"Sincerely yours,
"JOHN MATTHIAS."
"P. S.--I enclose--what I"d completely forgotten--the regular weekly amount--$10."
She fell asleep, at length, with this note crushed between her pillow and her cheek.
XVI
Her work proved invaluable distraction for the greater part of that long and lonely Sunday. When not at her typewriter she was tormented by alternate fits of burning chagrin and of equally ardent grat.i.tude toward Matthias. Had this last been in town and chanced to meet her, she must either have quitted him definitely or have betrayed her pa.s.sion unmistakably even to the purblind eyes of a dreaming dramatist. As it was, the girl had time to calm down, to recognize at once his disinterestedness and her own folly. If her infatuation did but deepen in contemplation of his generosity, she none the less regained poise before bedtime and with it her determination to succeed in spite of her stupidity, if only to justify his kindness.
But the morning that took her back to rehearsals found her in a mood of dire misgivings. She would have forfeited much--anything other than their further a.s.sociation--to have been spared the impending encounter with Matthias. And although the author was not present when she reached the theatre, her embarra.s.sment hampered her to a degree that rendered her attempts to act more than ever farcical.
Wilbrow, seated in a chair on the "ap.r.o.n" of the stage, his back to the lifeless footlights, did not interrupt her once; but despair was patent in his att.i.tude, and despair informed his eyes, and not long after her scene was finished the producer for the first time betrayed indications of temper.
"Blaine!" he said abruptly in a chilling voice to one of the minor actors--"don"t you _know_ there"s a window over there--up left centre?"
The player thus addressed, who had been idling purposelessly near the centre of the stage, looked up with a face of blank surprise.
"Sure," he said--"sure I know it."
"That"s something, at least!" Wilbrow commented acidly. "I"m glad you remember it. If I"m not mistaken, I"ve reminded you of that window twice every day since Monday."
"Yes," agreed the other with a look of painful concentration; "I guess that"s right, too."
"And yet you can"t remember what I"ve told you just as often--that I want you to be up there, looking out of the window, when _Sylvia_ enters!"
The actor turned out expostulatory palms. "But, Mr. Wilbrow, what for? I don"t see--"
"Because," the producer interrupted incisively, "the stage directions indicate it; because the significance of this scene requires you to be there, looking out, unaware of _Sylvia"s_ entrance; because you look better there; because it dresses the stage; because you"re in the way anywhere else; because I--G.o.d help me!--because _I--want--you--to--be--there_!"
A smothered giggle broke from a group of players technically off-stage.
Wilbrow glared icily toward that quarter.
"Yes, I know," Blaine agreed intelligently. "But how do I _get_ there?"
The front legs of Wilbrow"s chair rapped the boards smartly as he jumped up. In silence, he grasped Blaine"s arm and with a slightly exaggerated melodramatic stride propelled him to the indicated spot, released him, and stood back.
"Walk!" he announced with an inimitable gesture of tolerant contempt; and went back to his chair. Not a line of his face had changed. He sat down, nodded to the leading woman.
"All right, Mary," he said; and to another actor: "Now, the cue for _Sylvia_, please!"
Joan shivered a little.
Matthias did not come in until after the girl had finished her part in the afternoon rehearsal. She caught sight of him in the darkened auditorium just as she went off; and hurried from the house in tremulous dread.
But a meeting was inevitable; and that evening, just before the dinner hour, found her reluctantly knuckling the door of the back-parlour. The voice of Matthias bade her enter, and she drew upon all her scant store of courage as she turned the k.n.o.b. To her immense relief he was not alone. Rideout and Moran, the scene painter, were in consultation with Matthias over two small model stages set with painted pasteboard scenery.
Matthias greeted her with a preoccupied smile and nod.
"Oh, good evening, Miss Thursday. More "script, eh? Thank you."
Silently Joan gave him the ma.n.u.script and left the room. But the door had no sooner closed than it was re-opened and again closed. She turned to face this dreaded crisis.
His smile was friendly and pleasant if a trace uncertain. He made as if to offer his hand, and thought better of it.
"Oh, Miss Thursday.... I sent you a note...."
She nodded, timid eyes avoiding his.
"Am I forgiven?"
"I--I--if you"ll forgive me--" she faltered.
"Then that"s all right!" he cried heartily. "I"m glad," he added with unquestionable sincerity--"and sorry I was such a brute. I ought to have understood what a strain you"d been under. Shall we say no more about it?"
She nodded again: "Please...."
"Good!" He offered his hand frankly, subjected hers to a firm, cool pressure, and moved back to his study door. "Good night."
She whispered her response, and ran upstairs to her room, almost beside herself with delight.
It was all right!
Best of all, the advances had come from him; he it was who had sued for pardon where the fault was hers--clear proof that he thought enough of her to wish to retain her friendship!
With a glad and comforted heart she settled down to attack anew the vexatious problem of her role in "The Jade G.o.d."
But for all her worry and good will, the next morning"s rehearsal of her scenes pa.s.sed off in the same terrible silence as had marked Monday"s.
And in the same afternoon the storm broke.
After plodding through her first scene, Joan was about to go off when Wilbrow called her.
"Miss Thursday," he said quietly, "one of three things has got to happen--_now_: either you"ll follow my instructions, or you"ll quit, or I will. I"ve told you what I want so many times that I"m tired repeating myself. Now we"re going to go over that scene again and again, if it takes all afternoon to get what I"m after. _But_, before we start, I will ask you to bear one thing in mind: this isn"t an ingenue part; there"s no excuse for acting it like a petulant school-girl. Even pretty stenographers are business-like in real life--sometimes--and we"re trying to secure some semblance of real life in this production. In other words, I want you to forget Billie Burke and try to act like a human being who"s a little sore on her job and her employer, but not sore enough to chuck it just yet. Now, if you please--begin right at the beginning."
For an instant Joan stood hesitant, on the verge of refusing. There seemed to be no satisfying this man: he either didn"t or wouldn"t understand; she tried desperately to please him--and her sole reward was to be held up to the derision of the entire company! It was intolerable! And of a sudden she hated Wilbrow with every atom of her being. But ... if she were to talk back or refuse to go on, Matthias would be forfeited from her life.
She choked down her chagrin, resisted the temptation to wither Wilbrow with a glare, and sulkily resumed her place in the chair beside another chair that was politely presumed to be her typewriter desk.
At once the fat boy whom she detested crossed the indefinite line dividing the scene from "off-stage," and leering insolently, spoke the opening line of the play. Seething with indignation, the girl looked up and in cutting accents shot her reply at him. She was pleased to surprise a look of dumb amazement in his eyes. At all events, she had succeeded in letting _him_ know just how she felt toward him! And this success inspired her to further efforts. She rattled through the remainder of the scene with the manner of a youthful termagant.
When she had finished, Wilbrow said nothing beyond: "Again, please."
The demand served only to deepen her resentment, and the second repet.i.tion differed not materially from the first.