"I ask your pardon," says he, "my pretty sweetheart, for making so free as to come to your window this time of night, but there didn"t seem any other way."
"Oh, go, dear William, do go," says I. I expected every moment to see the door open and father put his head in.
"I"m not going," said William, "till you tell me where you"ll meet me to say "Good-bye" and "G.o.d bless you," like you said in the letter."
Though I knew the whole parish better than I know the palm of my hand, if you"ll believe me, I couldn"t for the life of me for the moment think of any place where I could meet William, and I stood like a fool, trembling. Oh, what a jump I gave when I heard a noise like a heavy foot in the garden outside!
"Oh! it"s father got round. Oh! he"ll kill you, William. Oh!
whatever shall we do?"
"Nonsense!" said William, and he caught hold of my shoulder and gave me a gentle little shake. "It was only one of these pears as I kicked off. They must be as hard as iron to fall like that."
Then he gave me a kiss, and I said: "Then I"ll meet you by the Parson"s Shave to-morrow at half-past five, and do go. My heart"s a-beating so I can hardly hear myself speak."
"Poor little bird!" says William. Then he kissed me again and off he went; and considering how quiet he came, so that even I couldn"t hear him, you would not believe the noise he made getting down that pear-tree. I thought every minute some one would be coming in to see what was happening.
Well, the next day I went about my work as frightened as a rabbit, and my heart beating fit to choke me, trying not to think of what I had promised to do. At tea-time father says, looking straight before him--
"William Birt has come home, Kate. You remember I"ve got your promise not to pa.s.s no words with him, him being where he is, without the fold, among the dogs and things."
And I didn"t answer back, though I knew well enough it wasn"t honest; but he hadn"t got my word. Father had brought me up careful and kind, and I knew my duty to my parents, and I meant to do it, too. But I couldn"t help thinking I owed a little bit of a duty to William, and I meant doing that, so far as keeping my promise to meet him that afternoon went. So after tea I says, and I do think it is almost the only lie I ever told--
"Mother," I says, "I"ve got the jumping toothache, and it"s that bad I can hardly see to thread my needle."
Then she says, as I knew she would, her being as kind an old soul as ever trod: "Go and lie down a bit and put the old sheepskin coat over your head, and I"ll get on with the darning."
So I went upstairs trembling all over. I took the bolster and pillow and put them under the covers, to look as like me as I could, and I put the old sheepskin coat at the top of all; and as you come into the room any one would have thought it was me lying there with the toothache. Then I took my hat and shawl and I went out, quiet as a mouse, through the dairy. When I got to the Parson"s Shave there was William, and I was so glad to see him, I didn"t think of nothing else for full half a minute. Then William said--
"It"s only one field to the church. Why not go up there and sit in the porch? See, it"s coming on to rain."
So he took my arm, and we started across the field, where all the days of the year but one you would not meet a soul. We went up through the churchyard. It was "most dark, but I wasn"t a bit afraid with William"s arm round me. But when we got to the porch and had sat down, I was sorry I"d come, for I heard feet on the road below, and they stopped outside the lychgate.
"Come, quick," says I, "or we"re caught like rats in a trap. If I am going to give you up to please father, I may as well please him all round. There"s no reason why he should know I"ve seen you."
"So we stole on our tiptoes round to the little door that is hardly ever fastened, and so through to the tower. Father being one of the bellringers, I knew every step. There"s a stone seat cut out of the wall in the bellringers" loft, and there we sat down again, and I was just going to tell him again what I had said in the letter about being his sister and a friend, which seemed to comfort me somehow, though William has told me since it never would have him, when William, he gripped my hand like iron, and ""S-sh!" says he, "listen." And I listened, and oh! what I felt when I heard footsteps coming up the tower. I didn"t dare speak a word to him, and only kept tight hold of his hand, and pulled him along till we got to the tower steps, and went on up. But I says to myself, "Oh, what"s my head made of, to forget that it"s practising night? and Him the church was built for only knows how long they won"t be here practising!" We went on up the twisted cobwebby stairs, with bits of broken birds" nests that crackled under our feet that loud I thought for sure the folks below must hear us; and we got into the belfry, and there William was for staying, but I whispered to him--
"If you hear them bells when they"re all a-going, you won"t never hear much else. We must get on up out of it unless we want to be deaf the rest of our lives."
And it was pitch dark in the belfry, except for the little grey slits where the shuttered windows are. The owls and starlings were frightened, I suppose, at hearing us, though why they should have been, I don"t know, being used to the bells; and they flew about round us liker ghosts than anything feathered, and one great owl flopped out right into my face, till I nearly screamed again. It was all very, very dusty, and not being able to see, and being afraid to strike a light, we had to feel along the big beams for our way between the bells, I going first, because I knew the way, and reaching back a hand every now and then to see that William was coming after me safe and sound. On hands and knees we had to go for safety, and all the while I was dreading they would start the bells a-going and, maybe, shake William, who wasn"t as used to it as I was, off the beams, and him perhaps be smashed to pieces by the bells as they swung.
I don"t know how long it took us to get across the belfry to the corner where the ladder is that leads up to the tower-top. William says it must have been about a couple of minutes, but I think it was much more like half an hour. I thought we should never get there, and oh! what it was to me when I came to the end of the last beam, and got my foot down on the firm floor again, and the ladder in my hand, and William behind me! So up we went, me first again, because I knew the way and the fastenings of the door. And that part of it wasn"t so bad, for I will say, if you"ve got to go up a long ladder, it"s better to go up in the dark, when you can"t see what"s below you if you happen to slip; and I got up and opened the door, and it was light out of doors and fresh with the rain--though that had stopped now.
Then William would take his coat off, and put it round me, for all I begged him not, and presently the tower began to shake and the bells began, and directly they began I knew what they was up to.
"O William," I says, "it"s Grandsire Triples, and there"s five thousand and fifty changes to "em, and it"s a matter of three hours!"
But he couldn"t hear a word I said for the bells. So then I took his coat and my shawl, and we wrapped them round both our heads to shut the bells out, and then we could hear each other speak inside.
I"m not going to write down all I said nor all he said, which was only foolishness--and besides, it come to nothing after all. But somehow the time wasn"t long; and it"s a funny thing, but unhappy and happy you can be at the same time when you are with one you love and are going to leave. William, he begged and prayed of me not to give him up. But I said I knew my duty, and he said he hoped I would think better of it, and I said, "No, never," and then we kissed each other again, and the bells went on, and on, and on, clingle, clangle, clingle, chim, chime, chim, chime, till I was "most dazed, and felt as if I had lived up there all my life, and was going to live up there twenty lives longer.
"I"ll wait for you all my life long," says William. "Not that I wish the old man any harm, but it"s not in the nature of things your father can live for ever, and then--"
"It ain"t no use thinking of that, William," said I. "Father is sure to make me promise never to have you--when he"s dying, and I can"t refuse him anything. It"s just the kind of thing he"d think of."
Perhaps you will think William ought to have made more stand, for everybody likes a masterful man; but what stand can you make when you are up in a belfry with the bells shouting and yelling at you, and when the girl you are with won"t listen to reason? And you have no idea what them bells were. Often and often since then I have started up in the bed thinking I heard them again. It was enough to drive one distracted.
"Well," says William, "you"ll give me up, but I"ll never give you up; and you mark my words, you and me will be man and wife some day."
And as he said it, the bells stopped sudden in the middle of a change. The rain had come on again. It was very chill up there. My teeth was chattering, and so was William"s, though he pretended he did it for the joke.
"Let"s get inside again," says he. "Perhaps they are going home, and if they are not, we can stay there till they begin it again."
So we opened the door and crept down the ladder. There was light now coming up from the bellringers" loft through the holes in the floor, and we got down to the belfry easy, and as we got to the bottom of the ladder I heard my father"s voice in the loft below--
"I don"t believe it," he was shouting. "It can"t be true. She"s a G.o.d-fearing girl."
And then I heard my mother. "Come home, James," she said, "come home--it"s true. I told you you was too hard on them. Young folks will be young folks, and now, perhaps, our little girl has come to shame instead of being married decent, as she might have been, though Roman."
Then there was silence for a bit, and then my father says, speaking softer, "Tell me again. I can"t think but what I"m dreaming."
Then mother says--"Don"t I tell you she said she"d got the toothache, and she was going to lie down a bit, and I went to take her up some camomiles I"d been hotting, and she wasn"t there, and her bolsters and pillows, poor lamb, made up to pretend she was, and Johnson"s Ben, he see her along of William Birt by the Parson"s Shave with his arm round her--G.o.d forgive them both!"
Then says my father, "Here"s an end on"t. She"s no daughter o" mine.
If she was to come back to me, I"d turn her out of doors. Don"t let any one name her name to me never no more. I hain"t got no daughter," he said, "and may the Lord--"
I think my mother put her hands afore his mouth, for he stopped short, and mother, she said--
"Don"t curse them, James. You"ll be sorry for it, and they"ll have trouble enough without that."
And with that father and mother must have gone away, and the other ringers stood talking a bit.
"She"d best not come back," said the leader, John Evans. "Out a-gallivanting with a young chap from five to eight as I understand!
What"s the good of coming back? She"s lost her character, and a gal without a character, she"s like--like--"
"Like a public-house without a licence," said the second ringer.
"Or a cart without a horse," said the treble.
There was only one man spoke up for me--that was Jim Piper at the general shop. "I don"t believe no harm of that gal," says he, "no more nor I would of my own missus, nor yet of him."
"Well, let"s hope for the best," said the others. But I had a sort of feeling they was hoping for the worst, because when things goes wrong, it"s always more amusing for the lookers-on than when everything goes right. Presently they went clattering down the steps, and all was dark, and there was me and William among the cobwebs and the owls, holding each other"s hands, and as cold as stone, both of us.
"Well?" says William, when everything was quiet again.
"Well!" says I. "Good-bye, William. He won"t be as hard as his word, and if I couldn"t give you all my life to be a good wife to you, I have given you my character, it seems; not willing, it"s true; but there"s nothing I should grudge you, William, and I don"t regret it, and good-bye."
But he held my hands tight.