Incurable Pain

IP Chapter 72.1

Incurable Pain | Chapter 72.1

Taking advantage of Yu Luoyin’s overtime on the next weekend, Bai Xunyin declined Amo’s invitation to go shopping and drove straight to Baoquan Road.

To that psychological counseling room Liu Yufu had mentioned before.

The facade of the “Anxin Psychological Counseling Room” was unique and easy to find on Baoquan Road. When Bai Xunyin pushed open the door, there was only one girl wearing a white coat at the front desk.

“h.e.l.lo.” 

The girl at the reception smiled and asked, “Ma’am, do you have an appointment?”

“Yes.” 

Bai Xunyin never went unprepared. She knew that psychological clinics usually required advance appointments, so on the day she met Liu Yufu, she had already booked an appointment with the top doctor at this clinic, ‘Lu Ying.’

She gave her name, “Bai Xunyin.”

“Please wait a moment, I’ll check for you.”

The receptionist said, and after checking the computer, she led Bai Xunyin to the innermost counseling room.

Pushing open the softly colored beige wooden door, Bai Xunyin saw a woman in her forties sitting behind a large desk, her fluffy wavy hair tied up, wearing gla.s.ses with golden rims, and exuding a strict and intellectual aura.

Looking at her, one could feel that she was a woman as vast as the sea.

“h.e.l.lo.” 

Lu Ying saw Bai Xunyin and a hint of confusion flashed behind her lenses, then she stood up and nodded, “Please, have a seat.”

She felt this girl was somewhat familiar.

“h.e.l.lo.” 

Bai Xunyin walked over and sat down, uttering this line.

She didn’t seem to intend to pour out her heart directly, and Lu Ying understood but didn’t rush her.

“People who come here to book my appointments usually encounter things they cannot solve with their own abilities or have psychological barriers,” Lu Ying interlaced her fingers, and her ocean-like eyes seemed to smile slightly as she examined Bai Xunyin. 

“Miss, you seem to be a calm and intellectual girl, um, dressed casually, you should be someone who doesn’t force things. What psychological issues do you find difficult to express to others?”

Originally, Bai Xunyin had just wanted to inquire whether Yu Luoyin had been here or not, but under Lu Ying’s fixed gaze, she unexpectedly felt an urge to confide in her.

She couldn’t help but bite her lip.

“Don’t, don’t be nervous,” Lu Ying smiled, “Miss, just casually mention any recent troubles you’ve been having.”

And her job was to a.n.a.lyze and guide, not just sit and listen to all the difficulties in the patient’s heart.

“Doctor, I really like my boyfriend.” After a while, Bai Xunyin finally spoke, seeming to be testing the waters. 

“I also enjoy being with him, it’s just… I unconsciously feel a bit scared.”

Lu Ying’s heart stirred slightly, gently coaxing, “Scared of what? Are you afraid of the person he is, or are you afraid that the wonderful feeling he brings you will disappear one day?”

Bai Xunyin pursed her lips and honestly said, “It might be the latter.”

“That’s not uncommon; many patients feel this way,” Lu Ying smiled, pushing her gla.s.ses with slender fingers. 

“Miss, there’s a common phrase that explains your current state—’borrowing trouble.’ “

Bai Xunyin looked at her in astonishment.

“Instead of worrying about things that haven’t happened yet, it’s better to try your best to maintain what has already happened,” Lu Ying said with a faint smile, “Aren’t you quite satisfied with your current situation?”

Bai Xunyin furrowed her brows, lost in thought.

“It may sound a bit cliché, but…” 

Lu Ying paused for a moment, her tone half-joking, “For a girl like you, shouldn’t you worry less about whether your boyfriend’s love for you will disappear?”

But Bai Xunyin shook her head. 

“No.”

“What?”

Lu Ying was taken aback. 

“I’m not afraid that his love will disappear. On the contrary, I’m afraid I can’t respond to his pa.s.sionate love,” Bai Xunyin smiled faintly, a hint of bitterness in her smile. 

“It’s like a volcano under lava; I’m afraid of that feeling of eruption at any moment. I feel like I can’t respond, but I love him very much.”

Bai Xunyin had never said the word ‘love’ to Yu Luoyin, but today, in front of this stranger, it naturally spilled out.

Like a directionless person finally finding a corner to settle in, she poured out her feelings freely. 

“Sometimes I can’t help but think, can a person like me, who dares not open her heart, match his unrestrained love?”

“But I know he only wants me.”

Lu Ying never expected to hear such a romantic love story from such a pure and lovely girl on this warm afternoon.

The image of Bai Xunyin’s boyfriend leaped into her mind, affectionate and pa.s.sionate.

“Miss,” Lu Ying couldn’t help but smile, “you’re exhibiting typical symptoms of lacking self-awareness and security, but your state seems healthy. Perhaps your boyfriend plays a significant role in this.”

“Yes, I’ve had psychological examinations before. The doctor said I have OCD, anxiety…” Bai Xunyin chuckled. 

“But he said he would cure me.”

Yu Luoyin had said he was the best doctor.

Hearing this, Lu Ying couldn’t help but sigh in admiration. 

“Your relationship is truly enviable.”

She didn’t use the scarce descriptor “good,” but rather “enviable.”

This could precisely be seen from an outsider’s perspective when listening to Bai Xunyin’s narrative, revealing Yu Luoyin’s deep affection.

“Yes, that’s why I want to heal him too,” Bai Xunyin smiled, revealing her true intentions. 

“Doctor, the truth is, I came here this time because of my boyfriend… he has been here before.”

Lu Ying was taken aback, “What?”

“I want to know why he needed to see a psychologist.” Bai Xunyin sighed. 

“Can you help me?”

In reality, doctors absolutely cannot disclose patients’ privacy, but Lu Ying couldn’t help but ask, “What’s your boyfriend’s name?”

Bai Xunyin obediently replied, “Yu Luoyin.”

“What?” 

Lu Ying was shocked, almost jumping up—she rarely had such emotional fluctuations, but Yu Luoyin was too familiar to her.

At that moment, Lu Ying finally remembered why Bai Xunyin seemed familiar.

A while back, the girl in Yu Luoyin’s circle of friends, the one in the “official announcement” photo, was ethereal and elegant—wasn’t she the same girl sitting in front of her now?

Seeing Lu Ying’s stunned expression, Bai Xunyin understood and calmly asked, “Doctor, do you remember his name?”

“I… remember.” 

Lu Ying hesitated for a moment, swallowing the prepared excuse of “we can’t disclose patients’ privacy,” and instead asked, “Has Xiao Yu been doing okay lately? He hasn’t been here for over a year, almost two.”

And not coming to the psychological clinic was actually a good thing.

If Yu Luoyin didn’t come, it meant his mental state was healthy.

“No, he hasn’t recently.” Bai Xunyin shook her head. 

“I heard that he came about five years ago. So, it’s been about three years since then? Can you tell me what happened to him?”

Relieved to hear that Yu Luoyin’s mental state was still healthy, Lu Ying relaxed.

“Actually, it’s nothing.” She twirled her pen, smiling wryly. 

“Five years ago, Xiao Yu was a bit troubled in his emotions due to some relationship issues. He also felt that his choices weren’t understood by those around him. So, when he had nothing to do, he would come here to vent. But I a.s.sessed that his condition at the time was pretty good, at least much better than when he was younger.”

Bai Xunyin was taken aback, “When he was younger?”

“Yeah, the first time Xiao Yue came here, he was only thirteen,” Lu Ying recalled Yu Luoyin’s youthful and cold appearance when he had just entered middle school. 

“It’s been over ten years since then.”

Thirteen years old…

Bai Xunyin furrowed her brows. “He came to see a psychologist when he was thirteen?”

“It’s not just adults who can have psychological issues,” Lu Ying smiled knowingly. 

“Children often have more undisclosed troubles in their world. At least for Xiao Yue, he matured early, and his mental state at the time was much worse than it was five years ago.”

The fingers on Bai Xunyin’s knee involuntarily tightened as she fought back a flood of questions, listening quietly to Lu Ying.

“Technically, I shouldn’t disclose the details of his previous consultations to you, but you’re his girlfriend and the person he’s decided to spend his life with…” Lu Ying paused, her gaze suddenly sharp.