I was satisfied, and then casually asked him if he had written to Lord Windermear to inform him of his arrival.
"No," replied he; "I shall write to-morrow." He soon after retired to his own apartment, and I rang for Timothy.
"Good heavens, sir!" cried Timothy, "what is all this--and what are you about? I am frightened out of my wits. Why, sir, our money will not last two months."
"I do not expect it will last much longer, Tim; but it cannot be helped.
Into society I must get--and to do so, must pay for it."
"But, sir, putting the expense aside, what are we to do about this Mr Estcourt? All must be found out."
"I intend that it shall be found out, Tim," replied I; "but not yet. He will write to his uncle to-morrow; you must obtain the letter, for it must not go. I must first have time to establish myself, and then Lord Windermear may find out his error as soon as he pleases."
"Upon my honour, j.a.phet, you appear to be afraid of nothing."
"I fear nothing, Tim, when I am following up the object of my wishes. I will allow no obstacles to stand in my way, in my search after my father."
"Really, you seem to be quite mad on that point, j.a.phet."
"Perhaps I may be, Tim," replied I, thoughtfully. "At all events, let us go to bed now, and I will tell you to-morrow morning, all the events of this day."
Mr Estcourt wrote his letter, which Tim very officiously offered to put into the post, instead of which we put it between the bars of the grate.
I must now pa.s.s over about three weeks, during which I became very intimate with the major and Mr Harcourt, and was introduced by them to the clubs, and almost every person of fashion. The idea of my wealth, and my very handsome person and figure, insured me a warm reception, and I soon became one of the stars of the day. During this time, I also gained the entire confidence of Mr Estcourt, who put letter after letter into the hands of Timothy, who of course put them into the usual place. I pacified him as long as I could, by expressing my opinion, that his lordship was on a visit to some friends in the neighbourhood of his seat; but at last, he would remain in town no longer. You may go now, thought I, I feel quite safe.
It was about five days after his departure, as I was sauntering, arm and arm, with the major, who generally dined with me about five days in the week, that I perceived the carriage of Lord Windermear, with his lordship in it. He saw us, and pulling his check-string, alighted, and coming up to us, with the colour mounting to his forehead with emotion, returned the salute of the major and me.
"Major," said he, "you will excuse me, but I am anxious to have some conversation with Mr Newland: perhaps," continued his lordship, addressing me, "you will do me the favour to take a seat in my carriage?"
Fully prepared. I lost none of my self-possession, but, thanking his lordship, I bowed to him, and stepped in. His lordship followed, and, saying to the footman, "Home--drive fast," fell back in the carriage, and never uttered one word until we had arrived, and had entered the dining-parlour. He then took a few steps up and down, before he said, "Mr Newland, or whatever your name may be, I perceive that you consider the possession of an important secret to be your safeguard. To state my opinion of your conduct is needless; who you are, and what you are, I know not; but," continued he, no longer controlling his anger, "you certainly can have no pretensions to the character of a gentleman."
"Perhaps your lordship," replied I, calmly, "will inform me upon what you may ground your inference."
"Did you not, in the first place, open a letter addressed to another?"
"My lord, I opened a letter brought to me with the initials of my name, and at the time I opened it I fully believed that it was intended for me."
"We will grant that, sir; but after you had opened it you must have known that it was for some other person."
"I will not deny that, my lord."
"Notwithstanding which, you apply to my lawyer, representing yourself as another person, to obtain sealed papers."
"I did, my lord; but allow me to say, that I never should have done so, had I not been warned by a dream."
"By a dream?"
"Yes, my lord. I had determined not to go for them, when in a dream I was ordered so to do."
"Paltry excuse! and then you break private seals."
"Nay, my lord, although I did go for the papers, I could not, even with the idea of supernatural interposition, make up my mind to break the seals. If your lordship will recollect, it was you who broke the seals, and insisted upon my reading the papers."
"Yes, sir, under your false name."
"It is the name by which I go at present, although I acknowledge it is false; but that is not my fault--I have no other at present."
"It is very true, sir, that in all I have now mentioned the law will not reach you; but recollect, that by a.s.suming another person"s name--"
"I never did, my lord," interrupted I.
"Well, I may say, by inducing me to believe that you were my nephew, you have obtained money under false pretences; and for that I now have you in my power."
"My lord, I never asked you for the money; you yourself paid it into the banker"s hands to my credit, and to my own name. I appeal to you now, whether, if you so deceived yourself, the law can reach me?"
"Mr Newland, I will say, that much as I regret what has pa.s.sed, I regret more than all the rest, that one so young, so prepossessing, so candid in appearance, should prove such an adept in deceit. Thinking you were my nephew, my heart warmed towards you; and I must confess, that since I have seen my real nephew, the mortification has been very great."
"My lord, I thank you; but allow me to observe, that I am no swindler.
Your thousand pounds you will find safe in the bank, for penury would not have induced me to touch it. But now that your lordship appears more cool, will you do me the favour to listen to me? When you have heard my life up to the present, and my motives for what I have done, you will then decide how far I am to blame."
His lordship took a chair, and motioned to me to take another. I narrated what had occurred when I was left at the Foundling, and gave him a succinct account of my adventures subsequently--my determination to find my father--the dream which induced me to go for the papers--and all that the reader has already been acquainted with. His lordship evidently perceived the monomania which controlled me, and heard me with great attention.
"You certainly, Mr Newland, do not stand so low in my opinion as you did before this explanation, and I must make allowances for the excitement under which I perceive you to labour on one subject; but now, sir, allow me to put one question, and I beg that you will answer candidly. What price do you demand for your secrecy on this important subject?"
"My lord!" replied I, rising with dignity; "this is the greatest affront you have put upon me yet; still I will name the price by which I will solemnly bind myself, by all my future hopes of finding my father in this world, and of finding an eternal Father in the next, and that price, my lord, is a return of your good opinion."
His lordship also rose, and walked up and down the room with much agitation in his manner. "What am I to make of you, Mr Newland?"
"My lord, if I were a swindler, I should have taken your money; if I had wished to avail myself of the secret, I might have escaped with all the doc.u.ments, and made my own terms. I am, my lord, nothing more than an abandoned child, trying all he can to find his father." My feelings overpowered me, and I burst into tears. As soon as I could recover myself, I addressed his lordship, who had been watching me in silence, and not without emotion. "I have one thing more to say to you, my lord." I then mentioned the conversation between Mr Estcourt and myself, and pointed out the propriety of not making him a party to the important secret.
His lordship allowed me to proceed without interruption, and after a few moments" thought said, "I believe that you are right, Mr Newland; and I now begin to think that it was better that this secret should have been intrusted to you than to him. You have now conferred an obligation on me, and may command me. I believe you to be honest, but a little mad, and I beg your pardon for the pain which I have occasioned you."
"My lord, I am more than satisfied."
"Can I be of any a.s.sistance to you, Mr Newland?"
"If, my lord, you could at all a.s.sist me, or direct me in my search--"
"There I am afraid I can be of little use; but I will give you the means of prosecuting your search, and in so doing, I am doing but an act of justice, for in introducing you to Major Carbonnell, I am aware that I must have very much increased your expenses. It was an error which must be repaired, and therefore, Mr Newland, I beg you will consider the money at the bank as yours, and make use of it to enable you to obtain your ardent wish."
"My lord--"
"I will not be denied, Mr Newland; and if you feel any delicacy on the subject, you may take it as a loan, to be repaid when you find it convenient. Do not, for a moment, consider that it is given to you because you possess an important secret, for I will trust entirely to your honour on that score."
"Indeed, my lord," replied I, "your kindness overwhelms me, and I feel as if, in you, I had already _almost_ found a father. Excuse me, my lord, but did your lordship ever--ever--"
"I know what you would say, my poor fellow: no, I never did. I never was blessed with children. Had I been, I should not have felt that I was disgraced by having one resembling you. Allow me to entreat you, Mr Newland, that you do not suffer the mystery of your birth to weigh so heavily on your mind; and now I wish you good morning, and if you think I can be useful to you, I beg that you will not fail to let me know."
"May Heaven pour down blessings on your head," replied I, kissing respectfully his lordship"s hand; "and may my father, when I find him, be as like unto you as possible." I made my obeisance, and quitted the house.