"I won"t have you argue for these people," she said, with a smile. "I was glad you came here this morning, for I want to win you over to us.
Didn"t I say, Lady Jane, when I first met him, that he was so unlike the other-what shall I call them?-outsiders? Well, perhaps it is foolish of me to talk about these people, for I know nothing whatever of them; but I have been educated to consider them as so much raw material to be deluded and impressed by stage effect, and I shall never be able to regard them as anything else than strangers. Haven"t you seen the little girl in pink cotton and spangles who stands by while her father is performing tricks before a lot of village people? Haven"t you seen her watch all the faces round, calculating the effect of the performance, and wondering how much it will produce in halfpence? No, you needn"t laugh: that is precisely my att.i.tude and feeling towards the public."
"You may tell that to one who has never seen you on the stage," said Will. "I _know_ that you have no more thought of calculating the effect of what you are doing than the music of a violin has."
"That is because I am then a performer myself, and have to attend to my business. When I stand in one of the entrances, and hear the buzz of the theatre, I say to myself, "My big children up there in the boxes, you have paid so much to be amused, and you don"t care much for me; but in a few minutes I"ll have you all as quiet as mice, and in a few minutes more I"ll have the prettiest and best among you crying.""
"My poor Dove"s eyes were tremulous all the evening after seeing you,"
he said.
"I like to hear you speak kindly of her," she replied, looking him straight in the face with her clear and frank eyes. "She will need all the tenderness that friends can give her to make her life a happy one."
Will felt a dull sense of pain at his heart (why, he knew not) on hearing these true and touching words: somehow he fancied there was a sympathy almost prophetic in them.
"Come," she said, briskly, as she rose and went to the piano, "I am going to put you to the test. I make all my new friends submit to it; and according as they pa.s.s through it I regard them afterwards. I am going to play three funeral marches-Handel"s, Beethoven"s, and Mendelssohn"s. When the person experimented on prefers a certain one of them, I consider her-I have not tried the experiment on a gentleman as yet-merely emotional and commonplace; therefore I don"t care much for her. If she likes a certain other one, I think she is rather more intellectual, with some dramatic sensitiveness; and then I like her a good deal better. When she likes the third, then I think she must have the divinest sympathies, and I am ready to fall in love with her."
She had sat down to the piano.
"But the peril of failure is too great; I dare not risk it," said Will.
"It is as hard a trial as the three caskets in the "Merchant of Venice;"
only, if the prize were to be the same, the chance--"
He had spoken quite thoughtlessly; but he saw in a moment, by the pain and confusion of the young actress, what a blunder he had made.
"Pray don"t mind what I said, Miss Brunel," he urged. "I was talking to you without thinking, as I should have talked to Dove. I will submit to the three funeral marches, if you like--"
"I will spare you," she said, good-naturedly. "If you had some of your Suabian songs here just now, I should sing them to you. But really it seems a pity to use up such fine weather indoors; are you particularly engaged to-day?"
"I have no engagement if I can be of service to you."
"Mr. Anerley, I am neither a bulbul nor a gazelle. Shall I be trespa.s.sing on your time if I ask you to take a walk with me?"
"No."
"Lady Jane-Mrs. Christmas, I mean-and I take a stroll under the trees in Kensington Gardens every forenoon when I have no rehearsal."
"And I," said Will, "was on my way to the same place, for the same purpose, when I happened to see the name of the street, and thought I might venture to trespa.s.s on your patience."
So she went and dressed; and then together they pa.s.sed out into the open air and the sunlight.
Will Anerley left that house a very different man from him who had entered it an hour and a half before. Nor was he conscious of the change.
CHAPTER XI.
IN THE PARK.
He only knew that he experienced a subtle pleasure in listening to the talk of this young girl, in watching the varying expression of her face, in admiring her beautiful eyes. The easy and graceful friendship they both seemed to entertain for each other was the simplest, most natural thing in the world. There could be no danger in it. Anerley"s life had been too full of action to give him the deadly gift of introspection; but in no possible mood of self-a.n.a.lysis could he have regarded the temporary satisfaction of being near to and talking with the young actress as anything else than a pleasant and ordinary and harmless accident. He never for a moment dreamed of its producing any great result. Had the thing been suggested to him, he would have replied that both he and she understood each other perfectly: they had plenty to think of in life without indulging in folly: they had their separate work and interests and duties, and the casual pleasure they might obtain by meeting as acquaintances was n.o.body"s concern but their own.
The first att.i.tude of affection is exclusiveness. When one sees two young people sending glances across a dinner-table which are intelligible to themselves alone; when one perceives them whispering to each other while elsewhere the talk is general; when one observes them, on opposite sides at croquet, missing hoops, and slipping b.a.l.l.s, and playing to aid each other in the most gratuitous, open, and unblushing manner, it needs no profound divination to detect a secret co-partnership between them. Two quite unselfish lovers immediately become selfish in their united position of antagonism to the rest of the world. And when the girl is pretty, the rest of the world consider such selfishness to be simply hateful.
These two young people, who were not lovers, nor had any intention of becoming lovers, walked up Victoria Road, and so made their way into the cool green shadow of the great elms and leafy lindens which make Kensington Gardens so delightful a lounge. It was now May-the only month in which London trees seem to look cheerful-and the weather was at its freshest and best.
"Mr. Melton proposes to close the theatre in a week or so," said Annie Brunel, "for a month, in order to have it done up anew. He is very anxious that I should not accept any engagement for that month; and I have been thinking I ought to take Mrs. Christmas down to the seaside, or perhaps over to the warm banks of the Rhine, for a week or two. Did you remark how very poorly she is?"
"I did," said Will. "I asked her about it. She seems to fancy that our madcap journey to Hounslow Heath brought the attack on."
"The gra.s.s was so wet, you know. I blame myself for it all; and indeed there"s nothing I wouldn"t do for the dear old creature. She was my only companion and friend for many a year."
"Won"t you find it very dull going away all by yourselves?"
"Well, no. She is never dull. I never tire of her society a moment-she is so full of vivacity and kindliness and funny stories; but I do not like the idea of our going away anywhere alone. Hitherto, you know, I have always been in a manner compelled to go by an engagement."
"Bring her down to St. Mary-Kirby, and let Dove and you go about with her."
"Thank you. You have told me so much of that quiet little valley, and the quiet way of living there, that I should feel like an evil spirit invading paradise."
"Now, now-you are at it again," he said, laughing. "I won"t have you malign our honest country folks like that. My mother would make you her daughter: she has a general faculty for making pets of everybody. And my father would give you a touch of the old squirelike courtesy he sometimes brings out when he is very grand and polite to some London young lady who comes down to see us."
She only smiled in reply-a trifle sadly.
"I should like to see a little of that peaceful sort of life-perhaps even to try it. Day after day to be always the same, always meeting the same people, always looking out on the same trees and fields and river, and hoping only for some change in the weather, or for a favourable turn to the fortunes of one"s pet hero. But then other cares must come.
That gentle little Dove, for instance-isn"t she sitting just now wondering when you will come to see her, and getting quite vexed because you stay so long away?"
"You seem to have a great affection for Dove," he said.
"Haven"t you?"
"Well, of course; who could help it?"
"If I were a man I should not try to help it; I should be prouder of the love of such a girl than of anything under heaven."
Such conversations are not common between young unmarried people, but neither of these two seemed to consider it strange that they should so talk; for, indeed, Annie Brunel a.s.sumed towards Will an amusingly matter-of-fact, kindly, almost maternal manner-so much so that, without hesitation she would have told him that a little more attention to the brushing of his rough brown hair and moustache might not have been inappropriate before visiting a lady. Sometimes he was amused, sometimes tantalized by this tone. He was a man verging towards thirty, who had all his wits about him, who had seen plenty of the world, and knew far more of its ways and beliefs and habits than he would have liked to reveal to his companion then beside him; and he could scarcely refrain from laughing at the airs of superior worldly wisdom which the young actress gave herself, revealing in the a.s.sumption the charming simplicity of her character.
They walked down one of the long avenues and crossed over into Hyde Park. The Row was very full at this time; and the brightness of the day seemed to have awoke an artificial briskness among the melancholy men and plethoric girls who had come out for their forced exercise.
"I have been in nearly every capital in Europe," said Will to his companion, "and I have never seen such a company of handsome men and women as you may see here almost any day. And I never saw anywhere people out to enjoy themselves looking so intensely sad over it."
"These are my employers;" said Miss Brunel, with a smile on her pale dark face. "These are the people who pay me to amuse them."
"Look at this big heavy man coming up now," said Will. "Look how he bobs in his saddle; one doesn"t often see such a-- Why, it is--"
"Count Schonstein," said Miss Brunel.
It was. And as the Count came up and saw Will walking by the side of a closely-veiled and gracefully-dressed young lady, he took off his hat in his finest manner, and was about to ride on. Perhaps it was the luxuriant black hair or the graceful figure of the young girl which made him pause for a second and recognise her. At all events, he no sooner saw who she was than he stopped his horse, clumsily got down from the saddle, and drawing the reins over the animal"s head, came forward to the railing.
"The very two people whom I wished to see," he observed, with a pompous magnanimity. (Indeed there were several reasons why he was glad just then to observe that Annie Brunel had taken kindly to the young man whom he had introduced to her.) "Do you know, Miss Brunel, that Melton is going to close his theatre for a month?"