"He never threatened me. He never laid a finger on me that I didn"t..."
"...ask for?"
"I didn"t need to ask," she said. "He knew."
The sound of the front door reopening made her raise her head from Clem"s shoulder. Gentle was stepping out into the sun again, with the youth following. Once outside, he looked up, cupping his hand over his brow to study the sky at his zenith. Seeing him do so, Jude realized who the sky watcher she"d glimpsed in the Boston Bowl had been. It was a small solving, but she wasn"t about to spurn the satisfaction it provided.
"Sartori is Gentle"s brother, is that right?" Clem said. "I"m afraid I"m still hazy on the family relations."
"They"re not brothers, they"re twins," she replied. "Sartori is his perfect double."
"How perfect?" Clem asked, looking at her with a small, almost mischievous smile on his face. "Oh... very perfect."
"So it wasn"t so bad, his being here?" She shook her head. "It wasn"t bad at all," she replied. Then, after a moment: "He told me he loved me, Clem."
"Oh, Lord."
"And I believed him."
"How many dozens of men have told you that?"
"Yes, but he was different..."
"Famous last words."
She looked at the sun watcher for a few seconds, puzzled by the calm that had come over her. Was the mere memory of his commitment to her enough to a.s.suage every dread? "What are you thinking?" Clem asked her. "That he feels something Gentle never did," she replied. "Maybe never could. Before you say it, I know the whole thing"s repulsive. He"s a destroyer. He"s wiped out whole countries. How can I be feeling anything for him?"
"You want the cliches?"
"Tell me."
"You feel what you feel Some people go for sailors, some people go for men in rubber suits and feather boas. We do what we do. Never explain, never apologize. There. That"s all you"re getting."
Her hands went to his face. She cupped it, then kissed it. "You are sublime," she said. "We"re going to survive, aren"t we?"
"Survive and prosper," he said. "But I think we"d better find your beau, for everybody"s-"
He stopped as her grip on him tightened. All trace of joy had gone from her face.
"What"s wrong?"
"Celestine. I sent him up to Highgate. To Roxborough"s tower."
"I"m sorry, I"m not following this."
"It"s bad news," she said, leaving his embrace and hurrying to the front door.
Gentle relinquished his zenith watching at her summons and returned to the step as she repeated what she"d just told Clem.
"What"s up in Highgate?" he said.
"A woman who wanted to see you. Does the name Nisi Nirvana mean anything to you?"
Gentle puzzled over this for a moment. "It"s something from a story," he said.
"No, Gentle. She"s real. She"s alive. At least she was."
It hadn"t been sentiment alone that had moved the Autarch Sartori to have the streets of London depicted in such loving detail on the walls of his palace. Though he"d spent only a little time in this city-no more than weeks, between his birth and his departure for the Reconciled Dominions-Mother London and Father Thames had educated him right royally. Of course the metropolis visible from the summit of Highgate Hill, where he stood now, was vaster and grimmer than the city he"d wandered then, but there were enough signs remaining to stir some poignant and pungent memories. He"d learned s.e.x in these streets, from the professionals around Drury Lane. He"d learned murder at the riverside, watching the bodies washed up in the mud on a Sunday morning after the slaughters of Sat.u.r.day night. He"d learned law at Lincoln"s Inn Field and seen justice done at Tyburn. All fine lessons, that had helped to make him the man he was. The only lesson he couldn"t remember learning, whether in these streets or any other, was how to be an architect. He must have had a tutor in that, he presumed, at some time. After all, wasn"t he the man whose vision had built a palace that would stand in legend, even though its towers were now rubble? Where, in the furnace of his genes or in his history, was the kindling spark of that genius? Perhaps he"d only discover the answer in the raising of his New Yzordderrex. If he was patient and watchful, the face of his mentor would sooner or later appear in its walls. There would have to be a great demolishing, however, before the foundations were laid, and ba.n.a.lities like the Tabula Rasa"s tower, which he now came in sight of, would be the first to be condemned. He crossed the forecourt to the front door, whistling as he went and wondering if the woman Judith had been so insistent he meet-this Celestine-could hear his trill. The door stood open, but he doubted any thief, however opportunist, had dared enter. The air around the threshold fairly p.r.i.c.ked with power, putting him in mind of his beloved Pivot Tower.
Still whistling, he crossed the foyer to a second door and stepped through it into a room he knew. He"d walked these ancient boards twice in his life: the first time the day before the Reconciliation, when he"d presented himself to Roxborough here, pa.s.sing himself off as the Maestro Sartori for the perverse pleasure of shaking the hands of the Reconciler"s patrons before the sabotage he"d planned took them to h.e.l.l; the second time, the night after the Reconciliation, with storms tearing up the skies from Hadrian"s Wall to Land"s End. On this occasion he"d come with Chant, his new familiar, intending to kill Lucius Cobbitt, the boy he"d made his unwitting agent in the sabotage. Having searched for him in Gamut Street and found him gone, he"d braved the storm-there were forests uprooted and lifted in the air, and a man struck by lightning burning on Highgate Hill-only to discover that Roxborough"s house was empty. He"d never found Cobbitt. Driven from the safety of Gamut Street by his sometime Maestro, the youth had probably fallen prey to the storm, as so many others had that night.
Now the room stood silent, and so did he. The lords who"d built this house, and their children, who"d raised the tower above, were dead. It was a welcome hush; in it, there"d be time for dalliance. He wandered over to the mantelpiece and headed down the stairs, descending into a library he"d never known existed until this moment. He might have been tempted to linger, perusing the laden shelves, but the p.r.i.c.king power he"d-felt at the front door was stronger than ever and drew him on, more intrigued with every yard.
He heard the woman"s voice before he set eyes on her, emanating from a place where the restless dust was so thick it was like walking in a delta fog. Barely visible through it; a scene of sheer vandalism: books, scrolls, and ma.n.u.scripts reduced to shreds or buried in the wreckage of the shelves they"d been laid upon. And beyond the rubble, a hole in the brick; and from the hole, a call.
"Is that Sartori?"
"Yes," he said.
"Come closer. Let me see you."
He presented himself at the bottom of the heap of rubble.
"I thought she"d failed to find you," Celestine said. "Or else you"d refused to come."
"How could I refuse a summons like this?" he said softly.
"Do you think this is some kind of liaison?" she replied. "Some secret tryst?"
Her voice was raw with the dust, and bitter. He liked the sound of it. Women who had anger in them were always so much more interesting than their contented sisters.
"Come in, Maestro," she said to him. "Let me put you to rights."
He clambered up over the stones and peered into the darkness. The cell was a wretched hole, as sordid as anything beneath his palace, but the woman who"d occupied it was no anchorite. Her flesh hadn"t been chastened by incarceration, but looked lush, for all the marks upon it. The tendrils that clung to her body extolled her fluency, moving over her thighs and b.r.e.a.s.t.s and belly like unctuous snakes. Some clung to her head and paid court at her honey lips; others lay between her legs in bliss. He felt her tender gaze on him and luxuriated in it.
"Handsome," she said.
He took her compliment as an invitation to approach, but as he did so she made a murmur of distress, and he stopped in his tracks.
"What"s this shadow in you?" she said.
"Nothing to be afraid of," he told her.
Some of the filaments parted, and longer tendrils, these not courtiers but part of her substance, uncurled from behind her, clinging to the rough wall and hauling her up.
"I"ve heard that before," she said. "When a man tells you there"s nothing to be afraid of, he"s lying. Even you, Sartori."
"I won"t come any closer if it bothers you," he said.
It wasn"t respect for the woman"s unease that moved him to compliance, but the sight of the ribbons that had lifted her. Quaisoir had sprouted such appendages, he recalled, after her intimacies with the women of the Bastion of the Banu. They were evidence of some facility in the other s.e.x he had no real comprehension of: a remnant of crafts all but banished from the Reconciled Dominions by Hapexamendios. Perhaps they"d seen a new, poisonous flowering in the Fifth in the time since he"d left. Until he knew the scope of their authority, he"d be circ.u.mspect.
"I"d like to ask a question, if I may?" he said.
"Yes?"
"How do you know who I am?"
"First, tell me where you"ve been all these years."
Oh, the temptation he felt to tell her the truth, then, and parade his achievements in the hope of impressing her. But he"d come here in the guise of his other, and, as with Judith, he"d have to choose the moment of his unmasking carefully.
"I"ve been wandering," he said. It wasn"t so untrue.
"Where?"
"In the Second Dominion, and occasionally the Third."
"Were you ever in Yzordderrex?"
"Sometimes."
"And in the desert outside the city?"
"There too. Why do you ask?"
"I was there once. Before you were born."
"I"m older than I look," he told her. "I know it doesn"t show-"
"I know how long you"ve lived, Sartori," she replied. "To the very day."
Her certainty nourished the discomfort bred by the sight of the tendrils. Could she read his thoughts, this woman? If so-if she knew what he was and all he"d done-why wasn"t she in awe of him?
There was no profit in pretending that he didn"t care that she seemed to know so much. Plainly but politely, he asked her how", preparing as he spoke a profusion of excuses if she was simply one of the Maestro"s casual conquests and accused him of forgetting her. But the accusation, when it came, was of another kind entirely.
"You"ve done great harm in your life, haven"t you?" she said to him.
"No more than most," he protested mildly. "I"ve been tempted to a few excesses, certainly. But then hasn"t everybody?"
"A few excesses?" she said. "I think you"ve done more than that. There"s evil in you, Sartori. I smell it in your sweat, the way I smelled coitus in the woman."
Her mention of Judith-who else could this venereal woman be?-reminded him of the prophecy he"d made to her two nights before. They would find darkness in each other, he"d said; and that was a perfectly human condition. The argument had proved potent then. Why not now?
"It"s just the humanity in me you can sense," he said to Celestine.
She was clearly unpersuaded. "Oh, no," she replied. "I"m the humanity in you." the humanity in you."
He was about to laugh this absurdity off, but her stare hushed him.
"What part of me are you?" he murmured.
"Don"t you know yet?" she said. "Child, I"m your mother."
Gentle led the way as they stepped into the cool of the tower"s foyer. There was no sound from anywhere in the building, above or below.
"Where"s Celestine?" he asked Jude. She led him to the door into the Tabula Rasa"s meeting room, where he told them all, "This is something for me to do, brother to brother."
"I"m not afraid," Monday piped up.
"No, but I am," Gentle said with a smile. "And I wouldn"t want you to see me p.i.s.s my pants. Stay up here. I"ll be out double quick."
"Make sure you are," Clem said. "Or we"re coming down to get you."
With that promise as comfort, Gentle slipped through the door into what remained of Roxborough"s house. Though he"d felt nothing in the way of memories as he"d entered the tower, he felt them now. They weren"t as material as those that visited him in Gamut Street, where the very boards seemed to have recorded the souls that had trodden them. These were vague recollections of the times he"d drunk and debated around the great oak table. He didn"t allow nostalgia to delay him, however, but pa.s.sed through the room like a man vexed by admirers, arms raised against their blandishments, and headed down into the cellar. He"d had this labyrinth and its contents (all spined and skin-bound, whether human or not) described to him by Jude, but the sight still amazed him. All this wisdom, buried in darkness. Was it any wonder the Imajical life of the Fifth had been so anemic in the last two centuries, when all the liquors that might have fortified it had been hidden here?
But he hadn"t come to browse, glorious as that prospect was. He"d come for Celestine, who"d trailed, of all things, the name Nisi Nirvana to bring him here. He didn"t know why. Though he vaguely remembered the name, and knew there was some story to go with it, he could neither remember the tale nor recall whose knee he"d first heard it at. Perhaps she knew the answer.
There was a wonderful agitation here. Even the dust would not lie down and die, but moved in giddy constellations, which he divided as he strode. He made no false turns, but the route from the steps to the place where Celestine lay was still a long one, and before he"d reached it he heard a cry. It wasn"t a woman"s cry, he thought, but the echoes disfigured it, and he couldn"t be certain. He picked up his speed, turning corner after corner, knowing as he went that his other had preceded him every step of the way. There were no further cries after the first, but as his destination came in view-it looked like a cave, raggedly dug from the wall; an oracle"s home-he heard a different sound: that of bricks, grinding their gritty faces together. There were small but constant falls of dried mortar from the ceiling, and a subtle trembling in the ground. He started up over the litter of fallen rock, which was strewn like a battlefield with gutted books, to the inviting crack. As he did so he caught a glimpse of a violent motion inside, which had him to the threshold in a stumbling rush.
"Brother?" he said, even before he"d found Sartori in the gloom. "What are you doing?"
Now he saw his other, closing on the woman in the corner of the cave. She was almost naked, but far from defenseless. Ribbons, like the rags of a bridal train but made of her flesh, were springing from her shoulders and back, their power clearly more substantial than their delicacy implied. Some were clinging to the wall above her head, but the bulk were extended towards Sartori and wrapped around his head like a smothering hood. He clawed at them, working his fingers between them to get a better grip. Fluid ran from the gouged flesh, and cobs of matter came away in his fists. It could only be a matter of time before he released himself, and when he did he"d do her no little harm.
Gentle didn"t call to his brother a second time. What was the use? The man was deafened. Instead, he crossed the cave at a stumbling rush and took hold of Sartori from behind, dragging his brother"s arms from their maiming work and pinning them to his sides. As he did so he saw Celestine"s gaze go between the two figures in front of her, and either the shock of what she was witnessing or her exhaustion took its toll on her strength. The wounded ribbons loosened and fell in wreaths around Sartori"s neck, uncovering the other face and confirming Celestine in her distress. She withdrew the ribbons entirely, gathering them into her lap.
With his sight returned, Sartori wrenched his head around to identify his captor. Seeing Gentle, he instantly gave up his struggle to free himself and stood in the Reconciler"s arms, quite pacified.
"Why do I always find you doing harm, brother?" Gentle asked him.
"Brother?" said Sartori. "Since when was it brother?"
"That"s what we are."
"You tried to kill me in Yzordderrex, or have you forgotten? Has something changed?"
"Yes," said Gentle, "I have." have."
"Oh?"
"I"m ready to accept our... kinship."
"A fine word."
"In fact, I accept my responsibility for everything I was, am, or will be. I"ve got your Oviate to thank for that."
"That"s good to hear," Sartori said. "Especially in this company."
He looked back at Celestine. She was still standing, though it was plainly the filaments hugging the wall that held her up, not her legs. Her eyes were flickering closed, and there were tremors running through her body. Gentle knew she needed aid, but he could do nothing while he was burdened with Sartori, so he turned and pitched his brother towards the cave door. Sartori went from him like a doll, only raising his arms to break his fall at the very last.