CHAPTER 10.
It was a strange week, for me as well as the town. Kelly"s death brought journalists from all over the country to New Iberia. They filled all the motels, rented every available automobile in Lafayette, and dwarfed in both numbers and technical sophistication our small area news services.
Many of them were simply trying to do their jobs. But another kind came among us, too, those who have a voyeuristic glint in their eyes, whose real motivations and potential for callousness are unknown even to themselves.
I got an unlisted phone number for the house.
I began to be bothered by an odor, both in my sleep and during the late afternoon when the sun baked down on the collapsed barn at the back of our property. I noticed it the second day after Kelly"s death, the day that Elrod escorted her body back to Kentucky for the burial. It smelled like dead rats. I scattered a bag of lime among the weeds and rotted boards and the smell went away. Then the next afternoon it was back, stronger than before, as invasive as a stranger"s soiled palm held to your face.
I put our bedroom fan in the side window so it would draw air from the front of the house, but I would dream of turkey buzzards circling over a corrugated rice field, of sandflecked winds blowing across the formless and decomposing shape of a large animal, of a woman"s hair and fingernails wedging against the sides of a metal box.
On the seventh morning I woke early, walked past the duck pond in the soft blue light, soaked the pile of boards and strips of rusted tin with gasoline, and set it afire. The flames snapped upward in an enormous red-black handkerchief, and a cottonmouth moccasin, with a body as thick as my wrist, slithered out of the boards into the weeds, the hindquarters of an undigested rat protruding from its mouth.
The shooter left nothing behind, no ejected bra.s.s, no recoverable prints from the tree trunk where he had fired. The pocket knife Rosie had found on the levee turned out to be free of prints. Almost all of our work had proved worthless. We had no suspects; our theories about motivation were as potentially myriad as the time we were willing to invest in thinking about them. But one heart-sinking and unalterable conclusion remained in front of my eyes all day long, in my conversations with Rosie, the sheriff, and even the deputies who went out of their way to say good morning through my office door-Kelly Drummond was dead, and she was dead because she had been mistaken for me.
I DIDN"T EVEN SEE MIKEY GOLDMAN WALK INTO MY OFFICE. I looked up and he was standing there, flexing the b.a.l.l.s of his feet, his protruding, pale eyes roving about the room, a piece of cartilage working in his jaw like an angry dime.
"Can I sit down?" he said.
"Go ahead."
"How you doing?"
"I"m fine, thanks. How are you?"
"I"m all right." His eyes went all over me, as though I were an object he was seeing for the first time.
"Can I help you with something?" I said.
"Who"s the f.u.c.king guy who did this?"
"When we know that, he"ll be in custody."
"In custody? How about blowing his head off instead?"
"What"s up, Mr. Goldman?"
"How you handling it?"
"I beg your pardon?"
"How you handling it? I"m talking about you. I"ve been there, my friend. First Marine Division, Chosin Reservoir. Don"t try to bulls.h.i.t me."
I put down my fountain pen on the desk blotter, folded my hands, and stared at him.
"I"m afraid we"re operating on two different wavelengths here," I said.
"Yeah? The guy next to you takes a round, and then maybe you start wondering if you aren"t secretly glad it was him instead of you. Am I wrong?"
"What do you want?"
He rubbed the curly locks of salt-and-pepper hair on his neck and rolled his eyes around the room. The skin around his mouth was taut, his chin and jaw hooked in a peculiar martial way like a drill instructor"s.
"Elrod"s going to go crazy on me. I know it, I"ve seen him there before. He"s a good kid, but he traded off some of his frontal lobes for magic mushrooms a long time ago. He likes you, he"ll listen to you. Are you following me?"
"No."
"You keep him at your place, you stay out at his place, I don"t care how you do it. I"m going to finish this picture."
"You"re an incredible man, Mr. Goldman."
"What?" He began curling his fingers backward, as though he wanted to pull words from my chest. "You heard I got no feelings, I don"t care about my actors, movie people are callous dips.h.i.ts?"
"I never heard your name before you came to New Iberia. It seems to me, though, you have only one thing on your mind-getting what you want. Anyway, I"m not interested in taking care of Elrod Sykes."
"If I get my hands on the f.u.c.khead who shot Kelly, you"re going to have to wipe him off the wallpaper."
"Eventually we"re going to get this guy, Mr. Goldman. But in the meantime, the vigilante histrionics don"t float too well in a sheriff"s department. Frankly, they"re not too convincing, either."
"What?"
"Ask yourself a question: How many professional killers, and the guy who did this is a professional killer, could a rural parish like this have? Next question: Who comprises the one well-known group of professional criminals currently with us in New Iberia? Answer: Julie Balboni and his entourage of hired cretins. Next question: Who"s in a movie partnership with these characters?"
He leaned back in his chair, bouncing his wrists lightly on the chair"s arms, glancing about the room, his eyes mercurial, one moment almost amused, then suddenly focused on some festering inner concern.
"Mr. Goldman?" I said.
"Yeah? You got something else to say?"
"No, sir, not a thing."
"Good. That"s good. You"re not a bad guy. You"ve just got your head up your hole with your own problems. It"s just human."
"I see. I"m going down the hall for a cup of coffee now," I said. "I suspect you"ll be gone when I get back."
He rose to his feet and flexed a kink out of his back. He unwrapped a short length of peppermint candy and stuck it in his jaw.
"You want one?" he said.
"No, thanks."
"Don"t pretend to be a Rotary man. I checked out your background before I asked you to babysit Elrod. You"re as crazy as any of us. You"re always just one step away from blowing up somebody"s s.h.i.t."
He c.o.c.ked his finger, pointed it at me, and made a hollow popping sound with his mouth.
THAT NIGHT I DREAMED THAT I WAS TRYING TO SAVE A WOMAN from drowning way out on the Gulf of Mexico. We were sliding down a deep trough, the froth whipping across her blond curls and bloodless face, her eyes sealed against the cobalt sky. Our heads protruded from the water as though they had been severed and placed on a plate. Then her body turned to stone, heavier than a marble statue, and there was no way I could keep her afloat. She sank from my arms, plummeting downward into a vortex of spinning green light, down into a canyon hundreds of feet below, a gush of air bubbles rising from a pale wound in her throat.
ROSIE CAME THROUGH THE DOOR, CLUNKED HER PURSE LOUDLYon her desk, and began rummaging through the file cabinet. She had to stand on her toes to see down into the top drawer.
"You want to have lunch today?" she asked.
"What?"
"Lunch . . . do you want to have lunch? Come in, Earth."
"Thanks, I"ll probably go home." Then as an afterthought I said, "You"re welcome to join us."
"That"s all right. Another time." She sat down behind her desk and began shifting papers around in a couple of file folders. But her eyes kept glancing up into my face.
"Have you got something on your mind?" I asked.
"Yeah, you."
"You must be having an uneventful day."
"I worked late last night. The dispatcher and I had a cup of coffee together. He asked me how I was getting along here, and I told him real good, no complaints. Then he asked me if I"d experienced any more smart-aleck behavior from some of the resident clowns in the department. I told him they"d been perfect gentlemen. I bet you can"t guess what he said next."
"You got me."
She imitated a Cajun accent. " "Them guys give you any mo" trouble, you just tell Dave, Miz Rosie. He done tole "em what"s gonna happen the next time they bother you." "
"He was probably exaggerating a little bit."
"You didn"t need to do that for me, Dave."
"I apologize."
"Don"t be a wise-a.s.s, either."
"Boy, you"re a pistol."
"How should I take that?"
"I don"t know. How about easing up?"
"Don"t count on it."
She rested one small hand on top of the other. She had the same solid posture behind her desk that I remembered in the nuns at the elementary school I attended.
"You look tired," she said.
"I have bouts of insomnia."
"You want to talk about what happened out on the bayou?"
"No."
"Do you feel guilty about it?"
"What do you think I feel? I feel angry about it."
"Why?"
"What kind of question is that?"
"Do you feel angry because you couldn"t control what happened? Do you think somehow you"re to blame for her death?"
"What if I said "yes to all the above"? What difference would it make? She"s dead."
"I think beating up on yourself has about as much merit as masturbation."
"You"re a friend, Rosie, but let it go."
I busied myself with my paperwork and did not look back up for almost a minute. When I did, her eyes were still fixed on me.
"I just got some interesting information from the Bureau about Julie Balboni," she said. She waited, then said, "Are you listening?"
"Yes."
"This year N.O.P.D. Vice has closed up a half-dozen ofhis dirty movie theaters and two of his escort services. His fishing fleet just went into bankruptcy, too." When I didn"t respond, she continued. "That"s where he laundered a lot of his drug money. He"d declare all kinds of legitimate profits to the IRS that never existed."
"That"s how all the wiseguys do it, Rosie. In every city in the United States."
"Except the auditors at the IRS say he just made a big mistake. He came up with millions of dollars for this Civil War movie and he"s going to have a hard time explaining where he got it."
"Don"t count on it."
"The IRS nails their b.u.t.ts to the wall when n.o.body else can."
I sharpened a pencil over the wastebasket with my pocket knife.
"I have the feeling I"m boring you," she said.
"No, you"re just reviving some of my earlier misgivings."
"What?"
"I think your agency wants Julie"s a.s.s in a sling. I think these murders have secondary status."
"That"s what you think, is it?"