OF MY MEETING WITH A MURDERED MAN
Robinson Crusoe"s footprint in the sand did not startle him more than that strange lonely cry startled me. Indeed, as between the two of us, I had rather the worse of it: for Crusoe, at least, knew that he was dealing with a reality, while I could not be certain that I was not dealing with a bit of a dream in which there was no reality at all.
For a long while I sat there puzzling over it--half hoping that I might hear it again, and so be sure of it; and half hoping that I might not hear it, because of the thrilling tone in it which had filled me with a sharp alarm. I was so shaken that I had not the courage to go off to my berth in the cabin, with only a candle to light me there, but stayed on in the little room that the lamp lighted so brightly that there were no dark corners for my fancy to people with things horrible; and so, at last, still scared and puzzled, I went off to sleep in my chair.
When I woke again the lamp had burned out and had filled the place with a vile smell of lamp-smoke that set me to sneezing. But I did not mind that much; for daylight had come, and my nerves were both quieted by sleep and steadied by that confident courage which most men feel--no matter how tight a fix they may be in--when they have the backing of the sun.
My first thought was to get on deck and have a look about me; the feeling being strong in my mind that on one or another of the near-by wrecks I should find the man who had uttered that thrilling cry, and would find him in some trouble that I might be able to help him out of. But my second thought, and it was the wiser, was to eat first of all a good breakfast and so get strength in me that would make me ready to face whatever might come along--for a vague dread hung by me that I was in the way of danger, and whatever it might be I knew that I could the better stand up against it after a hearty meal. Therefore I got out another tin of meat and ate the whole of it, and a hunk of stale bread along with it, and washed down my breakfast with a bottle of beer--longing greatly for a cup of coffee in place of the beer, but being in too much of a hurry to stop for that while I made a fire.
As the food got inside of me--though in that smoky and smelly place eating it was not much of a pleasure--my thoughts took a more cheerful turn. The hope of meeting a live man to talk to and to help me out of my utter loneliness rose strong in my mind; and I felt that no matter who or what he might be--even a man in desperate sickness and pain, whom I must nurse and care for--finding him in that solitude would make my own case less sad. And so, when I went on deck, my longing hope for companionship was the strongest feeling in my heart.
With my first glance around I saw that during the night my hulk had made more progress than I had counted on; having moved the faster, I suppose, as it felt more strongly the pull of the ma.s.s of floatage near by. Be this as it may, I found myself so close alongside the big cargo-boat that a good jump would carry me aboard of her; and I was so eager to begin my investigations that I took the jump without a single moment of delay. And being come to her deck, the first thing that I saw there was a dead man lying in the middle of it with a pool of still fresh blood staining the planks by his side.
I never had seen anything like that, and as I looked at the dead man--he was a big strong coa.r.s.e fellow, dressed in a pair of dirty sail-cloth trousers and in a dirty checked shirt--I went so queasy and giddy that I had to step back a little and lean for a while against the steamer"s rail. It was clear enough that he had died fighting. His face had a bad cut on it and there was another on his neck, and his hands were cut cruelly, as though he had caught again and again at a sharp knife in trying to keep it away from him; but the stab that had finished him was in his breast, showing ghastly as he lay on his back with his shirt open--and no doubt it was as the knife went into him there that he had uttered the cry of mortal agony which had come to me through the darkness, with so thrilling a note in it, while I was sitting in bright comfort drowsily smoking my cigar. And then, as I remembered my drowsiness, for a moment I seemed to get back into it--and I had a half hope that perhaps what I was looking at was only a part of a horrible dream.
Had there been any sign of a living man about, of the murderer as well as the murdered, I should have been less broken by what I saw; for then I should have had something practical to attend to--either in bringing the other man to book on the poor dead fellow"s account, or in fighting him on my own. But the nearest thing to life in sight, on that storm-swept hulk under the low-hanging golden haze, was the rough body out of which life had but just gone forever; and the b.l.o.o.d.y stains everywhere on the deck showing that he and another must have been fighting pretty much all over it before they got to an end. And the horror of it all was the stronger because of the awful and hopeless loneliness: with the dead-still weed-covered ocean stretching away to the horizon on the one hand, and on the other only dead ships tangled and crushed together going off in a desolate wilderness that grew fainter--but for its faintness all the more despairing--until it was lost in the dun-gold murky thickness of the haze.
As I got steadier, in a little while, I realized that I must hunt up the other man, the one who had done the killing, and have things out with him. Pretty certainly, his disposition would be to try to kill me; and if I were to have a fight on hand as soon as I fell in with him it was plain that my chances would be all the better for downing him could I take him by surprise. I would have given a good deal just then for a knife, and a good deal more for a pistol; but the best that I could do to arm myself was to take an iron belaying-pin from the rail, and with this in my hand I walked aft to the companion-way --feeling sure that my best chance of coming upon my man unexpectedly was to find him asleep in the cabin below. And then, suddenly, the very uncomfortable thought came to me that there might be more than one man down there--with the likelihood that if I roused them they all would set upon me together and finish me quickly; and this brought me to a halt just within the companion-way, in the shadowy place at the head of the cabin stair.
I stood there for a minute or two listening closely, but I heard no sound whatever from below; and presently the dead silence made me feel rather ashamed of myself for being so easily scared. And then I noticed, my eyes having become accustomed to the shadow, that there was a splash of blood on the top step and more blood on the steps lower down--as though a man badly hurt, and without any one to help him, had gone down the stair slowly and had rested on almost every step and bled for a while before he could go on; and seeing this made it seem likely to me that I would have but a single man to deal with, and he in such a state that I need not fear him much. But for all that I kept a tight grip on my belaying-pin, and held it in such a way that I could use it easily, as I put my foot on the first of the b.l.o.o.d.y steps and so went on down.
The cabin, when I got to it, was but a small one--the boat not being built to carry pa.s.sengers--and so dusky that I could not make it out well; for the skylight was covered with a tarpaulin--put there, I suppose, to protect it when the gale came on that the steamer was wrecked in--and all the light there was came in from one corner where the covering had fetched away. It gave me a sort of shivering feeling when I looked into that dusky place, where I saw nothing clearly and where there was at least a chance that in another moment I might be fighting for my life. I stood in the doorway, gripping my belaying-pin, until I began to see more clearly--making out that a small fixed table, with a water-jug and some bottles and gla.s.ses on it, filled a half of the cabin, and that three state-room doors--one of which stood open--were ranged on each of its sides. And then, just as I was about to enter, I fairly jumped as there came to me softly through the silence a low sad sound that was between a groan and a sigh. But in an instant my reason told me that this was not the sort of sound to come from a man whom I need be afraid of; and as it came plainly enough from the state-room of which the door stood open I stepped briskly over there and looked inside.
XV
I HAVE SOME TALK WITH A MURDERER
At first--the dead-light being fast over the port, and the state-room in darkness save for the little light which came in from the dusky cabin, and my own person in the doorway making it darker still--I was sure of nothing there. But presently I made out a biggish heap of some sort in the lower berth, and then that the heap was a man lying with his back toward me and his face turned to the ship"s side.
The noise of my footsteps must have roused him, either from sleep or from the stupor that his hurts had put him in: for while I stood looking at him his body moved a little, and then his head turned slowly and in the shadows I caught the glint of his open eyes. What little light there was being behind me, all that he could see--and that but in black outline--was the figure of a tall man looming in the doorway; but instantly at sight of me he let off a yell as sharp as though I had run a knife into him, and then he covered his head all up with the bedclothes and lay kicking and shaking as though he were in deadly fear. I myself was so upset by his outburst, and by the half-horror that came to me at sight of his spasms of terror, that I stood for a moment or so silent; but in one way satisfied, since it was evident that this poor scared wretch could not possibly do me harm. Just as I was about to speak to him, hoping to soothe him a little, he pushed the bedclothes down from over his eyes and took another look at me--and straightway yelled again, and then cried out at me: "Go away, d.a.m.n you! Go away, d.a.m.n you! You"re dead! You"re dead, I tell you! Do you want me to kill you all over again, when I"ve done it once as well as I know how?" And with that he fell to kicking again, and to shouting out curses, and to letting off the most dreadful shrieks and cries--until suddenly a gasping choking checked him, and he lay silent and still.
Then the notion came to me that he took me for the dead man up on deck; I being about the dead fellow"s size and build, and therefore looking very like him as I stood there with the light behind me and the shadows too deep for him to make out my face. And so, to ease his mind and get him quiet--and this was quite as much for my own sake as for his, for his wild fear was strangely horrible to witness--I spoke to him, asking him if he were badly hurt and if I could help him; and at the sound of my voice he gave a long sigh, as though of great relief, and in a moment said: "Who the devil are you, anyway? I thought you was Jack--come back after my killin" him to have another round with me. Is Jack true dead?"
"If you mean the man on deck," I answered, "he is true dead--as dead as any man can be with a cut straight through his heart."
He gave another sigh of relief, as though what I told him was a real comfort to him; and in a moment he said: "Well, that"s a good job, and I"m glad of it. He"s killed me, too, I reckon; but I"m glad I got in on him first an" fixed him fur his d.a.m.n starin" at me. Now he"s dead I guess he won"t stare at me no more." He was silent for nearly a minute, and then he added: "Jest get me a drink, won"t you? I"m all burnin" up inside. There"s water in th" jug out there. An" put a good dash of gin in it--there"s gin out there, too."
I got him some water from the jug on the cabin table, but when he tasted it and found that it was water only he began to swear at me for leaving out the gin; and when I added the gin--thinking that he probably was so used to strong drink as really to need a little to put some life into him--he took off the whole gla.s.sful at a gulp and asked for more.
I told him to wait for another drink until I should have a look at his hurts and see what I could do to better them; for, while hanging seemed to be what he deserved, I had a natural desire to ease the pain that was racking him--as I could tell by the gasps and groans which he was giving and by the sharp motions which he made.
"Jest shet your head an" gimme some more drink," he said in a surly way. "Jack"s give me a dose that"ll settle me, an" lookin" at me won"t do no good--"cause there"s nothin" to be done. He"s ripped me up, Jack has, an" no man can live long that way. All I can do is to die happy--so it"s a good thing there"s lots of gin. You"ll find a kag of it over there in th" fur corner. Me an" Jack filled it from th" spirit room yesterday, afore our fuss begun."
But I stuck out that I must have a look at his hurts first, and managed to open the dead-light--which luckily had not been screwed tight--and so had some light in the room; and in the end, finding that I would not give him a drink otherwise, he let me have my way. But I had only to take a glance over him to see that what he said about the other man having settled him was true enough; for he was cut in a dozen places savagely, and had one desperate slash--which had laid him all open about the waist--from which alone he was certain to die in a very little while.
There was nothing for me to do, and I did not know what was best to say to him; and while I was casting about in my mind to comfort him a little, for his horrible hurts could not but stir my pity, he settled the matter for both of us in his own way--grunting out that he guessed I"d found he knew what he was talking about, and then asking for more gin.
This time I gave it to him, and gave it to him strong--being certain that he was past hurting by it, and hoping that it might deaden his pain. And presently, when he asked for another drink, I gave him that too.
The liquor did make him easier, and it raised his spirits so much that he fell to swearing quite cheerfully at the man Jack who had given him his death--and seemed to feel a good deal better for freeing his mind that way. And after a while he began of his own accord to tell me about the wreck that he had pa.s.sed through, and about what had come after it--only stopping now and then to ask for more gin-and-water, and gulping it down with such satisfaction that I gave him all he cared to have. Indeed, it was the only thing that I could do to ease him, and I knew that no matter how much he drank the end shortly would be the same.
As well as I could make out from his rambling talk, the storm that had wrecked him had happened about three months earlier: a tremendous burst of tempest that had sent everything to smash suddenly, and had washed the captain and first and second officers overboard--they all being on the bridge together--and three or four of the crew as well.
At the same time the funnel was carried away, and such a deluge of water got down to the engine-room that the fires were drowned. This brought the engineers on deck and the coal-pa.s.sers with them; and the coal-pa.s.sers--"a beach-combin" lot," he called them--led in breaking into the spirit-room, and before long pretty much all the men of the crew were as drunk as lords. What happened after that for a while he did not know; but when he got sober enough to stagger up on deck he found the man Jack there--who also had just come up after sleeping off his drunk below somewhere--and they had the ship to themselves. The others might have found a boat that would float and tried their luck that way, or they might have been washed overboard. He didn"t know what had become of them, and he didn"t care. Then the hulk had taken to drifting slowly, and at the end of a month or so had settled into the berth where I found her; and since then the two of them had known that all chance of their getting back into the world again was gone.
"At first I didn"t mind it much," he went on, "there bein" lashins to eat aboard, an" more to drink than me an" Jack ever"d hoped to get a show at in all our lives. But pretty soon Jack he begun to be worryin". He"d get drunk, an" then he"d set an" stare at me like a d.a.m.n owl--jest a-blinkin" and a-blinkin" his d.a.m.n eyes. You hev no idee, ontil it"s done to you, how worryin" it is when a drunken man jest sets an" stares at you fur hours together in that fool way. I give Jack fair warnin" time and agen when he was sober that I"d hurt him ef he kep" on starin" at me like that; but then he"d get drunk agen right off, an" at it he"d go. I s"pose I wouldn"t "a" minded it in a ornary way an" ash.o.r.e, or ef we"d had some other folks around.
But here we was jest alone--oh, it was terr"ble how much we was alone!--an" Jack more"n half the time like a d.a.m.n starin" owl, till he a-most druv me wild."
"An" Jack said as how I was...o...b..arable too. _He_ said it was me as stared at him--the d.a.m.n fool not knowin" that I was only a-tryin" to squench his beastly owlin" by lookin" steady at him; an" he said he"d settle me ef I kep" on. An" so things went like that atween us fur days an" days--and all th" time nothin" near us but dead ships with mos" likely dead men fillin" "em, an" him an" me knowin" we"d soon got to be dead too. An" the stinks out of th" rotten weed, and out of all th" rotten ships whenever a bit of wind breezed up soft from th"
s"uthard over th" hull mess of "em, was horrider than you hev any idee! Gettin" drunk was all there was lef" fur us; and even in gettin"
drunk there wasn"t no real Christian comfort, "cause of Jack"s d.a.m.n owlin" stares."
"I guess ef anybody stared steady at you fur better"n three months you"d want to kill him too. Anyway, that"s how I felt about it; an" I told Jack yesterday--soon as he waked up in th" mornin", an" while he was plumb sober--that ef he didn"t let up on it I"d go fur him sure.
An" that fool up an" says it was me done th" starin", and I"d got to stop it or he"d cut out my d.a.m.n heart--an" them was his very words.
An" by noon yesterday he was drunker"n a Dutchman, an" was starin"
harder"n ever. An" he kep" at it all along till sunset, an" when we come down into th" cabin to get supper he still was starin"; and after supper--when we mought "a" been jest like two brothers a-gettin" drunk together on gin-an"-water--he stared wust of all."
"n.o.body could "a" stood it no longer--and up I gets an" goes fur him, keepin" my promise fair an" square. At fust we jest punched each other sort o" friendly with our fists, but after a while Jack give me a clip that roused my dander and I took my knife to him; an" then he took his knife to me. I don"t remember jest all about it, but I know we licked away at each other all over th" cabin, an" then up through th"
companion-way, an" then all over th" deck--me a-slicin" into him an"
him a-slicin" into me all th" time. And at last he got this rippin"
cut into me, an" jest then I give him a jab that made him yell like a stuck pig an" down he fell. I knowed he"d done fur me, but somehow I managed to work my way along th" deck an" to get down here to my bunk, where I knowed I"d die easier; an" then things was all black fur a while--ontil all of a sudden you comes along, and I sees you standin" in the door there, an" takes you fur Jack"s ghost, an" gets scared th" wust kind. But he"s not doin" no ghost racket, Jack ain"t.
I"ve settled him an" his d.a.m.n owl starin"--and it"s a good job I have.
Gimme some more gin."
And then, having taken the drink that I gave him, he rolled over a little--so that he lay as I found him, with his face turned away from me--and for a good long while he did not speak a word.
XVI
I RID MYSELF OF TWO DEAD MEN
Only an hour before I had been longing for any sort of a live man to talk with and so break my loneliness; but having thus found a live man--who, to be sure, was close to being a dead one--I would have been almost ready to get rid of him by going back to my mast in the open sea. Indeed, as I stood there in the shadows beside that dying brute, and with the other brute lying dead on the deck above me, the feeling of dull horror that filled me is more than I can put into words.
I think that the underlying strong strain of my wretchedness was an intense pity for myself. In what the fellow had told me I saw clearly outlined a good deal of what must be my own fate in that vile solitude: which I perceived suddenly must be strewn everywhere with dead men lying unhidden, corrupting openly; since none there were to hide the dead from sight as we hide them in the living world. And I realized that until I myself should be a part of that indecent exhibition of human carca.s.ses--which might not be for a long while, for I was a strong man and not likely to die soon--I should have to dwell in the midst of all that corruption; and always with the knowledge that sooner or later I must take my place in it, and lie with all those unhidden others wasting away slowly in the open light of day. I got so sick as these horrid thoughts pressed upon me that I turned to the table and poured out for myself a stiff drink of gin-and-water--being careful first to rinse the gla.s.s well--and I was glad that I thought of it, for it did me good.
My movement about the cabin roused up the dying fellow and he hailed me to give him some more gin. His voice was so thick that I knew that the drink already had fuddled him; and after he had swiped off what I gave him he began to talk again. But the liquor had taken such hold upon him that he called me "Jack," not recognizing me, and evidently fancying that I was his mate--the man whom he had killed.
At first he rambled on about the storm that had wrecked them; and then about their chance of falling in with a pa.s.sing vessel; and then about some woman named Hannah who would be worrying about him because he did not come home. As well as I could make out he went over in this fashion most of what had happened--and it was little enough, in one way--from the time that the two found themselves alone upon the hulk until they began to get among the weed, and realized pretty well what that meant for them.
"It ain"t no use now, Jack," he rambled on. "It ain"t no use now thinkin" about gettin" home, an" Hannah may as well stop lookin" fur me. This is th" Dead Man"s Sea we"re gettin" into; an" I knows it well, an" you knows it well, both on us havin" heerd it talked about by sailor-men ever sence we come afloat as boys. Down in th" middle of it is all th" old dead wrecks that ever was sence ships begun sailin"; and all th" old dead sailor-men is there too. It"s a orful place, Jack, that me an" you"s goin" to--more d.a.m.n orful, I reckon, than we can hev any idee. Gin"s all thet"s lef" to us, and it"s good luck we hev such swashins of it aboard. Here"s at you, Jack an" gimme some more out o" the kag, you d.a.m.n starin" owl."