After Margaret"s refusal to see Jan, he went back to his boat, and employed himself all day about her cargo, and in settling accounts with Tulloch. It was very late when he went to see Snorro. But Snorro was waiting for him. Now that things had come to a crisis he was ready to hear all Jan"s complaints; he believed him in all things to have done right.
"Thou hast asked her once, Jan," he said; "that was well and right.
Thou shalt not go again. No, indeed! Let her come and tell thee she is sorry. Then thou can show her a man"s heart, and forgive her freely, without yea or nay in the matter. What right had she to pull thy house to pieces without thy knowledge? Come, now, and I will show thee the place I have made for thee when thou art in Lerwick."
There was a big loft over Peter"s store, with a narrow ladder-like stair to it. It was full of the lumber of thirty years and tenanted by a colony of Norway rats, who were on the most familiar terms with Snorro. Many of them answered to their names, none were afraid to eat from his hand; one old shrewd fellow, gray with age, often crept into Snorro"s bosom, and in the warmth, lay hour after hour, watching with wise, weird eyes the quiet face it trusted as it bent over a book.
There was a corner in this garret with a window looking seaward, and here Snorro had cleared a small s.p.a.ce, and boarded it up like a room.
A bed of down and feathers, with a cover of seal-skins occupied one side; two rude seats, a big goods-box turned up for a table, and some shelves full of the books Jan had brought him, completed its furniture.
"See here, Jan, I have been fifteen years with Peter Fae, and no feet but mine have ever entered this loft. Here thou canst be at peace. My dear Jan, lie thee down, and sleep now."
Jan was glad to do it. He put the gold locket on Snorro"s table, and said, "Thou keep it. I bought it for her, and she sent it back to me."
"Some day she will be glad of it. Be thou sure of that."
During the summer Jan made short and quick voyages, and so he spent many an hour in this little retreat talking with Snorro, for he had much to annoy and trouble him. We do not get over living sorrows as easily as dead ones. Margaret in her grave would have lost the power to wound him, and he would gradually have ceased to lament her. But Margaret weeping in her father"s house; Margaret praying in the kirk for strength to bear his neglect and injustice; Margaret throwing open the Bluebeard chamber of their home, and discussing its tragedy with his enemies; this was a sorrow there was no forgetting. On his return from every voyage he sent her the money he had made, and some little token of his love with it. She always sent both back without a word. She understood from them that Jan would come no more in person, and that she would have to make the next advance, either by voice or letter. Many times she had declared she would never do this, and the declaration even in her tenderest hours, bound her to her self-inflicted loneliness and grief. So on Snorro"s rude table the pretty womanly trinkets acc.u.mulated, and Snorro looked at them with constantly gathering anger.
One morning in October he heard a thing that made his heart leap. The physician of the town hurried into the store, and cried, "Peter Fae, here hath come a little man to thy house. A handsome lad he is, indeed. Now then, go and see him."
"What of my daughter, Doctor?"
"She will do well enough."
Snorro lifted never an eyelash, but his face glowed like fire. Jan, then, had a son! Jan"s son! Already he loved the child. Surely he would be the peacemaker. Now the mother and father must meet. He had almost forgiven Margaret. How he longed for Jan to come back. Alas!
when he did, Margaret was said to be dying; Peter had not been at his store for three days.
The double news met Jan as soon as he put his foot on the quay. "Thou hast a son, Jan." "Thy wife is dying." Jan was nearly distraught. With all a man"s strength of feeling, he had emotions as fervent and vivid as a woman: he forgot in a moment every angry feeling, and hastened to his wife. Peter opened the door; when he saw Jan, he could have struck him. He did what was more cruel, he shut the door in his face, and drew the bolt pa.s.sionately across it.
Jan, however, would not leave the vicinity. He stopped the doctor, and every one that came and went. In a few hours this became intolerable to Peter. He ordered him to go away, but Jan sat on a large stone by the gate, with his head in his hands, and answered him never a word.
Then he sent Thora to him. In vain Jan tried to soften her heart.
"Margaret is unconscious, yet she mourns constantly for thee. Thou art my child"s murderer," she said sternly. "Go thy ways before I curse thee."
He turned away then and went down to the seaside, and threw himself, in an agony of despair, upon the sand and the yellow tangle. Hour after hour pa.s.sed; physical exhaustion and mental grief produced at length a kind of lethargy, that oblivion, rather than sleep, which comes to souls which have felt till they can feel no longer.
Just at dark some one touched him, and asked sternly, "Art thou drunk, Jan Vedder, to-day? To-day, when thy wife is dying?"
"It is with sorrow I am drunk." Then he opened his eyes and saw the minister standing over him. Slowly he rose to his feet, and stood stunned and trembling before him.
"Jan! Go to thy wife. She is very ill. At the last she may want thee and only thee."
"They will not let me see her. Do thou speak to Peter Fae for me."
"Hast thou not seen her--or thy son?"
"I have not been within the door. Oh, do thou speak for me!"
"Come with me."
Together they went back to Peter"s house. The door was locked, and the minister knocked. "Who is there?"
"It is I, and Jan Vedder. Peter, unbolt the door."
"Thou art G.o.d"s minister and ever welcome; but I will not let Jan Vedder cross my door-stone."
"Thou wilt let us both in. Indeed thou wilt. I am amazed at thee, Peter. What G.o.d has joined together, let no man put asunder. Art thou going to strive against G.o.d? I say to thee, unbolt the door, unbolt it quick, lest thou be too late. If thou suffer not mercy to pa.s.s through it, I tell thee there are those who will pa.s.s through it, the door being shut."
Then Peter drew the bolt and set the door wide, but his face was hard as iron, and black as midnight.
"Jan," said the minister, "thy wife and child are in the next room. Go and see them, it will be good for thee. Peter, well may the Lord Christ say, "I come as a thief in the night"; and be sure of this, he will break down the bars and burst open the doors of those who rise not willingly to let him in."
In Shetland at that day, and indeed at the present day, the minister has almost a papal authority. Peter took the reproof in silence.
Doctor Balloch was, however, a man who in any circ.u.mstances would have had influence and authority among those brought in contact with him, for though he spared not the rod in the way of his ministry, he was in all minor matters full of gentleness and human kindness. Old and young had long ago made their hearts over to him. Besides, his great learning and his acquaintance with the tongues of antiquity were regarded as a great credit to the town.
While Jan was in his wife"s presence, Doctor Balloch stood silent, looking into the fire: Peter gazed out of the window. Neither spoke until Jan returned. Then the minister turned and looked at the young man. It was plain that he was on the verge of insensibility again. He took his arm and led him to a couch. "Lie down, Jan;" then turning to Peter he said, "Thy son has had no food to-day. He is faint and suffering. Let thy women make him some tea, and bring him some bread and meat."
"I have said that he shall not eat bread in my house."
"Then thou hast said an evil and uncharitable thing. Unsay it, Peter.
See, the lad is fainting!"
"I can not mend that. He shall not break bread in my house."
"Then I say this to thee. Thou shalt not break bread at thy Lord"s supper in His house. No, thou shalt not, for thou would be doing it unworthily, and eating d.a.m.nation to thyself. What saith thy Lord Christ? If thine enemy hunger, feed him. Now, then, order the bread and tea for Jan Vedder."
Peter called a woman servant and gave the order. Then, almost in a pa.s.sion, he faced the minister, and said, "Oh, sir, if thou knew the evil this man hath done me and mine!"
"In such a case Christ"s instructions are very plain--"Overcome evil with good." Now, thou knowest thy duty. If thou sin, I have warned thee--the sin is on thy own head."
Jan heard nothing of this conversation. The voices of the two men were only like spent waves breaking on the sh.o.r.es of his consciousness. But very soon a woman brought him a basin of hot tea, and he drank it and ate a few mouthfuls. It gave him a little strength, he gathered himself together, opened the door, and without speaking went out into the night. The minister followed, watching him carefully, until he saw Michael Snorro take him in his big arms, and carry him to a pile of seal-skins. Then he knew that he was in good hands.
Poor Jan! He was utterly spent and miserable. The few minutes he had pa.s.sed at Margaret"s side, had brought him no comfort. He heard her constantly muttering his name, but it was in the awful, far-distant voice of a soul speaking through a dream. She was unconscious of his presence; he trembled in hers. Just for a moment Thora had allowed him to lift his son, and to press the tiny face against his own. Then all was darkness, and a numb, aching sorrow, until he found himself in Snorro"s arms.
Many days Margaret Vedder lay between life and death, but at length there was hope, and Jan sailed again. He went away very miserable, though he had fully determined it should be his last voyage if Margaret wished it so. He would see her on his return, he would tell her how sorry he was, he would sell The Solan and give back the 600; he would even humble himself to Peter, and go back to the store, if there were no other way to make peace with Margaret. He felt that no personal sacrifice would be too great, if by it he could win back his home, and wife, and son. The babe had softened his heart. He told himself--oh, so often--"Thou art a father;" and no man could have had a sweeter, stronger sense of the obligations the new relation imposed.
He was so sure of himself that he could not help feeling equally sure of Margaret, and also of Peter. "For the child"s sake, they will forgive me, Snorro, and I"ll do well, yes, I will do well for the future."
Snorro had many fears, but he could not bear to throw cold water on Jan"s hopes and plans for reformation. He did not believe that his unconditional surrender would be a good foundation for future happiness. He did not like Jan"s taking the whole blame. He did not like his giving up The Solan at Margaret"s word. Neither Peter Fae, nor his daughter, were likely to exalt any one who humbled himself.
"It is money in the hand that wins," said Snorro, gloomily, "and my counsel is, that thou bear thyself bravely, and show her how well The Solan hath done already, and how likely she is to clear herself and pay back that weariful 600 before two years have gone away. If she will have it, let her have it. Jan, how could she give thee up for 600! Did she love thee?"
"I do believe she did--and does yet, Snorro."
"Only G.o.d, then, understands women. But while thou art away, think well of this and that, and of the things likely to follow, for still I see that forethought spares afterthought and after-sorrow."
With words like these ringing in his ears, Jan again sailed The Solan out of Lerwick. He intended to make a coasting voyage only, but he expected delay, for with November had come storm and cold, fierce winds and roaring seas. Edging along from port to port, taking advantage of every tide and favorable breeze, and lying to, when sailing was impossible, six weeks were gone before he reached Kirkwall in the Orkneys. Here he intended to take in his last cargo before steering for home. A boat leaving Kirkwall as he entered, carried the news of The Solan"s arrival to Lerwick, and then Snorro watched anxiously every tide for Jan"s arrival.
But day after day pa.s.sed and The Solan came not. No one but Snorro was uneasy. In the winter, in that tempestuous lat.i.tude, boats were often delayed for weeks. They ran from shelter to shelter in constant peril of shipwreck, and with a full cargo a good skipper was bound to be prudent. But Snorro had a presentiment of danger and trouble. He watched night after night for Jan, until even his strength gave way, and he fell into a deep sleep. He was awakened by Jan"s voice. In a moment he opened the door and let him in.
Alas! Alas, poor Jan! It was sorrow upon sorrow for him. The Solan had been driven upon the Quarr rocks, and she was a total wreck. Nothing had been saved but Jan"s life, even that barely. He had been so bruised and injured that he had been compelled to rest in the solitary hut of a coast-guardsman many days. He gave the facts to Snorro in an apathy. The man was shipwrecked as well as the boat. It was not only that he had lost every thing, that he had not a penny left in the world, he had lost hope, lost all faith in himself, lost even the will to fight his ill fortune any longer.