The wild, ignorant singer, the black thrush, which had grown among starlings, listened diffidently to the words which came to his lips. Where did he get the power to compel the crowd to listen in ecstasy to his speech? Where did he get the power to force proud men down upon their knees, wringing their hands? He trembled before he began to speak. Then a quiet confidence came over him. From the inexhaustible depths of his suffering rose ever torrents of agonized words.
Those speeches were never printed. They were hunting-cries, ringing trumpet-notes, rousing, animating, terrifying, urgent; not to capture, not to give again. They were lightning flashes and rolling thunder. They shook hearts with terrible alarms. But they were transient, never could they be caught. The cataract can be measured to its last drop, the dizzy play of foam can be painted, but not the elusive, delirious, swift, growing, mighty stream of those speeches.
That day in the wood he asked the gathering if they knew how they should serve G.o.d?--as Uria served his king.
Then he, the man in the pulpit, became Uria. He rode through the desert with the letter of his king. He was alone. The solitude terrified him. His thoughts were gloomy. But he smiled when he thought of his wife. The desert became a flowering meadow when he remembered his wife. Springs gushed up from the ground at the thought of her.
His camel fell. His soul was filled with forebodings of evil.
Misfortune, he thought, is a vulture, which loves the desert. He did not turn, but went onward with the king"s letter. He trod upon thorns. He walked among serpents and scorpions. He thirsted and hungered. He saw caravans drag their dark length through the sands.
He did not join them. He dared not seek strangers. He, who bears a royal letter, must go alone. He saw at eventide the white tents of shepherds. He was tempted, as if by his wife"s smiling dwelling. He thought he saw white veils waving to him. He turned away from the tents out into solitude. Woe to him if they had stolen the letter of his king!
He hesitates when he sees searching brigands pursuing him. He thinks of the king"s letter. He reads it in order to then destroy it. He reads it, and finds new courage. Stand up, warrior of Judah!
He does not destroy the letter. He does not give himself up to the robbers. He fights and conquers. And so onward, onward! He bears his sentence of death through a thousand dangers. ...
It is so G.o.d"s will shall be obeyed through tortures unto death. ...
While Wik spoke, his divorced wife stood and listened to him. She had gone out to the wood that morning, beaming and contented on her husband"s arm, most matron-like, respectable in every fold. Her daughter and the apprentice carried the luncheon basket. The maid followed with the youngest child. There had been nothing but content, happiness, calm.
There they had lain in a thicket. They had eaten and drunk, played and laughed. Never a thought of the past! Conscience was as silent as a satisfied child. In the beginning, when her first husband had slunk half drunk by her window, she had felt a p.r.i.c.k in her soul.
Then she had heard that he had become the idol of the Salvation Army. She was, therefore, quite calm. Now she had come to hear him.
And she understood him. He was not speaking of Uria; he was telling about himself. He was writhing at the thought of his own sacrifice.
He tore bits from his own heart and threw them out among the people. She knew that rider in the desert, that conqueror of brigands. And that unappeased agony stared at her like an open grave. ...
Night came. The wood was deserted. Farewell, gra.s.s and flowers!
Wide heaven, a long farewell! Snakes began to crawl about the tufts of gra.s.s. Turtles crept along the paths. The wood was ugly.
Everybody longed to be back in the stone desert, the moon landscape. That is the place for men.
Dame Anna Erikson invited all her old friends. The mechanics" wives from the suburbs and the poorer scrub-women came to her for a cup of coffee. The same were there who had been with her on the day of her desertion. One was new, Maria Anderson, the captain of the Salvation Army.
Anna Erikson had now been many times to the Salvation Army. She had heard her husband. He always told about himself. He disguised his story. She recognized it always. He was Abraham. He was Job. He was Jeremiah, whom the people threw into a well. He was Elisha, whom the children at the wayside reviled.
That pain seemed bottomless to her. His sorrow seemed to her to borrow all voices, to make itself masks of everything it met. She did not understand that her husband talked himself well, that pleasure in his power of fancy played and smiled in him.
She had dragged her daughter with her. The daughter had not wished to go. She was serious, modest, and conscientious. Nothing of youth played in her veins. She was born old.
She had grown up in shame of her father. She walked upright, austere, as if saying: "Look, the daughter of a man who is despised!
Look if my dress is soiled! Is there anything to blame in my conduct?" Her mother was proud of her. Yet sometimes she sighed.
"Alas! if my daughter"s hands were less white, perhaps her caresses would be warmer!"
The girl sat scornfully smiling. She despised theatricals. When her father rose up to speak, she wished to go. Her mother"s hand seized hers, fast as a vice. The girl sat still. The torrent of words began to roar over her. But that which spoke to her was not so much the words as her mother"s hand.
That hand writhed, convulsions pa.s.sed through it. It lay in hers limp, as if dead; it caught wildly about, hot with fever. Her mother"s face betrayed nothing; only her hand suffered and struggled.
The old speaker described the martyrdom of silence. The friend of Jesus lay ill. His sisters sent a message to him; but his time had not come. For the sake of G.o.d"s kingdom Lazarus must die.
He now let all doubting, all slander be heaped upon Christ. He described his suffering. His own compa.s.sion tortured him. He pa.s.sed through the agony of death, he as well as Lazarus. Still he had to keep silence.
Only one word had he needed to say to win back the respect of his friends. He was silent. He had to hear the lamentations of the sisters. He told them the truth in words which they did not understand. Enemies mocked at him.
And so on always more and more affecting.
Anna Erikson"s hand still lay in that of her daughter. It confessed and acknowledged: "The man there bears the martyr"s crown of silence. He is wrongly accused. With a word he could set himself free."
The girl followed her mother home. They went in silence. The girl"s face was like stone. She was pondering, searching for everything which memory could tell her. Her mother looked anxiously at her.
What did she know?
The next day Anna Erikson had her coffee party. The talk turned on the day"s market, on the price of wooden shoes, on pilfering maids.
The women chatted and laughed. They poured their coffee into the saucer. They were mild and unconcerned. Anna Erikson could not understand why she had been afraid of them, why she had always believed that they would judge her.
When they were provided with their second cup, when they sat delighted with the coffee trembling on the edge of their cups, and their saucers were filled with bread, she began to speak. Her words were a little solemn, but her voice was calm.
"Young people are imprudent. A girl who marries without thinking seriously of what she is doing can come to great grief. Who has met with worse than I?"
They all knew it. They had been with her and had mourned with her.
"Young people are imprudent. One holds one"s tongue when one ought to speak, for shame"s sake. One dares not to speak for fear of what people will say. He who has not spoken at the right time may have to repent it a whole lifetime."
They all believed that this was true.
She had heard Wik yesterday as well as many times before. Now she must tell them all something about him. An aching pain came over her when she thought of what he had suffered for her sake. Still she thought that he, who had been old, ought to have had more sense than to take her, a young girl, for his wife.
"I did not dare to say it in my youth. But he went away from me out of pity, for he thought that I wanted to have Erikson. I have his letter about it."
She read the letter aloud for them. A tear glided demurely down her cheek.
"He had seen falsely in his jealousy. Between Erikson and me there was nothing then. It was four years before we were married; but I will say it now, for Wik is too good to be misjudged. He did not run away from wife and child from light motives, but with good intention. I want this to be known everywhere. Captain Anderson will perhaps read the letter aloud at the meeting. I wish Wik to be redressed. I know, too, that I have been silent too long, but one does not like to give up everything for a drunkard. Now it is another matter."
The women sat as if turned to stone. Anna Erikson, her voice trembling a little, said with a faint smile,--
"Now perhaps you will never care to come to see me again?"
"Oh, yes indeed! You were so young! It was nothing which you could help.--It was his fault for having such ideas."
She smiled. These were the hard beaks which would have torn her to pieces. The truth was not dangerous nor lying either. The young men were not waiting outside her door.
Did she know or did she not know that her eldest daughter had that very morning left her home and had gone to her father?
The sacrifice which Matts Wik had made to save his wife"s honor became known. He was admired; he was derided. His letter was read aloud at the meeting. Some of those present wept with emotion.
People came and pressed his hands on the street. His daughter moved to his house.
For several evenings after he was silent at the meetings. He felt no inspiration. At last they asked him to speak. He mounted the platform, folded his hands together and began.
When he had said a couple of words he stopped, confused. He did not recognize his own voice. Where was the lion"s roar? Where the raging north wind? And where the torrent of words? He did not understand, could not understand.