintegration.

Paradoxically the most chilling of those signs was superficially an image of reconstruction: that of Dowd recreating his face so that if he was seen by any member of the Society he"d not be recognized. It was a process he"d undertaken with each generation, but this was the first time any G.o.dolphin had witnessed said process. Now Oscar thought back on it, he suspected Dowd had deliberately displayed his transformative powers, as further evidence of his new-found authority. It had worked. Seeing the face he"d grown so used to soften and shift at the will of its possessor was one of the most distressing spectacles Oscar had set eyes upon. The face Dowd had finally fixed was sans sans mustache and eyebrows, the head sleeker than his other, and younger: the face that of an ideal National Socialist. Dowd must also have caught that echo, because he later bleached his hair and bought several new suits, all apricot but of a much severer cut than those he"d worn in his earlier incarnation. He sensed the instabilities ahead as well as Oscar; he felt the rot in the body politic and was readying himself for a New Austerity. mustache and eyebrows, the head sleeker than his other, and younger: the face that of an ideal National Socialist. Dowd must also have caught that echo, because he later bleached his hair and bought several new suits, all apricot but of a much severer cut than those he"d worn in his earlier incarnation. He sensed the instabilities ahead as well as Oscar; he felt the rot in the body politic and was readying himself for a New Austerity.

And what more perfect tool than fire, the book burner"s joy, the soul cleanser"s bliss? Oscar shuddered to contemplate the pleasure Dowd had taken from his night"s work, callously murdering innocent human families in pursuit of the mystif. He would return to the house, no doubt, with tears on his face and say he regretted the hurt he"d done to the children. But it would be a performance, a sham. There was no true capacity for grief or regret in the creature, and Oscar knew it. Dowd was deceit incarnate, and from now on Oscar knew he had to be on his guard. The comfortable years were over, Hereafter he would sleep with his bedroom door locked.

15

In her rage at his conspiracies Jude had contemplated several possible ways to revenge herself upon Estabrook, ranging from the bloodily intimate to the cla.s.sically detached. But her nature never ceased to surprise her. All thoughts of garden shears and prosecutions dimmed in a short time, and she came to realize that the worst harm she could do him-given that the harm he"d intended to do her had been stopped in its tracks-was to ignore him. Why give him the satisfaction of her least interest in him? From now on he would be so far beneath her contempt as to be invisible. Having unburdened herself of her story to Taylor and Clem, she sought no further audience. From now on she wouldn"t sully her lips with his name or let her thoughts dally with him for two consecutive seconds. At least, that was the pact she made with herself. It proved difficult to keep. On Boxing Day she received the first of what were to be many calls from him, which she resolutely cut short the instant she recognized his voice. It wasn"t the authoritative Estabrook she"d been used to hearing, and it took her three exchanges before she realized who was on the other end of the line, at which point she put down the receiver and let it lie uncradled for the rest of the day. The following morning he called again, and this time, just in case he was in any doubt, she told him, "I don"t ever want to hear your voice again," and once more cut him off.

When she"d done so she realized he"d been sobbing as he spoke, which gave her no little satisfaction, and the hope that he wouldn"t try again. A frail hope; he called twice that evening, leaving messages on her answering machine while she was out at a party flung by Chester Klein. There she heard news of Gentle, to whom she hadn"t spoken since their odd parting at the studio. Chester, who was much the worse for vodka, told her plainly he expected Gentle to have a full-blown nervous breakdown in a short time. He"d spoken to the b.a.s.t.a.r.d Boy twice since Christmas, and he was increasingly incoherent.

"What is it about all you men?" she found herself saying. "You fall apart so easily."

"That"s because we"re the more tragic of the s.e.xes," Chester returned. "G.o.d, woman, can"t you see how we suffer suffer?"

"Frankly, no."

"Well, we do. Take it from me. We do."

"Is there any particular reason, or is it just free-form suffering?"

"We"re all sealed up," Klein said. "Nothing can get in."

"So are women. What"s the-"

"Women get f.u.c.ked f.u.c.ked," Klein interrupted, p.r.o.nouncing the word with a drunken ripeness. "Oh, you b.i.t.c.h about it, but you love it. Go on, admit it. You love it."

"So all men really want is to get f.u.c.ked, is that it?" Jude said. "Or are you just talking personally?"

This brought a ripple of laughter from those who"d given up their chitchat to watch the fireworks.

"Not literally," Klein spat back. "You"re not listening to me."

"I"m listening. You"re just not making any sense."

"Take the church-"

"f.u.c.k the church!"

"No, listen listen!" Klein said, teeth clenched. "I"m telling G.o.d"s honest f.u.c.king truth here. Why do you think men invented the church, huh? Huh? Huh?"

His bombast had infuriated Jude to the point where she refused to reply. He went on, unperturbed, talking pedantically, as if to a slow student.

"Men invented the church so they could bleed for Christ. So they could be entered by the Holy Spirit. So they could be saved from being sealed up." His lesson finished, he leaned back in his chair, raising his gla.s.s. "In vodka veritas," he said.

"In vodka s.h.i.t," Jude replied.

"Well, that"s just typical of you, isn"t it?" Klein"s words slurred. "As soon as you"re f.u.c.king beaten you start the insults."

She turned from him, shaking her head dismissively. But he still had a barb in his armory.

"Is that how you drive the b.a.s.t.a.r.d Boy crazy?" he said.

She turned back on him, stung. "Keep him out of this," she snapped.

"You want to see sealed up sealed up?" Klein said. "There"s your example. He"s out of his head, you know that?"

"Who cares?" she said. "If he wants to have a nervous breakdown, he can have one."

"How very humanitarian of you."

She stood up at this juncture, knowing she was perilously close to losing her temper completely.

"I know the b.a.s.t.a.r.d Boy"s excuse," Klein went on. "He"s anemic. He"s only got enough blood for his brain or his p.r.i.c.k. If he gets a hard-on, he can"t remember his own name."

"I wouldn"t know," Jude said, swilling the ice around in her gla.s.s.

"Is that your excuse too?" Klein went on. "Have you got something down there you haven"t been telling us about?"

"If I had," she said, "you"d be the last to know."

And so saying, she deposited her drink, ice and all, down the front of his open shirt.

She regretted it afterwards, of course, and she drove home trying to invent some way of making peace with him without apologizing. Unable to think of any, she decided to let it lie. She"d had arguments with Klein before, drunk and sober. They were forgotten after a month; two at most.

She got in to find more messages from Estabrook awaiting her. He wasn"t sobbing any more. His voice was a colorless dirge, delivered from what was clearly genuine despair. The first call was filled with the same pleas she"d heard before. He told her he was losing his mind without her and needed her with him. Wouldn"t she at least talk to him, let him explain himself? The second call was less coherent. He said she didn"t understand how many secrets he had, how he was smothered in secrets and it was killing him. Wouldn"t she come back to see him, he said, even if it was just to collect her clothes?

That was probably the only part of her exit scene she would rewrite if she could play it over again. In her rage she"d left a goodly collection of personal items, jewelry and clothes, in Estabrook"s possession. Now she imagined him sobbing over them, sniffing them; G.o.d knows, even wearing them. But peeved as she was not to have taken them with her, she was not about to bargain for them now. There would come a time when she felt calm enough to go back and empty the cupboards and the drawers, but not quite yet.

There were no further calls after that night. With the New Year almost upon her, it was time to turn her attention to the challenge of earning a crust come January. She"d given up her job at Vandenburgh"s when Estabrook had proposed marriage, and she"d enjoyed his money freely while they were together, trusting-navely, no doubt-that if they ever broke up he"d deal with her in an honorable fashion. She hadn"t antic.i.p.ated either the profound unease that had finally driven her from his side (the sense that she was almost owned, and that if she stayed with him a moment longer she"d never unshackle herself) or the vehemence of his revenge. Again, there"d come a time when she felt able to deal with the mutual mud-slinging of a divorce, but, like the business with the clothes, she wasn"t ready for that turmoil yet, even though she could hope for some monies from such a settlement. In the meanwhile, she had to think about employment.

Then, on December thirtieth, she received a call from Estabrook"s lawyer, Lewis Leader, a man she"d met only once but who was memorable for his loquaciousness. It was not in evidence on this occasion, however. He signaled what she a.s.sumed was his distaste for her desertion of his client with a manner that teetered on the rude. Did she know, he asked her, that Estabrook had been hospitalized? When she told him she didn"t, he replied that though he was sure she didn"t give a d.a.m.n, he"d been charged with the duty of informing her. She asked him what had happened. He briskly explained that Estabrook had been found in the street in the early hours of the twenty-eighth, wearing only one item of clothing. He didn"t specify what.

"Is he hurt?" she asked.

"Not physically," Leader replied. "But mentally he"s in a bad state. I thought you ought to know, even though I"m sure he wouldn"t want to see you."

"I"m sure you"re right," Jude said.

"For what it"s worth," Leader said, "he deserved better than this."

He signed off with that plat.i.tude, leaving Jude to ponder on why it was that the men she mated with turned out to be crazy. Just two days earlier she"d been predicting that Gentle would soon be in the throes of a nervous breakdown. Now it was Estabrook who was under sedation. Was it her presence in their lives that drove them to it, or was the lunacy in their blood? She contemplated calling Gentle at the studio, to see that he was all right, but decided against it. He had his painting to make love to, and she was d.a.m.ned if she was going to compete for his attention with a piece of canvas.

One useful possibility did spring from the news Leader had brought. With Estabrook in the hospital, there was nothing to stop her from visiting the house and picking up her belongings. It was an apt project for the last day of December. She"d gather the remnants of her life from the lair of her husband and prepare to begin the New Year alone.

He hadn"t changed the lock, perhaps in the hope that she"d come back one night and slip into bed beside him. But as she entered the house she couldn"t shake the feeling of being a burglar. It was gloomy outside, and she switched on all the lights, but the rooms seemed to resist illumination, as though the smell of spoiled food, which was pungent, was thickening the air. She braved the kitchen in search of something to drink, before she began her packing, and found plates of rotting food stacked on every surface, most of them barely picked at. She opened first a window and then the refrigerator, where there were further rancid goods. There was also ice and water. She put both into a clean gla.s.s and got about her work.

There was as much disarray upstairs as down. Estabrook had apparently lived in squalor since her departure: the bed they"d shared a swamp of filthy sheets, the floor littered with soiled linen. There was no sign of any of her clothes among these heaps, however, and when she went through to the adjacent dressing room she found them all hanging in place, untouched. Determined to be done with this distasteful business in as short a time as possible, she found herself a set of suitcases and proceeded to pack. It didn"t take long. With that labor performed she emptied her belongings from the drawers and packed those. Her jewelry was in the safe downstairs, and it was there she went once she"d finished in the bedroom, leaving the cases by the front door to be picked up as she left. Though she knew where Estabrook kept the key to the safe, she"d never opened it herself. It was a ritual he"d demanded be rigorously observed that on a night when she was to wear one of the pieces he"d given her he"d first ask her which she favored, then go and get it from the safe and put it around her neck, or wrist, or slip it through the lobe of her ear himself. With hindsight, a blatant power play. She wondered what kind of fugue state she"d been in when sharing his company, that she"d endured such idiocies for so long. Certainly the luxuries he"d bestowed upon her had been pleasurable, but why had she played his game so pa.s.sively? It was grotesque.

The key to the safe was where she"d expected it to be, secreted at the back of the desk drawer in his study. The safe itself was behind an architectural drawing on the study wall, several elevations of a pseudo-cla.s.sical folly the artist had simply marked as The Retreat. It was far more elaborately framed than its merit deserved, and she had some difficulty lifting it. But she eventually succeeded and got into the safe it had concealed.

There were two shelves, the lower crammed with papers, the upper with small parcels* among which she a.s.sumed she would find her belongings. She took everything out and laid it all on the desk, curiosity overtaking the desire to have what was hers and be gone. Two of the packages clearly contained her jewelry, but the other three were far more intriguing, not least because they were wrapped in a fabric as fine as silk and smelled not of the safe"s must but of a sweet, almost sickly, spice. She opened the largest of them first. It contained a ma.n.u.script, made up of vellum pages sewn together with an elaborate st.i.tch. It had no cover to speak of but seemed to be an arbitrarily arrayed collection of sheets, their subject an anatomical treatise, or at least so she first a.s.sumed. On second glance she realized it was not a surgeon"s manual at all but a pillow book, depicting lovemaking positions and techniques. Leafing through it she sincerely hoped the artist was locked up where he could not attempt to put these fantasies into practice. Human flesh was neither malleable nor protean enough to recreate what his brush and ink had set on the pages. There were couples intertwined like quarreling squid; others who seemed to have been blessed (or cursed) with organs and orifices of such strangeness and in such profusion they were barely recognizable as human.

She flicked back and forth through the sheets, her interest returning her to the double-page ill.u.s.tration at the center, which was laid out sequentially. The first picture showed a naked man and woman of perfectly normal appearance, the woman lying with her head on a pillow while the man knelt between her legs, applying his tongue to the underside of her foot. From that innocent beginning, a cannibalistic union ensued, the male beginning to devour the woman, starting with her legs, while his partner obliged him with the same act of devotion. Their antics defied both physics and physique, of course, but the artist had succeeded in rendering the act without grotesquerie, but rather in the manner of instructions for some extraordinary magical illusion. It was only when she closed the book, and found the images lingering in her head, that they distressed her, and to sluice them out she turned her distress into a righteous rage that Estabrook would not only purchase such bizarrities but hide them from her. Another reason to be well out of his company.

The rest of the packages contained a much more innocent item: what appeared to be a fragment of statuary the size of her fist. One facet had been crudely marked with what could have been a weeping eye, a lactating nipple, or a bud seeping sap. The other facets revealed the structure of the block from which the image had been carved. It was predominantly a milky blue, but shot through with fine seams of black and red. She liked the feel of it in her hand and only reluctantly put it down to pick up the third parcel. The contents of this were the prettiest find: half a dozen pea-sized beads, which had been obsessively carved. She"d seen oriental ivories worked with this level of care, but they"d always been behind museum gla.s.s. She took one of them to the window to study more closely. The artist had carved the bead to give the impression that it was in fact a ball of gossamer thread, wound upon itself. Curious, and oddly inviting. As she turned it over in her fingers, and over, and over, she found her concentration narrowing, focusing on the exquisite interweaving of threads, almost as though there were an end to be found in the ball, and if she could only grasp it with her mind she might unravel it and discover some mystery inside. She had to force herself to look away, or she was certain the bead"s will would have overwhelmed her own, and she"d have ended up staring at its detail until she collapsed.

She returned to the desk and put the bead back among its fellows. Staring at it so intently had upset her equilibrium somewhat. She felt slightly dizzy, the litter she"d left on the desk slipping out of focus as she rifled through it. Her hands knew what she wanted, however, even if her conscious thought didn"t. One of them picked up the fragment of blue stone, while her other strayed back to the bead she"d relinquished. Two souvenirs: why not? A piece of stone and a bead. Who could blame her for dispossessing Estabrook of such minor items when he"d intended her so much harm? She pocketed them both without further hesitation and set about wrapping up the book and the remaining beads, returning them to the safe and closing it, and replacing drawing and key. Then she picked up the cloth in which the fragment had been wrapped, pocketed that, took the jewelry, and returned to the front door, turning off the lights as she went. At the door she remembered she"d opened the kitchen window and headed back to close it. She didn"t want the place burglarized in her absence. There was only one thief who had right of trespa.s.s here, and that was her.

She felt well satisfied with the morning"s work and treated herself to a gla.s.s of wine with her spartan lunch, then started unpacking her loot. As she laid her hostage clothes out on the bed, her thoughts returned to the pillow book. She regretted leaving it now; it would have been the perfect gift for Gentle, who doubtless imagined he"d indulged every physical excess known to man. No matter. She"d find an opportunity to describe its contents to him one of these days and astonish him with her memory for depravity. A call from Clem interrupted her work. He spoke so softly she had to strain to hear. The news was grim. Taylor was at death"s door, he said, having two days before succ.u.mbed to another sudden bout of pneumonia. He refused to be hospitalized, however. His last wish, he"d said, was to die where he had lived.

"He keeps asking for Gentle," Clem explained. "And I"ve tried to telephone him but he doesn"t answer. Do you know if he"s gone away?"

"I don"t think so," she said. "But I haven"t spoken to him since Christmas Night."

"Could you try and find him for me? Or rather for Taylor? If you could maybe go round to the studio and rouse him? I"d go myself but I daren"t leave the house. I"m afraid as soon as I step outside..." He faltered, tears in his breath. "I want to be here if anything happens."

"Of course you do. And of course I"ll go. Right now."

"Thanks. I don"t think there"s much time, Judy." Before she left she tried calling Gentle, but as Clem had already warned her, n.o.body answered. She gave up after two attempts, put on her jacket, and headed out to the car. As she reached into her pocket for the keys she realized she"d brought the stone and the bead with her, and some superst.i.tion made her hesitate, wondering if she should deposit them back inside. But time was of the essence. As long as they remained in her pocket, who was going to see them? And even if they did, what did it matter? With death in the air who was going to care about a few purloined bits and pieces?

She had discovered the night she"d left Gentle at the studio that he could be seen through the window if she stood on the opposite side of the street, so when he failed to answer the door, that was where she went to spy him. The room seemed to be empty, but the bare bulb was burning. She waited a minute or so and he stepped into view, shirtless and bedraggled. She had powerful lungs and used them now, hollering his name. He didn"t seem to hear at first. But she tried again, and this time he looked in her direction, crossing to the window.

"Let me in!" she yelled. "It"s an emergency."

The same reluctance she read in his retreat from the window was on his face when he opened the door. If he had looked bad at the party, he looked considerably worse now.

"What"s the problem?" he said.

"Taylor"s very sick, and Clem says he keeps asking for you."

Gentle looked bemused, as though he was having difficulty remembering who Taylor and Clem were.

"You have to get cleaned up and dressed," she said. "Furie, are you listening to me?"

She"d always called him Furie when she was irritated with him, and that name seemed to work its magic now. Though she"d expected some objection from him, given his phobia where sickness was concerned, she got none. He looked too drained to argue, his stare somehow unfinished, as though it had a place it wanted to rest but couldn"t find. She followed him up the stairs into the studio.

"I"d better clean up," he said, leaving her in the midst of the chaos and going into the bathroom.

She heard the shower run. As ever, he"d left the bathroom door wide open. There was no bodily function, to the most fundamental, he"d ever shown the least embarra.s.sment about, an att.i.tude which had shocked her at first but which she"d taken for granted after a time, so that she"d had to relearn the laws of propriety when she"d gone to live with Estabrook.

"Will you find a clean shirt for me?" he called through to her. "And some underwear?"

It seemed to be a day for going through other people"s belongings. By the time she"d found a denim shirt and a pair of overwashed boxer shorts, he was out of the shower, standing in front of the bathroom mirror combing his wet hair back from his brow. His body hadn"t changed since she"d last looked at it naked. He was as lean as ever, his b.u.t.tocks and belly tight, his chest smooth. His hooded p.r.i.c.k drew her eye: the part that truly gave the lie to Gentle"s name. It was no great size in this pa.s.sive state, but it was pretty even so. If he knew he was being scrutinized he made no sign of it. He peered at himself in the mirror without affection, then shook his head.

"Should I shave?" he said.

"I wouldn"t worry about it," she said. "Here"s your clothes."

He dressed quickly, repairing to his bedroom to find a pair of boots, leaving her to idle in the studio while he did so. The painting of the couple she"d seen on Christmas Night had gone, and his equipment-paints, easel, and primed canvases-had been unceremoniously dumped in a corner. In their place, newspapers, many of their pages bearing reports on a tragedy she had only noted in pa.s.sing: the death by fire of twenty-one men, women, and children in an arson attack in South London. She didn"t give the reports close scrutiny. There was enough to mourn this gloomy afternoon.

Clem was pale but tearless. He embraced them both at the front door, then ushered them into the house. The Christmas decorations were still up, awaiting Twelfth Night, the perfume of pine needles sharpening the air.

"Before you see him, Gentle," Clem said. "I should explain that he"s got a lot of drugs in his system, so he drifts in and out. But he wanted to see you so badly."

"Did he say why?" Gentle asked.

"He doesn"t need a reason, does he?" Clem said softly. "Will you stay, Judy? If you want to see him when Gentle"s been in..."

"I"d like that."

While Clem took Gentle up to the bedroom, Jude went through to the kitchen to make a cup of tea, wishing as she did so that she"d had the foresight to tell Gentle as they drove about how Taylor had talked of him the week before, particularly the tale about his speaking in tongues. It might have provided Gentle with some sense of what Taylor needed to know from him now. The solving of mysteries had been much on Taylor"s mind on Christmas Night. Perhaps now, whether drugged or not, he hoped to win some last reprieve from his confusion. She doubted Gentle would have any answers. The look she"d seen him give the bathroom mirror had been that of a man to whom even his own reflection was a mystery.

Bedrooms were only ever this hot for sickness or love, Gentle thought as Clem ushered him in: for the sweating out of obsession or contagion. It didn"t always work, of course, in either case, but at least in love failure had its satisfactions. He"d eaten very little since he"d departed the scene in Streatham, and the stale heat made him feel lightheaded. He had to scan the room twice before his eyes settled on the bed in which Taylor lay, so nearly enveloped was it by the soulless attendants of modern death: an oxygen tank with its tubes and mask; a table loaded with dressings and towels; another, with a vomit bowl, bedpan, and towels; and beside them a third, carrying medication and ointments. In the midst of this panoply was the magnet that had drawn them here, who now seemed very like their prisoner. Taylor was propped up on plastic-covered pillows, with his eyes closed. He looked like an ancient. His hair was thin, his frame thinner still, the inner life of his body-bone, nerve, and vein-painfully visible through skin the color of his sheet. It was all Gentle could do not to turn and flee before the man"s eyes flickered open. Death was here again, so soon. A different heat this time, and a different scene, but he was a.s.sailed by the same mixture of fear and inept.i.tude he"d felt in Streatham.

He hung back at the door, leaving Clem to approach the bed first and softly wake the sleeper.

Taylor stirred, an irritated look on his face until his gaze found Gentle. Then the anger at being called back into pain went from his brow, and he said, "You found him."

"It was Judy, not me," Clem said.

"Oh, Judy. She"s a wonder," Taylor murmured.