"Nay, that is foolish, Mamma. Now often have I heard you say that few girls marry their first love."
Again Mrs. Neville was silent. "Have you told Mr. Vavasour of this old love, Amy?" asked she presently.
"Oh! no, no, Mamma. What good could it do? It would only grieve him; I,--I told him this much, that I--I hoped to love him better in time."
"And he was satisfied?"
"Quite," answered Amy, "and will you not say you are too, dearest Mamma?" and she laid her head lovingly on her mother"s shoulder, and looked entreatingly in her face.
"G.o.d bless and protect you, my child," said Mrs. Neville fervently, drawing her closer still, and kissing her fondly. "May He guide and strengthen us both, for indeed I am very sorrowful, and scarcely know whether this marriage is for my child"s happiness or no; but I pray it may be with all my heart. You have your mother"s best, holiest wishes, Amy."
So Amy Neville became, with her mother"s sanction, Robert Vavasour"s affianced wife.
Yet for days after that Mrs. Neville"s heart seemed troubled and ill at ease, and she lay on the sofa watching, noting Amy"s every look or action, until, by degrees, the troubled anxious look wore away; Amy seemed so contented and happy that her mother, who, in her secret heart, wished the marriage might be, gradually lost her fears, and each hour gained renewed confidence and hope. She grew better and stronger, and this alone in itself was sufficient to bring back the smiles into Amy"s face, while each day disclosed some fresh trait of Robert Vavasour"s goodness and kindness of heart. It was his voice read of an evening to her mother and never seemed to weary. It was his hand raised the invalid, or lifted her, as her strength increased, from the sofa to the easy chair.
Amy rejoiced in the change, and while she never allowed her thoughts to wander to the past, with all its cruel hopes and fears, so she never halted or looked onward to the future; her life was of to-day, neither more nor less. Her mother was better; it was her act, her will, that had done it all. She was contented that it should be so, and fancied herself happy; perhaps was at this time really so, and might have been for ever, had she never seen Charles Linchmore again, never known how he, not she, had been deceived, but that was to be the one thorn in her onward path.
In less than a month Amy was to be married. Mrs. Neville"s objections as to haste were overruled, even old Mrs. Elrington had sided with the rest; but then Mrs. Neville knew nothing of Dr. Ashley"s opinion, or that Amy had confided to her old friend the necessity there was for an immediate change.
They were to go to Italy. Amy, her husband, and mother, with little Sarah, and even old Hannah accompanying them. What a pleasant party it would be! Already Amy began to picture to herself the delight she would experience in watching her mother"s restoration to health and strength in that warm sunny clime, and how happy she would be by-and-by in bringing her back when quite well, to live in her own and Vavasour"s home, that home he had so often talked to her of, and where, in a few weeks, she would be roaming about at will as its mistress.
The days crept on steadily and surely slowly to all but Mrs. Neville, and with her the time seemed to fly; she was anxious and restless, while her doubts and fears only shaped themselves in words in old Hannah"s presence; to the rest, even to Amy, she was pa.s.sive and quiet, apparently resigned, only at heart sad.
But old Hannah was a remorseless tyrant, who, feeling deeply and sorrowfully her darling"s departure from home, sighing and even dropping a tear or two in secret, yet she never allowed Mrs. Neville to bewail it, but, on the contrary, seemed to look upon her doing so as a weakness and sin, requiring a steady though somewhat underhand reproof. Perhaps the very strength of mind Hannah displayed encouraged and strengthened her mistress.
"We are to lose Miss Amy to-morrow, Hannah," said Mrs. Neville, in a sad tone of voice. "I wish the wedding had not been so sudden."
"There, Ma"am, I don"t call it sudden at all in the light wind," then silently and steadily went upstairs to change her bridal attire for a travelling dress.
It would be quite half-an-hour before Vavasour could return; so she sat quietly awaiting him in the little sitting-room, perhaps for the first time that day feeling sad, just realising her position as a wife, and looking onwards into the future.
She sat lost in a dreamy reverie, and heard not the swift opening and shutting of the little garden gate, or the sound of the still swifter step across the gravel walk, until it sounded quick and strong in the pa.s.sage; then she started and arose quickly. Her husband had returned!
and sooner than she expected. With a smile she turned to greet him, but it was Charles Linchmore who stood in the doorway, flushed and heated with the haste and impatience of his hurried ride from the station, and still more hasty journey.
Amy"s heart stood still. Why had he come? Then, woman-like, almost guessed before he spoke what he had come to say. But ere she could recover from the sudden shock of his presence he, with all the old impetuosity of his nature, was at her feet, pouring forth his long pent-up love, with all its wild jealousy and anguish. How he had been deceived by Frances, and driven well-nigh distracted. How through Anne"s agency he had found out her deceit, and had started at once to explain all and be forgiven; how he believed now she had loved him, and still loved, or would love him again; all--all he told, while his words came fast and strong. Amy never attempted to stay them, neither could she, if she would. So he went on to the end; then looked up into her face, that white, wan, pale face, bending so sadly over him, with an agonised stony look spread over each feature, striking dismay into his heart and soul.
"Speak to me!" he cried pa.s.sionately. "Only say you forgive me my hasty belief in your falseness, only say that you love me still, and that I am not too late to make amends. Amy! my own Amy, speak to me!" and again he looked up beseechingly, with all his deep, earnest love written on his face, and speaking in his eyes.
But she was silent and still, very still.
Then the hand he held so tightly drew away from his hot, burning ones, and turning slowly, showed the wife"s symbol, the plain gold band encircling the one small finger, while the pale, sad lips parted, and words came mournfully at last, but slowly and distinctly, settling like ice about his heart.
"It is too late--I am married."
Again that hasty, hurried step sounded, ringing out fiercely in the pa.s.sage and along the quiet gravel walk. Once again the gate swung harshly and roughly on its frail hinges; then the sudden rush of a horse"s quick hoofs rung out startlingly in the still, soft air, and in another moment died away in the far-off distance.
"Where is your mistress? is she ready?" asked Vavasour of Amy"s new maid, as ten minutes later he hastily entered the cottage.
"My mistress is not ready, Sir," was the reply, with a pert toss of the head, while a peculiar expression played round the corners of her lips.
"She is in the parlour, Sir. Mrs. Elrington thinks it"s the heat of the day and the worry that has caused her to faint away."
Yes; Amy lay on the sofa, quiet and motionless with scarcely any sign of life on her pale, sad face, while onward, onward, faster and faster still, rode Charles Linchmore.
Would they ever meet again; and how?
CHAPTER V.
DEFEAT.
"Art thou then desolate Of friends, of hopes forsaken? Come to me!
I am thine own. Have trusted hearts proved false?
Why didst thou ever leave me? Know"st thou all I would have borne, and called it joy to bear, For thy sake? Know"st thou that thy voice hath power To shake me with a thrill of happiness By one kind tone?--to fill mine eyes with tears Of yearning love? And thou--Oh! thou didst throw That crushed affection back upon my heart.
Yet come to me!"
""Tis he--what doth he here!"
LARA.
The great bell rang out at the lodge gate, and Charles Linchmore dashed up to the Hall almost as hastily as he had left it, and with scarce a word of greeting to the old butler, whom he pa.s.sed on his way to the drawing-room, and never staying to change his dress, he strode on, all flushed and heated as he was, with his hurried journey and desperate thoughts, until he stood face to face with Mrs. Linchmore.
"Why Charles!" exclaimed she, "what on earth has happened? What is the matter?"
"Nothing," he replied. "Where"s Frances?"
"Nothing," she rejoined, indignantly, "to come into the room in such a plight as this! Look at the splashed state of your boots; and then your face. No one can look at that and not suspect something dreadful having happened. _I_ never saw anything so changed and altered as it is."
"I dare say. I don"t much care."
"Are you mad? Where have you been?"
"Nowhere. Where"s Frances?" he asked again.
"I do not know. But I advise you to make yourself a little more presentable before you seek her. These freaks--_mad_ freaks of riding half over the country, no one knows where, are not agreeable to those you come in contact with afterwards," and Mrs. Linchmore pushed her chair further away from him, and smoothed the rich folds of her dress, as though the act of doing that would soothe her ruffled temper.
"It _was_ a mad freak," replied he, and without waiting for another word, or tendering an apology for his disordered dress, he strode away again, with the full determination of finding Frances.
Every room below stairs he searched, but in vain; she was nowhere, and driven reckless by the agony of his thoughts he went straight up to her own room, and opened the door.
She was lying on the sofa, her eyes red and swollen with weeping, pa.s.sionate, hopeless tears at the thought that long before now he and Amy had met, and he consequently lost to herself for ever.
"Charles!" she exclaimed, springing off the sofa, her cheeks flushing hotly with surprise and pleasure.