In Love With An Idiot

Chapter 108: The saddest thing

Jian Sui Ying didn"t sleep too long. He had so many things in his heart that he woke up after a short squint.

When he woke up to see Li Yu next to him, he was stunned to find the man present.

These thirty hours were too hard for him. He had neglected many things, including Li Yu, who had been hanging around him all the time.

When he saw the car rushing towards Li Yu, his anxious and desperate mood was suddenly recalled by him, and his heart was sour. If Li Yu was lying in the intensive care unit now, what would his mood be like?

Moving with heavy his heart, he couldn"t help asking, "How"s your hand?"

Li Yu was shocked and said in a mute voice, "It"s all right."

Jian Sui Ying glanced at his heavily bandaged hand and closed his eyes. "What did you say to Zhao Yan?"

"I said he wanted to b.u.mp into you, but he repented." Li Yu thought about it and added, "She believed it."

Jian Sui Ying nodded and he whispered: "Thank you anyway."

Li Yu said bitterly, "I just don"t want you to be sad."

Jian Sui Ying avoided his straight eyes, got up from his chair and turned his back. "Go back and rest."

Li Yu also stood up with him. "I"m here to accompany you and see if I can help..."

"You can"t help much. Go back. If he wakes up, he won"t want to see you. I don"t think you want to see him either."

Li Yu"s lips trembled slightly, and the figured that Jian Sui Ying gave him was filled with stiff refusal, making him feel that his breathing was stagnant.

He could not help holding Jian Sui Ying from behind.

Jian Sui Ying"s body was stiff, but this time he didn"t push Li Yu away. He couldn"t distinguish himself from Li Yu now.

"Brother Jian, don"t drive me away. I can"t leave. Especially now, I need to ask."

"What do you ask?"

Li Yu tightened his arms, buried his face in his neck and breathed greedily. "I want to ask you why you wanted to save me, do you still love me?"

Jian Sui Ying took a deep breath. "Li Yu..."

"Don"t say anything else. I just want to know this. Brother Jian, you are not a daring person, you have admit it, and you still love me, why can"t you admit it?" Li Yu"s tone was full of longing. "I beg you, admit it, as long as you admit it, you can let me die now." His voice was trembling and he looked forward to and feared the response of Jian Sui Ying.

Jian Sui Ying said bitterly, "Li Yu, I have no energy to argue with you now. What about ne saying that I love you? I don"t rely on this stuff. Without it, I won"t be short of arms and legs. I"m a businessman. One loss sale is enough for me. I won"t do it again. It"s like a thing I like again. I can"t afford it. I just don"t want it. Li Yu, after so many things, we haven"t had a peaceful conversation. Today, in such a place where we can"t make a noise, I just want to tell you something in my heart.”

Li Yu was suddenly frightened. He hugged Jian Sui Ying"s waist tightly. Like countless times before, he hugged the man"s waist, laid his chin on his shoulder, watched him shave lazily, or told him what he was thinking. Sweet minutes and seconds at that time, he was willing to exchange everything.

Jian Sui Ying looked blankly at the hospital corridor as if it had no end, and his heart was as dead as dust. "We can"t do it now, we can"t do it now, and we can"t do it in the future. I am not a generous person, as long as I think about what you have done to me, I feel that if I forgive you, I will be sorry for myself, I am the most selfish person, I cannot be sorry for myself. Besides, there is no trust between us anymore. I don"t want to waste my energy on you anymore. I"m trying to guess what you"re thinking. Will you hurt me again? I like you again. I think you"re worried about everything. How hard it is for me to be with you?”

Li Yu choked and said, "But I won"t hurt you anymore. I will certainly..."

"Don"t say it"s... it"s useless. There"s no regret medicine in the world. I"m not obliged to let you repent. The greatest tolerance and concession in my life have been given to you, Li Yu, but you still failed me. If you still have some feelings for me, don"t bother me anymore. I"m having a good time now. If you don"t show up again, I"ll be in a better mood.” When Jian Sui Ying said this, he really felt bleeding, but every word he said was true.

Even though he had gone through so many fxcking things, yesterday"s thrilling scene made him unable to hide himself any more. He was so mean. He hated Li Yu and gnashed his teeth, but his love for him never stopped.

He never felt that he was a man of love and righteousness, nor did he know what kind of magic he had on Li Yu, who could hold on to a person to such a degree. It made him disgusted and frightened.

So if he wants to stay away from Li Yu, he"d better never see him again, so as to avoid the risk of losing his face and becoming a laughing stock.

Love is not his necessities. He can"t put his dignity and life into it again.

He has to admit that he can"t afford to lose.

Li Yu cried again.

He cried so sadly that Jian Sui Ying could feel the despair in his tears even when he was crying low on his shoulder.

He felt the determination of Jian Sui Ying to break with him once and for all. He couldn"t hope that Jian Sui Ying would soften up, turn around and look at him again, and return to him.

But these are just his fantasies. He can"t even comfort himself with them.

Jian Sui Ying is too clear to leave room for his imagination and deceive himself.

They"re over. Jian Sui Ying can"t understand anymore, and his att.i.tude can"t be determined anymore.

Li Yu has no way not to cry. He has been flooded with sorrow and pain. Even though he holds this person tightly, their hearts are far beyond his reach.

He has completely lost Jian Sui Ying.

It is a great irony that he fought openly and secretly with Jian Sui Lin, and eventually became enemies. He was so busy living in such a big circle that no one got this man. It is also the greatest punishment G.o.d has given them.

Li Yu is only twenty-one years old. He really doesn"t know how to dispel such a huge grief. He can only hold Jian Sui Ying helplessly like a child, no longer pretend, no longer count, and cry happily. Cry about his feelings, his mistakes, his regrets, his gains and losses.

Jian Sui Ying felt the corners of his eyes getting wet. He opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling blinkingly.

The sobs in his ears and the wetness on his shoulders seemed to penetrate his heart.

Li Yu left without contacting him or appearing in the hospital.

Jian Sui Lin woke up after four days in a coma. The first thing he said was he wanted to see Jian Sui Ying.

Jian Sui Ying was not surprised. He put down his work and drove to the hospital.

Jian Sui Lin was admitted to hospital for the second time, and the hospital where Jian Dong Yuan also had a heart attack, Jian Sui Ying had no choice but to take over his former company that had been sold to Jian Sui Lin.

When something unexpected happened, he had no time to complain. He only knew that as the eldest roommate of the Jian Family and grandson, as a man, he could not stand idly by at this time. The more dangerous it was, the more he needed someone who could bear everything for the rest of them.

At home, he kept  this secret from his grandfather and relatives, only a few of his uncles knew the situation.

The burden of the company and the family suddenly fell on Jian Sui Ying. At the same time, considering the operation of the three companies, for Jian Sui Ying, both energy and capital, there is considerable pressure, he was so busy that the whole person lost weight.

Jian Sui Lin was able to wake up smoothly, which undoubtedly relieved him.

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